I use to only see such scenes on TV, cried my heart out, dry the tear and moved on with life.
Just how many of us feel the aftermath till you really experience it yourself? In the past 2 days i've see an update on facebook about an ex-classmates deteriorating health. And the news hit me even harder because i can feel his pain, having been admitted to the same hospital just a month ago and probably undergoing more or less the same treatment that he had been thru.
His red blood count had hit a single-digit low... and that was the exact experience i had since my lowest was a 7. His, was a rare blood condition that not many had been thru. With this being said, after knowing how the body cocks up when my blood count hits 7, and trying to imagine me feeling that way for weeks after weeks straight, my brain ACTUALLY shuts off the image automatically.. perhaps it was the pain, or the fear. I sincerely hope the ex-classmate survives this ordeal (despite the bad bad arguement i had with his pals in year 2004 when i had allowed my temper to overwhelm me and trash his reputation in a way no one could ever forgive me for.. and i dont blame them.. )
I texted his buddies, asked about his condition, and wanted to share my story with him... on his facebook were negatives thoughts about dying on the hospital bed and would rather dies at home. His buddies explain he may lose his life anytime, and how i was i to know just what sort of pain he is undergoing? why wouldn't I? i am a stage 1a cancer warrior who hadnt let such a news ruin my undertakings in life..... Why wouldn't I?
His latest update included the doctor allowing him to leave for home at his own risk. Trust me when i was lying at the same hospital bed for days without seeing nights/days, this was the only good news you had in mind. I could almost feel his happiness albeit the worries that he might being putting his life at risk. But, given the choice myself, i would choose to get discharge, live my life like i am doing now, meeting up with friends and family and keeping my everyday positive. I dunno how much of your belief is in alliance with happiness=good luck. Mine is 90%, and here i am trying to keep a happy, positive mind because i sincerely believe one day, God saw my effort, grant me a special gift of hope, maybe even a baby =)
... enough about thoughts.. i am filling up my blog with happy pictures.. Here's how i spend last weekend -Boy! was it busy!
It was Dinner at Putien in NEX Serangoon to celebrate bbbb's elder bro birthday... We had a feast (not very filling thou) and to end the dinner his gf Wendy present a cake she baked herself!
What's a birthday without some embarressment? While the rest of bbbb's family sung the birthday song, i took charge of taking some pictures and all of them decided to rope me into the embarressment by PRETENDING they were singing the birthday song to ME! hahaha//
The next day, bbbbb had soccer in the morning thus i slept in till it was noon. Then, he came back with lunch for all of us (no seafood for me -as usual-) and we prepared to hit Bugis with his mum/sis for some shopping.
We rounded Bugis the entire afternoon - impressed by the renewed bugis street and the attractive clothes they now carried (somewhat similar to whatever you can find online//// )
i took the chance to get on a shopping spree (heehee) and the perfect bbbb - who was eager to share my excitement to the new range of sizes i can now wear - volunteeringly paid for them all! I must share with you my joy of being able to fit into a Size S skirt and thinking to myself
"Hey, this is the REAL body you owned, the real diet you eat, the real Fats your stomach contain, this, is, Kristal"
we met up with bbbbbbbbbbbbb's buddies to celebrate Qin's birthday.. this year she opted for a bouquet of flowers and a red packet.. bbbb suggested 大食家 to Upper Changi we go
The other birthday boy Zhang just flew back from Taiwan so to "kill two bird with one stone" we celebrated them both together. Dinner was seafood feast ( T_T sobbing rice with sauces and vege for me)
Sha brought alone her younger brother - the one everyone mistook for her son-... their age gap is shockingly huge but they hang along better than i could ever did with my own siblings..
after Dinner we head to play games like bbbb's buddies will do - without fail- on every meetups... They especially love booking the gaming room at Scape*cineleisure and just chilling, playing along cardboard games, Wii and Xbox
Another round of embarressment.. this time they extended the songs into VERSIONS.. hahah.. the candle were melting away but the songs never seems to finish.. here's are the poor birthday people
Finally blew the candle by the time they started the "Korea" version of Happy Birthday.. hahaha..
Cheers to their ways to blessing them!
The birthday peeps, obviously scared to eat the cakes since Sha only bought 2 tiny ones and all of us were spared the cake... It tasted pretty nice according to Qing... Happy birthday babe!
With that fun filled night.. we ended the day earlier for bbbbbbbbbb and i were to join his family to JB the next day.... it was MY suggestion to checkout---->
We got the early morning at about 10 plus and most of the shop weren't open. So we hang around the food court a little...
By 12 the place were filled with people, not the extremely crowded kind but it was a good ambience to join in the shopping mood as we check out stores by stores till we hit the second level..
Some of the more attractive stores include:-
Burberry (Limited choices of Accessories)
Michael Kor (relatively slashed price worth considering)
Coach (GUYS! GET YOUR WORKING BAG THERE... its soooo CHEAP!!!!)
Calvin Klein (limited selection)
Charles & Keith (supposedly cheaper there but i bought a S$39.90 sunglasses that was suppose to cost me S$69.90 before discount?)
Our legs were sore by the time we covered the entire area.. so the ladies suggested Mani/pedi and we head to KSL....
i realy love how bbbb gives in to my whining and undergo a transformation to his heel