Day one in NCL

i am finally waken up on day two.. its 7.24am now and real late in Singapore.. the jet lag din work much on me. thank God...



Thinking about work alot especially fish soup with PaperStop.... perhaps i am still not use to idling and being on a holiday... the people here are nice... \



The long-haul flight was a nightmare... my arse are sore from the sitting all day.. i challenge the authority during my second flight..... My first flight was good and the plane was luxurious but perhaps also because it was too grand a flight that everyone seems to follow the rule.. so much so that even babies dun cry....

The transit was a rush, my only memories of it was big foot steps and all kinds of signboard reading.. i was scared out of my wits and all the time while walkign i was trying to get some signals on my cell to contact bbbbbbbbbbbbb.. but it wasnt scary..... no one tried anything strange... maybe they were targeting more on the westerns... (i am somehow thankful i am asian)




we took a metro back to HayMarket where bbbbbb's apartment was..

















Last night bbbbbbbb brought me around his school compound.. he is living in the more fun area.. a lot like Orchard Road in Singapore,... the to-die-for thing is H&M- exactly 2 building here are H&M,.. i am tempted already... bbb had total control of our finance... i pass him all the money to be deposit into his account.. whenever i wanted something he will pay for it.. by doing so i am convince we shall have enough to last us...




i fell asleep immediately after dinner last night.. it was almost 8pm and the sun was stillbright.... Summer is all about long hours of sunshine..... bbbb mention during winter they had nightlight throughout the day... so this is four Seasons!


loggin off now... will try to blog when i can......miss all of you back in Singapore.

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

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Another awful day. I am losing hope
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On another note... i am heading to town later with Jann and Xue,.. and silly Jann msg us both saying "would we experience Flood?"

haha.. it certainly made my laugh a little..... sometimes simple words like this can make some one's day - couple with some comfort food- courtesy of PaperStop.

Do you have anything to comfort yourself?

i love chocolate, ice-cream on a sad day.... more importantly i wish i had someone who would listen quietly while i vomit my worries... i;ve learnt that ppl who take the time to listen are people who really understand the position you are in... When you are finish with your sentence they provide their side of opinion and somehow, you'll end up listening silently as well..

i know of a couple who fight while holding one glass of water... each time the cup of water is in the hand of - for example the girl- the guy gets to talk and the girl will listen while siping a few mouthful of water. When the guy is done he takes over the water - while the girl talk. By doing so, they wont feel tired easily (haha) and they each have a fair opportunity of sharing their tots.

I also wish there was someone who would hold my hand when i get upset... if you watch "your Hands in mine" every time the charater touches their hand to show consolation- there is immediately a "chang" sound..- actually that feeling is surreal... a it is a gesture that will definitely make someone cheer up a little ....

One way of comforting is to drag a friend and go shopping.. but you got to take note that you MUST HAVE SOMETHING YOU WANNA BUY and you MUST GET IT. there will be a sense of accomplishment and that will comfort you as well..

Can you suggest some other ways to comfort yourself?

Dear Rodman,





in a matter of 3 days i'll seeing you and like we both see it- it will be together now- forever














Some matters of the heart are unexplainable and very often, bits of miscommunication turns in huge fight, sometimes bad ones.. But i really want you to know how much i want things to work out.

















i may not be all that perfect, and in our eyes we've probably reach a stage where the sparkle is no longer that, we may not dated for too long but already i am deeply attracted to you. The sort of person i see myself is someone who can be pretty unbearable sometimes, but as much as i can, i do wish we will walk this journey together, hand in hand, us.











Lately, we lose that patience towards each others, this was especially hard after being reminded not to fight, argue or take part in anything that will harm the relationship. Perhaps i was trying too hard not to fall into the trap that seems to be targeting us, the anxiety to prevent seems to take a unfortunate turn and that result in our continuous "i'll call you back" conversation in order for both parties to calm down.














i've read somewhere the best solution to a healthy relationship is to recount those happy times, and somehow convince ourselves this till work out - just the way we wish it would. So here's my version of the happier times.

















"it was our first trip overseas, and right after unpacking the luggage you suggest i tk a quick bath to freshen up a little before we head out for dinner. While suggesting this you pretend to be watching some sitcom on the tv.





I walk out of the bathroom to find the bed nicely decorated with a laptop and a gift box. laying on the laptop was a video made by you, it was some snap shots of all the places we've been together, there was also a message you wrote in side of how confident you are that we will be together for quite a while.





