Friday, April 09, 2004

it right that they say things that happen in our life is not what we always wanted. i dun crave for anything, just wanna get done with what i have now. Read up JeRk diary, he did not update it further le....... hopefully it is for some good reason loh.. life has been good, school life is still the same. Bobo and i finally meet up on Sunday, at his house. Its been a long long time since we meet and i remember the last time being we went to buy his shirt. Chee Guan is very different, he does not behave as if seeing me or not is unusual. That day turn out dull and i went home by myself. Dear ask me why i still stayed on with him? I dun understand myself, perhaps a close company is essential to me especially since Dear has found her good Boyfriend Caifu le. Then that day i hang out for a suppose-to-be concert with Zhi Liang (Chase) but turns out the concert ticket he did not manage to get, so we ended up catching a midnight movie and having dinner together. Then i realise his main aim of the outing was to help Ismail. Turns out that Ismail had not forgotten about me, thinking about it, really miss those sweet pure days when we hang out togther. He send me to school and send me home after school, we share tha same locker and smae textbook. Then he will write nonsence in the book for me to read. The first time he hold my hand...... the first time we went for the BBQ, the first concert we watchh together, the first outing we had together to orchard. All this thing are first and last time, i only agree to go out with him once thru out our entire school life. He is definitely a goody guy so i bet he will find a better girl. I rejected his patch-up request again....................... why did i do that? i guess i;m not a good girlfriend for him....... i just want our 4 yrs relationship to end...... call me selfish........... i;m just me................... i dun deserve any good guy..
nah........ i'm stil a happy kristal............