This days so not in the mood......... yesterday wanted to write my blog... but end up Mail called..... so write a pretty brief one.....

baby Mail was not in a good mood... and all i could was to spike him...... i dunno lah....... why am i always so selfish? its like everytime i throw my temper he will console........ but i always end up scolding him what a bad consoler he is,...... he just took my words silently.......

the day before i was crying...... guess i was too tired...... cos everything in my life seems to pilingup at the wrong place....... i want things to change, but my eagerness to get everything done seems to be pulling me down into the water as well....... i soon break down, Mail was on the phone...... he is not a good consoler..... he started ignoring the topic....... i was damn feeling what the hell..... then i simply could not take in whateva he was saying..... was thinkin on my burden this while....... then i thought of Mama, i miss my granny so badly....... that was also like the sparks to our sad conversation on that day........ i cry in silence, Mail could not realise...... i miss granny. wanted her so badly....... then Mail was goin on and on about his i-dunno-what.....
i finally tell him to mark my word, " stop telling others about ur similar encounter regarding their unhappiness" he was silence for a while........ and then just swallow the sentence down......

Baby, i know i am mean to you most of the time....... know you cant read my blog...... but thanks for keeping your sorrow in silence and instead opening up to mine.......

yesterday night was chatting with Mail again..... we were better la....... he was still going on and on about his matter...... cos when he ask how my day was, all i could say was ok... not too bad... so i guess he reckon since he cant to vomit his day to me....... might as well.........
...... Mail will still be talkative......... that's my boyfriend........ i like him for who he is, and not who he is not......... hehe....... cos we're the cow and chic!

kept complaining to Mail about the changes that occur before and after our getting togther....... was complaining how he use to agree to everything i say;....... and now he just bombard me back...... SO THATS HIS TRUE COLOR....... haha.................. but he knew i dun take all this complain seriously....... in fact i hav to admit as days grew, he just keeps getting better.....and better...... so i am still SO into US........ honeymoon period not over yet........ sorry pple...........

then his mama say something about us resembling his uncle and aunty in the past....... always talks on the phone....... always meet(thou we did not) ...... then she add on that after marriage tok less than half a sentence a day....... aunty only complain and uncle cant be bothered......... in the end.... hai..
i am always scared of this./////// Mail relative has a few records of marriage of different races...... and NONE ended well....... not trying say that we wont or something..... but considering my temper and his hack care ness....... i somehow fear the day will come........ but i told him to tell his mama that i wont marry him./;/ haha........ better to add a bit of joke into the tense conversation.......

enuff of Mail and me............. i am not going to get too emotional today...... hehe

Writing about me again............
-life been's busy... all i wanna do now is just to pass my motor test.... hopefully the biking test wil turn out well........
-then comes the class quizes........ hai.....tests after tests... all i wanna do is to win Simon that fellow........
-Friends are fine....... Denise and i finally meet up again....... i miss her........ that gal gimme the hand cream from her shop...... she is so sweet........ Hui Quan gave her a Swatch watch forvalentine and that Wayne...... he's so into Denise....... planning to give her a Handphone...... no guys do that....... and to think they think gals are materialistic....... hate guys like this...... dun only think gals are only into money..... fuck off
-As for Cuz, she's been pretty into Edward...... hmm...... at least it's better than being with that Eric........ he's quite disppointing really....... hope Cuz make the right choice in the end.
-I miss Tennis, and i think Coach misses us, msg me and Cuz..... we are gonna have a game 2 hours this sat
-into this diet thingy, must report to my darlin Sharon what eva thing i eat at every point of time,...... so i guess my intake was going down...... please God, let me succeed
-went to Pasir Ris-Fisherman Village for dinner....... had seafood, coconut drink, crab, vege, mee goreng, satay, hong kong mee..... oh my god, sharon is so gonna kill me, so i had salad for dinner...... hmm had japanese rice for lunch, did not finish it. pregressing well
-cannot have swimming tomorre,,,,,, got remedial..... hai........ nvm...... all for the sake of winning SIMON!
-Mail and i went to the movie with Apel, Adrian, Lakshmi, Syahirah, Celina, Chris that day... the movie Hide and Seek has 2 endings, whoo..... like it man..... it was pretty scary. And Baby was like almost scared out of his life........

-=Baby..... hehe... you look so cute when you suddenly grab my hand and jump, haha=-

i guess thats probaaly life....... pretty good...... please god, diversify my time well..... i must succeed and gone thru the period successfully!

-=points taken: i still want my Mail........ =-

me posing..... shot taken before clubbing
me posing again..... gettin hooked
me posing still.. can;t get enuff
dear and i .....look so dreamy right? she's kissing me
brother and i , my brother Gary
Cuzzie and i,, during new year
mail serious look while eating..... haha
me sister and i ...... we look alike right?

Yippie, Krissie writes again....... sorry been lazy this days....... here are the latest updates:

Clubbing at MadMonks:
located at Clark Quay, a nice place for LeSsie.. went with Cuz and S-dear, Eric Edward Hwee Siang Louis and Edwin..... pretty nice night, we were talking about those days they first saw me, wit that bastard Bobvin... and we drank too... then could tell Louis was a little into Sharon, As for my cuz, she was busy entertaining her friends she saw at Monks, those guys didn't had much time to talk to her..... later on, Cuz and i, s-dear and edwin went on to dance, Sharon foot got stamp by a idiot, she left the dance floor early, Eric came to join us , the survivor game went on and i guess Cuz and i had to take the throne, we are certainly better at dancing compare to them.... hehe.
The night ended, fews days later, turns out Eric and Edward kinda like my cuzzie, funny thou, edward seems so quiet and who would have thought he's been eying my cuz, hmm..... my cuz sure had her part in attracting, so like i always say, she's definitely beta with guys than gals (oops!~)

Valentine:
ok, mail and i spend this days together, we both finish skool, went home to change and meet up again, bought a couple bag (which everyone says its nice), caught a movie constantine which i dun think is nice, ate dinner togther, bought a slipper, i like the whole idea, it just us, a boring date can turn out fun too.

