Saturday, December 31, 2011

how i spent my Saturday


saturday spent heading to wheelock to demand a refund cos I've been billed twice... not merry at all!

Saturday, December 17, 2011

if i'm single by 25

Tonight i thought to myself how life would be if i had been single at age 25:-

I'll be motivated to save more than enough just to spend it all by travelling overseas.

I'll be renting an apartment where i could have my sister/best friend/buddies drop by to drink chocolate/alcohol and chatting over pizza and watching chick

I'll be grabbing that awesome mini body hugging dress i love, while popping diet pills for lunch

I'll be shopping on friday, going for thrill drive with a couple of my mates..

i'll be doing healthier stuff such as indoor tennis every weekend after work, after which my pals and i will dip in the pool, drink tiny liquor while chatting by the tanning bed (haha.. i've got picture of myself doing this, tanning while reading a novel in Sentosa beach while Rem blades under the hot sun, and we were drinking red wine)

If my friends happen to be free altogether on weekend,
i'll make us all crashed one's room, chatting while singing to Smurf and rolling on each others' bed.

I'll spend $20 per month getting a Vivi mag, Cleo and Harper's Bazaar Maga to get inspired of the latest trend.

i'll crash my pals' cupboard and squeeze into tiny pieces of outfit they own.

i'll set aside $100 to get my nails done in a different design every month, and try to make it last for a month, looking like a hot stuff who couldnt do house work.

I'll smile to the guys that my pals hinted was interested in me agree to hang out on a few dates with them. If things didnt turn out well between us, i;ll gather them for my usual weekend drinking session and i;ll stand in as their date when they need one

I'll grab that same dress i cant stop thinking about since June 2011. (and i have stop thinking.... )

i'll force feed my foot into some sexy heels and wear them even if my feets are peeling and burning with blisters.

I'll wear sexier clothes, because i dont stand to lose.

I'll STOP sounding like a jokey fool when i am out with my friend's friends or colleagues, and skip all the stuff i deliberately said to make myself unavailable.

I'll spent MORE on eating LESSER

i'll swipe my card and care less about paying up next month. Heck! i work hard all weekday to pamper myself!

i'll visit the salon and pamper my hair, i'll have awesome hair colours that i like. And not those colours i had on so i wouldnt have to "touch up" for the next few months...

I'll smile like a sweet girl and talk like my normal sweet voice.. i'll stop lowering my voice to sound like an angry old woman

I;ll spend more time outdoor.. not so homely like i am now...

I'll help my best guy friend Fireman find a good gf.

I'll accompany my Dad out with my sister and he can show off his two pretty daughters... and he'll be the known lucky father of 2 pretty girls.. haha

i'll head to Bangkok with Gary more often, and i'll stop giving excuses about not being able to start my online blogshop like FINALLY.

i'll sleep in a hotel room ALL BY MYSELF

Friday, December 09, 2011


What really goes on after office hour with a bunch of monkey friends?

Well... we argue alot about what to eat for dinner.. den the one to lose out (apparently ME!) sulk while the rest of them enjoy their delicious (in their words) Laksa.... i hate coconut... yeeeks!!

After which the rest of them comfort me by heading to Song&Song (if you haven't heard about Song&Song by now.. then shame on you big splender!!!!)

Anyway Paperstop and i walk away with some purchase each... happy and satisfied except i still haven had my dinner..

What are friends without some great suggestion right?

While we enjoy what we should be in Holland Village for -Island Creamery.... the two awesome Monkeys enjoy i had my dinner.. simply by buying their shares of Sushi when i bought mine.. .

Well.. if you cant make yourself skinny... make others around you fat!

i picked a scoop of Teh-tarik and apple pie ice cream each! it tasted as good as ever, what more can i say than thumbs up!!!!

