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it's only till you lost somethings before you learnt to treasure them.. agree! i lost my beloved Grandma on 6th of may..... it was hard but we have to all faced it

it's only till you lost somethings

just when i tot life was going to be alrite....... just when i finally crack my already numb lip to smile..tears start falling down my already dried face........
~ i feel darker when the light is on
~ feel lonely in a crowded street
~ turn on the light when the sun is out
~ stay silence when its my turn to speak

Grand mama had to be admitted to the hospital, fuck i should not have gone to Mail's place, mayb i could see her now........ Grand mama is in the ICU...........

God tell me if this was the path you think is the best for her, i really need the answer

Mau says she would prefer to go if she was Grand mama, so that she can avoid seeing how her sons and daughter fight over her expense............. Damn Fuck those people, i know you can see this,
i am telling you AH yi,
- trust you to live in a condo and save a few grand of saving for your 15 years old daughter,
- to drive the latest Mercedes with auto driving and auto doors,
- to buy the latest handphone in town for your daughter
- to go for salon hair treatment once a week
and to tell us now you cannot afford to pay a hundred contribution to Grand mama birthday party, tell me where do you think your fats and your big fat ugly thign comes from? its ur mama that works her life to pay for your education, so that you become a teacher and finally married a rich man. You are a total disgrace of mankind

i am telling you Ah ku,
- trust you to divorce the best lady on earth just because she can bear you a child
- married a tiny village girl who gives you a daughter
- flirt my maid to have an affair with you
- steal the house from Grand mama and wans to sell it now
and then refuse to pay for the expense and still complain of a bad calculation system

tell me you assholes, why did Grand mama born you into this world to let you all torture.........
Grand gong will punish........ i know he will

Grand mama, can you hear me? why aren;t you awake? those needle pierced thru your veins, over and over again, i know how you feel, may be i dun.. Ma, please talk to me, isn;t it obvious enough how i miss you?
ever since you come down with your first stroke, u just change, you no longer recognise me..... no longer scold mama when she scold me, no longer force mama to get me stuff i wan....... you no longer buy me beads to make beautiful necklace, teach me to knit and no longer cook delicious curry for me anymore,... u love oyster-omelette, i love it too. Ma, come bring me to the coffee shop again, i promise you i will eat kuey chap with you again... we will go jogging like we use to at 7am sharp in the morning, and you will make me very comfortable blankie, nice clothes just the way i wan it to be done........ Ma, i really miss you.,........

Ma, i just miss you so much........ why dun you speak to me no more, why wont you tell me i am doing the wrong things now........ Ma, come and scold your daughter and son, for they are unfillial......... i WISH their children wil do the very same things to them too.................

i am flooded with all these thoughts now...... when will 6 pm tomorrow ever come....... i wanna see you again.

i haven had the time to update. but i guess i am better off than my two other angels- Sharon and Denise.......... hehe.. anyway it;s been a long time to a D.K.S outing. and i miss them very much. ookkk... now for a little update........... went for the class chalet last week....... a lot of things happen.. many things were stolen... and eveyone was upset so we left the chalet early........... it was the saddest day of my life... cos i feel that my boyfriend is not the guy for me....... hai. and everyone kind of suspect it was him who stole.......... ya

ok....... seems like my two other precious went for tanning without me......... so whateva,........ i am packing my bag now......... going to tan........ invited Apel........ suppose to be a gal things..... then came her boyfriend and worst! the damnfucking fellow who actually insulted me- JUN LIn........ know what's the interesting thing? We DID NOT even invite him......... com on i plan it all..... and others screwed it up./..

: the moral of the story................ best friend are still the correct to hang out with for a nice comfortable tan

my resolution for the holiday... to meet Samantha,....... dunno why kinda miss her lots........... then i wanna buck up on tennis more often,.... then get my driving license ASAP...... (not even done with the first theory paper.... sucks) then meet my precious darling Princess and Sharonstars for some chill out....... take lotsa of picture........ (man i think it's high time to get a digi) and work hell out to clear the bad debt i owe the boss...... haha

okok..... i also need to lose weight....... apparently i said that a few thousand times.......... Sam lost weight.... Cuz friend Xiu Xian lost weight..... when is my turn coming...? Gosh.............. Cuz say:" count your blessing" i think i should...........

and every one is mugging for the exam..........................

i guess the world does just revolve in one direction..... cause everyone seems to do the same things every year...... the philosophy of life did not change pretty much too....... it's a damn "human" world, and everyone is damn "human"

i guess i am just the same...... also the with-eye-nose-mouth society....... i do pretty much the same every part of this year...... i set a resolution, find a proper to start...... then the paper just doesn't seems to stop after that.........................................

if i could ony change........... into a society with fat people, where fat is beauty,.,,, no one fights for money or power........ but i guess than in that society no one will stands out among the rest? is that better? okok.. i am contradicting myself........ well... maybe i should accept this earth i am living right now...... hehe........

went to Far East Plaza today... Freddy is giving a treat...... wont miss it... hehe........saw Sharon after so long...... for some reason her face look so small and petite... so i guess she looks good......... Cuzzie says Xiu Xian lost a lot of weight..... and Samantha is looking like a bamboo right now....... so Kristal is so damn fucking useless....... what to do,........

treat my boyfriend badly....... was throwing my temper cause he did not ease my tensin towards the first paper this evening........... and so he faced my music - as usual....................