2nd Anni:
with my mail again, it was really fun, he bought me a top from P.O.A.... and a musical box, these 2 things are really nice, and the musical box plays a sweet melody "you light up my life"... we also watch e movie "feng shui" horror, scary... hehe not bad... we went for dinner at Marina Square top, with Sea View, so it was a nice place to chat... then we shop at Marina, he brought to a place he love to shop, "Rasafari" so i guess he and i both share the same interest...... we bought a couple bracelet..... and then we went to Wallet Shop and i bought him his anni gift too..... turns out the design i thought of buying for him is the one he HOPe i've gotten for him....... we are a special 2
night ended with a cab home....... that shall mark our best date

an overall conclusion is that all these event were pretty fun...... i hope i will continue to enjoy myself in the other upcoming event, BTW i sign up for Bike already, so hopefully i can pass the test in the shortest time,....... hmm..... then i can "broom broom" everyone to anywhere

-Schools been fine...... finally win that Si-mon fellow
-birthday was so fun!! everyone remember...... Sharon HuiWen and Vivien stayed over... went for supper in the night..... next day class sang a song for me, went to Juriong point with mummy..... Hui WEn came in the night..... surprise birthday cake!!!!
-Went clubbing at MS (Angels and Rush), actually Sharon and Denise cannot come in... Aunty Lily was smart...... it was so fun! we drank and dance..... 3 westerners hook up to us....... hmm.... not good
-My baby and i did not celebrate birthday together........ haiz./... waiting for coming friday to meet him for the whole day!!

-=:::: boring week:::=-
-=:::My birthday plans:::=-
-friday after work goto my darlin cousin house to stay over...... this earlier than last year.,.... last year is 30jan we went to swensen this year is 29. hmm. CuZZIe may next year worst!!! Looking forward to celebrating with CUzzIe ... just you and i ........
-saturday after work meet Denise and Sharon. we'll be having a girls' night out..... they are staying over at my place........ nice!! WE shall order pizza and chill the night out... Pyjamas birthday bash..... just us
-sunday wake up go to work.... reach home shall sleep... it is Gary's birthday. hmm....... shall be a guai sista..........
-Monday is moi birthday.... school as usual.......... shall celebrate with XIn yi and Si Jia..... then shall go home........
-whole week is empty.....
-Sat will come again then shall go out with Ooo.babies to clubbin........
-sun shall meet up with Baby....

this year birthday is gonna be even better than any others.... cos i am determine to make it better.........
mustn;'t forget to sign up for motor bike........ Finally!!!!

school and work.......school and work........ i think i might break down anytime..............
Baby and i are getting on fine.......... we are looking forward to the second anni....... to be exact.... the 4 yrs few month anniversary....................... Miss my baby....... he wont celebrate birthday with me... sigh!!!

recently many couples seem to quarrel then ok ........ first is SHaron dear and Cai FU........ hmm. CaiFu better treat my dear dear better..........
then comes Celina and Chris..... but ok liao.......... must learn to treasure
then is Wei Zhe and Wei Fang........ ok la..... lucky ok liao

Xin yi is bothered by 2 persons.... further details shall update again....
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Cuzzie.......... i wan tennis!!!~

-=i had fun last night........ so nice to see u again BaBy=-

was very proud of Baby last night......... he was in this super-bad mood......... but he did what i like to do....... Baby done some self-reflection........... then he cheer up abit.......and all was fine after that........ i was feeling proud of him cos he actually stand infront of me did went on like whu is in the wrong and whu's right and how he;s gonna forgive them......... haha....... so 'man'

-=MenSus Kills!!!!! had overdose of Chocolate supply=-

period was here this few days....... no wonder i kept throwing my temper........... hmm.......luckily it's over today... just in time for my swimming.

-=Workload is piling........ think i flunk my class test....... ZeRo hero!=-
new year quickly come quickly go........ i shall pull up my socks and study,........ i can do it

-=Baby is preparing for my birthday...... our 2nd anni, and Valentine=-
i bully him...... now he had to prepare 3 gifts..... haha
1. 31st jan is KriSsie's birthday
2. 8 feb is 2nd anni
3. Valentine........
all i have to prepare is valentine and 2nd anni....... will get him a wallet..... Baby wallet is rotten liao.......
Valentine............ hmm.................. have gotten him so far: ring, towel......... maybe i should try Hooked Clothing Tee liao........

-=Miss Tennis again....... addiction for it grew........... AH!!!=-
NYP openhouse is this few days....... me is helper........ the T shirt provided for us is pretty cool

Make my baby real angry........ Sorry baby shouldn't have say those harsh words to you....... i take it all back...... and i seriously dun mean it....... Sorry baby.........Sorry Mail.....


Cousin say i should cut short my entry...... here's what happen.......
keep throwing my temper..... had a bad day yesterday........ tennis for 2 hours,,,,,, working and chatting with Mail......... guess i was too tired....... i complain about him being a woodblock and not caring for my feeling......... even told him not to meet me today after school... regreted.........

Woke up to realise i dun mean what i say./....... was praying for Mail to call so i can apologise...... he finally got Johan to msg me saying he's sorry.......

-=Baby...... i am sorry too....... you know i dun mean it...... you may not be sweet at times but i know you care so much inside.................. i regret what i say...... sorry MaiL=-

Mail ask if i could give him my blog address....... thought for a while and decide to play a game with him... so the answer of the game is the blog address............. Baby did not wan to play after a while........... he thought about it and decide i should have my own "CirCle-Of-Secrets" ..... he also say if he did learn about my feelings of him thru the net....... he will never feel the significance...........


Had Tennis yesterday..... Cousin and i seem to lost the bonding,..... maybe we were both tired...... Sorry Cuz...... I Love you CuZzie!

Sharon dear and i swam as promise today....... my trouser are beginning to feel large. good news? hopefully i dun take it for granted.........

Special friend send his regards over his blog......it's been so long......... not bad he still bother to read....... cos i thought he would long forget a friend like me...... thanks pal....... My Boyfriend and i are doing fine........

Mail and i were counting the days to 2nd month...... and days to 3th..... 4th......5th.....6th......7th month.......it's a cow-and-chicken thingy

2 hearts despite the dist can still be held together
Swimming with my sharon dear..... then head down for a good MAc meal

It's truly funny few days...... feels like God finally decides to send one of his angels to me......... and i am loving it!..... to begin with was the fact that Sharon Dear and i got closer day by day...... so the time when we did not contact for a while does not really matter i think,............. but i must not neglect Denise dear........ cos den she will lost her angel.........


