RodKris

My life have change completely. (read in complete, do not miss any word, haha)

it all begin when i decide to do it.

i cannot explain how someone just twist into someone else she never was.

Dear all, Lester msg me. It appear as a amazing shock cos i never tot we'll hav chance of becoming friend again. And as it dawn upon me that i might just shed yet anoter drop of tear for him, i decided it wasn;t gonna happen.

He makes things great, just as he always had. He make the conversatin sounds friendly and brings me route to answering each question. Yes i do not denied the feeling linger, but yet it wasn;t the same anymore.
While i had thoughts about every single past we share together, i knew he probably din treasure it as much as i do. As like i told every single soul around me how i wish time could turn back and i had done everything i could do to make him stay--- i knew the promise had to come to an end.

the only promise i made in my entire life, the promise to stay with him forever. Why had we all being dwell into a few words that came across our mind? i cherish every single moment i share with him in the past, it had and will always be that happy times.
-Those words we whisper on the phone before i float into my dreamland.
-those peeling prawns for me and impressing my parents
-those sleepless night worrying for him
- those times i secretly tip toe to him while he was sleeping at my living room's sofa, watch and stare at those eyelashes and tell myself he was everything
- those firm grip we hold and promise not to leave each other.

i knew we'll had taken it all into the past and regard them as the past.
i use to curse God for giving him and taking him away from me,
Now i thank God. For He (God) makes me learn from it all.

And whilst Lester and i try to be like friends again, B was all along, still giving me my support, telling me i am old enough to know my next move.
Yet when i finally took my next move, B will hesitate and kept it all in silence.

B had been the nicest soul these days, till i can hardly take it any longer..

lets recap-
He had a 21km run and had to wake up at 3.30am. That silly boy had insist on talking to me till i sleep, for he was afraid i had my usual sleepless night, imaging about monster under the bed. And so we did, chatted till 12.45, time was hard when we had to hang up, i am beginning to miss talking to him. It was weird cos i never thought i will tk him any serious than i did for anyone.

*Nights 12.45 i had to sleep, amazingly, no monster came online (my brain's network) and i slept thru so well.

* woke up at 9 plus after a call, Silly B had finish his run ( let me remind you -- 21 KM, not 2.1 km!~!~) he had run in the heavy run and took the train to my house
"open the door please.. ia m really tired"

*i was half asleep in my usual big Tee and FBT shorts, i open the door to find him just right there, in his running attire, that silly boy, all drenched and carry up to 3 big bag.
--------gosh, it had send me goosebump, feeling so touched like anyone will feel on a TV drama---

* that silly boy, finally had a tiny rest at the sofa, before he took out some dry clothes from his bag, he went to bath and was all fresh again. He den took a tiny rest while i finish up my face. We left my house in less than half an hour after he reached, took the train to my workplace with me..
------the journey was funny, he had told me silly jokes about his expediture and how he was caught in the heavy rain---

*reach my workplace, i got upset by the new rule set at the workplace, one which include interacting with male in the shop cos we are running a lady boutique.. i ahd to ask him to leave like immediately, he quietly did..
-----what was i to do? he had came all the way from mandai, jog to kallang, then rush to yishun and fetch me to orchard T_T----

* he went home and took a quick bath and nap for a little while , then make his way to Figo (his best friend') house to fetch MY cpu, i had ask figo to repair it for me-- in sengkang
----gosh, i din even realise the journey from eunos to sengkang could be more tiring--

*silly boy carry the heavy CPu and cab down to my house (lets recall mandai-kallang-yishun-orchard-Eunos-Sengkang-yishun) my dad greeted him and ask him to stay till i reach home, he insist not.. say he had no time cos i was knocking off in no time.. he grab his bag and make his way to orchard
---- T_T sob sob.. i am REALLY touched---

*appear on time to see me closing the shuttle, he was nagged by me for going anywhere after my work. He insist i should go home cos Dad is waiting for me. i was angry cos i din wan to, den when he start walking and was limping, i almost teared..

he had walk more than enough and run so much today, what more am i suppose to ask? he was tired and i din realise.

*as we travel hme, i ignore him cos i was guilty, but he tot he had offend me, he had to humour me with his usual jokes thou he was dead beat.

*reach my house and fixed my CPU with me.. then Daddy keep reminding him to go home soon or he'l miss the last bus back to eunos, but he insisted on fixing the CPU right..

* then we realise it was too late, we rush down the bus stop, and waited for the bus, i was really touched, tired but i knew he was MORE tired.. i wanted to wait with him but he insisted i go home or he will be worried,

*just than dad call and tel me they are heading for supper, so B insist i go find my parents.

i couldn;t tk it anymore, call me a bitch for givin him false hopes or maybe he really did moved me... i run towards him and hug him so so so tight, he was shock, i could feel it cos he trembles a little. after that i smile at him and rush off to meet my parents./

Dad was worried B could not catch the last bus so was i. So i called him a few times.. he finalyl board the VERY last bus back to his house.. that silly boy must be highly exhausted

MANDAI-KALLANG (21KM RUN)- YISHUN- ORCHARD-EUNOS- SENGKANG-YISHUN-ORCHARD-YISHUN-EUNOS

thats the guy i knew i had to appreciate from now..
Dear all,. congratualation to Kristal.. Chng.. counting down to May 2007, when i promise myself to totally get over Lester and move on to my life.. =)