Monday, October 18, 2004

so many days has past, so many working days i've done........ so many days of missing a person so hard, so many days of falling sick
Was sick for the past few days, cough, sore throat, running nose, ulcer on the mouth, what more can a person ask for?!~ Luckily friends show their concern,,...... Eric has been so heartwarming nice....... so glad to have him as a friend, some one i know i can tell my secret to and no one will know besides him..Eric is a nice guy, he will find a nice gal where he can truly care for..... i know he can;t see my blog... but i really want him to know that knowing him is part of a blessing to me. but all this 5 yrs of knowing him i know what kind of a innocent guy he is. Eric, dun tell me you like me, we are always friends and will always be..i am not any pretty gal, i dun have a good personality, you deserve some one better..
Jek Sheng msg me a few days ago, till now i';m still glad at the fact that i see through his true colours, and luckily all this 8 yrs of friendhsip had been only friendship, luckily his crush on me did not move me..... anyway i was real mean to him, Eric say i should stay generous and just thank him when he msg again... feel so free again........
Anyway i've been thinking so much about him, didn;t take the courage to call him anymore, perhaps this is life, i took it for granted when he was around and now he is not, i regret... i keep giving myself encouragement that perhaps the next upcoming occasion he will call me again....... maybe that will be on my birthday, maybe he does not even remember my birthday anymore........ haha, maybe this feeling now is only a rebound feeling, maybe i will find a new better guy.
Pull sharon into OOO...baby, perhaps i am too close to her so we can't really work well...... so i guess the next time she works will be the day i dun work.........
Exam is coming........ gotta stop blogging for sometimes......... maybe not too....... depends......... study for my exam...... score a good marks, and start enjoying my holidays..... thats the kind of life........
miss my cousin...... miss tennis........

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