I've always been a fans of silly, unrealistic romance novel where the male lead went through all odds to win the female lead's heart, and they live happily ever after. Whoever thought, that at age 26 i'm only a self proclaim fresh-working adult who had only bid goodbye to graduation last year?
This year has seen me passing each day barely realizing the night is falling, i have been picking up on my running regime in preparation for more line up of runs happening past mid-year. The most significant run will be that of the Race-Against-Cancer, of which i'll be taking part with the support of the next man i lookup to apart from Dad. i dont see myself as a survivor but i want to preach the feeling of having gone through the torment of living in fear only to face up to it so boldy & confidently, that it no longer matter :)
Perhaps it was the luck i had with me that day, after sharing with the running team at work about my intention for the upcoming race, i have alongside me, the precious support of 4 more colleagues who will jointly race against time on 24th july to compete for the company's team race. It all started with something so small and insignificant, and now i can look forward to the race in july to celebrate "against Cancer" and to share some bonding moments with my colleagues who are so supportive towards my "mission".
Also in the thanksgiving line (everyday is thanksgiving cos i'm cool like that) is the special support from the friendship that had stood by me for the past 13 year. Few days back we celebrated Sharon-besties' 26th birthday and i was caught dumbfolded after counting the years with my finger/toe nails and finding out we've been the best of friends for half our lives. It's never easy trying to make a relationship last since both parties have to make the effort, so i find making a friendship last much much more difficult, as with all other more important things in lives like our life partners, our family and our goal/target/achievement. I wanna do a shoutout to my bestest friend Sharon for being amazing at 26, for being my listening ear and always assuring me it's us two against the world. Thank you for making the world extra special by standing alongside me, for braving my health when i needed support, for putting aside more imprtant things in your life when i needed you more than anything else. Thank you for assuring me times and again that i matter still, when i had crazy thoughts that there were someone else in our special friendship you replied & encourage me not to think that way, and that you know and feel the special bond that i felt towards you too.
Thank you for including me in your future plans, for allowing me to reserve my slot in your business plan, family plans and life goal. I wouldnt be telling you confidently that you are my bestestest friend, if you didnt gave me that courage & permission to do so!
This period of the year really wasnt my best, i blogged about how i hated may, in 2006, 2009, skip a few years in between trying to lie low because i couldnt face them each time it happened. I still hate May, no denial, but i know better than to wish for the bad to come, i only wish for it to be subtle, and if some miracle allows, to have may the most amazing way i could have hope for. So far it had been pretty happy, having divert my attention on things that does not concern myself/
Maybe, just maybe, the month of May is for me to care about the others? If so that i am glad to say i have been doing good :) There are many good news in line for alot of people around me, and to protect their interest i can only send my well wishes in silence :) you have no idea how happy i am for all of you
Sometimes, a small part of me still think about the people who should no longer matter, how is she doing? does she remember the past sweet past we use to share, i still have her to thank for the lodging i so desperately need when i was studying for my university, we love talking over booze at her room just planning our future. Some friendship are so vulnerable calling quit is easy.
All that mish-mash of thoughts are bombarding me right now, and writing them out on this blog will be irrelevant especially if i cannot tell you in sequence how they should be sorted out.
Today i feel like blogging, thank you for reading my aimless blog entry :)