Paperstop ordered some Nutella thingy which i din care much for since i was eyeing her omelette sushi!!!

we spent almost an hour in Island Creamery, in between running over to carry a toddler that has fell down and complimented by my two friends that i was full of motherly love.........awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!
Like you DONT already know, Paperstop is well famous for demanding silly things from people, so dont be too surprise when you see her forcing Zhennan to be her standing tripod while she attempts to do her "like-a-boss"

Thank God i am out of that grey area now.. Thanks Zhennan!~
Demanding friend that is honestly brutal to me especially when she thinks whatever i am wearing is slutty..

And here Paperstop is QC-checking the photos the tripod (Zhennan) has taken... deleting those that should NEVER appear on the net... and demanding he take some more!
See what i mean?!
Anyway..... i met them up after work so i was super super exhausted from all the socializing i did the past few days (drinking with the overseas sales rep, dining, and eating buffalo wings... i love JewelBox!!!)

We've decided to chill inside the train station since Holland Village hasnt really got much except for the few we've already covered...

Especially comfy to chill in Holland Village Stn since its newly open and all the seats are clean and new!

Paperstop and i apparently haven't gotten over Floral.. very very sorry!
Anyway since Zhennan makes such a good tripod, we'll have him take charge of taking the picture.. while we do our stunts..

IF you dont think we are funny enough, please drop by Pomo Market on 17/18 dec where we are holding a flea booth selling away most of HER stuff..... i havent got much left after the last round...

and since Paperstop is a REAL big spender that buys thing wihtout using her peanut brain (she wanted a Harrod recycele bag so badly she bought it locally for $120 .... i got mine in UK for a sweet $40 or less)   (She carries Prada, Miu Miu, and mostly buys clothes from Forever 21), you'll be sure to find GREAT stuff selling at a discount (for that matter i am enforcing she lowers her stuff to as low as $2), but only at size S/XS/P since she weight barely 40kg and has a waistline that of my thign..
Please drop by to support Paperstop and me... Minus Zhennan - we sorta demand he drop us a visit and we'll make him buy our clothes.... and give it back to us.. hur hurhur
Paperstop wanted to stand on top of the new metal seats inside Holland stn, to which we all beg her not to do so...

Look at the face of anxiety
Haha... here's my attempt to smile like a sweetheart... and look skinny (thanks to the collar bone that recently develope much protruded than before )
Here's why both PaperStop and me are crazy... See how NORMAL Zhennan looks in both picture.. and how stupid we can be at the background?
I promise i'll do them a OFTD... So here goes..
  1. Forever 21 - Floral Boob Tube.. too loose for the young lady
  2. Topshop basic tank in navy - simply purchase the same at Song&Song for $3
  3. Cotton On demin shorts - again, find it at Song&Song for $7
  4. Ted Baker watch
  5. Cotton On recycle bag
  6. Toms Lookalike shoe
  1. American Eagle Chiffon top
  2. Bugis street knitted vest - i bought mine in Malacca
  3. LoveBonito bandage skirt
  4. Mimosa pumps
  5. Talisman bucket bag - good steal at $15
  6. Forever21 pearl bracelet - thanks bbbbbbbbbbb
  7. Company's laptop
  8. FCUK watch - my all time favorite
OFTD - guys are so easy to do a breakdown lah
  1. Arsenal Jersey
  2. Zara black jeans
  3. Addidas shoes
  4. Taiwan watch
  5. Crumpler Bag
Summing up our meeting yesterday with a no teeth smile!
and here's us bidding Goodbye.. !

Thursday, December 01, 2011


In a fouled mood today due to work.... its my fault and i feel bad, so much so that i am angry with myself right now.

its lunch time and i am eating in - as usual. By now everyone has grown to seeing me lunching on lunchboxes that i brought from home, its a good thing because i am eating healthily and that i have saved so much money simply by not lunching out, but its a bad thing cos i fail to meet up and chit chat with the colleagues over lunch, i feel like i am outcasting myself in some ways...

so anyway today feels really dull, the office feels cold and quiet, i'm concentrating 100% on finishing my work, making sure i've read all related emails on the orders i am going to placed for shipment. i kept telling myself that mistakes are unavoidable (and that i am relatively new in this industry).... but since i'm such a perfectionist sometimes, i couldnt knock this sense onto myself.