I open the gift box to find the same dress i hesitate on buying a while back, you hadnt seen me choosing it nor trying it. I verbally told you about the dress and show you a pic of me wearing it... you remember it all in your mind and went to get it for me... that was the best gift i;ve gotten from anyone, and i tear so badly in the room before changing into that dress. i went out to the living room where you were still pretending to watch the tv, i hug you tightly and couldnt contain my tears....... you let me cried for a while before bring me to our dinner tgr...."

















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"it was my 22nd birthday and you had planned a array of activities for us... i had bought a new dress to be worn on that day, you came to my place and whisk me off to serangoon gardens, you bought banana chocolate cake from Awfully chocolate, and we went back to your place to cut the cake with your Mum and sis.










We proceed to shop at Vivo where i wasnt keen on getting anything, when it was dinner time you blindfold me and lead me to my seat. You drove for what seems like the longest time, i can feel you spinning but i couldnt figure where we were heading....







You surprise me with a dinner booking done at JewelBox, it was the first time i;ve seen someone done valet parking.... dinner was equally beautiful, we had a snapshot of our dinner tgr, we chat alot and share some food... i was clearly surprise and you were satisfied with your planning..... the night fell and we walk around mount faber before heading home... "






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" it was our 6th month anniversary.... it was also my turn to do some planning, again i was in my best dress... and i book a table at HobNob.\, it was my favourite restaurant and i was keen on sharing my joy... the dinner was simple,. but i was feeling really blessed.. you allow me to act like the princess i wanted to be... we were simple.. and indeed happy"






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"We didnt get to spend our first year anniversary together, you were over in UK and i was stuck in Singapore. You were disappointed that i wouldnt be going over for christmas, but we tried to make the best out of the situation...... We arrange to skype at a certain time.. and before that we loaded a movie at our end.... i remmeber the movie was called "Up".... we pressed the "play" button together...... we tried to make do with it.. it felt like i was watching the movie with you by my side... i teared at the part where the grandpa's wife passed away... and you console me...... i treasure that moment... we were in love.. and loving it... "







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"You came back to singapore for a while.. it was meant to be a surprise but due to a small arguement.. and because i was sneaking into your e-mail account alot.. i found out about it... i plan a surprise in turn for you... so during your return.. i make you packing enuff clothes to last us 3 days. den i seek your buddy help to prepare the food for the party tonight... i even bring your family into the planning and everyone was ready to drop you a surprise...










Your friend were shockk to see you... and you were shock to see them.... we spent a night at the arcade while your buddies catches toy.... it was couple of hours to X'mas... we had a tiny arguement cos i din get to wish you in time for you were too preoccupied talking to your mates... nevertheless... it was christmas with you and i was blessed"









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bbbbbbbbbb...... i wish we wont fight so often.... i wanna accumulate the happy memories and mark them in my heart forever....





if there were a calendar on our relationship on daily basis.... i wanna see 30 boxes of =) per month and 1 box of =]...... ... having a =( on our calendar aint worth it.. cos you are my bestest friend and partner.... and i want nuttin else but happiness for you....









let's hook fingers shall we?






~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Lately, i found reading others' blogs more and more unbearable. I find the comment they receive from warm wishing friends too much to handle. I found the lives they have created for themselves more interesting than my entire life.

Yet i cant complain, and i contnue to envy them in silence over their luck, being their diehard reader and hopefully feel the joy they had while typing their entries. Maybe its really me, i cant make my life as colourful as theirs. For some reason everything that is happening now are just part of my life - and not part of the life i hope to have.

















i do wish i find joy in everything that is happening around me or is going to happen, but there are bound to be walls filtering my joy and mixing it with bits of mixed emotions.













I am somehow grateful to surprises, i see joy in being slap with things that never knew was going to happen, but it seems people around me tend to be upmost honest when it comes to the itinery. As such, i've to actually request for most of them not to tell me wat is going to happen.











Why does it seems when life is too straight forward you want some complication









Leaving singapore in a couple of days, not in much mood to pack, not in much mood to listen to instruction..... not in much mood to follow orders. i do wish i feel that bit of anticipation i had earlier... bt as it's nearing, i cant help but dread it..









