RodKris

Uncle commited suicide, age 53

27 AUGUST 2009

this is not an entry all filled with emotions, for, to be honest i was never very close to my uncle, and only remember how to greet him when prompted by mum and dad.

summing up the story, uncle was on medication for a illness we din hear of, and was living with a landlord who happen to commit a crime in Amsterdam.

the landlord was jailed in Amsterdam and naturally, thats makes his house locked up by the government. What we din know that the condition Uncle was suffering from does not allow him to act after tinking, it seems as though he loses his mind in a fit of anger, and will resort to anything at that moment.

That very day, the 7th day of the chinese 7th lunar month, after pawning away what was left of his belonging, he had $220 from his pawn of a 2.2k gold ring and had use part of it for 4D and another part for his usual consultation at IMH.

On his way home, upon reaching home to the 7th ighloor of his rented unit in Eunos, Uncle saw some member of the government ransaking through the apartment, apparently after sending out several letter of seizure addressed to the landlord.

Fearing for any involvement into the unlawful acts by his landlord, Uncle was seens making his way down the lift and waiting downstair while the governemnt representative does their work.
Over conversation with his neighbour, Uncle blurt out words that include how he will end his life in front of "those people" if he was locked out of his house. Afraid of his safety, some neighbour were prepare to call the emergency number should he act out of rashness.

My Uncle made his way up to his rented apartment and was about to open the door when he realise the door padlock has been change, he was now locked out of the house. He walk towards his neighbour, a kind old Malay lady and jokingly said "bye bye" before taking out his walllet and putting it along the corridor of the 7th floor, Uncle den flip himself over the railing and jump to his death.

i would like to emphasize that during this process, he had overturn his SIM card to avoid receiving calls from his friends, his body was flung over and had hit the shelter on the 2nd floor before sliding down to the first floor. His lower body was badly crashed and his head had a bad crack too.

Uncle was still alive when he was send to the hospital. Again i will like to emphasize that his friend had dial 999 by then and the SCDF were trying their best to get the air bed pump in time but it was all too late.

My uncle breathe his last at about 3.30pm, all in the name of revenge for something he hasnt done. Which had hurt alot of us cos would we have know it earlier, we might assist him in seeking help for his condition.

the thing that angers me the most was the fact that my Uncle actually seek help frm the MP earlier regarding the matter. He was hopeful that the MP could do something regarding the rented aprtment and allow him to continue living there. The MP had advise my uncle to carry on paying for his rental (in the form of helping the landlord pay for his aprtment to HDB) while he do something about it.

I dun understand how the MP could say one thing and the government does the other...

its too late to say anything now cos one life has been lost.

we did a quick ceremony for him at the very place he fell. We werent even allow to enter the now-locked apartment to retriev my Uncle belonging as well as get him some proper clothing for his dismissal.

At the crematorium, Uncle was pushed in quickly and we bid our last goodbye, his coffin was burnt at our very own eye. Dressed in a new set of clothing we bought at some shop, he look expressionless lying inside the coffin, the crack on his head was fasten with 5 staplets.

My uncle was gone, we weren't even allow to cry much cos he din go peacefully, he had left unwillingly and the more we cry the more he wouldnt be able to leave peacefully. My uncle enc0ounter was published on the chinese paper on the very day. since his spirit was carry from the hospital to the crematoriun in our family newly bought car, he has also done his part by striking our carplate number on yesterday's 4D result, but we din buy them.

dun wanna talk about how things could have changed... i learnt something from this experience, i wanna make sure no one ever suffer this again.. hate money issues .. hate finance issue.. i wanna make sure i am sufficient in terms of finance in terms of all that thing that will possibly risk my life.

And i wanna learn to appreciate everyone around me, before its ever too late.