Yesterday was payday and till now i' haven't got around working out the $$ to transfer to the relevant account (FYI, i have a saving a/c, return-the-loan a/c, and spending a/c). the spending a/c is further broken down into $100 (online shopping ), credit card payment a/c and $90 top-up farecard.. etc etc.. i'm a mental freak IKR, cant help it since i'll very much like to maintain that sort of frugal lifestyle i had all these years while working-studying.

Anyway, rantings aside, i;ve got good stuff to share..

Those who had heart-to-heart talks with me probably knows about my connections with baby (spiritually) - no i havent been pregnant, nv was, didnt even get close to it whatsoever, but babies are like my weakness, infact my greatest weakness..

So here's what i found off the net last night, they make me smile... and jsut by looking at them now, i felt a tinge of comfort... =)

the ONLY thing that can melt your hearts immediately ..............

Look Ma! Santa-swimming-- baby?!!?!?!?

Will swim for hugs <3

yes i'm holding my breathe correctly..
can i come up now?

 and here's the one that REALLY make me melt (awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...............)

Monday, November 28, 2011

a thing call love

Last week was supposedly awesome, for some magically wonderful reason bbbbb and i fell in love all over again (IKR, the umpteeth times i said this.. but the feeling is so refreshingly new each time i had to add in "all over again"... like he's my new bf or something..awesome feeling... )

Its like we both woke up from a gloomy months back and just wanna redo everything we did when we first dated. We arrange to check out mall, get stuffs, go shopping tgr, the sort of things you do with your best friend and just staring at him whenever we werent seriously shopping was enough for my heart to skip twice as fast... i feel like a small girl, adoring someone unreachable from afar... and sometimes smiling to

Sunday didnt went as well as Saturday would, i fell aslp late into the night after catching the soccer match between Man-U VS Newscastle.... i struggled a little to stay awake, but he cover me in my blanket and stroke my hair, hush his buddy to lower their volume, cheer in whisper (hurhurhur...) when Man-U strike a goal..... and eventually i couldnt recall much except for waking up in the morning to see him still sleeping soundly like a baby, and slowly waking him up cos we were two happy kids that need our dosage of DOREMON every sunday 9.30-10am..... =P

We spent the afternoon checking our neighbourhood mall before i notice my Ez-link missing... it had been with me for a while and we had stick on a  picture of MR MEAN sticker tgr before he left for UK... so Mr Mean was gone, i was mad at the card holder for coming loose..... afterall i had used it for 3 years without a complain and the poor Daiso $2 card holder had given way... i lost the card value of $40, but more importantly, i miss Mr Mean. bbbbbbbb was mad at me for having lost the card, we had a tiny arguement over who was actually at fault (i think it was the card holder but he beg to differ)...... we finally snap out of it and spent some good time tgr....

Night fell and for some reason i had to meet a friend of mine urgently. Upon learning what had happen to her, i was too upset for words, i was angry at first, then i feel useless for not being able to offer my help, i sob like a baby, then we both wiped our tears and cheered each other up.... She is a very nice girl that does not deserve what has happen to her, and that makes me very very angry. i promise not to tell anyone what has happened but i feel so affected.    After we parted ways bbbbbbb send me off in a cab for home because he knew i need some time alone...... the journey back from Hougang till Chinese Garden wasnt too short.... i cried non-stop and felt soooo much emotions about being woman in general. i felt unjustified, i felt like we were the weak party when it comes to a relationship....

Thank God bbbbb stayed vigilance on the phone, he comfort me even thou he wasnt sure why i was so affected, he knew who i was angry at but he didnt ask why. He told me he will whallop anyone that makes me, or the people i care about, angry. He offer to keep me company if i needed one. Eventually i felt better..... but i was still really really affected.