BAby~ i am so sorry....... so sorry...... and i knew it every time only after making you upset.........

haha.............. but i guess i am better off this days..............

no more toking cock....... really tired out thinking of nonsence

Hi Sam!!! Hi Sam....... hello? Sam!~? SAMANTHA CHUA XING FANG?!~ okok... just wanna tell you i LOVE you...... and if no one wants you, u know i'll still be around........ I Love YOu!!!!! Lubba Lubba Lubba My SammIe!

Kyunwoo!!! kyuwoo... erm.... Jerk?!~ have been attentive enuff this days to still read my blog? hmm...... leave me a comment k pal? Dun let ur life sulk, cos when you do, the others around you will sulk as well......

My Dear Sharon, Exam is finally over y 1st April ya? k the "saddest" things is that my exam only STARTs on 6 April... so happy waiting just like the way i wait for you

My CUzzie...... hmm...... really miss you.......
it's like life without without water and days without the sun
like campbell soup without the mushroom and tennis without the ball
like Old GranDma without their favourite Big Panty and cheerleaders without their pong pong
get what i mean? that's HOW MUCH i MISS you.......

My Princess..... hmm..... we are the luckiest....... meet during work, tok, joke,,,,,, see each others... what more?

my boyfriend and i are doing great...but my exam is pulling me away.. so i kind of threw my temper all the time., and he kind of give in most of the time....... win-win situation!!! haha

okok...... i miss you all so much...... Esp Cuz

Like they always say - Sunshine comes after the rain

i guess i've been too paranoid these days... toking about nonsensical stuff... and guess what ...? i find it totally stupid now.. haha

ok.. for a few updates now...... let's see.. erm,. oh ya... my Mail had a BBQ with his friends last night and i tagged along. hehe...... it was pretty fun./.. reached pretty early.. but it begin with my temper-as usual.
-Greeted his mum, he was teasing me - couldn't care less...
-Help him brought his stuff down, he stare at me, COS i was wearing my best, actually my ONLY spag, haha- i couldn't care less too.....
- den Johan went to buy stuff.. he tok to me, askin me what happen - did not reply

That's it...... he REALISE i was mad.....
ok i could not come with a reason why i was feelin that way..... he den kinda joke to cheer me up... i was laughing inside// but i act cool-as usual
Dumb Fellow finally give up..... just walk with me in silence... ok ... i think i just WIN.. haha

so i crack a damn cow-and-chic joke..... so we started toking again..... haha. he apologise... but seriously, i still dun understand what he has done to make me feel that way...... i think i am SO spoilt.

Start the fire... couldn;t help much,.... so i stand by a side.... then we sneak off to get ice......
then we sneak off again to pick Chin Han... and again to get fire starter........ haha..... fun man.......

then the BBQ start....... boring
called up his sister... ask her to come down join me... she did... we tok and the day ended,,,,, went home...... he brought me safely home... haha..... further elaboration to be continued

that night..... second day to Grandma hospitalisation./// was in a upset mood..... still have to work

he came to fetch me home, with Darren....... they both waited for me to finish my stuff... went together to find Denise, she had to go home with her pri friend.......

took a train home..... we went to hang out at the park as usual.......
was chitchatting when we turn our topic to the moon...... it was almost full........ a nice night to chill together./.. i rest on him....... and stared at the moon............. suddenly he kind of exclaim:" eh!"

then we both look into the sky........ a VERY nice shooting star happen to "shoot" near the moon...... whis reaching burst into 5 parts.. forming the shape of a very nice star...... OmG!
We woke up from the shock and immediately make our wishes... it was the first time i caught a shooting star. and i cannot bring to word how nice it was/...... it was such a romantic night....... he is beside me... and i guess you could have prob guess it..... yah..... we make full use of the chance to kiss.............. yum yum! haha. oops
<( ^ O ^ )>

somehow or rather..... i feel that the stars says it all.,... That God had seen me, that he will blessed my grandma..... that those nights of stress and stuff is over......... i immediatel feel light...... so much lighter.....it like God sent me a Angel...... and she will Now ensure things are well............ i feel happy...... and Mail was by my side...... i feel even better....... hmm

i began to open up,..... i guess so, and XinYI and SiJia and i seems to be on pretty good terms with lotsa of new characters..... Celina, Wei Zhe, and i began to talk more to Xue Shan and Jamie... actually if we do learn to view things at another view, situation can always get better.......

but i cannot deny the fact i miss my Dear and Princess...... we seems to lost ourselve for a while...... i think they are pretty busy with their stuff... so am i...

and Cousin...... OMG! i think she is SO obsess with Rem's galfriend... haha..... not that i am jealous or what... i miss you cousin!

and i miss tennis....... really miss tennis........................

alright. i am in my skool lab now,.. waiting for powerpoint presentation,. in my formal wear today....

-=reply: Darlin. my exam will not be here till 6 april........ right now. i ACTUALLY ask him to join us for dinner. omg. i think i am way too paranoid.. belive me. i have no idea why i am in this KINd mood this days/./// i am SO proud of myself..... haha.

*SPECIAL BLOG*
this is the day i wana a tell you all what happen. so happy sia. like it was all meant be.,... haha. dunno what i am toking?
that day he came to send me home, we were toking at the park as usual. and GUES what happen?

