-=:::: boring week:::=-
-=:::My birthday plans:::=-
-friday after work goto my darlin cousin house to stay over...... this earlier than last year.,.... last year is 30jan we went to swensen this year is 29. hmm. CuZZIe may next year worst!!! Looking forward to celebrating with CUzzIe ... just you and i ........
-saturday after work meet Denise and Sharon. we'll be having a girls' night out..... they are staying over at my place........ nice!! WE shall order pizza and chill the night out... Pyjamas birthday bash..... just us
-sunday wake up go to work.... reach home shall sleep... it is Gary's birthday. hmm....... shall be a guai sista..........
-Monday is moi birthday.... school as usual.......... shall celebrate with XIn yi and Si Jia..... then shall go home........
-whole week is empty.....
-Sat will come again then shall go out with Ooo.babies to clubbin........
-sun shall meet up with Baby....

this year birthday is gonna be even better than any others.... cos i am determine to make it better.........
mustn;'t forget to sign up for motor bike........ Finally!!!!

school and work.......school and work........ i think i might break down anytime..............
Baby and i are getting on fine.......... we are looking forward to the second anni....... to be exact.... the 4 yrs few month anniversary....................... Miss my baby....... he wont celebrate birthday with me... sigh!!!

recently many couples seem to quarrel then ok ........ first is SHaron dear and Cai FU........ hmm. CaiFu better treat my dear dear better..........
then comes Celina and Chris..... but ok liao.......... must learn to treasure
then is Wei Zhe and Wei Fang........ ok la..... lucky ok liao

Xin yi is bothered by 2 persons.... further details shall update again....
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Cuzzie.......... i wan tennis!!!~

-=i had fun last night........ so nice to see u again BaBy=-

was very proud of Baby last night......... he was in this super-bad mood......... but he did what i like to do....... Baby done some self-reflection........... then he cheer up abit.......and all was fine after that........ i was feeling proud of him cos he actually stand infront of me did went on like whu is in the wrong and whu's right and how he;s gonna forgive them......... haha....... so 'man'

-=MenSus Kills!!!!! had overdose of Chocolate supply=-

period was here this few days....... no wonder i kept throwing my temper........... hmm.......luckily it's over today... just in time for my swimming.

-=Workload is piling........ think i flunk my class test....... ZeRo hero!=-
new year quickly come quickly go........ i shall pull up my socks and study,........ i can do it

-=Baby is preparing for my birthday...... our 2nd anni, and Valentine=-
i bully him...... now he had to prepare 3 gifts..... haha
1. 31st jan is KriSsie's birthday
2. 8 feb is 2nd anni
3. Valentine........
all i have to prepare is valentine and 2nd anni....... will get him a wallet..... Baby wallet is rotten liao.......
Valentine............ hmm.................. have gotten him so far: ring, towel......... maybe i should try Hooked Clothing Tee liao........

-=Miss Tennis again....... addiction for it grew........... AH!!!=-
NYP openhouse is this few days....... me is helper........ the T shirt provided for us is pretty cool

Make my baby real angry........ Sorry baby shouldn't have say those harsh words to you....... i take it all back...... and i seriously dun mean it....... Sorry baby.........Sorry Mail.....


Cousin say i should cut short my entry...... here's what happen.......
keep throwing my temper..... had a bad day yesterday........ tennis for 2 hours,,,,,, working and chatting with Mail......... guess i was too tired....... i complain about him being a woodblock and not caring for my feeling......... even told him not to meet me today after school... regreted.........

Woke up to realise i dun mean what i say./....... was praying for Mail to call so i can apologise...... he finally got Johan to msg me saying he's sorry.......

-=Baby...... i am sorry too....... you know i dun mean it...... you may not be sweet at times but i know you care so much inside.................. i regret what i say...... sorry MaiL=-

Mail ask if i could give him my blog address....... thought for a while and decide to play a game with him... so the answer of the game is the blog address............. Baby did not wan to play after a while........... he thought about it and decide i should have my own "CirCle-Of-Secrets" ..... he also say if he did learn about my feelings of him thru the net....... he will never feel the significance...........


Had Tennis yesterday..... Cousin and i seem to lost the bonding,..... maybe we were both tired...... Sorry Cuz...... I Love you CuZzie!

Sharon dear and i swam as promise today....... my trouser are beginning to feel large. good news? hopefully i dun take it for granted.........

Special friend send his regards over his blog......it's been so long......... not bad he still bother to read....... cos i thought he would long forget a friend like me...... thanks pal....... My Boyfriend and i are doing fine........