Lying on the bed before bedtime last night, i wonder how many other girlfriends of mine are super fortunate yet they couldnt see it. I access a couple of other friends who had their share of broken relationship, i begin to think how alot of them shouldnt even be crying over a guy who wasnt worth it. i also thought about how i use to cry for months over Lester.... i felt stupid that i use to allow myself to be affect by this people that shouldnt matter.

If you truly love someone, will you bear to see them get hurt? i wouldnt, i would rather hurt myself than inflict this sort of pain on them. bbbbbbb once promise me, years ago, that my life will change forever as soon as he enters, over the years i've seen a lot of change in my life, but the one most thankful change he had brought into my life was to pick me, over the other thousand, million other girls outside. I felt like i am standing here today, helping other people and talking them into standing up after they have fallen, because the man who stood by me, proves that it is possible to be treated correctly, to be cherish like a precious gem by someone else.

i feel so emotionally strained from last night, this morning my eyes swell to the maximum (whats new seriously? i know the exact remedies to lessen the swelling by now )... i worn double thick eyeliner to work.. and here i am blogging over lunch time, reflecting on what has happen last night, and making sure this was mark down, so i can trace back on my lives, my friends lives, and see how all of us grow up gradually as time brings us through different phases.... undergoing several major "makeover" till we find our true identity...

i still believe in a thing call Love...... do you?


Saturday, November 19, 2011

i love you bbbbbbbbbb

Something unexpected happens today... ok.. maybe yesterday// bleahz

ok... so i was all hyped and confident that not staying over bbbbbbbbbbb on friday will be an awesome idea since we need some space apart... but i failed that mission cos he was being so sweet to accompany me for dinner at chinese garden and spent some time with me watching TV at my place... and den we went off - together- back to his.. hahah...
But i din COMPLETELY failed my plan.... we spent sat as plan... like a fresh young couple dating in town, holding hands, accompany each other (HIM - uniqlo, Goal! stadium, Burberry and Braun Buffel, HER-forever21, Prada, Daiso, far east plaza)... catching a movie (we watched The Three Musketeers)... and talk about just anything!
Then just seconds ago i saw a book lying on his study room and there was a strange aura that lure me into pulling it off the shelf (sorry Charmine! i should have asked you permission).... and den i saw this--------------->  

It felt strange for me to be actually checking out know-all books since i am usually a HUGE fan of fictional novels but could never complete 20% of "who moved my cheese)

I didnt start from the first page, i flip immediately to my horoscope and was amused by the findings.... 

(Kristal's)Aquarius + Scorpio(Rodman's)
 like the book suggested, we are two very unique individual with powerful characteristic, alot of the relationship depends on how to compromise to make the relationship works?

i'll represent my star sign using myself and his using himself. The book distinctively differentiate our characteristics with me being honest & straightforward while he is deeply secretive and emotional. My star sign is not usually connected to emotions - thou i am someone who tends to express my emotion in the most obvious way i.e. happy = laugh, sad=sob, and this is one of the major reason that had drawn me to him.... 

One of his strong feature (in my opinion, i had agreed with the book almost 100%) is determination, and this can apply to the area he will like to have things done in his own way, the likelihood of him giving up on anything halfway is impossible. 

With similar traits found in myself, very often the point of quarrel tend to be during activities that were being carried out together. When the both of us work on a project together, we would be likely to compete against each other and complete it, this is also how we support each other in the MOST practical way.

I can vividly remember helping him clear his room just a week ago.... bbbbb gets emotional when he had to throw stuff he is attached to away, and this "stuff" includes empty shoe boxes, postcards, air tickets, hotel room access cards and bags. There are items, in my opinion - impractical, useless and space-occupier.... we couldnt agree on which one was to be kept and which to be thrown.... he experience maximum shock when i dumps his harddisk drive, floppy disk reader and CPU fan away but i couldnt understand how these "treasures" will benefit any of us in the current era... despite them being fantastic brands like logitech.... In the end we agreed that i will clean up and arrange the new space he has cleared while he work on clearing other spaces, throwing away his "treasure".. THAT IS THE PRACTICAL WAY OF US COMPROMISING TO EACH OTHER!
The book suggest that even if things shall not blossom between us, we will learn to place a high level of respect towards each other after we part. i couldnt agree more! bbbbbbbbbb has taught me alot of things in life that i could never set interest on... and instead of letting me be, he will held on to the same stuff, reminding me about them every single chance he found a connection to. It usually take me no more than 3 reminders to shoot him with a "i've heard this twice before, from you!