Today's Chapter: Missing Someone So badly..... it Hurts

-it's been almost a week plus since me and Mail met..... we miss us very much..... i miss him.. but sometimes i forget to miss him, then in the night when i think about it... and i feel so guilty.
-Then comes those times when we arrange to meet and have to cancel it last min cos i have something on...
-Then those times i knew we can meet but i dun wanna diversify my concentration cos right then Project was more important...... i feel like a JERK
-Then those times when i am doing my project and my mind is flooded with Project, and there he was missing me and i just couldn;t find the time to call him back....... i am such a loser
-Then comes those times i am SO tired, and we still make the effort to call each other every other night, but when we really tok, all he did was listen to me complaining about my project, and how unhappy i was these days...... he had no complain
-The nights i was too stress at the same time upset over tiniest matter, i cried like a Baby, he was upset... and loss for words
-Those night that he just misses me so much, he admit there'll almost tears

ya right..... as if i was pretty , i had no idea why i feel the way i felt. Bet i wasn;t trying enuff. but when i think about it, i knew many of my steps were just wrong. He's always so supportive and stuff. And all i can do is to upset him...... to think it brighten up his days just by my laughter. why am i behaving like a bimbo? like a dumb ass?

More on the cheerful side now- went to town with Xin Yi and Wei Zhe yesterday.... we also met up with Si Jia and her sis. The funniest part? Wei zje came by my house to wait for me while i bath and change into something fresh. It was quite weird, a guy friend dropping by my house while i change up./ .." if Mail hear about it...... haha........... he sure flare....... but i am gonna be honest to him...... let's see.

to be continue........ sleepy la

-=you know whu you are...... you SUCK and there' NO doubt about it=-
TAN JUN LIN!!!!!!!!! you suck.. you suck..... you are a bastard......you are just an asshole...... ur life is cursed...... i hate you and cant wait to see you dead...... you'll be sorry for what you say......... cos God will never forgive you...... so do i....... you are a TRUE BASTARD>.......

never knew Krissie was that violent? well, get a life then...... i may be easy going, may be the monkey you all think i behave like.. but i swear if you dare provoke me you shall get it.....

-= i cannot stop you from thinking i am ugly....... but i can allow myself to HATE you=-

just receive a msg from him....... -91188850 "yoz...yoz... think u are quite piss e whole day. n i like e source of it, hope there's way i can smoothen it. sorry yeah..."

here's my reply........"yoz...yoz... think u are quite piss e whole day. n i like e source of it, hope there's way i can smoothen it. sorry yeah...-- you like the source of it? i think you are a TRUE SICKO"

he reply" k lor. sicko sicko lo...... u happy whatsoever...... but i dun see no pt y you are angry"

i admit i am ugly....... i dun denied the fact..... but when a human is born,..... they do not come into this world to be insult by others........ a human be it fat or short, female or male, chinese or indian has their principle in life....... what's with people whu uses their butt to tok? whu use their butt to think before they speak...

i hate this month..... it;s like my worst month ever..... nuttin seems right?
God, if you bring me into this world, pls remember me.... dun leave me for a while.......

maybe God doesn't wans me anymore...... maybe i am too ugly

maybe he is right" i am NOT PRETTY"
i am a brainless depress gal..... thinking too much...... my brain juice and eyeballs, ear, and mouth are all in the wrong place
-=see no evil
-=hear no evil
-=touch no evil

this few days has been like hell. i finally wait till Ismail called me before i finally break down and cry.. too stress. nuttin seems to be on the right track.. even a single joke could end me up in a quarrel between me and my brother.... i felt so loss..
-God seems to have left me out for a while..-
and i was left on my own. i did not wanna approach anyone for fear of my temper.... i lost to Simon..... quarrel with my brother when Denise is around.......and just as i walk in front to see some stuff, girl approach Denise and Sharon to be models.... what else could get worst? i feel drained. like all my energy are quickly running out...... Mail tried to call me initially but i was already asleep.... the days are stressed and havoc.. night are dark and scary... i dun wanna live in this fear for long................ And than that day i finally squeeze some time out to talk to my Baby, i finally break down.. i could not take it anymore. i miss my Baby, i dun wan to be those da jie jie solving prob for my best friends or solving equations for my classmates anymore.... i just wan to be a little girl around Mail, i just wanna throw my temper and cry over dropped lollipop... i just wan to be free.. of all this nonsence!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and then Mail told me my Grandma would not wan to see me like this........ i cried.... so badly.... who else can i miss most but my grandma? the previous few cryings over 2 months are because of Grandma. i miss Grandma... i told Mail, he understand how i felt....... he just stood by me........ but that night when he finally told me Grandma would not want to see me like this..... i kind of woke up....... I REALLY MISS MY GRANDMA, the one that teach me knitting, sewing, cooking, cleaninf the house, and the one who encourage me to constantly win others and exercise... i miss Grandma...... that night Mail acc me on the phone while i cry my hearts out......

after a true cry, i smile..... a silent smile, cos i feel so light again, the feeling of letting out all this kept emotions in me are all out....... i giggle, then laugh, then laugh out loud, Mail knew the crisis was over,.......... he was happy, i was happy too...........

i know, i am highly emotional,......... but i cant blame myself....... a few task, projects to be done and then exam and all shall be fine., i saw Bro this afternoon, i said bye to him as i left the house, the first bye we ever exchange, it was pretty good....