Spoke to PaperStop this morning, i am frustrated and stress- stress over knowing what is to come ahead. i am scared, scared of everything that i knew was going to happen. Somethings are not dependable on fate. this time i had to built it with my bare hands... but i am losing the momentum, i am not motivated to want to built something out of this situation.











if only i had that sort of emotions on those blog that i read, i do wish i could count my blessing at this time - but this sort of blessing that are financially dependable are not to be taken seriously,









human are selfish and jealous creature - they see the need to make others jealous, but they fail to realise one fine day,.. their partner will be jealous of others tooo






















p/p/p/p/p/s: do not raise this post to me.. thanks..


~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Sorry i hadnt head back here for a while.

i havebeen working non-stop for 24 days now... it truly tiring but bbbb remind me each time that i am one more step closer to him, and that cheer me up alot.

As usual i am still crazy over F21, headed there while waitig for Jann and Xue to arrive last thurs and bought myself a electric blue frill tube top and headed there again on Friday with PaperStop to get her VB structure dress in nichii, and we both got ourselves Tiffany ring...

haha

Its a piece of plastic with the Tiffany Green (Blue if you should correct me) and i am damn in love... Paperstop also bought a pair of pastel Purple shorts which she haven figure how to match with, I bann her from getting the thin tee with muackx prints cos its really overpriced.

Who pays $22 for a pice of rag nowadays? i told her i would rather she pass me the $ and i muackx a plain white tee from toa payoh (selling at $1.80)

Thurs dinner with Jann & Xue were done in a Jap restaurant which i had refuse to remmeber the name, and friday's dinner with paper Stop was done in White Dog Cafe..

Hadnt camwhore for a while so Xue and Jann help out with the phototaking and we manage to gather almost a hundred good shots to update facebook - which reminds me i have to upload them tonight.

On another note, i am leaving for UK this sunday- super excited and scared since i am flying alone. Hadnt gotten a wish list from anyone( other than Steve who wanted car polish?!~?!~?)

i also did some mental note and calculate the gift i ought to buy for- 10 friends to be exact. Since i am trvelling on a super tight budget i ought to be a little more selfish.

Of the 10 friends i have include my cousin as well, and in addition there is the family and that shall be all... bbbbbb and i agreed this is our anni trip so we shouldnt put others above us. I hope all those friends whom i missed out could understand - i only have less than 2000pounds to survive for 30 days...

bbbbbbb and i will be heading to effiel tower.... i know i hadnt reveal much of wats coming up for this trip.... i hadnt got much idea myself..... i told bbbbbbb i wanted the OMGOMGOMG feeling so i reckon he keeps everything up his sleeves...

the Weekend has been spent with bbbbbbbbb's family, his mum brought me along to the fortune teller that i last visit, he hinted good sign and i am super grateful for it. The last trip wasnt as fruitful but he predict better luck after CNY 2010, and true enuff all had been well and his latest prediction was even more consoling.....

The only weird advice from him was to prevent myself from getting hurt on my left side,..... it can cause temp paralysing so i am taking the advice seriuosly..... in addition he told me it was a good year to get hitch (hahaha,. seriously bbbbbbb mum almost freak out on hearing that)

there was a heartwarming moment over the weekend lunch with bbbbbb's mum and sister.

we were eating at a nearby coffeeshop after my visit to the fortune teller and i stained my white chiffon top, but since it only accumulated to one of the many stain i've, i didnt think too much about it.

yet on arriving the bus stop leading to bbbbbbbbbbb hse, his mum and sis went to the super market and buy a bottle of pre-wash fabrick stain remover, i was given a bottle and that night itself i wash my top... feeling really grateful to their tiny touch of kindness.

bbbbb mum also pass me a what seems like a PUMA passport carrier that can be hung on my neck while travelling alone....i;ve highlighted earlier how i fear flying alone and losing my documents.....

The supposedly packed week is here and i cant wait for it to be over soon! more importantly i pray that the flea this sat will be a huge success and i'll be able to recoup some losses and hopefuly get some really good buy to wear to uk.

I hope your week is as exciting as mine........

happily ever after is here.... sooon!!!!

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Counting down to my departure.... finally finally leaving Singapore for a long while...



More often i force myself to believe it was 2 weeks rather than 11days till i see bbbbbbbbb....... it seems shorter!



bbbbbb had a hard time tinking of what to get me on our anniversary (and super super post- belated birthday celebration). He had initially request we get each other Man-U jersey and that shall does it... but i wasnt satisfied... =)



i wanted surprise! And right now i am stuck cos i cant tink of a better gift to get him in return.