Angel reads my mind..... knows what i am thinking...... was it the horoscopes? or was i just in my happy days... i feel so light this days....... so light i dun even feel hungry anymore....... went swimming with Sharon today....... then it was as usual lunch...... but we had a huge portion of Mac............ Sharon join her school swimming team like i already mention....... she acc me swim in the morning then again in the night....... Dear ah,. u better take care of urself............
REad Denise blog todays...... was i thinking the wrong way? but she mention she went to countdown with a guy friend and 2 more couples....... and she said she got her warmth in the cold night by the guy she only know that day........ maybe it was just sharing jacket........ maybe they hug? i am pretty worried for Denise esp since she only know him like on that day....................
Missas tennis...... tomorr i am meeting Shi Xiang in the night to play tennis at his condo........ told Mail about it,...... he is quite understanding lah... told me to have fun

okok...... now for my usual updates; me and Mail............ oh,...... i must say i am in the limelight this days..... perhaps its because of him......... pple start to agree i stop being grouchy as compare to those days where i seem to pull my face everywhere i walk........... anyway something GREAT happen........ hmm..... dunno good or bad lah...... but it was a neutral thing.........

okok....... anxious sia? haha,.... heres what happen........ that day was talking to Sharon dear and asking her why Mail and i seem to be shy whis talking to each other while dating....... i mean, yah we do hold hands and stuff.. but the feeling is like..... i tend to keep things i wanna tell him from him...... and i dun dare to show him my concern even thou i care....... so i throw every things out to Sharon dear, and she conclude perhaps our dist is still not shorten........ the cure? hahaha................... maybe a kiss will bring the dist closer...........]

ok that was one day....... so the next day i was working with Candice,......... our supervisor....... and i told her what Sharon dear say......... and guess what.. she nod her head vigourously and agreed!! but the one things she and Aunty lily cannot believe is..... that althou i use to date Mail in Sec sch times for about 3 years...... we have never kiss before... or what......we were the real "pureLy" dating couple....... they laugh at me...... then they ask me if we did kiss now? i mean as in after we start seeing each other again since 8/12/2004...... i say no...... then they laugh even louder....... (what was that suppose to mean? maybe i am naive)

okok...... these 2 incidents makes me really consider the issue about "kissing" haha......... i mean it is not as if this was my first kiss....... but this man is different....... so i put the thought away...... mind you, he is a true Muslim....... and a stupid pig like me will think Muslim are those "guai guai"! haha........ okok.....

yesterday 5/12/05..... that dummy came to pick me up as usual....... so i thought it was another day...... did not even bother to dress up....... when he reach..... i turn to look..... oh my gosh!!!! his friends was with him...... so that fellow good lah.. past few days is my class mates saw him...... so now he taking revenge......... haha...... so his friend and him left for dinner..... i was given this grace period to pack up........ ah!!!! what was i to do? makeup? clean up?!~~~~~~~~~`` i was in the shop...... it was useless....... in the end? i use the mascara the next shop gave us........ all done.!!! he came again....... pick me up and brought me to the fast food his friends were at........ we all left togther to play pool........ waited for a while for hisother friends to arrive........ but i had to leave so we did...... say sorry to his friend and we left.......took a LONG bus (as in like a 1 hours plus journey... 2 stupid fools!) and we talk alot on the bus ....... first time we talk so much...... not on the phone but facing each other......... then i slept in the bus...... while later reach yishun..... went down and to the next bustop for him to go home........... that was the funniest part......... i think we kiss/~!?!?!?!?!?.?!~ he initiate it..... so we erm... just a peck lah....... but i was shock and blushing and i quickly turn away and walk ......... walk home with his wallet!!!!! he had to chase after and call out 3 times my name before i woke up and realise>>> oops!!! ..... gave him his wallet....... that was the day........ he knew what i was thinking....... am i gonna fall into this guy for quite some time????????????....... hehe,........ maybe........

okok......... so you know my secret now.......... hehe...... i tthink angel is around me........ thanks ange;.......

i hope you feel shock to realise the new blogskin image........ This Focker in my class thought me ways to do it....... like the new skin....... kind of possess the deep thought inside....... anyway i download this blog from this user...... and she mention that the skin was meant for sad ppl...... i am not sad..... but i think that is exactly the feeling my heart is feeling....... i guess i have carry on.... i guess i love the cheerful and crazy me....... but i guess certain things can be change on the outside but not on the inside...... thats just me...........

Anyway no matter what i shall still capture everything that makes me happy.........
Today was a so-call good girly day....... i woke up...... revise thru japanese homework........ make some pancake....... Dad was making the TV,,,,,,......... he is capable of repairing all spoilt things...... mum is so proud of Dad........ Mum taught me how to make pancake from scratch....... not with pancake mix........ thou i wil still prefer the pancake jack mix taste..... anyway that was morning........ afternoon..... i achieve my goal in memerizing the 46 hiragana alphabets for spelling tomorrow........ Otah Sensee is putting high hopes in me and Xinyi in our Japanese class....... so i better do a good job....... Xue Shan called me in the afternoon to ask me regarding the BM0036 work....... suddenly i feel abit wanted in the class........ am somehow glad that after the holiday everyone is making an effort to help out one another and bring the bond again.........lunch today was fun.....Mum bought Sushi material home and taught me how to do Sushi...... not that i dunno...... but i did it the important way....... which means the family is eating all that was done by me....... hmm.. proud neh........ too bad the silly dummy did not get to try my cooking today....... actually today wanted to ask Cuz for tennis but she had her daughter-dad outing...... so maybe it was plain luck....... cos i am glad we did not have tennis....... the rain was pouring hell....... even the sky is crying for the tsunami disaster........

Everyone at work is pressurising me,.......... i feel heavy on my back,........ either they call to ask me to plan schedule for them or they will ask to swop dates to workk........... gimme a break gals..... i am not in the mood right now,........

Btw....... on new year countdown,......... was suppose to go with Mail and his friends to pub...... i am inderage i know but he's got ways....... but i didn't go...... i think Mail knew earlier i was going to say no last min...... he knew me too well........ when he call at 7 to confirm what time to pick me up....... i immediately break the news to him......... but he wasn't at all angry...... he predicted it all ....... haha....... and to ensure this does not stop us from meeting each other........... the dummy bought tickets for the movie i wanted to watch...... "Meet the fockers" he is sweet i know..... i am trying my best not to take it for granted too........ and guess what ,...... i only tell him i wanted to catch "Meet the fockers" like the day before....... he take every single word i say seriously..... i am so blessed...........