-sometimes the simplest bye can mean alot, it can mean~ come back early, we are expecting you for dinner.-

so thats the end of my entry this time...... i bet Princess and Sharon are reading this, let not talk about this topic again........ i just wanna stay happy again./....

me and my empty brains. welcomes problems again/. hehe

time to update the bloggie........finally meet Mail today..... after a long wait of 4 days, suppose to be a long day....... then i got test.. then got tutorial.....the need to eat dinner,. so end up meeting only for about 2 hours,,,,,went to northpoint..... he eat Yoshinoya...... do nuttin much..... never spend much....... so ok ok la.. but still can see e/o..... so was pretty good la...... then i brought along my LOMo, so took 2 shots...... hopefully the film's not negative....... if not sure all the good moments with D n S will be wasted..... and not to forget the times with him........

test today was a killer,,,,,,,, chances of winning Simon is not there.///// but i think i kind of found mny people on my side,,,,, all aiming to win Simon...... so i can still put my faith with them..... lets all win that fellow!

D.K.S outing was so unforgetable...... still lingering on my mind............ we were all so close........ i feel like the world just stop revolving....... we no longer like last time...... had all the complain of the world, right now we are only concentrating on enjoying ourselves, its like we are all living in our small world....... i miss them all so soon...... like the feeling ofseeing them is here with me 24/7...... i guess thats how one should feel when they stablelise something that means so much to them...... be it a relationship or a friendship....... you will eventually feel the bonding and confidence........ so thats is what i am feeling now...........
My best friends are part of me........ and i treasure them so...... much...... its almost impossible to let go......

My dear friends...... are you thinking of the next outing? i am... i feel so light. no longer stress by skool work or the urge to win simon....... i miss you gals....... ]
My dear cuz...... i miss you too....... i wan tennis, our teamwork is ever so fit together, imagine a puzzle... you can only put this piece and the matching one togther...... if you try others...... you know the pic wont turn out right.. thats is how i feel towards you

My Mail, hehe.....what else can i say... he is still so into us, for that i am so glad....... but i think we can sense abit wrong in the way things are happening now........ like last night he ask me if i ever wonder why he always keep quiet when i complain the slightest things about him,........ then i was like..... of course i do, i know he is giving in to me....... and i couldn;t bring myself to tell him i appreciate it..... so i hope he can feel that actually each time i throw my temper, he is doing me a extremely big favour by giving in....... thank you Mail, thou you cannot read this......... and his reason for keeping silence is, because he just can;t get word out of his mouth... so we are still a very weird couple, but still enjoying the way things are........ Mail, you spoil me the way no others can do, haha... i am so into you!!!

Waiting to do hair treatment with D.S.. we are gonna get our hair together....... hehe... and not to forget some one special 's birthday is coming......... ooo.........

Si Jia begin to open up. eveyone could tell...... she even tells XIn Yi and me jokes....... haha... i feel so proud of myself, no reason....... haha...... just feel that i have open them up. and i enjoy this friendship day by day.. more and more... they make me study, make me eat less...... see,,,,, it's a win win thingy..... i also make them openup... and they make me MORE lady like...... haha...... i guess i make the right friends,,,, and thank god i did not follow simon..... like those D**

love you................................. ('v')chic----x.X=Love=X.x---cow (moo!)

today's is D.K.S anni....... we had the greatest of all...... i bet all of us had so much fun... bought a lot of stuff..... Denise had the greatest catch.. she spend like about a hundred bucks...... on skirt, halter, bag, stationeries..... haha.. like a total makeover.....for the whole body... haha...
Sharon dear......... bought a OP pants..... skirt too.....stationeries......
Krissie me........ bought a skirt... OP shorts...... stationeries............
we had so much fun....... eat at Fish and co....... the meal was ex...... and not at all delicious....... haha./. we took pic too...... before meal..... after meal....... in the train...... it's like a friendship understanding........we liek what we are doing........
okok
my boyfriend call..... i wanna concentrate on talkin to him...... hehe.......

Baby..... i am so touch,.....
you light up my life
you give me hope to carry on
you light up my life and filled my days

This few days was fufil... had promise my dear Sharon to eat lesser,. turns out i am eating more........ hmm... had better reflect on my action and try my best to change for the better..... Dear Sharon can do it, so i mus do it better.......

O levels results are out, turns out the result were the oposite of what everyone was expecting....... hmm..... could tell Rem was not very happy...... My bro was like so proud of himself...... i am proud of him too lah... considering he was never really good at studies......

Baby and i seems to quarrel a lot this while....... not exactle quarrel cos we always tok it out calmly and apologise.... i guess i guess absence makes the hearts grew fonder we are like this real weird couplt that do things of both world but still enjoy being together........

Today Baby happen to use the handphone... n so we sms a lot..... then he finally let his secret out... haha..... he was goin to sign up Biking after class today....... hmm....... seems like i have a huge impact on him...... haha.. no wonder he always i am the only one who can make him shut up...... i guess i finally understand what this sentence means...... Baby promise not to skip lesson for work again..... and he really did, in fact he arrive so early in school that his friend were going like "what;s happening>?" haha..... only i know........

i make a card for Baby, our 3rd month anni is coming...... hehe....... cant wait.....

D,K,S updates-
the day after is D.k.S friendship day...... its so gonna be a huge occasion so much so that i have decided to skip lecture,. we'll chill out togther...... hehe..... gonna be fun...... i was telling XIn yi and Si jia, they wish me all the best......... D.K.S is so gonna bitch our ways fun

one more things, seems like i am losing out to Simon in test better buck up and win him.......... haha..... our class is holding a chalet in april and i have invited Baby, its gonna be an ovenight event....... so i cant wait to hang out with the classmates and with Baby thru the night........ Have rest assure and warn myself against doing anything stupid....... Mail and discuss about it too before, we WILL know our limits..... hehe....... so i can jolly rest assure things is gonna turn out fine..... gonna prove to mummy that i can be trusted and so can Mail......