Blogging this days has been rather dull, i am losing the momentum again - as much as i would like to pen all tots in here so tracing back on my life will be so much fufiling....




on the other hand, i am picking up on catchin up wit the girls, meeting Jann to celebrate her 24th this thurs with xue. And just last wed we did a DKS over at vivo to celebrate Besties Sharon super-post birthday.






next week's gonna be equally packed, for those of you out that who care for some shopping next sat, may i request you head down to Supperclub (no clubbing involve cos the activities happens in the day) for a day of Flea, goods sold include bohemian style, Bonitochico and other BN stuff, PaperStop happen to book a slot and i've conveniently squeeze my tight ass into one corner... so find me there and say hi=)






Also on wednesday, Pau and Cuz can finally find time for SATC2, awaiting clar's confirmation and i'll be able to meet the ladies for a short session before i fly off.





there is also the plan to meet Mr chong before i fly off, he's a lonely soul seeking single ladies (nah kidding.. he's a real nice guy la) so if any one of you care for some matchmaking do PM me too...





What The Flea @ Supperclub
date: 19 June 2010
location: SupperClub, in between National library and Bras besah complex
Attire: casual



SATC2 the movie
Date: 16 June 2010
Location : hopefully the Cathay
Attire: definitely SATC style


Meet Mr chong
Date: 18 June 2010
Location: Anywhere...
Attire: anyhow


Kristal flies off
Date: 20 June 2010 midnight
Location: changi airport, dunno which terminal
Attire: super casual for a 2 days flight across the globe




MacDonald with PaperStop
Date: today.. after work later...
Location: not gonna reveal. walking from home
Attire: i wanted to dress like a stupid stay home girl, but she threaten me with picture takin. -.-"









i 'm off!`







~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Steamboat for supper. And to tink I mention diet
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Dumb jokes

Two glamourous blondes were found frozen to death in the snow outside the cinema.

They had queue for two weeks to watch "Closed for Winter"

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The outcome of my hair! Din knew I could be THIS tall !!!
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Upset Friday

i do wanna blog... but i am upset right now.. here's some information on how to console yourself (it will be useful in some events)

from a blog i read

I have managed to [at least in my imagination] create two sides of me: one girl that's always brooding, sad and bitter; the other always optimistic and out to cheer someone up.

Whenever I'm depressed, these two figures talk things out in my head and I am reduced to nothing more than a mere listener to both sides. This puts things in perspective for me, but doesn't necessarily stop me from being weepy and all. It just helps me rationalize things.

some help from googling online

• Listening to peaceful music, thinking, or sleeping.
• Chat with friend who I don't know very well. Because we don't know each other deeply, they can uplift the conversation and offer more of an outsider perspective.
• I hear the still, small voice inside, which says:"Eat, eat, eat."
• I call my boyfriend to hear his voice. I know this sucks, but I guess that's the only kind of dependency I have with him... I tend not to have any...
• I don't "console" myself..one consoles others
• Pray and cry ...then only i can feel better

i read the line that we dont console ourselves, we are meant to console others............. i wish he was here to console me right now...................






i also read on the crying part, i wish i could right now except i was on a 9-5 job and weeping at work could account to scaring my colleagues and non-existence chance of getting a better contract.





The part on calling the boyfriend wont help either......








tink i'll just swallow again..... =(



~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

So recently, (due to strong influence from PaperStop), i begin to look into a shop strongly agreed by my pals to contain lotsa of surprises.

Forever 21 have clothing from all countries! i once bought a couple of tops that was made in parkistan, UK, China ... etc..

And even without my persuasion you'll probably know what great style they have inside, bohemia, Structured workdress, toga, bustier, bodycon, colorblock. Name it, they'll probably have it!

but this is actually a post oF displeasure

've been thinking, especially since i;ve been bringing more and more yellow bags home.

I WASN'T TEMPTED TO REUSE THE BAG

This was an issue especially since i am someone who dont mind lugging a paper bag of nonsenical stuff everywhere i go!

I also have the habit of packing presents inside paper bag (bet you come across alot of other ppl with the same interest)

I even head down to ArtFriend to purchase their paperbags and to SpotLight to buy empty apple-paperbag (the brown thick sheets of paperbag where the ang-moh put their groceries in)

Do you know there is a store in neighbourhood call "SKP"? They sell good paperbags of all sizes in bundle and at cheap rate

i like to decorate my paper bags in drawings and stick gems on it when i gave them together with the presents inside.

Comparing other brands such as TopShop, ZARA, GAP, Armani, i felt Forever21 hasnt been making the effort to contribute to the environment.

