RodKris

it was all a stupid thinking......... i was too paranoid............. hehe........ stupid Kristal..... sometimes i have to admit my stupidity................. haha......... but my foolishness makes me look silly some times and for that i think i kinda of like it........ hehe........ and i realise he only hadn;t call for one day........ look........ how silly i was......

anyway yesterday i called him while i touch down at yishun......... guess i am not the kind to hide my emotion,....... if i dun do something i wanted to do........ i know i will not forgive myself......... i called....... and his sis pick up the phone..... that dummy was bathing....... just finish his taekwando class........ i ask his sis to get him to call me back.......
not long..... special friend call..... aiyah that fellow deserve a spank on the butock sometime,........ he ah...... still in the angel mood...... anyway i advise him what ever i could....... and tell him to reflecton himself......... haha... hopefully he will wake up....... like i always say....... somethings are meant to be selfish....... and those who think sacrifying is a worshipping action........ they better think again.......

halfway along our conversation..... the dummy call....... he just came out of the bathroom...... haven dress i guess (that was the funny part........ i was blushing when he say he need to call me back after 5 min) i told him i was talking to special friend.....and will call him again later........ so he hang up...... then i went back to talk to special friend........ and the second line came again,...... it was jannity....... i feel so sorry for her..... she needed my advise too.......and i actually tell her i will call her back later....... which i didn't........ and i went back talking to special friend......... and the second line came again....... that dummy call so confirm i was calling him........... haha..... so sweet....... he say if he dun confirm...... later he wait for my call till dunno what time......... i say i WILL call him later,.. then i went back to talk to special friend again......... and after quite a while....... i decided to let special friend be on his own...... dunno why but i could sense he was really taking what i said into his mind,..... guess he is into his land again........ so we hung up.......

after which i call the dummy and we chatted......... but at the very start of our conversation...... it was all my so-call scolding...... cos i feel my heart kinda melted upon hearing his voice...... so despite i wanted to scream my head off him......... it just went so funny......... that dummy listen silently till i finish my nonsence.........then he say....... "i'm sorry"........ haha./........ and its all worth it,......... cos it totally make me feel so flying in the air...... then he explain,....... and i told him about what Candice say....... that i was being too paranoid and i agree...... that dummy actually laugh silently and i know that he is happy that i was caring and waiting impatiently for his call........ he is just so "transparent"..... its like we always know what each other is thinking or saying........

then he told me that the day when i went to his house for Hari Raya......... his mum already say i was those jumpy kind of girl........ but yesterday...... she say something about me can brighten up anyone;s day... whoo....... i;m so hoonour........ and his sis feedback to him that that day when her friends saw me...... they think i look good........... hmm....... i haven receive so much compliment........ i think i should really work doubling hard to lose off those fats........ and i told him about what happen during work yesterday....... btw... this is what happen: not something very proud to mention:

i was having a bad mood cos of his not-calling....... so candice i should grab a good bite and she recommended wrappa-mania celsar salad wrap........ so i went to buy it..... and as i was ordering.... this malay guy insist on serving me..... i took my order and waited there for it...... and he was practically staring at me..... i feel kinda uncomfortable so i look at the other side........ then he call out to him and suggest i sit by one side and wait..... so i did........ but he was still staring at me..... haha....... then after a while i heard him scolding the chef and hurrying him to cook faster and dun let the lady customer wait too long..... then he call out to me to receive my order..... i took it and say thanks and walk off...... he say "thank you..... sorry to keep you waiting......" i smile...... i walking far from the shop and suddenly he shouted :"hope to see you again!" and i look back and giggle....... cos i find hime rather..... haha..... silly.......
yah....... so i told that to ismail and kinda boast lah....... hehe...... but he only laugh......... i ask why and he say i could not escape from his charm...... hah..... i think we both make a funny couple since we joke alot and boast around....... that dummy ah........ really lah...... haha........
we chatted about everything and he was talking from Johan; to toilet; to his day; to Hari raya custom and final ly to his Dad........ but i admit i was losing concentration......... so i apologise to him that i cannot really get thru what he was saying......... he said it was ok and he was glad i was being honest......
i think i like the way things are going now...... to think we have been togetehr for 4 years already....... but everythings stills sound so fresh....... and i'm glad for that......

dec 7.......it will be the day (according to him it is 7dec not 9dec) when we have to make our decision whether to carry on getting closer....... i have big plans for that day but i didnlt tell him that....... anyway i wish i could write it here...... cos this is my secret compartment.........

i was thinking of getting him a ring...... big metallic kind from hooked clothings...... than on that day i will act like a gentleman...... put on the ring for him and ask "will you be my boyfriend?" haha...... sounds rather stupid right? but it took me a long time to decide this is the best way...........
no wonder my friend all think i am a crazy girl with crazy ideas,........ i feel so wacky!!! hem!~ (*v*)

haha...... since i am a person with this character....... only a few kind of people can stand as a girlfriend...... today i realise and "forgive" those whom i didn't end up together with...... if we really get together..... they perhaps can;t stand me for up to a month....... so yah.... anyway these kind only 2...... special friend and kim wah..... so i guess its a blessing to them too...... haha......... i'm basically tallking nonsence again...... what the hell