This days so not in the mood......... yesterday wanted to write my blog... but end up Mail called..... so write a pretty brief one.....

baby Mail was not in a good mood... and all i could was to spike him...... i dunno lah....... why am i always so selfish? its like everytime i throw my temper he will console........ but i always end up scolding him what a bad consoler he is,...... he just took my words silently.......

the day before i was crying...... guess i was too tired...... cos everything in my life seems to pilingup at the wrong place....... i want things to change, but my eagerness to get everything done seems to be pulling me down into the water as well....... i soon break down, Mail was on the phone...... he is not a good consoler..... he started ignoring the topic....... i was damn feeling what the hell..... then i simply could not take in whateva he was saying..... was thinkin on my burden this while....... then i thought of Mama, i miss my granny so badly....... that was also like the sparks to our sad conversation on that day........ i cry in silence, Mail could not realise...... i miss granny. wanted her so badly....... then Mail was goin on and on about his i-dunno-what.....
i finally tell him to mark my word, " stop telling others about ur similar encounter regarding their unhappiness" he was silence for a while........ and then just swallow the sentence down......

Baby, i know i am mean to you most of the time....... know you cant read my blog...... but thanks for keeping your sorrow in silence and instead opening up to mine.......

yesterday night was chatting with Mail again..... we were better la....... he was still going on and on about his matter...... cos when he ask how my day was, all i could say was ok... not too bad... so i guess he reckon since he cant to vomit his day to me....... might as well.........
...... Mail will still be talkative......... that's my boyfriend........ i like him for who he is, and not who he is not......... hehe....... cos we're the cow and chic!

kept complaining to Mail about the changes that occur before and after our getting togther....... was complaining how he use to agree to everything i say;....... and now he just bombard me back...... SO THATS HIS TRUE COLOR....... haha.................. but he knew i dun take all this complain seriously....... in fact i hav to admit as days grew, he just keeps getting better.....and better...... so i am still SO into US........ honeymoon period not over yet........ sorry pple...........

then his mama say something about us resembling his uncle and aunty in the past....... always talks on the phone....... always meet(thou we did not) ...... then she add on that after marriage tok less than half a sentence a day....... aunty only complain and uncle cant be bothered......... in the end.... hai..
i am always scared of this./////// Mail relative has a few records of marriage of different races...... and NONE ended well....... not trying say that we wont or something..... but considering my temper and his hack care ness....... i somehow fear the day will come........ but i told him to tell his mama that i wont marry him./;/ haha........ better to add a bit of joke into the tense conversation.......

enuff of Mail and me............. i am not going to get too emotional today...... hehe

Writing about me again............
-life been's busy... all i wanna do now is just to pass my motor test.... hopefully the biking test wil turn out well........
-then comes the class quizes........ hai.....tests after tests... all i wanna do is to win Simon that fellow........
-Friends are fine....... Denise and i finally meet up again....... i miss her........ that gal gimme the hand cream from her shop...... she is so sweet........ Hui Quan gave her a Swatch watch forvalentine and that Wayne...... he's so into Denise....... planning to give her a Handphone...... no guys do that....... and to think they think gals are materialistic....... hate guys like this...... dun only think gals are only into money..... fuck off
-As for Cuz, she's been pretty into Edward...... hmm...... at least it's better than being with that Eric........ he's quite disppointing really....... hope Cuz make the right choice in the end.
-I miss Tennis, and i think Coach misses us, msg me and Cuz..... we are gonna have a game 2 hours this sat
-into this diet thingy, must report to my darlin Sharon what eva thing i eat at every point of time,...... so i guess my intake was going down...... please God, let me succeed
-went to Pasir Ris-Fisherman Village for dinner....... had seafood, coconut drink, crab, vege, mee goreng, satay, hong kong mee..... oh my god, sharon is so gonna kill me, so i had salad for dinner...... hmm had japanese rice for lunch, did not finish it. pregressing well
-cannot have swimming tomorre,,,,,, got remedial..... hai........ nvm...... all for the sake of winning SIMON!
-Mail and i went to the movie with Apel, Adrian, Lakshmi, Syahirah, Celina, Chris that day... the movie Hide and Seek has 2 endings, whoo..... like it man..... it was pretty scary. And Baby was like almost scared out of his life........

-=Baby..... hehe... you look so cute when you suddenly grab my hand and jump, haha=-

i guess thats probaaly life....... pretty good...... please god, diversify my time well..... i must succeed and gone thru the period successfully!

-=points taken: i still want my Mail........ =-

me posing..... shot taken before clubbing
me posing again..... gettin hooked
me posing still.. can;t get enuff
dear and i .....look so dreamy right? she's kissing me
brother and i , my brother Gary
Cuzzie and i,, during new year
mail serious look while eating..... haha
me sister and i ...... we look alike right?