After which he will smile and continue talking about it and that is the point it drill.... right into my mind... and stays.... 

While bbbbbbbb and i are great communicators, we express our message different. What brought me to a enlighenment was that the book had identify his star sign to be a non-verbal commicator - which was one of his characteristics that almost had me leaving him many times... 

After having read this book, i admit i was in the wrong to expect him to express himself clearly like i had done to him.... i should have understand him beneath the sound he make, learn his body gesture and study his eye when he talks. Scorpio are EXPERTS at non-verbal communicator. His communication of ideas goes beyond expression via feelings, it extends to his desire to intimacy. 

In short, the relationship shall be complex and challenging, this combination is the classic case of the immovable object VS irresistible force.... in epic terms... think of  Muhammad moves the mountain.
One important thing that all scorpio dating Aquarius should take note!!!~

Page 180 of the book is CRUCIAL -->  Aquarius born 21-31 January are quite restless individual (this part of the book.. is so scarily true... )  THEY ARE LIKELY TO CHANGE THEIR OPINION AS OFTEN AS THE WIND CHANGES, also,  they can be rather explosive. This means it will be hard for the both of you to see eye to eye.. .

Crazily accurate readings.. and i cannot wait to read this out loud to bbbbbbbbb... i know i have a rare temperature... and i now know this will affect our relationship... but nevertheless, i;ve learn just how i can go about making our relationship works! i wanna appreciate bbbbbbbbbbbbbb's expression of ideas in a non-verbal way...

if i may express it one more time.... in the most Aquarius-way ever - i love you bbbbbbbbbbb!!!! As direct as that!!!


Wednesday, November 16, 2011

tonight's gonna be a different night in comparison to the usual head-home-after-work-night for a couple of my cousins and Pau are gonna meetup to celebrate BabycuzRaymond's birthday.

sobx*** he was only 21.... haha/ but that was already 2 years back.

And back then, everyone else looks equally silly//

.... thank God we've moved on.... tsk tsk tsk///

some of us actually looks younger now than then

Gonna post a bit more pictures taken 2 years ago before updating the latest batch we are gonna take tonight..

Whats even better was this year..... bbbbbb's coming along with me!

you cannot always tell my excitement especially since he isnt the sort of person that would want to accompany me to just anywhere. He usually plays the role of a perfect bf that fetches me when i am done with my entertainment=)

So bbbb and i had met with some issues in our relationship that kept us quarrelling for a while, but we've since decided to take our relationship a step back, and instead of the usual stayover over the weekend, this week i am staying put at my own place and meeting him for a proper date in town this saturday, after which he would fetch me home before leaving for his, just like how relationship started so sweet and all.. i am very excited about dressing up to impress... and it dawn upon me how much we took it for granted to dress up for outing since we had spend the night before together and it was just the usual "spend time out in the afternoon".

BAck then, it was so much different..

the first 6 month into our relationship, i was pulling my hair by the side into a ponytail and volumize it up with some hair products.

i also brought my shades out, to match my bag and i bother to put on a bangle.. ( which was a rare deal cos i always pack light)

infact i can hardly remember when was the last time i specially bought a dress to wear on a special occasion with him....

sometimes i felt like i dress like a pregnant lady

Bottom line is that i hope all this will change if we work on seeing the good side/past of each other and put a little more effort to impress each other..  =)

i know how random my blog can get at times.. so this time is no difference... i am signing off.. abruptly.. bye