RodKris

This days so not in the mood......... yesterday wanted to write my blog... but end up Mail called..... so write a pretty brief one.....

baby Mail was not in a good mood... and all i could was to spike him...... i dunno lah....... why am i always so selfish? its like everytime i throw my temper he will console........ but i always end up scolding him what a bad consoler he is,...... he just took my words silently.......

the day before i was crying...... guess i was too tired...... cos everything in my life seems to pilingup at the wrong place....... i want things to change, but my eagerness to get everything done seems to be pulling me down into the water as well....... i soon break down, Mail was on the phone...... he is not a good consoler..... he started ignoring the topic....... i was damn feeling what the hell..... then i simply could not take in whateva he was saying..... was thinkin on my burden this while....... then i thought of Mama, i miss my granny so badly....... that was also like the sparks to our sad conversation on that day........ i cry in silence, Mail could not realise...... i miss granny. wanted her so badly....... then Mail was goin on and on about his i-dunno-what.....
i finally tell him to mark my word, " stop telling others about ur similar encounter regarding their unhappiness" he was silence for a while........ and then just swallow the sentence down......

Baby, i know i am mean to you most of the time....... know you cant read my blog...... but thanks for keeping your sorrow in silence and instead opening up to mine.......

yesterday night was chatting with Mail again..... we were better la....... he was still going on and on about his matter...... cos when he ask how my day was, all i could say was ok... not too bad... so i guess he reckon since he cant to vomit his day to me....... might as well.........
...... Mail will still be talkative......... that's my boyfriend........ i like him for who he is, and not who he is not......... hehe....... cos we're the cow and chic!

kept complaining to Mail about the changes that occur before and after our getting togther....... was complaining how he use to agree to everything i say;....... and now he just bombard me back...... SO THATS HIS TRUE COLOR....... haha.................. but he knew i dun take all this complain seriously....... in fact i hav to admit as days grew, he just keeps getting better.....and better...... so i am still SO into US........ honeymoon period not over yet........ sorry pple...........

then his mama say something about us resembling his uncle and aunty in the past....... always talks on the phone....... always meet(thou we did not) ...... then she add on that after marriage tok less than half a sentence a day....... aunty only complain and uncle cant be bothered......... in the end.... hai..
i am always scared of this./////// Mail relative has a few records of marriage of different races...... and NONE ended well....... not trying say that we wont or something..... but considering my temper and his hack care ness....... i somehow fear the day will come........ but i told him to tell his mama that i wont marry him./;/ haha........ better to add a bit of joke into the tense conversation.......

enuff of Mail and me............. i am not going to get too emotional today...... hehe