Yesterday..... 2/1/05/......... working,........ really no money le...... that morning went to shopping with my dear Sharon....... we are in the mood to tailor our stuff...... so we went to buy cloth.......... spend 45 bucks on them... that night......... relly no money le...... then jocelyn working...... not Denise........ althiou sat she cannot achieve the target of 100hundred........ in her mood...... i thought..... aiyah:" can help then help....." so i use up the last bit of my money and bought oil from her...... ok lah./... i benefit too........ so not bad lo./........ i think certain things i must not be too kind......... anywya i am planning to donate money to the tsunami ....... not too much to spare..... btu must not let mummy learnt about it..... i think she might scold me....... i think donate 50 bucks ok ok right...... hai.......dun wan to talk about the disaster....... makes my heart sink only.........

pierce my ear again,........... the top part...... not pain...... thinking of piercing my nose...... aiyah this kind of things better discuss with cuz first... dunno why but towards this matters...... cuz seem to know best.


this few days very close to dear sharon...... must remind myself not to neglect princess De........ and not neglect Sammie..... and cousin ...... and Mail......

shit i put on a lot of weight this few days........ better do something

today mrks the last day of 2004...... this year has been fun........ so i wanna mark it down before it turn 2005......
this year......
In 2005...............
-i went to CJC and Met alot of incredible ppl....... SamAntha esp...... i begin to feel special..........
-i begin to work with Ooo...Baby......... ppl are cool........... i learn alot and i think i grew up there
-i went to NYP........ dun like the ppl there but all human are equal and are to be treated equally....... so i am learning to like them........ but XInYi and SiJia are real nice ppl
-the first year i separated from D.K.S everything is more like a independant...............
-Cousin and i have played tennis for a year i guess...... keep it up.....
-Bobo came into my life....... regret,.........
-miss IsmAIl and want him back.
-got Ismail back
-SYF 2004... gold.... band major ....... gold award
-Jek Sheng....... hmm...... bad guy
-knew Jerk for more than a year
-went to Watch Electrico with Zhi Liang
-Pat left for Thailand..... forever
-Singapore Idol........ Taufik BatiSah
-Jean knew Cuz...... Steve too
-Mummy learn about Ismail
-erm...........

too many to write........ 2004 was real fun........ horoscope says........ Aquarius.:"2004 was fun and 2005 promise to be even more unexpectedly fun....... " i cant wait............. Ismail and i are doing well........ i cant wait for more

i admit.... i haven update blog for quite a while.... this few days has been fun....... more of fun for me,... suffer for the others....... heha.... Btw Merry Christmas to all....... well.... to myself the most... mine i guess was the most "MErry" Christmas........ Mail gave me a tigger wearing a necklace,........ and the necklace was really nice......... it look weird i must agree,,,,, but it is really nice......... ok..it is a zip looking pendant........ symbolises? haha..... there are two long pole connected by a tiny pole......... so i means two person despite the distance are still hold together by "pole"....... get what i mean? he is so sweet.........

on 23.... Ooo... babies went for our Christmas celebration......... we went to a pub in CHinatown... call Stable pub.,.. the pub was pretty pathetic., i think those i've been to are better......... we drank alcohol and wine..... sing out hearts out....... ate finger foods.......... and of course christmas exchange.......... i gave Sharon Dear a white jacket which she chose.. and she gave me a Army green jacket which i chose..... both the same design........ thats best friend ya.......... haha........
i bought Gingerbread man for Sharon and YiXin..... Candice and Sharon.....and i think AnmArie,...i am suppose to buy for AnMarie.... so i bought her a angekl pendant for Nuovo... it symbolises that despite the misunderstanding regarding the missing bag and wallet, as long as she believe in herself......... the angel will still stand by her side..........................
Sharon(Ooo...baby) gave me a photo frame in return.. she was my angel........ haha..... gave me a retro love photo frame........ really very nice looking........... i drank lime and orange vodka........ wanted to try Tequila........ haha... but didn;t.....the cake Fred bought was really.... first time i praise a cake,.......... it is not sweet... and had Caramel nut powder sprinkle on top.... we took lotsa of picture........
on 24........ stayed at home the whole day..... Mummy wanted to bring us out to watch lightings.... i didn;t go......... i told her i will be spending the night with Mail....... haha....... at 8 pm in the night... meet up with Mail in the train station Amk........ he was holding a big bag./........ Mail plan to go Orchard to see the lightings and then go on to esplanade to countdown........ i was tired ..... turn down the whole plan.... we headed straight to esplanade......... we went to Suntec to eat our dinner... i didn;t eat........ my stomach had butterflies....... i drank IceMilo.. he ate a burger meal........... then we went to Esplanade.......... there were a lot of pple around,.., we heard Jazz music playing....... Mail and i had one thing in common... we just surrender to music.... in the end we stood my the sea and watch the jazz group played their music carols..... it went on for probably half an hour.................. then we went to find a spot to sit down.. i wanted to drink some alcohol. hehe./.. so he bought me a bottle of vodka....... we drank and talk..... but not to worry cos we didn;t do anything silly........ i feel a bit high.......... hah......... but instead of doing silly thingas......... i let out the feelings by scolding him and joking and telling him not to think anything stupid cos i am smart........ haha....... fun sia...
after a while we countdown and open present..... ok my present suck,,,....... i bought him a Towel!!! My cousin and i came up with the idea......... haha.... every colleague was practically laughing at the towel la..... haha.. then we went to the beach by one side and enjoy the wind and chit chat......... we left the place at 1 plus,,.... the day ended./..
on 25. whoa,... turns out Christmas was not as fun as the eve,,,,,,,,,, i was working the whole day....... and no customers.... everyone must be sleeping cos of the fun last night.... sales was terrible./.
on 26.... still working......... with Sharon Dear and Denise........... quite fun.......i miss Sharon dear so we had a lot to talk about................. at night Mail came to fetch me.... he had a hard time finding the shop.... Ordell and Alex saw him......... Denise and her classmates saw me too.......... hmm.... but i guess i was ok with the idea of telling eveyone he is my boyfriend.........
on 27..... monday.... supposing no work....... wear like damn shit... prepare to go home eat waych tv and slack....... sudden;y Jean call me to work... embarassed but had to go to town to work in a shorts... sandals and a huge polo tee Fred gave me......... shit....... but happily Cuz and Holly came to find me... everyone said Holly was damn cute.......... Aunt Lei, Aunt Hong.... Ah Ji(Cuz's) and Aunty Rose all came....... i feel even worst in my clothings.......... ate Chicken Foldover meal with Jean for Dinner........ met up with XinYi to take her admin card