And before you question my post on being environmental friendly, perhaps i can add in i dislike the plastic bags issue by uncountable stalls in along bugis street, Far East Plaza and Cottons On too?

i dont get it.... Plastic bag.... realy dislike carrying them. Take the F21 plastics bags for example, if the outlook was deem acceptable, wouldnt you agree the same design on a paper bag would look soooooooooooo much nicer?

In addition, people who purchase F21 usually purchases from Warehouse, TopShop, RiverIsland altogether, when the lug all the bags together, somehow you can feel the differences, F21 plastic bags just........ dont match.

to be honest i agree plastic bags are waterproof, can carry a bulkier item and can be easily stuff into your bag, but seriously? If it is a yellow Paperbag i swear it look so much nicer.

Besides, it's environmental and totally bring the store into another level of poshness.

maybe F21 needs to consider changing their "plastic bags" (eeek, the tot of typing out P-L-A-S-T-I-C already put me off big time.)

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Awkwardly random but i am inspired to make this for my boy=)

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Loss of Memory
i woke up this morning to a call from bbbbbbbbbbbbb.... he asked if i am still affected by yesterday, and then my mind went like this-> ???????????????????????????????????????????



A sudden strange feeling overcome me, it appears to be a plain denial of the truth. To be frank, i tink i've experience a sudden loss of memory. All i clearly remember was i upset bbbbbb badly and i cried den den i cried so bad i had mucus and tears all mixed together and then....................... and den i cant remember anything else.




it's almost as if God has given us a second chance and like those who knew alien exist in MIB, i saw a bolt of lightning happening right before my very eye and den i lost all memories.






bbbbbbbb says its good and we should leave bad memories behind, i asked him what happens if the same problem occurs again, he said when the moment comes, he will remind me what exactly was forgotten.






i am thankful to my bf for being the mature one taking care of me at this period. I still cant decipher what went wrong and why i woke up with heavy, swollen and puffy eyes, but i am thankful God helps to take this pain away and bbbbbbbb to be around to assure me everything's alright now.




In no time bbbbbbb and i will embark on a new journey where we begin the new chapter of our lives together, we will be celebrating the closure of our 2nd year tgr and the beginning of our third. bbbbbb and i were the kind of couple i love to be in, the past 24 months have me witnessed scandals , bad break up and patches and really bad romance.




Not a moment in our lives had we been apart mentally for more than 24hrs. Perhaps its the determination we have, we will not resort to short term breakup even if this was suggested. i sugeest a short term time apart many times and i am very grateful he had never really once agreed to it. And one time he suggest the same thing, i refused.




If i were to reason why i tink my relationship is the real deal, it would have to be because of two things i did that i am particularly proud of :-



1. i survive a one year distance apart and now we about to call an end to this period and be reunited, and we kept in contact for 370days straight, there was never a single days that we were apart for too long virtually.



2. i made him sweet. It was the toughest deal of my life, i burnt both hands not out of failure, but because one will need a tough-burnt gloves when making taffy sweet, you can google this to find out. i held the burning sugar in my buttered hands and juggle them while pulling it before it toughen into sweet. Each juggling is like pouring a freshly cook cup noodle into your hands, my sister gave up and my cousin withstand the heat but couldnt get the sweet "pull" due to the heat, i made sweets for my sweets. Cos he was the sweetest and only sweets make sense






we will be holding our celebration in UK during our "us-time". It wont be a big event or something really major because we've discussed and decided to keep the special event for bigger moments of our lives. Nevertheless, he offer to plan something good and i will dress up specially for that day.






bbbbbb and i agreed to head to Italy next after our trip from UK, it will be another thing i can now look forward to, it will be another period of "us-time".






and after talking to bbbbbbbbbb's family, i was more certain if bbbbbbbb were to continue staying in UK after his graduation because he was offer a job there, i would await my own graduation in 2011 May and den fly over to join him. My parents din really talk much abt it, but Mum hinted i would end up joining him in UK anyway.






Dear friends, i guess i will call an end to my search for the real deal, i hope you found your own happiness too. Till more updates, here's me wishing Rodman and i another 2 years of sweet-fillled memories.







~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Avoidance is not forever.



Sometimes when u realise you really have to get down to matter




maybe you've already lost the battle to someone else


Lesson learnt: No One should be More Important to You than Yourself. So dont Try too hard to please everyone. Dont place anyone on top anymore, dun tink you are permanent to anyone, you ARE dispensible to anyone, but you can never give up on yourself.