Yippie, Krissie writes again....... sorry been lazy this days....... here are the latest updates:

Clubbing at MadMonks:
located at Clark Quay, a nice place for LeSsie.. went with Cuz and S-dear, Eric Edward Hwee Siang Louis and Edwin..... pretty nice night, we were talking about those days they first saw me, wit that bastard Bobvin... and we drank too... then could tell Louis was a little into Sharon, As for my cuz, she was busy entertaining her friends she saw at Monks, those guys didn't had much time to talk to her..... later on, Cuz and i, s-dear and edwin went on to dance, Sharon foot got stamp by a idiot, she left the dance floor early, Eric came to join us , the survivor game went on and i guess Cuz and i had to take the throne, we are certainly better at dancing compare to them.... hehe.
The night ended, fews days later, turns out Eric and Edward kinda like my cuzzie, funny thou, edward seems so quiet and who would have thought he's been eying my cuz, hmm..... my cuz sure had her part in attracting, so like i always say, she's definitely beta with guys than gals (oops!~)

Valentine:
ok, mail and i spend this days together, we both finish skool, went home to change and meet up again, bought a couple bag (which everyone says its nice), caught a movie constantine which i dun think is nice, ate dinner togther, bought a slipper, i like the whole idea, it just us, a boring date can turn out fun too.

2nd Anni:
with my mail again, it was really fun, he bought me a top from P.O.A.... and a musical box, these 2 things are really nice, and the musical box plays a sweet melody "you light up my life"... we also watch e movie "feng shui" horror, scary... hehe not bad... we went for dinner at Marina Square top, with Sea View, so it was a nice place to chat... then we shop at Marina, he brought to a place he love to shop, "Rasafari" so i guess he and i both share the same interest...... we bought a couple bracelet..... and then we went to Wallet Shop and i bought him his anni gift too..... turns out the design i thought of buying for him is the one he HOPe i've gotten for him....... we are a special 2
night ended with a cab home....... that shall mark our best date

an overall conclusion is that all these event were pretty fun...... i hope i will continue to enjoy myself in the other upcoming event, BTW i sign up for Bike already, so hopefully i can pass the test in the shortest time,....... hmm..... then i can "broom broom" everyone to anywhere

-Schools been fine...... finally win that Si-mon fellow
-birthday was so fun!! everyone remember...... Sharon HuiWen and Vivien stayed over... went for supper in the night..... next day class sang a song for me, went to Juriong point with mummy..... Hui WEn came in the night..... surprise birthday cake!!!!
-Went clubbing at MS (Angels and Rush), actually Sharon and Denise cannot come in... Aunty Lily was smart...... it was so fun! we drank and dance..... 3 westerners hook up to us....... hmm.... not good
-My baby and i did not celebrate birthday together........ haiz./... waiting for coming friday to meet him for the whole day!!

-=:::: boring week:::=-
-=:::My birthday plans:::=-
-friday after work goto my darlin cousin house to stay over...... this earlier than last year.,.... last year is 30jan we went to swensen this year is 29. hmm. CuZZIe may next year worst!!! Looking forward to celebrating with CUzzIe ... just you and i ........
-saturday after work meet Denise and Sharon. we'll be having a girls' night out..... they are staying over at my place........ nice!! WE shall order pizza and chill the night out... Pyjamas birthday bash..... just us
-sunday wake up go to work.... reach home shall sleep... it is Gary's birthday. hmm....... shall be a guai sista..........
-Monday is moi birthday.... school as usual.......... shall celebrate with XIn yi and Si Jia..... then shall go home........
-whole week is empty.....
-Sat will come again then shall go out with Ooo.babies to clubbin........
-sun shall meet up with Baby....

this year birthday is gonna be even better than any others.... cos i am determine to make it better.........
mustn;'t forget to sign up for motor bike........ Finally!!!!

school and work.......school and work........ i think i might break down anytime..............
Baby and i are getting on fine.......... we are looking forward to the second anni....... to be exact.... the 4 yrs few month anniversary....................... Miss my baby....... he wont celebrate birthday with me... sigh!!!

recently many couples seem to quarrel then ok ........ first is SHaron dear and Cai FU........ hmm. CaiFu better treat my dear dear better..........
then comes Celina and Chris..... but ok liao.......... must learn to treasure
then is Wei Zhe and Wei Fang........ ok la..... lucky ok liao

Xin yi is bothered by 2 persons.... further details shall update again....
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Cuzzie.......... i wan tennis!!!~

-=i had fun last night........ so nice to see u again BaBy=-

was very proud of Baby last night......... he was in this super-bad mood......... but he did what i like to do....... Baby done some self-reflection........... then he cheer up abit.......and all was fine after that........ i was feeling proud of him cos he actually stand infront of me did went on like whu is in the wrong and whu's right and how he;s gonna forgive them......... haha....... so 'man'

-=MenSus Kills!!!!! had overdose of Chocolate supply=-

period was here this few days....... no wonder i kept throwing my temper........... hmm.......luckily it's over today... just in time for my swimming.

-=Workload is piling........ think i flunk my class test....... ZeRo hero!=-
new year quickly come quickly go........ i shall pull up my socks and study,........ i can do it

-=Baby is preparing for my birthday...... our 2nd anni, and Valentine=-
i bully him...... now he had to prepare 3 gifts..... haha
1. 31st jan is KriSsie's birthday
2. 8 feb is 2nd anni
3. Valentine........
all i have to prepare is valentine and 2nd anni....... will get him a wallet..... Baby wallet is rotten liao.......
Valentine............ hmm.................. have gotten him so far: ring, towel......... maybe i should try Hooked Clothing Tee liao........

-=Miss Tennis again....... addiction for it grew........... AH!!!=-
NYP openhouse is this few days....... me is helper........ the T shirt provided for us is pretty cool

Make my baby real angry........ Sorry baby shouldn't have say those harsh words to you....... i take it all back...... and i seriously dun mean it....... Sorry baby.........Sorry Mail.....


