Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Hong kong coming

it dawn upon me how i was nearing my trip to Hong Kong, and the excitements kicks in a little.

The hardworking boyfriend has long planned a series of activity we are going to doing during the short stay.. sigh.. i always wanted every holiday to last longer... what is everyone planning trips that are 5 days or lesser, why cant we afford a longer oversea stay and exploring new places that are not recommend via Googling?

Anyhow.. here are some to-do list:-

Drop by H&M at Central Hong Kong or Tsim Sha Tsui!
i reckon i wouldnt be packing alot of clothing over, i had bbbb's consent to pack as minumun as possible and simply grab clothes along the way.

Since the weather (as advise by my Hong Kong friend Grace) is Humid & rainy, there are bound to be chance where we cannot stick to our plan, and then MAYBE i can camp in H&M and purchase enough clothing to last me my entire stay.  It's gnna be pricetag friendly too so i am not too worried about the cost =)

Take pictures
This trip would be another one i clock with bbbbbbbbbbb..... the best i've been to was the entire month i've stayed in Europe, exploring his way of living as a foreign student.

Thou we often spoke about revisiting that magical place, we are both tied down by work commitment as we aim to work up the corporate ladder at the shortest time possible.

Thus, the Hong Kong trip should be one i am thankful for, and the sweetest boy purchased a package to make another one of our rodkris Album for the year 2012, so i wanna remind myself times and times again to capture his smile and have them publish onto the book, one that i will look back and remember how he has pamper me and treated me nicely =)

A simple yet cherish-able purchase from Prada outlet
 i am crossing my finger to get something i will love all the same. Till today i still cant stop taking a second look each time i took out the wallet bbbbbb got me for my birthday..

The classic design is to-die-for, and i am one of its lucky owner =)

A Saffiano leather pouch would be ideal, bbbb  nags at me all day long for not dumping my belong with him each time we set off for a short outing over the weekend. I often give him the same excuse of not wanting to carry the handbag i brought over and that my wallet & iphone were too bulky to carry on my hand... haha..

i am loving how the shade of green compliment the Gold so well that the green is suddenly "recognise" as the upper class trend.. its a little hard to apprehend what i am saying but when i was little i always thought purple & green were the least favored color by others and were thus the "lower class". I guess i can no longer assume this :)

Another pretty piece that looks really suitable to be placed together with my exising wallet, i am crossing my finger that this flat pouch cost less than S$400 so wouldnt hesitate to get them ...
My soft spots are for big&bulky bag,. something bbbb can never share. i get extremely excited if the bag i receive has lotsa compartment to explore. This Saffiano Leather tote are like all the others bag i would have had at home, but the color give me a very classic vibe that i believe would not go out of trend easily.

However, i am pretty sure the price is going to be crazy and since i aim to get a small but cherish-able good, this is out of my league =(

Nevertheless, its the company that is important, i cant wait to share some moment with bbbb that does not include talks about our day at work, or the local food we have grown to sick of.

They say anticipation leads to disappointment, so i shant wish for the moon only to land on the clouds.

i am going to Hong Kong with a lightheart mind, a trip i so need to take picture of me and bbb.. like a romantic trip - no?

haha.. no.. not really...  bbbb's Mum, sis, and babysis are joining us on the trip.... dont think so much le.... bye =)

Monday, June 25, 2012

Sharon & Kive Wedding

Sharon, the one girl i've been so showing much concern for the past 12 years, is officially married to the same guy i introduced, 8 years ago =)

this is the one wedding ive been thinking, fussing over for the past months of planning, and thank God the wedding is finally over. There are lotsa of hiccups during the wedding but given the combine efforts of the Best mens and Brides Maid, it went pretty well overall.

I spent close to $700 for her wedding, starting from the preparation period, my best friend will no doubt spend a few hundred times more at the end of this all. Her husband has proven to be the most patience and forgiving man during this period and i am very pleased Besties has made a decision even i cannot be convince otherwise.

The wedding also brought back the very solid and close bonded friendship Sharon & i shared, as we go through every single little details of her wedding, up till the completion. I was also introduce to a whole new, fun side of her close friends whom i was used to be separated from. I learnt how lucky my best friend is to be constantly surround within the favor of these fun filled people. They were the ones to stay behind, cleared every mess and contribute to every part of this successful wedding.