~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

i wrote a super long post on how i failed at a relationship... and den i delete them all word by workd. simply because... i still dont tink it is as bad as my real failure as a girlfriend.

sigh,.... maybe i shud really change to become another person.

just dont wanna read those argumentative replies, i'll never sound right.


~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

SUCH COINCIDENCE!!

So much excitement on another dull day at work.

It was work at far east as usual and i was really dying of boredom (Note to Self: save enuff extra cash to finally rent a book from Sunnies')

The first surprise came from Denise and her sis', they came to visit. It was nice to see someone familiar amist the strange crowd on Sunday. Denise was in her super cute-blue-jumpsuit and her sis was in that bonitochico romper.

They have had their brunch down at Robertson Quay and drop by to get their hair done. I recommended Juno's and soon they were there for the next 2 hrs dyeing, treatment and highlighting in funny streaks (kidding,.. it was sexy red streaks on brownish/purpurlish hair for sis and darker brown on Denise's)

Overall review- not quite as expectation according to the princess, (as such i have booked myself an appointment to experience it for myself)

den slightly later in the afternoon came Jean in a all black attire with a cutesy hot pink bag, she had pop by to await her pals before heading for dinner. It was really sweet of her to drop by town earlier to keep me companied. BUT she was off to accompany Denise after learning she was nearby.

Den while i was playing with the clothes of the neighbouring shop, Sharon and CF drop by too!!!!!

YAY-ness! DKS is complete plus JEAN! Sharon drop by for a massage and to get her shoes for the start of a new working environment this wednesday.

and to tink i was still hoping we could all meet over the weekend, this girls had made it all worthwhile filling up the empty slots on my lonely working day.

Pop-by surprises aside. I must have spent a bomb over the weekend cos even Mum seems to realise. i look back at the paper bags i;ve accumulated, most of them in yellow, PaperStop had successfully made me succumb to F21, and i need to say this- if you do search enuff, some stuff at F21 are comparable if not cheaper than Far East loots. Its worth the catfight (hahah... not really, except the salesgirl must have been pulling our hair inside their mind each time we arrive at the changing room with like 12 pieces of clothes in hand demanding we try them 4 piece by 4 piece.)

And apart from all these excitement, i have been around town consecutively for 4days straight in a row. A little weird and sick but it was way fun. Here are a list of my damages (bbbbbbb be prepare to scream.. even thou i was dead sure i had informed you of my loots already)

1. Gladiator- black and dirt cheap (use tenant discount)
2. 2 sets of lingerie that will create that effect (Denise and PaperStop knows excctly what i am saying... haha)
3. a basic v-neck tank that will complements my lingerie and create THAT effect
4. one piece of F21 undies, mad-cuteness
5. one sunshade, Rayban style with diamanettes across the rim
6. F21 tubes dress, floral prints and very very sweet
7. Had dinner at Ippodu with PaperStop, the famous Jap ramen place, gonna blog about it separately
8. Coffeebean, Starbucks, coffeebean, starbucks
9. Dinner with bbbbbb family at Togi, the really tasty korea restaurant at Chinatown, we were even given the VIP room.. haha... i ate bbbbbb share, the bill came to about $200 and it was deductable from the family fund i heard, very very brilliant idea for bbbbbbbb's family...cant apply the same to my family thou, sis and bro are still young and incapable of contributing.. furthermore Kor is married and hardly has time for family outing.
10. Herwalkincloset floral blazer, bought that a while back and it finally arrived
11. Bonitochico Toga sequins dress that is due to arrive this week
12. bangles, 3 sets of them
13. NewLook dress+petticoat, bought slightly after exam

cant list them no more, i have new stuff to flash at uk and that makes me happy=)

Gonna do a separate post on Togi and Ippodu. This coming week is gonna be equally pack, tuesday hanging out with PaperStop to shop for boss's present, den its a hunt for the Vict-beckham structured dress. Wednesday i am meeting the besties for dinner and chillax by Vivocity, den its hair-appointment with Juno's on thurs.

spend lesser spend lesser... i am leaving Singapore in less than 20 days now!!!!! yay-ness...

bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb

i cant wait to see you ALREAdY

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

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Life, leisure, friendship =)
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Lotsa of stuff that I dun understand... Dining with the bf's family at a all-korean restaurant
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We tk pictures everywhere!
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Random paperstop face
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The second phase

i was still stuck in Far East plaza then, Steve was my boss and work was fun then. i enjoy dressing up different in big and bulky clothes then, but to ensure i still had my girly genes in me, i will top it off with a mini skirt or flair skirt.