Cousin say i should cut short my entry...... here's what happen.......
keep throwing my temper..... had a bad day yesterday........ tennis for 2 hours,,,,,, working and chatting with Mail......... guess i was too tired....... i complain about him being a woodblock and not caring for my feeling......... even told him not to meet me today after school... regreted.........

Woke up to realise i dun mean what i say./....... was praying for Mail to call so i can apologise...... he finally got Johan to msg me saying he's sorry.......

-=Baby...... i am sorry too....... you know i dun mean it...... you may not be sweet at times but i know you care so much inside.................. i regret what i say...... sorry MaiL=-

Mail ask if i could give him my blog address....... thought for a while and decide to play a game with him... so the answer of the game is the blog address............. Baby did not wan to play after a while........... he thought about it and decide i should have my own "CirCle-Of-Secrets" ..... he also say if he did learn about my feelings of him thru the net....... he will never feel the significance...........


Had Tennis yesterday..... Cousin and i seem to lost the bonding,..... maybe we were both tired...... Sorry Cuz...... I Love you CuZzie!

Sharon dear and i swam as promise today....... my trouser are beginning to feel large. good news? hopefully i dun take it for granted.........

Special friend send his regards over his blog......it's been so long......... not bad he still bother to read....... cos i thought he would long forget a friend like me...... thanks pal....... My Boyfriend and i are doing fine........

Mail and i were counting the days to 2nd month...... and days to 3th..... 4th......5th.....6th......7th month.......it's a cow-and-chicken thingy

2 hearts despite the dist can still be held together
Swimming with my sharon dear..... then head down for a good MAc meal

It's truly funny few days...... feels like God finally decides to send one of his angels to me......... and i am loving it!..... to begin with was the fact that Sharon Dear and i got closer day by day...... so the time when we did not contact for a while does not really matter i think,............. but i must not neglect Denise dear........ cos den she will lost her angel.........


Angel reads my mind..... knows what i am thinking...... was it the horoscopes? or was i just in my happy days... i feel so light this days....... so light i dun even feel hungry anymore....... went swimming with Sharon today....... then it was as usual lunch...... but we had a huge portion of Mac............ Sharon join her school swimming team like i already mention....... she acc me swim in the morning then again in the night....... Dear ah,. u better take care of urself............
REad Denise blog todays...... was i thinking the wrong way? but she mention she went to countdown with a guy friend and 2 more couples....... and she said she got her warmth in the cold night by the guy she only know that day........ maybe it was just sharing jacket........ maybe they hug? i am pretty worried for Denise esp since she only know him like on that day....................
Missas tennis...... tomorr i am meeting Shi Xiang in the night to play tennis at his condo........ told Mail about it,...... he is quite understanding lah... told me to have fun

okok...... now for my usual updates; me and Mail............ oh,...... i must say i am in the limelight this days..... perhaps its because of him......... pple start to agree i stop being grouchy as compare to those days where i seem to pull my face everywhere i walk........... anyway something GREAT happen........ hmm..... dunno good or bad lah...... but it was a neutral thing.........

okok....... anxious sia? haha,.... heres what happen........ that day was talking to Sharon dear and asking her why Mail and i seem to be shy whis talking to each other while dating....... i mean, yah we do hold hands and stuff.. but the feeling is like..... i tend to keep things i wanna tell him from him...... and i dun dare to show him my concern even thou i care....... so i throw every things out to Sharon dear, and she conclude perhaps our dist is still not shorten........ the cure? hahaha................... maybe a kiss will bring the dist closer...........]

ok that was one day....... so the next day i was working with Candice,......... our supervisor....... and i told her what Sharon dear say......... and guess what.. she nod her head vigourously and agreed!! but the one things she and Aunty lily cannot believe is..... that althou i use to date Mail in Sec sch times for about 3 years...... we have never kiss before... or what......we were the real "pureLy" dating couple....... they laugh at me...... then they ask me if we did kiss now? i mean as in after we start seeing each other again since 8/12/2004...... i say no...... then they laugh even louder....... (what was that suppose to mean? maybe i am naive)

okok...... these 2 incidents makes me really consider the issue about "kissing" haha......... i mean it is not as if this was my first kiss....... but this man is different....... so i put the thought away...... mind you, he is a true Muslim....... and a stupid pig like me will think Muslim are those "guai guai"! haha........ okok.....

yesterday 5/12/05..... that dummy came to pick me up as usual....... so i thought it was another day...... did not even bother to dress up....... when he reach..... i turn to look..... oh my gosh!!!! his friends was with him...... so that fellow good lah.. past few days is my class mates saw him...... so now he taking revenge......... haha...... so his friend and him left for dinner..... i was given this grace period to pack up........ ah!!!! what was i to do? makeup? clean up?!~~~~~~~~~`` i was in the shop...... it was useless....... in the end? i use the mascara the next shop gave us........ all done.!!! he came again....... pick me up and brought me to the fast food his friends were at........ we all left togther to play pool........ waited for a while for hisother friends to arrive........ but i had to leave so we did...... say sorry to his friend and we left.......took a LONG bus (as in like a 1 hours plus journey... 2 stupid fools!) and we talk alot on the bus ....... first time we talk so much...... not on the phone but facing each other......... then i slept in the bus...... while later reach yishun..... went down and to the next bustop for him to go home........... that was the funniest part......... i think we kiss/~!?!?!?!?!?.?!~ he initiate it..... so we erm... just a peck lah....... but i was shock and blushing and i quickly turn away and walk ......... walk home with his wallet!!!!! he had to chase after and call out 3 times my name before i woke up and realise>>> oops!!! ..... gave him his wallet....... that was the day........ he knew what i was thinking....... am i gonna fall into this guy for quite some time????????????....... hehe,........ maybe........