The best men Kive has "hired" were a full-force gangho guys that could down every single "sabotage" that was planned in lined for them. I like how they had planned strategically their every next move in order to pleased the Bridesmaid into opening the door. Every single Best man had a forte for one thing during the gate crashing, the certificate i had painstakingly made for my Besties was also determiningly signed by her Hubby, i believed since this was done in witness of all the Bridesmaids & Bestmen in unanimous, Kive had abide the loyalty & faithfulness he had pledged to Sharon, and they shall live up to their vows for as long as both shall live.

If there was another person i can vividly remember from this event, that would have to be Besties Dad, the one man i had never dared spoke to ever since i was 13. He was a fierce Uncle i know only to greet each time i pop by Sharon's place.  During the chaotic gate crashing, Uncle and reminded us Brides maids that the true essence of the gate crashing is not to "bully" but to pamper the guys... Despite our protests that they will still need some "sabotage" here and there, we eventually gave in and treated the guys to a sumptous treats of cheese, ham, bread goodness..... Tell me which future Father-in-law pampers his new son like Uncle does? Kive is one hell of a lucky man, Uncle loves his daughter and treats the man she picked like a true son..... this is one romantic fairy tale =)

Also contributing wholeheartedly to this event is Besties closet cuzzie - LiJan. i could feel, with every bit of my heart, that she was as sincere as i was to making this wedding works. Prior to the big day, Li Jan left her job and commited 100% into Sharon & Kive's big day, she was also the who had to do the driving (since i couldnt) and we were part of the cars that had zoom around half of singapore at least thrice to complete the agenda yesterday. Kudos to LiJan for planning every single bit of the wedding and to assure my panicky heart each time i ask her in exclaimation if something had been done....    she is like my psych, someone who reassure me all is doing fine.

I was given the task to host the event and like i would have guessed, i forget about stage fright thanks to the sleepless night, my co-host had down a couple of alcohol to garner enough courage to join me on stage. I must say we did pretty well, even thou i had almost crashed Kive's effort halfway when i didnt knew the Montage wasnt reaching it end and cue for the couple to do their first march in.    Thank God for the other Best men and the in-charge of the banquet, we mange to squeeze that in and all was well towards the end.

My boyfriend was the most committed, being all worked up that i hadnt sleep the night before and had quickly secured a car to fetch me home first thing when the wedding came to an end. By then i had already begin floating quest, rmembering nothing much apart from showering and then fell flat on the bed with the towel on my dripping wet hair. Dad&Mum must have attended to me during the night for i woke up nicely tucked in bed, hair all dried and the towel hung nicely in the bathroom..

To sum it off, the wedding was a success, and i am dead dead beat..... i wouldnt want to plan another wedding unless like this one with Sharon, i am convinced that i want it to be a huge huge success..


Monday, June 18, 2012

A different take

There has bound to be a reason for all of these. i know i am feeling frustrated and venting all my energy onto something that is very likely explanable if i could look beyond the surface.

Here's a summation:-
1. i have been working really hard on developing a positive thinking, this could attact the good luck to surround me a little more.. my concern is the upcoming check up on July 3rd.
2. the positivity hav been failing, even thou i tried my very best to give thanks for all the good that has came up. e,g simple matter like wishing the bus would come faster = bus came extra late..
3. the HR came back with a rejection for my insurance claim citing the reason of "pre-exisiting" condition for which i cannot be covered under the employee's benefits.
4. suggestion to seek the doc's favor was in turn led to the worst experience ever, i have never ban a person this much in my entire life, but now i have a reason to do so.

Perhaps there was something out there that was mishandle so badly that i deserve all of these. i wanna be an optimistic too you know...  i tried

I hated Alex Ong for his selfishness and to conveniently shifted all of his wrongdoing to the society that he claimed had treated him this badly. I agreed readily that whatever has happen for a persoon to resort to misdoing was not because of how his surrounding had treated him, but how he had handle the situation after being mistreated.

i know for sure, i cannot shift the blame to others for whatever has happened, i need to get to the bottom of this matter so i can plan my next step intelligently. i want to know this would not have to happen twice. I should never have to come under manipulation of others - human or health.


It's gonna be different now Kristal. Surely i could continue working on my positivity and attracting all the positive vibe to come near and helped me achieve what i set my goals on. The Alchemist says "read the omen".  Your heart says alot of things that you had failed to read.

