RodKris

i'll leaving singapore to cruise at 3, today is fine, suppose to meet my darling cuz to jog, but that silly gal slept real late yesterday. the feeling of getting back and meeting all my friend is so cool!~ me and cuz ate long john together last nite and we chatted. then at nite me went for band meeting at the usual oid deck 424, suddenly i felt my usefulness there last nite, i saw Sylvia, ghee, kind of miss her abit, well, we still joke, and tease, what else can you find in us, we are just the us since sec 1, everyone grow up, i do not feel the passion for any nonsence reagrding luv nowadays, perhaps a person interest does change.However, my interest for Hello Kitty does not change, yesterday my cuz gave me her stuff, those her dad gave her , Hello Kitty imported from japan, mummy say it was nuttin cos it was second-hand, however, i knew i could feel the luv within, my cuz, she kept thinking i was mad ather, but no i was not, my aim was to get even cl;oser to her, and towards Ah girl Jie Jie, cos i kinda think i owe her sumthin, sum times i blame myself cos i still make such stupid mistake at this age.
Working is fine, all of a sudden, JeRk and i kept in touch again, BoBO keep wanting to kno if we could remain the way we are in the past, seem so near yet so far, i never even wanna thin of it, Ismail came to find me that day, it was plan but i dun think i was looking forward to this days, he say he wanna tok, i sae i was busy, he refuse to tell me what it was regarding, i just left, i couldn't stand the way he put his sulking face, i think it makes me boil.To think i was so concern in the past, now when i think back, i amsure i only had his laughter in my heart, never his sorrow face, i dun evn think i like him anymore, to think i would be doing all this. i think if i really MUST have a feeling, perhaps it Jerk, but i dun think we can ever make it, just wanna concentrate on sumthin else, perhaps to slim down before my 17 birthdae