Mail and i were counting the days to 2nd month...... and days to 3th..... 4th......5th.....6th......7th month.......it's a cow-and-chicken thingy

2 hearts despite the dist can still be held together
Swimming with my sharon dear..... then head down for a good MAc meal

It's truly funny few days...... feels like God finally decides to send one of his angels to me......... and i am loving it!..... to begin with was the fact that Sharon Dear and i got closer day by day...... so the time when we did not contact for a while does not really matter i think,............. but i must not neglect Denise dear........ cos den she will lost her angel.........


Angel reads my mind..... knows what i am thinking...... was it the horoscopes? or was i just in my happy days... i feel so light this days....... so light i dun even feel hungry anymore....... went swimming with Sharon today....... then it was as usual lunch...... but we had a huge portion of Mac............ Sharon join her school swimming team like i already mention....... she acc me swim in the morning then again in the night....... Dear ah,. u better take care of urself............
REad Denise blog todays...... was i thinking the wrong way? but she mention she went to countdown with a guy friend and 2 more couples....... and she said she got her warmth in the cold night by the guy she only know that day........ maybe it was just sharing jacket........ maybe they hug? i am pretty worried for Denise esp since she only know him like on that day....................
Missas tennis...... tomorr i am meeting Shi Xiang in the night to play tennis at his condo........ told Mail about it,...... he is quite understanding lah... told me to have fun

okok...... now for my usual updates; me and Mail............ oh,...... i must say i am in the limelight this days..... perhaps its because of him......... pple start to agree i stop being grouchy as compare to those days where i seem to pull my face everywhere i walk........... anyway something GREAT happen........ hmm..... dunno good or bad lah...... but it was a neutral thing.........

okok....... anxious sia? haha,.... heres what happen........ that day was talking to Sharon dear and asking her why Mail and i seem to be shy whis talking to each other while dating....... i mean, yah we do hold hands and stuff.. but the feeling is like..... i tend to keep things i wanna tell him from him...... and i dun dare to show him my concern even thou i care....... so i throw every things out to Sharon dear, and she conclude perhaps our dist is still not shorten........ the cure? hahaha................... maybe a kiss will bring the dist closer...........]

ok that was one day....... so the next day i was working with Candice,......... our supervisor....... and i told her what Sharon dear say......... and guess what.. she nod her head vigourously and agreed!! but the one things she and Aunty lily cannot believe is..... that althou i use to date Mail in Sec sch times for about 3 years...... we have never kiss before... or what......we were the real "pureLy" dating couple....... they laugh at me...... then they ask me if we did kiss now? i mean as in after we start seeing each other again since 8/12/2004...... i say no...... then they laugh even louder....... (what was that suppose to mean? maybe i am naive)

okok...... these 2 incidents makes me really consider the issue about "kissing" haha......... i mean it is not as if this was my first kiss....... but this man is different....... so i put the thought away...... mind you, he is a true Muslim....... and a stupid pig like me will think Muslim are those "guai guai"! haha........ okok.....

yesterday 5/12/05..... that dummy came to pick me up as usual....... so i thought it was another day...... did not even bother to dress up....... when he reach..... i turn to look..... oh my gosh!!!! his friends was with him...... so that fellow good lah.. past few days is my class mates saw him...... so now he taking revenge......... haha...... so his friend and him left for dinner..... i was given this grace period to pack up........ ah!!!! what was i to do? makeup? clean up?!~~~~~~~~~`` i was in the shop...... it was useless....... in the end? i use the mascara the next shop gave us........ all done.!!! he came again....... pick me up and brought me to the fast food his friends were at........ we all left togther to play pool........ waited for a while for hisother friends to arrive........ but i had to leave so we did...... say sorry to his friend and we left.......took a LONG bus (as in like a 1 hours plus journey... 2 stupid fools!) and we talk alot on the bus ....... first time we talk so much...... not on the phone but facing each other......... then i slept in the bus...... while later reach yishun..... went down and to the next bustop for him to go home........... that was the funniest part......... i think we kiss/~!?!?!?!?!?.?!~ he initiate it..... so we erm... just a peck lah....... but i was shock and blushing and i quickly turn away and walk ......... walk home with his wallet!!!!! he had to chase after and call out 3 times my name before i woke up and realise>>> oops!!! ..... gave him his wallet....... that was the day........ he knew what i was thinking....... am i gonna fall into this guy for quite some time????????????....... hehe,........ maybe........

okok......... so you know my secret now.......... hehe...... i tthink angel is around me........ thanks ange;.......

i hope you feel shock to realise the new blogskin image........ This Focker in my class thought me ways to do it....... like the new skin....... kind of possess the deep thought inside....... anyway i download this blog from this user...... and she mention that the skin was meant for sad ppl...... i am not sad..... but i think that is exactly the feeling my heart is feeling....... i guess i have carry on.... i guess i love the cheerful and crazy me....... but i guess certain things can be change on the outside but not on the inside...... thats just me...........