This morning i woke up feeling all frustrated and upset again, re-enacting the moment i had to succumb to the Doc's insults and arrogance for a favor to clarify TRUTH about my health. What he had gave me in return was REJECTION- citing stupid excuses about how i had fail to heed his advise and head to Mount Alvenia for my treatment. If i could pay for all of the treatment i was to expect  (that will inturn lead to his fat fat salary). Then i wouldnt have to beg for his help for a couple of thousands.

If i could only just LIED to get a free treatment to my body, cover up the fact that i use to weight as heavy as 59kg and that my stomach was huge i couldn't really make out if i was really fat or ill, then i wouldnt have to deal with all this shit in the first place..

if i hadnt got a huge tummy, then no one would have raised the alarm, then maybe i could lived a life i thought i should have led... short and sweet, eventually dying in my sleep then forensic's report shows all this time i have cancer that even myself had failed to realize.. by then i would have been in peace, knowing this life was fantastic afterall, i have live in the dark about my true condition.

Which leads me back to one thing - why on earth had not i consider giving up on the left ovary?

 you tell me? If a girl had discover your boyfriend is cheating on you, despite having gone through this process once, dealing with the other woman, compensating your broken heart with some consolation from all those who matter, then taking back the boyfriend only to fear he might be lead astray again 0 WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

i will tell the girl to dump that asshole, he wasnt worthy of your suspicious and worries. i would tell that girl she deserves better, that there is another person out there willing to remain faithful to you, and here you are dwelling on the same asshole.

My left ovary is a cheating bf, who has left me worrying all day long about its next cheating, it wouldnt commit to serving my body. Maybe it had by now, but it has failed me once, and left me anticipating his next cheating.. if i was really that impartial & rational best friend that i would tell myself to dump this cheating boyfriend.. it wasnt worthy of my concern.

On the other hand, the right ovary has remain faithful this life, serving me well and bearing healthy egg that could very well developed into a healthy baby. Why had i let it suffered in silence?if i could all but place my bet only on the rigth ovary to determine if i was to have a baby.. then i should leave my body to it. Afterall, what is 25 years of staying inside me for me to suspect its loyalty?

then again, it is not up to me to decides if i can have it removed, i am still going to leave all this decision to the docs (mostly good, but a few black sheeps seriously tarnishes their reputation) who comes up to me this coming july 3rd with a report after my health screening to confirm if the Left ovary has learnt its lesson (i am giving it a second change ... right? its final chance actually).... I am THIS ready to give it up... i deserve a body with all the healthy organs working together to serve me.

i am asking for your acceptance, to hear me out on my explanation and frustration at how my life use to be manipulated by FATE..

but this FATE isnt in my favor thus far, so i make a NEW decision, i am going to TAKE OVER. Fate can choose which ever shit it is going to bring me soon, but i am going to counter attacked this fate and work it in MY FAVOR... cos i am FRUSTRATED with how long this is dragging, and had FATE been a living human being i would have long-ago given up on trying to help, but FATE is not a friend, FATE is a game being played, so i am going to be the controller.

Do you see my different take?


Tuesday, June 12, 2012


One astonishing place credit>
railway along part of its journey between Kavala and Xanthi in Northern Greece.
Falakro - Greece
Sunset in Amolofy
Elatia Forest - Greece
Meadow - Falakro - Greece

i wanna dream of the time someone asked me in hand, a private affair just the two of us, no big, rehearsed moment, just a moment that will take me by surprise.

And then, we'll spent the rest of the day just exploring new location, encapsulated by the beauty we see around us. Then for the first time in my life i can see in his eyes, the faith he sees in me and know for sure, he saw the same in mine.

i wanna dream


Thursday, June 07, 2012

New twist in life

I must have been surrounded by a lot of positivity (which wasnt really the case since i can recall some bad happenings just couple of days back) but everything that is surrounding me now has been amazingly.... beautiful.... if i were the same person i was back a month ago i wouldnt have been this happy... but i am the same person.. something took a new twist in my system... and since it is a good thing i've decided to let it stay put.

If there are some feeling of emptiness in my life lately, then the only reason to account for it were the fact that a few close friends are losing their directions in life and that i havent had a place to call my own. All that seems to be pretty settled now.. and i am here to share the good news =)

To begin, i was very concern some of my closer friends are losing their focus and aims. This worries me alot because my friends are a huge source of influence for me. With them losing themselves i lost hope too...