Been having fun./........ doing work...... extra workload......... what can i say? it;s a fufil day........
REcollection of what happen today.......
-My Aunt did a Fat-test for me....... learn that i have to cut down on my oil intake... so i was pretty stupid to stop eating rice and noodle for a long time........ oh but nvm, i have gotten the habit..... now can eat all these a litle..... lets move on to less oil...... more soup!
-My Aunt bought me a shirt... polo one...... colour cousin choose....... we saw Sharon while eating at food junction... Cuz say she slim down...... hmm..... Michelle (CHIJ-SJC) slim down too...... Sam Chua Xing Fang slim too..... kriSsIs better work double hard.........
-went to work to realise i need not work today..... luckily my cousin sponsor my cab to her hse..... somebody is rich liao//////
-did some A-math........ i think my brain is deteriotating, it's not active anymore,.......
-Mail left work early today too..... but we did not meet..... what is more important than having some time spare to share with my cousin..... really miss her
-Cousin worn a mini shorts with a blouse..... the style i always like...... so cowgirl......... hmm...... she does attract quite some attention
-bought a belt for Denise for her christmas........
-spend the night writing X'mas cards
-tomorro mummy is going to Sentosa,......... i think i am meetig Ismail for a while .. dunno la...... see first./...... i think he should spent more time with his mummy.....
-Call Ismail home just now....... he is still not in... his mum was talking to me.... telling me what time he reach home and stuff..... feel a bit happy
-eat cousin bread stick today
i think i am basically talking nonsence again
okok...... here is the interesting part again........ that day chatted with Ismail......... i was very pissed off,......... cos he like no time to call me........ then always busy with work...... and all the talking session was about work........... so i thought i had enuff we are suppose to meet but suddenly he call say his grandma hospitalise....... so the whole day i was troubled....... cos i am angry but i thought at this time i am supose to support......... but all the same......... i still flare up........... den in the end......... he kpt quiet and listen to me the whole time..............
after a while............ he apologise............ and told me he agree with me that he took me for granted and he promise he will change/............. So Sweet......... i think i am too temperimental....... it partly my fault....... sorry! i dun put it in my words to you..... but i am sorry.........
here's cow and chicken part 2........ cow-Krissie chicken-ismail
cow and chicken talking abou changing of attitude.........
cow:"Aiyah later i keep telling you to change your atitude, one day you will realise...... what is wrong with this girl ah...... like only find bad side of me... never the good side........"
Chicken:" (thought for a while) aiya........ you ah........ really ah./........ dun think that way................. i........... erm........ i ............. aiya........ erm........ i love you too much to scold you..........................."

i was stunned for word!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stunn for a long time........ and in return for such a romantic conversation was cow going:" please ........... ah....... please promise me you will never tell me such thing again......... i cant take it..... goosebump!"

i think i am the world's biggest idiot........ haha....... what a reaction./////////////// but i couldn't come up with anythig and certainly cannot handle them.................... anyway i thought this conversation ought to be pen down........ memorable ne............

i told him something that make sense too............ btu i am not going to elaborate........
"one always have to encounter a huge impact in one thing before he/she realise there is changes needed to be done to them"

i dun like the feeling of being bullied..... or being observe by someone else......... but i do that myself.......

few days ago after work was taking the train alone home....... just another dread day..... i dread pulling my heavy and tired leg to walk that mile along the dark road home........ on the train saw a malay couple......... was observing them cos i was wondering to myself if Ismail was to turn out like them....... so touchy right in the train itself........ then i went on and observe his watch....... cos the face was pretty good....... those kind i like where the face is digital....... and huge kind....... also i went on to observe the guy's eyes(ONLY the eyes)....... cos i realise many malay guy put eye liner....... i guess i went a bit overboard...... cos he caught me staring at him (think he thought i was admiring him........ huh? what the hell!~#@%$^%^^&) he and his girlfriend started talking real soft and laughing real loud and after that turning towards me and observing me.......... that day the train ride was far most the most hateful one i ever had......... but i shall forgive them........

yesterday was a damn busy day....... call up many new girls to try out work at p.s but no one turn up......... so had to do it myself....... actually i was only in charge of Admin...... in the end is a double work........ so tired!!

few days ago last wed went shopping with Denise........ then we also meet during work...... me and her bonding getting better........ but nevertheless miss sharon....... Cousin came to visit a few times....... but we hardly talk..... one day she even came with Regina..... this girl my stupid cousin use to crush on............

sent my sister to the airport..... she left for korea for one week......... coming back next monday..... wat a parting scene...... this is by far the first parting i never cried...... mummy was on the verge of doin it..... it's only a week mum........... then before that had dinner with aunty and family...... talk and they commented i change alot after working in the society...... strange...... was that a compliment?!~

Now for the interesting part...... i was a bit unsecure not meeting ismail for along time....... some more today suppose to be our standard day out..... cos we both took day off on thursday to compromise...... he haven call.......
Anyway i told mummy about Ismail....... woo........ big risk........ mummy was the greatest fear i had against BGR...... and i dunno why but i was determine to tell her...... told her about Ismail race and how long its been going on........ she kept quiet for a while and told me....... as long as i was happy there is nuttin she will do to stop me........ cool!~ but she say if someone better comes along the way....... why not,.,,,,,,,, hmm........

Told Ismail this news and he freezed! haha....... stupid./...... he kept silence for a while and reveal to me :"now the fear is really getting near!" in the past he will ask why i choose not to tell mummy about it....... and he boast how much he is a mama-boy to his mum so i dun have to worry....... haha.///...... that silly dummy finally surrender! i told him he is the first guy i EVER talk to mummy about..... so i know mummy is cautious and will not forgive the slightest mistake he make....... told him that too and he was erm-hem...... haha..... speechless too...... haha!!! so funny......
Wanted to ask him a sweet question what turns out to be a cow talking to a chicken! I thought my action of telling mummy was something we always plan to do........... so i ask him:" if i was a document ranked IMPORTANT...... how long do i stay as IMPORTANT to you..... the person-in-charge?" Guess what is the stupid dummy answer?:"the grass is green......... a field of grass is green....... no matter whether one handful of grass fade or not..... the overall field is still green" WHat the HelL!!!!! i dun understand the answer.. sounds weird...... haha.,....... but i assume it belong to the "will-be-important-for-a-long-time" category....... haha....... isn;t it the original version of Cow-talking-to-chicken?!~
His friend saw the ring..... all said he stupid..... how come let a girl do such thing....... his mum saw......... scold him for making a girl pay...... haha..... sometimes...... i think my action brings trouble........ but nvm..... cos he think it is all worth it... fine loh!

