Friday, August 24, 2007

sometimes whether u like it or not life has to move on..
i am burnig inside with the desire to just strip completely, and along with those heavy moments,
throw off my clothes and all that shouldn't have matter

i hate my man, yet he was the sweetest,.. yesterday final rehearsal had been madness, models refusing to wear their shoes, models demanding to change their outfit, models forcing me to attached funny extra stuff on their shoes.. for a minute i was shattered. Glad the event team leader Jess took it all pretty well. A word from her sometimes means a million to me

i am like a manger-employee, slave-queen, supervisor-servant kind of person. sometimes i felt i really had to be treated badly, other times i wish they would have spare me that extra comment. i feel neglected when everyone is showing me the attention!

its like, in a few days time, the face behind those thing u wear on ur foot will be reveal, the anxiety and anticipation holds my breath. i needed to breathe.. i need that extra arm to push me to move.

my besties were supportive, though some actions sometimes make me feel the agony. When something is gone once, it will never come back again.

look at the mess!!! ur shoes are my babies now!!!

to relax a bit. denise plans a break the fifties- cam whoring session, so we tried our best, give all we could and took pic after pic to lighten the mood we were all in.

i really couldn't describe the feelings i am holding inside me now.. one day i will strip it all..

Sunday, August 19, 2007

it irritates me how my life is moving on.. Fats and more fats, laziness and putting weight.. i work and then sleep..

even my bf decides to divert his attention on work..
i cant say i blame anything, i hate this, but this is the peak of my life, for the Fashion Show will be launching soon.. after which i can take a long break.

i want my life back. I hated being piled with life-threatening deals that doesn't really matters. i wan my best friends to bug me with outings, my usual poly-kakis to keep asking me out and my bf to irritates me.. and cousins to pester me

carefree life is too free.. argh!!!!

if i am famous one day will people still acknowlege me?
i will pull my besties to claim the glory..

i need that attention now people!!!!