Pauline has been a very dear friend of mine and hold a very special place in my heart.. Lately due to some very unfortunate issues she went into "hibernation" and for the longest time no one heard of her. during this period i was very worried for her but did not dare probe into the matter for fear that i might sink in too deep and feel upset myself. The only best solution was to leave her alone till she comes back, and the patience did pay off cos i've finally heard from her... it appears to me that all is well and i might have my dear friend back very soon =)

Sharon is my best friend since 13, she's been pretty tied up by her wedding plans and the stress level has reach its max. I tried all i could to help her out and we are counting down days to the big day. i cannot wait till she cry tears of happiness, then i would silently pat my own shoulder and say to myself "well done, you can take a break now"

Phyllis is someone very hype and the person i will sought to enquire about my future plans. She is very positive and has endless good opportunity in life. Her relationship took a downturn lately and i was worried she might become another result of a bad break up. Thankfully, she has place her usual hype to good use and seize the opportunity to learn to love herself and the people around her. I see her transformation as a role model for me to follow. Phyl is certainly someone who pulls the positivity near her. I want to be this happy too =)

Paperstop is, in my opinion,  an individualist who knows exactly what she wants. The only problem with this young lady is her consciousness that is blocking out many obvious cue for her to move forward to achieve what she has seek out for. i am usually not worried for Paperstop, she has her way of talking me out of the dark clouds, the same i would do for her when she needed someone to hear her out. Paperstop compliment my flaws, having her as a close friend is something i will work doubly hard to keep dear.

My circle of friends are very unique, they discover many sides of me that i would never figure out myself. i want to continue to worry for their wellness, just as much as i know they are doing the same for me. They must be extremely positive lately, just staying by their side makes me lucky too =)

Thru months of eating lunch box for lunch, i've manage to save enough to contribute to the family. After moving out from our own house since 2008 august, My parents and i have the luxury of living together with our dear cousins whom we are very close with. Even so, a part of us wanted a place we could we call our own. And thankfully, with the combine effort of us all, we are finally making this dreams come alive.

Yesterday, after months of immediate planning and saving, my siblings and i have came up to enough money to afford the downpayment of a decent 5 room flat. It wasnt easy, but we did it!    i am proud of my family... Dad&sis has been house hunting for a while, i didnt play a part in the process because i felt my desperation to get a house soon was greater than that of theirs so naturally i wasnt the best player to plan my moves smartly when it comes to the hunting process.

Dad&sis fell in love with a 5 room flat located up in Amiralty Link. I had never visualize myself staying around that area but i knew the place a good choice given that it was relatively new in the 1990s and during that time my parents were pretty keen on that area. Dad suggested bbbbb comes along the house viewing and i invited my dearest cousin Ray&his mum over as well.. Together, all 8 of us did a tour around the house, looking at the possibility of staying there permanently and surprisely, we all Like it!

Needless to say, we paid the downpayment and agreed to continue saving (since the amount adds up to above our current budget). We will finally have a house in Amiralty this september 2012 =)

bbbbb was extremely happy for me, i guess he knew how badly i wanted this to happen. The Secret says if you wish for something to happen so badly then it would happen. The day had come, and now is all about saving and saving and waiting for the right moment we can move in as a Family. bbbb is part of us, i could tell because Dad needed his opinion..  i think bbbb is secretly happy himself, he knew the huge stone on my chest will be unloaded pretty soon. I finally have the space and time to think of my next move in life. Thank you for making everything happen. This is a thank you for anyone, anything that make this possible. Thank you for the second chance. i'll hold it dear.

And if you are wondering whether the entire shift could means jeopardizing bbbb and my future plan then dont worry it really wouldnt be a problem. The sort of future we foresee together is slightly different than the ones we are seeing around us. One thing i know for sure, unlike the rest of my friends, i am paying for a family house at the age of 25 =)    and unlike them all, i really wanted a wedding too simple it'll make the the Bridezilla feel ashame. Therefore, knowing how things will eventually comes into place (take the house this time for example), all it takes it the right moment for the right thing to happen. If my positive vibes continue to stay around me, who knows what might happen?

or perhaps bbb might surprise me with something out of the ordinary, but we shall leave that to my imagination, shall we?

Have a pleasant week ahead