Anyway no matter what i shall still capture everything that makes me happy.........
Today was a so-call good girly day....... i woke up...... revise thru japanese homework........ make some pancake....... Dad was making the TV,,,,,,......... he is capable of repairing all spoilt things...... mum is so proud of Dad........ Mum taught me how to make pancake from scratch....... not with pancake mix........ thou i wil still prefer the pancake jack mix taste..... anyway that was morning........ afternoon..... i achieve my goal in memerizing the 46 hiragana alphabets for spelling tomorrow........ Otah Sensee is putting high hopes in me and Xinyi in our Japanese class....... so i better do a good job....... Xue Shan called me in the afternoon to ask me regarding the BM0036 work....... suddenly i feel abit wanted in the class........ am somehow glad that after the holiday everyone is making an effort to help out one another and bring the bond again.........lunch today was fun.....Mum bought Sushi material home and taught me how to do Sushi...... not that i dunno...... but i did it the important way....... which means the family is eating all that was done by me....... hmm.. proud neh........ too bad the silly dummy did not get to try my cooking today....... actually today wanted to ask Cuz for tennis but she had her daughter-dad outing...... so maybe it was plain luck....... cos i am glad we did not have tennis....... the rain was pouring hell....... even the sky is crying for the tsunami disaster........

Everyone at work is pressurising me,.......... i feel heavy on my back,........ either they call to ask me to plan schedule for them or they will ask to swop dates to workk........... gimme a break gals..... i am not in the mood right now,........

Btw....... on new year countdown,......... was suppose to go with Mail and his friends to pub...... i am inderage i know but he's got ways....... but i didn't go...... i think Mail knew earlier i was going to say no last min...... he knew me too well........ when he call at 7 to confirm what time to pick me up....... i immediately break the news to him......... but he wasn't at all angry...... he predicted it all ....... haha....... and to ensure this does not stop us from meeting each other........... the dummy bought tickets for the movie i wanted to watch...... "Meet the fockers" he is sweet i know..... i am trying my best not to take it for granted too........ and guess what ,...... i only tell him i wanted to catch "Meet the fockers" like the day before....... he take every single word i say seriously..... i am so blessed...........

Yesterday..... 2/1/05/......... working,........ really no money le...... that morning went to shopping with my dear Sharon....... we are in the mood to tailor our stuff...... so we went to buy cloth.......... spend 45 bucks on them... that night......... relly no money le...... then jocelyn working...... not Denise........ althiou sat she cannot achieve the target of 100hundred........ in her mood...... i thought..... aiyah:" can help then help....." so i use up the last bit of my money and bought oil from her...... ok lah./... i benefit too........ so not bad lo./........ i think certain things i must not be too kind......... anywya i am planning to donate money to the tsunami ....... not too much to spare..... btu must not let mummy learnt about it..... i think she might scold me....... i think donate 50 bucks ok ok right...... hai.......dun wan to talk about the disaster....... makes my heart sink only.........

pierce my ear again,........... the top part...... not pain...... thinking of piercing my nose...... aiyah this kind of things better discuss with cuz first... dunno why but towards this matters...... cuz seem to know best.


this few days very close to dear sharon...... must remind myself not to neglect princess De........ and not neglect Sammie..... and cousin ...... and Mail......

shit i put on a lot of weight this few days........ better do something

today mrks the last day of 2004...... this year has been fun........ so i wanna mark it down before it turn 2005......
this year......
In 2005...............
-i went to CJC and Met alot of incredible ppl....... SamAntha esp...... i begin to feel special..........
-i begin to work with Ooo...Baby......... ppl are cool........... i learn alot and i think i grew up there
-i went to NYP........ dun like the ppl there but all human are equal and are to be treated equally....... so i am learning to like them........ but XInYi and SiJia are real nice ppl
-the first year i separated from D.K.S everything is more like a independant...............
-Cousin and i have played tennis for a year i guess...... keep it up.....
-Bobo came into my life....... regret,.........
-miss IsmAIl and want him back.
-got Ismail back
-SYF 2004... gold.... band major ....... gold award
-Jek Sheng....... hmm...... bad guy
-knew Jerk for more than a year
-went to Watch Electrico with Zhi Liang
-Pat left for Thailand..... forever
-Singapore Idol........ Taufik BatiSah
-Jean knew Cuz...... Steve too
-Mummy learn about Ismail
-erm...........

too many to write........ 2004 was real fun........ horoscope says........ Aquarius.:"2004 was fun and 2005 promise to be even more unexpectedly fun....... " i cant wait............. Ismail and i are doing well........ i cant wait for more