everyday work pile seems aimlesss, yet the hatred for it grew.
Everyday's worries seems increasing, yet the solution remain unsolved
Everyday i wish for some reason he could fasten his trip and return
today i broke down hard again, Dad saw me and scolded me. He blame me for making the man worried and losing his focus to concentrate on his army work. i feel its my fault so i so wanna be selfish, i so wanne have him back for myself.
Tomorro's gonna suck, i lost ALL my friends who agreed to hang out
Took me a while to decide to hate them cos it will mark another day of crying at home.
It also took me a while to understand sometimes things just doesn;t go ur way.
The man couldn't hold on his emotion anymore, i guess i am bringing him too much pressure too.. he kept silence, so did i. Then we hang up, then he sent me an sms, and i wasn't feeling any better..
rEsults came out, nuttin glory about it, yes, eligible for uni.. so what?
work sucks, as usual, my life is in a complete mess, and i felt so is the relationship, if only i could fall back to being what i use to be, to cheat and fool around when he is away and fall back into his arms when he return.
but i am a changed person....
*i wanna separate myself from the world, but i see myself blending into them.
when my first pay comes, i will splurge, leave no cents, cos this pay is too tough to be kept, i hate my off days, i hate staying alone at home..
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