I was the only girl working at Fabrick (den call Hooked clothing) so it was easy task. I was given "priority" haha.... and life was easy.

i was a jumpy girl den and the slightest thing can make me so delighted for the rest of the day. That year, when i was 20 yr old, i was - as usual- bumping around the shop when a bunch of guys pop by to look at skinny jeans.

Skinny jeans that year was the trend and since the shop only sell man's clothing, it wasnt anything unusual to have a whole bunch of guys oogling at some fanciful colours for skinny jeans.

and then i saw him- it was bbbbbbbbbb in the year 2008. He had change quit abit, in fact it was really hard to identifying him. Back track a little to one fine day even longer time ago on a small mall call Tampines Mall, i had saw someone that looks exactly like him.. and i shouted his name, he turn out and smile, recognised me and smile wider...... that was the only time i saw him from 2004- 2008

The bbbbbbbbbbbb i saw that day was a smaller guy, he had lose perhaps 50% of his original mass and i was in shock. We chat a little and as he was with his friend, they left awhile later.

That was the start................ *Over at his end, he CLAIM to comment to his friend that i was "not bad" + a smirk

The next couple of months were hell for me, i was having a downhill relationship with my ex and it was going down further. He had gotten really engross in to soccer-watching and hangin out with his new-found soccer-forum mates that there wasnt really time to trash thing out. I wasn't trying very hard to save the relationship back then cos he was starting to treat me coldly.

I guess i was almost at my breaking point, but there are always two sides to a toss coin. For some particular reason bbbbbbbbbbb seems to hang out in town more often that i ever caught him in my life...... ever so often i receive the same random msg about him being in town and was hoping we could hang out sometimes to chat about the old time.

Times and times again i was being dejected by my ex, wouldnt go into details on that but i was lost and upset, eventually i fell into a slight fever, and even that wasnt notice by him. I went to work as per normal and home as if somebody were to care. I turn out meeting bbbbbb then cos i wasnt in my best of self and just couldnt put on a smile as much as i would like to reminise about the old days.

Somehow, he never did give up, he wouldnt make himself completely existance but he will just be there.. You know.. like somebody who pops by your mind pretty often but wouldnt make you feel weird in any way. Thinking back, i am really grateful he was like this guardian angel that was just nearby, yet never really did give up on me even as i was slipping away in to a whirlwind of hopeless desperation.

i admit meeting him for the first time came as a complete surprise, i was heading hm after work that night and despite him being in town - like he had mention thepreviuos 524542312 times- he "happen" to be heading to Yishun too. I tot it will be good to have someone to get rid of those silly tots on my mind so i offer to meet him and have supper tgr.

Like a fool i was running about in Yishun because that silly boy was driving and he had lost his direction. Despite wanting to meet up looking complete fresh and tidy. I end up in perspire and red-face, i must have ran about 1km while he continue driving in search of me. It was a crazy night and that run had put off all the realy upsetting thoughts that night. I finally met him and we were off to supper while i rant cheekily about how he is the first guy i ever "ran after"

We chatted about ANYTHING, it was a little hard to find something to talk about at first, bbbbbbbb was the quiet sort who cant cook up stories to tell for nuts. I tried my best to feel comfortable among his akward silence and finally break the silence by ordering something i would never eat twice again. It was Otak + lime Juice for me and ChongPang Nasi Lemak for him. We talk about the weirdest combination we can come up with and laugh it off. i enjoyed that night.... he had made me laugh alot, he was silly, yet funny in that way.

i guess that was how he began to developed feelings for me too..

Quoted from bbbbbbbb's blog - MAY 2008-

Have been going out with her recently, meeting for a drink, dinner, shopping..... Think I really have good feeling for her.... I wanted to let her know, but the BIGGEST problem is she is ATTACTED... Is really bastard for me to spoil them.... I know he dun treat her well... And I am confident I can give her more care and concern than him.... But still.... Is not nice to backstab him (although I dunno him)..... How??? Do anyone have any answer???? Do I still let her knoe???

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

I did something i cannot believe i did this morning

Even bbbbbbb who called me was alarmed, for a split second he tot he dial the wrong number and was ready to hang up abruptly.