what else to update? hmm........ ooo...baby is offering me a 40% discount all the way till christmas,,,..... anyone want to get anything better come find me....... ahha.........
later today at 11am later...... meeting Apel yap and her boyfriend APe (adrian) to go tanning at Sentosa,,,,,,, never call Denise or cousin cos the couple is hmm.............. fun! but hard to understand

hmm........ few days has past...... nuttin much happen to me...... it's all about work and work........... haven seen Ismail for a while./....... he has been working 10am-1pm non stop for a few days........ hmm........ today actually he wanted to pick me up from work...... but i didn't want to abandon Denise so we did not meet up........ hmm....... another week passed........ i am glad he at least collaborate with me and both of us took thursday off...... at least it is one day we can meet......... Yesterday he msg me using Johan's phone....... it looks like this:" Ismail here....... i tried calling you at 2.15pm last night but you did not answer...... pls call me at 11.15am when you woke up...... if my mum answer the phone please get her to wake me up....." haha..... i thought this msg was real cute....... well i did call him but it was only after i reach the shop at 11.30..... chatted for a while........ he sound sleepy....... haha...... i still recall the day i "propose" to him......... hmm........... haha

i suppose Jerk did read thru my blog...... he congratulate me in his blog..... thanks pal....... hmm...... my holidays almost over but still haven meet up with you........ smart ah....... ahha...........

i miss two person now............ my cousin Vivien and Dear Sharon/... i saw cousin that day but we did not really meet long....... as for Sharon...... we haven met........ cousin......... i wanna play tennis........ my bones are stiff............ hmm..

Special friend........ hmm....... you have woke up from your nightmare........ i hope you are a new you...... a manly, egolistic, and more systematic new you........ jia you...... all the very best

Ismail and i are finally togther...... hehe.......... it was a sweet and dirty(oh) experience

Today is the 8th December 2004,.... one month ago on this day's yesterday Ismail called and we came up with a decision to give him an answer.... one month one day has passed.... not too late.

Everything was act according to plan.. i got him to pick me up after work........ i brought the ring along. one day before.. Ordel, Steve and i took turn to polish the ring.... it was shining.. haha... i reveal all about Ismail to steve......

Today./. shopping with my Princess Dede. actually meant to be a outing with Samantha one. but she is not in the mood,......... so woke up in the morning,......... ate 2 roti prata again (for consecutively 3 days!) then call up Princess Dede.... ask her out. she say ok.... bath and bring out 100 buck. on the way this is what happen in SHORT:
-> donation ticket $5
-> drink banana juice $2.5
-> bought lovely mini dough nuts for Dede and me $1.8
-> bought a japanese hp chain = the one with the doll that bring sun, wearing a onyx stone $7
-> bought a crop pant $16
-> bought lotion for christmas giving $6
-> ate ramen. Dede insist we ate. too spicy. yuck $10
-> raining... cannot travel anywhere, bought a umbrella (Denise pay more) $4
-> my shoe. saw AnMarie worn it. nice...... $20
-> paid Yixin for something i didn't owe $5
-> kana force to buy a perfume from a stupid salesman $15
all together......... $92.30 spent.. but god knows where the rest $7.70 went..... i have nuttin left in my wallet

went to plaza sing for my new job,.. fred hire me as a admin asistant. go by the hours....... spent the rest of the days there....... Ismail pick me up ..... we walk from doby ghaut to sommerset.... we took a train to Yishun. actually plan to go Esplanade....... but i didn't wan to tire him. so i say Yishun..... took a train to Yishun. talk alot of nonsence on the way.... saw his hand...... i must say i like his hand alot!!! especially since he is holding all my bags and stuff... haha./.. he talk nonsence i listen.. as usual la.... my cat can talk alot.......

reach Yishun.... walk to Bus interchange... saw Bai ZhiWEi and forget-the-nam,e........ he chat for a while./. we walk on to the park opposite my house........ walk a big round.. suddenly i cant find the track in the dark........ so we had to walk on grasses..... he stood on mud (here is what i meant by dirty)....... and his face sulk....... my cat is a fussy one.......... his face sulk all the way till i bring him to a bench in the park near my house........ put my stuff down and look at him.... he is still complaining about the mud.. haha./... naggy sia....... i ask him if he wans to know what i bought him. he went like :" i thought you told me you bought it for me but you wont give it to me?". stupid silly dummy........ i took out the blue package........ pass it to him.. he stretch out his hand.. i took it back again... hmm.... no according to plan......... i pluck up the courage..... took out the ring and ask for his hand.......put in on.. oops!! too small...... he took it out and put on the fourth finger........ i said :"NO!~" i took out from his forth finger.. readjust the ring and fit it into his second finger...i like it there.. haha.. then there was silence........ cannot be right..... so i said:"Oh. forget .... i am SUPPOSE to do this now...." i took his hand and giggle. laught and look into his eyes:"Will you be my boyfriend? hahahahaha" he look at me....... mouth cannot even close lah........ nod his head and smile....... he was shock...... then he went on and on.... :"sorry i didn;t get you stuff.......... the shoe is all worth the mud..................... you are so sweet........ sorry i didn;'t get yoy stuff....... ahha" on and on lah. ask if i wanna sit down. i said no?!~ stupid right? but i seriously dunno why i say that........ we stand up.... my hand in his....... and keep smiling.... i told him this was nto suppose to be the correct destination.... he just laugh and say i was so sweet to plan all this./............ after a while.... i say i wanna go home....... we walk on to the bus stop.... that dummy put his hand on my shoulder.......... i dun like it. but..... hmm. nvm..... reach the bus stop. he is still staring at his ring..... i request he dun put his hand on my shoulder......cos i kinda feel more like a buddy.. den that dummy quickly remove his hands.... then he never touch me at all liao./..... haha........ silly sia......
bus reach after a while../..... i turn to him and give him a hug... den i walk on without looking back......... i think he is very happy too.....

i know this time i am behaving more like a man.. but hey .... it is the 20th century...... girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.. hehe........................

i like this shot... taken in brother's room... just woke up. i am typing now and half a min ago i took this photo shot..... haha
now i loo funny...... but i guess i have woken up completely.. or else i would not have swing like this..... haha
Sam and me.. Sam is my closest friend in CJC..... she came to loo for me... i miss her so much.. guess what ? she lost 15 kg!!!!!
i hate this shot..... i look guyish..... i look like a retard
i hate this shot too.... saw my pimples on the chin..... hate it!
Ismail got me to do this henna.. he paid for it.. the other two fingers belong to Jean
AnMari and me......i must admit she is a true beauty.15years old.. first day of working....... with me.......
Jean and me...... we both look horrible!`
lighting along the road if orchard..... i was sitting down chatting with Ismail and i took this shot
AnMari and me again...... she is too beautifulllll i look horri-gi-ble beseides her

life today's was the ultimate....... as in the ultuimate boring-kind.........todays is all about eating, watching tv..... and doing nuttin........ i hate todayy...... wish i could bring my fat legs together and do some outdoors...... hmm........ i am plain lazy la........ /ismail say he try to call me in the morning so we can talk longer...... hmm.. but he did not....