okok......... so you know my secret now.......... hehe...... i tthink angel is around me........ thanks ange;.......

i hope you feel shock to realise the new blogskin image........ This Focker in my class thought me ways to do it....... like the new skin....... kind of possess the deep thought inside....... anyway i download this blog from this user...... and she mention that the skin was meant for sad ppl...... i am not sad..... but i think that is exactly the feeling my heart is feeling....... i guess i have carry on.... i guess i love the cheerful and crazy me....... but i guess certain things can be change on the outside but not on the inside...... thats just me...........

Anyway no matter what i shall still capture everything that makes me happy.........
Today was a so-call good girly day....... i woke up...... revise thru japanese homework........ make some pancake....... Dad was making the TV,,,,,,......... he is capable of repairing all spoilt things...... mum is so proud of Dad........ Mum taught me how to make pancake from scratch....... not with pancake mix........ thou i wil still prefer the pancake jack mix taste..... anyway that was morning........ afternoon..... i achieve my goal in memerizing the 46 hiragana alphabets for spelling tomorrow........ Otah Sensee is putting high hopes in me and Xinyi in our Japanese class....... so i better do a good job....... Xue Shan called me in the afternoon to ask me regarding the BM0036 work....... suddenly i feel abit wanted in the class........ am somehow glad that after the holiday everyone is making an effort to help out one another and bring the bond again.........lunch today was fun.....Mum bought Sushi material home and taught me how to do Sushi...... not that i dunno...... but i did it the important way....... which means the family is eating all that was done by me....... hmm.. proud neh........ too bad the silly dummy did not get to try my cooking today....... actually today wanted to ask Cuz for tennis but she had her daughter-dad outing...... so maybe it was plain luck....... cos i am glad we did not have tennis....... the rain was pouring hell....... even the sky is crying for the tsunami disaster........

Everyone at work is pressurising me,.......... i feel heavy on my back,........ either they call to ask me to plan schedule for them or they will ask to swop dates to workk........... gimme a break gals..... i am not in the mood right now,........

Btw....... on new year countdown,......... was suppose to go with Mail and his friends to pub...... i am inderage i know but he's got ways....... but i didn't go...... i think Mail knew earlier i was going to say no last min...... he knew me too well........ when he call at 7 to confirm what time to pick me up....... i immediately break the news to him......... but he wasn't at all angry...... he predicted it all ....... haha....... and to ensure this does not stop us from meeting each other........... the dummy bought tickets for the movie i wanted to watch...... "Meet the fockers" he is sweet i know..... i am trying my best not to take it for granted too........ and guess what ,...... i only tell him i wanted to catch "Meet the fockers" like the day before....... he take every single word i say seriously..... i am so blessed...........

Yesterday..... 2/1/05/......... working,........ really no money le...... that morning went to shopping with my dear Sharon....... we are in the mood to tailor our stuff...... so we went to buy cloth.......... spend 45 bucks on them... that night......... relly no money le...... then jocelyn working...... not Denise........ althiou sat she cannot achieve the target of 100hundred........ in her mood...... i thought..... aiyah:" can help then help....." so i use up the last bit of my money and bought oil from her...... ok lah./... i benefit too........ so not bad lo./........ i think certain things i must not be too kind......... anywya i am planning to donate money to the tsunami ....... not too much to spare..... btu must not let mummy learnt about it..... i think she might scold me....... i think donate 50 bucks ok ok right...... hai.......dun wan to talk about the disaster....... makes my heart sink only.........

pierce my ear again,........... the top part...... not pain...... thinking of piercing my nose...... aiyah this kind of things better discuss with cuz first... dunno why but towards this matters...... cuz seem to know best.


this few days very close to dear sharon...... must remind myself not to neglect princess De........ and not neglect Sammie..... and cousin ...... and Mail......

shit i put on a lot of weight this few days........ better do something

today mrks the last day of 2004...... this year has been fun........ so i wanna mark it down before it turn 2005......
this year......
In 2005...............
-i went to CJC and Met alot of incredible ppl....... SamAntha esp...... i begin to feel special..........
-i begin to work with Ooo...Baby......... ppl are cool........... i learn alot and i think i grew up there
-i went to NYP........ dun like the ppl there but all human are equal and are to be treated equally....... so i am learning to like them........ but XInYi and SiJia are real nice ppl
-the first year i separated from D.K.S everything is more like a independant...............
-Cousin and i have played tennis for a year i guess...... keep it up.....
-Bobo came into my life....... regret,.........
-miss IsmAIl and want him back.
-got Ismail back
-SYF 2004... gold.... band major ....... gold award
-Jek Sheng....... hmm...... bad guy
-knew Jerk for more than a year
-went to Watch Electrico with Zhi Liang
-Pat left for Thailand..... forever
-Singapore Idol........ Taufik BatiSah
-Jean knew Cuz...... Steve too
-Mummy learn about Ismail
-erm...........

too many to write........ 2004 was real fun........ horoscope says........ Aquarius.:"2004 was fun and 2005 promise to be even more unexpectedly fun....... " i cant wait............. Ismail and i are doing well........ i cant wait for more