Yesterday Tristan Sean call...... let me do a little introduction of him....... Sean is a friend i met on friendster...... he is so-call older than me and i happen to be his youngest friend..... we get along pretty well and stuff..... cos i am good with me reasoning of everything i do and because i cheer people up...... he is those passionate kind...... not my cup of tea,....... but his reasoning can be quite interesting some time...... so we can kind of click.

He is a casanova kind........ he admit it,..,.. and he makes people lost for words.... i thought i can succed i talking my way out of him..... haha. i was wrong........ he called and we chat cos Ismail hang up the phone i was still awake...... we talk a bit..... sean is really not the type i enjoy talking to..... many times he ask me question that i feel uncomfortable...... so in the end i suggest we stop talking cos i dun like his question....... after some sorting out...... he kinda understand what i was referring to................. so he confirm with me that we will never be together...... cos mainly beacuse i was too young for him and i am not his cup of tea either....... but i still uncomfortable with the conversation...... like how on earth can a guy come up and tell you......." i love your hairstyle....... and i like hearing you talk... i like hearing you stop and get lost for words...... i like hearing you ask me why ........ i love you..........." when he say all this i wanted to hang up the phone////// but he explain that love is a feeling that family feel for one another....... THAT kind of love...... he treat me like a sister. so he love me......i reson and object..... but i didn't manage to talk my way out....... i told him in that case my cousin love me more than anyone else..... he say he will love me (yuck!!!!! totally yuck!!!!!!! i swear it does yuck!!!!!!!!!!!) more than my cousin...... cos he is a guy and my cousin is a girl.... what nonsence........

my conclusion- the conversation makes me learn more about people 5 years older than me (not that i am really interested in it) and it makes me realise I like Ismail alot....... haha... believe it or not... the conversation tells me that it is hard to make me melt or convince myself to other stuff....... and the silli dummy did it......

....... the meeting to send Pat a parcel was a failure..... we did not meet up
=.... cousin agree that Ismail does resemeble Taufik...... as in when he ws younger lah

p.s= my special friend..... hope you are feeling better..... i dun like your blog entry....... thats all.....

not talking much today

Taufik won!!! hehe......the secret to why i like Taufik so much is reveal today..... simply because he look so much resemble to Ismail........ hmm........ he won..... i wasn't wrong with my decision..... i make wise choice...... cool!!!~

Today everythings happen like the way they should not happen.......
`quarrel with sharon but my calmness bring us back as best of friends yet again......
`Freddy kind of scold jean....... she threw her temper on me and i was obviously angry...... but i hug Denise and back on my spirit again... and things went out fine.........
`suppose to meet yiling and gale and Suilan to get pat's christmas present done...... but turns out i guess they dun treasure the friendship as much as i do.....
`Ismail did not call me......hmm...... but i have confident in us

Today's mummy;s birthday...... went to work and went back early....... we went to makan and ate the cake SIS bake and maureen bought....... did i mention the shutter movie was so freaky nice i hug my SIs to sleep.....

tomorro if they dun bother to meet up for pat than let it be...... i shall do it all by myself..... but as for the cos t of the parcel..... i will have to bear the burden myself......... suddenly i remember Suilan still owe me 20 bucks... no wonder mummy always say i get bully being nice..............

Ismail........!!!!! we went out the day before yesterday..... did i mention how nice it was? we had so much fun despite not being able to watch "shutter"...... we went to eat Wrappa mania and bought Vienne christmas present..... just like magic suddenly i thought i might just bring him to take the secret route i came to know about by Freddy....... so he thought we were going to take a train cos we were going to B2...... you ar so wrong.....

he was SO shock to see a long passage ....... he felt like a idiot for a min cos the route seems so unfamiliar to him...... we walk and we reach the opposite side of plaza sing........ then we walk on to Somerset then to orchard... then we talk..... really talk alot..... i felt awkward at first...... his leg were beginning to gie way... we came across the fair we saw earlier....... i wanted to buy a watch..... but all they have was lady's kind..... thn i pick up a few choice........ he chose the butterfly one..... i really like it./....... and i bought it.

we went into the fair..... and i was welcome by the scarf so beautiful... wanted to get it but he say Geylang serai has nicer's............ so we skip..... then i saw Candles and immediately thougt of mummy...... bought some for her........ then i saw Cuz skirt at a rate so much cheaoper....... so i bought one more for her....... then we wnt to admire guys ring.......his taste is definitely way diff from mine....... he like those with prints..... i dun like....... i still like those sinple kind with no pattern,......... we couldn;t come up with an agreement....... he did not get any in the end....... but he taught me a new things...... if you really like somethings ..... just get it,., and i did
walk past a henna shop...... he stop me........ he encourage me to take a henna...... out of curiosity..... i agree..... we chose a nice design..... he stand beside me and the lady did a henna on me........ i make him pay....... hehe..... he say he wanted to get me something so i reckon this was a good chooice........ then we walk on......... then suddenly there a huge sparks in the sky..... the christmas tree was officially lite up..... it was so.... erm ..... romantic....... haha..... we laugh a bit...... we walk a bit and finally out of the mall....... we were thirsty... so we graba drink..... sat by Takashimaya outside and chit chat ........ chat a lot....... arguement....... and stuff...... but it was so nice to talk to him..... i know i wasn;t concentrating....... he know i wasn't too........ hehe... but he went on....... and on...... he played with my phone..... took pic of me..... haha........ i told him to take a pic of himself but he refuse.........hmm..... then i peer off the henna cos he say he wanna see it before anyone./... hmm..... i had the temptation to let him peer it for me... but nope! we aren't together yet/////// hehe..... so when everything was off... he was staring at it in amaze..... he like girls with henna......... we walk on and he saw his friends./....... they tease him..... he was blushing..... ahha............ we walk on to the station... i was dead bit........ past by the man who do sketches....... saw him 3 times altogether... i was staring at it in amaze.///...... he keep asking me to do it... let the man sketch me..... i refuse....... he almost succeed in pulling me there slightl;y........ but he is ever so gentle... hehe...... we went home.........

it was a fun night,...... and i am really looking forward to seeinghim again..... i do not denied initially i kind of feel nuttin again,,,,, the feeling just stuck somewhere suddenly and i so wanted to admit to him and just go away,..... but i am glad i did not... cos i might have regret it the way i use to always do...... to the station..... saw wendy..... nuttin much........

Miss Sharon dear,,,,, wish she was around to gimme me hope...... miss you dear

i am furious....... so furious..... but i mustn't show......... Sharon....... why mus you always make your best sister to tears.?! why is it every single line of you words matters so much to me? why must you accuse me the things i didn't do? dun you know how much you mean to me? dun you care about my feelings no more?
~why do i have to face walking a long distance from school to your house carrying two huge bags of mooncake just to help your brother deliver them? and then going to your hse and letting your mum treat me like a maid?
~why do i kept so quiet when you wanted to buy the slimming pills and you told Denise about it but not me? i know and i know that is not the right thing to do........ but as long as you know what you are doing i am fine with it
~why do you think Denise and i are always together...... we dun wan to spoil a day you wanna spent with Caifu..... you might say we are totally fucking bullshitting........ but that is really what the hell is happening
~i wanted to throw my temper at you but it is so fucking hard........ you make me feel shit..... life's like hell.......
~why must you always assume things that is not true........ if we do not care for you i would not have fucking get angry now and then.......
~Fuck it........ fuck off........ you pissme.............but dun stay away.....................i must control my temper.......

at the end of the day i still wna you as a sistr........ CAn you for fucking hell please make attempt to call me out ...... it is like that for Denise....... like that for sui lan...... like that for gale....... like that for yiling........... it all does not matter........... but not you ........ cos you and i we treat each other equally........ there are no older ones...... there are no one that care for each other more............... we care for each other EQUALLY.. thats why is not always me askig you out!

hai. i shouldn't have throw my temper on Jerk that day. could see he is facing some really serious problem.... nvm.... Jerk..... Certain things you create for yourself you face it yourself.... yes you may need time to get over it but i assure you time will heal the pain..... anyway "ren shen sia lai" is to be happy......... your mum did not bring you to the world to be always so unhappy ...... think about it........ you are only 18 yrs old.... many more people is gonna come in your way..... for that you have to get up again........ i already cheer you up..... the fact that you choose to fall back into the hole again is your own terrible mistake/.... others can help you once.. but if you choose to get back to square 1........ i am telling you frankly not the same person can get you out again....... you think carefully before falling into the hole again........
This few days are so funny.... i keep getting upset over the tiniest stuff...... and i woke up this morning to realise what a damn fool i am..... well..... life still does go on....... so i'll just make the best of it./... work at far east the past two days........ hmm..... so nice to see yet my old friends again......... Steve (uncle steve) ........ordell(uncle ordell)......Alex (Uncle Alex) and nicole...... i also saw Sabrina yesterday. and Ai lian.... hmm... especially my beloved Denise./...... even Cousin visit me....... haha.......... cousin was on her way to see Jay Chou concert ........ oh i saw Sylvester Sim yesterday....... everyone was shouting when he walk past. i seriously dun see the point why.. hmm

i can sense if Ismail and i chat further........ his mum might start to hate me...... so i told him we better reduce our conversation time....... haha/... i am meeting him later to catch a movie as well as eat dinner...... that fellow having his last paper today.........

I miss Sharon....... msg her a few days ago to work at ooo.baby.... but she did not reply.... when she reply she is busy ....... i was so piss off.. so i kind of scold her..... i am so sorry dear.... anyway she cant read this blog./........ hai. i am so sorry dear

Denise ask me to accompany her for work after i finish mine... but i promise mum to meet her at AMK... so i did not.... sorry Denise. sorry my princess......... sorry darlin

Met up with Mum and Dad and of course the stupid sis of mine..... we sent DAd to AMK to receive his Bike..... then he went off to work. Mum and sis and i went to AMK central to grab a bite... Mum is in this huge craving for the pancake with peanut... but we couldn't find it.. sis and i wanted to eat fried banana./.. so we bought some.. mum let us choose. and greedy sis bought fishball and dumpling and tapioca. i bought fried banana and green bean.. my all-time favourite.
then we went to the knitting shop and i replenish my knitting material./.. haha. make mummy pay. thanks mum!

Chat with Ismail and found out the following:
-he loves pasta, hates soft tofu (i love tofu)
-we love sambal tofu
-he likes home-made ladys-finger
-he likes shell food (but not so much for mussel)
-he dislike soup stuff (like black mee)
-there are two most person he think of non-stop: his mum and me

haha,..,, this guy is damn silly.. but he admit his mum ever ask him to choose between me and her. i told him if my mum ever ask me to stop seeing him. i will seriously consider....... cos nuttin matters more than your own parents,..... with i told him the answer to his mum question will definitely be his mum! He should not get worry about the answer

dun wanna write le.. oh ya.. i cook pasta today.. traditional Spaghetti.... oops.. Ismail call me. just a moment..................................................
he finish his paper le.... haha........he is talking again..................................................................................................................................................................
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meeting at 5pm... at town............................................................................................................................
he getting his pay..........................................................................................................................................
ok. he hung up le....... aiya. that fellow no handphone... must specify where to meet later.... ok. it is still early. i go download music and check mail le....

things are better today..... went to work far east instead of plaza sing today... cos Sharon is sick./.... hmm... left Lily all alone...... nvm,........ sales was very good..... $1014... Boss must be happy...... then long time never work in far east le,....... everything is different..... but it was fun anyway.....

Today Lily msg alot... we chat..... haha... mostly about Yi Xin B.O/.,... i am so bad..
Today Jerk apologise..... i had long forget about the incident..... but perhaps it was because Jean and i aim to target $1000.. so the urge for a customers to buy is sop strong that it makes me fed up..... i kinda piss Jerk off..... hai..... i guess he is just one of the unlucky one...... sorry,,,,,

Have thought about it..... it was my fault to make friends i dunno.. so it is right for Ismail to be angry or maybe piss at me...... i ought to apologise..... i am waiting for him to call me..... he say he will so i will wait.....

Tomorro working again..... 2-7pm.... with Yixin..... ask Vanessa to join me for Dinner but there was no reply... i guess she is angry at me or stuff...... i piss people off........ i am such a bad person...... gotta reflect myself......

Sharon is leaving OOO...baby..... Jean and i are going to get her a Roxy wallet.,..
Today is really a damn boring day..... i have nuttin much to write...... if Ismail call later...... then maybe i have a whole bundle to write..... Ismail cant read it here........ but i am really sorry..... i think i will stop Friendster...... or maybe edit it to private sector....... hmm