I.Refuse.To.Wake.Up.For.Work

and it's especially alarming to hear that from me because you can verify it from Cuz and SiAhPau, i am somebody who jumps up when the alarm sound, and immediately (I MEANT IT.... like literally IMMEDIATELY) stands up and fold my blanket, follow by make my pillow.

I am that sort that is living in preparation for World War to happen again, i am assure i can have myself packed in time and still spare some time to save my family and love ones.... But today, i was another person.

Ashamed of myself now.... i should be. I was reluctant to wake up for work, bbbbbbbbbb was so shock he actually suggest i draft an sms to my colleague suggesting i was unfit for work today. Guess it came as a shock to him.... especially since he is sooooooooo far away.

why am i dreading work today..... i cant figure that out, bbbbbbbbbb said i was so excited on returning to work and meeting all my fellow colleague during my exam break and now i am dreading work. I find it a ridicule as well, guess it just sink in deeply that the job scope is diffferent now and all i can do is to look forward and take up THAT challenge.

Was at Denise's the night before, chilling in her room and playing with her clothes. I like her range of Bonitochico and definitely her collection of brassieres. After many recommendation from her i realise i might just have been wearing my inner skin wrongly. Does that account for my sagging assets? hahaha.... i dunno...

i miss those days we hang out in her room after school, her wiping out some simple fare for lunch and us just chatting and experimenting new hairstyle for school. Life was about books, results and boys.. haha..

Oh i am excited to continue the previous story as soon as i could.

I will pen down every memories i have of the time i spend building a friendship into a relationship that blossom till today.

bbbbbbbbb was a long term investment.... and it wasnt just me who had seen it in him.....

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

its almost 3 now and i hereby declare- BREAKTIME

i dunno, i havent been back in the office and i am just dozing off so badly. Could be because the new job scope's such huge responsibility, i refuse to embark on my journey this soon and reckon it'll be good if i can just leave it all till tomorrow.

Till. I. Brainwash. My Head. And .Convince .I .Am .Still .Not .Travelling

so had all sorts of imagination flooding my mind today, and they are all in a total mess inside my head.

So i've decided to clear all tots by focusing on one particular topic i can share. here goes....

The very first encounter

I wouldnt call this the most magical of all, i was young, and super ignorant. I was a typical attention-getto anyone would be at 14.

Back those days where "stead" was the thing and "pointy comb" was a norm, there really wasnt anything more interesting than BBall (basketball we people now call) and Slam Dunk.

My best friend was Sharon and she was 14 toooo, she had finally gotten tgr with WL, who was my buddy (sometimes he call himself the shit-buddy, more like the guy who took the dump every single morning before the morning assembly).

Nevertheless, WL was one of the cool-er guy in school and Sharon was pleased. Their dates were mostly set after school, and i, being Kristal, (-.-") followed her around.

I dont understand why i would actually follow Sharon on her date, i guess we were two very very close best friend back then and tagalong were probably one of the suppose-to-do thing. As far as i can remember, i tag along on her dates more than once. Thinking back, i must have been that irritating to all her "boyfriends".

So WL and Sharon found spot- a bball court in serangoon central they could hold hand without being caught, and you might already know, i tagalong as well..

It was a pointless tagalong, i would usually sit at the other end of the bball court and revise my homework, play with my "pager" or other stuff that were attention seeking for our age. I was a noob.... really was one than.

So since it was that boring, i reckon what could be more appropriate to bring to a bball court than a Bball? No i cant bounce ball for nuts, and the goal post (shoot post... watever) was NEVER my target. I tink i am more cut out for dodgeball, because i never fail to hit anybody, i can even hit myself with bballl... ..

So after school while Sharon and WL were dating at the bball court as usual, i remember i change into my blue "university of caroline (or some sort dumb pasar malam buy)" Tee shirt pair with the school skirt, that my my favourite tee shirt and in my opinion matches ANYTHING on earth and still looks good.

I had knee- length socks, long skirt (Mum refuse to make it any shorter, and i was chubby and short...... so i actually look rather weird), my hair was comb into a pony tail and i had the usually habit of forming a centre parting with two "crockroach feelers" by the side. That- in Kristallogy- back when i was 14, was the coolest outfit anyone would wear.

And it sure did pay off... *wink*

Not long after a bunch of real bball player came by the bball court, and because they belong to SGS, which was the school just beside the court, it was "suppose" to be their court.

You can tell whether some guys are gentlemen by the first impression. Despite some of them being rather rude in the language they use (i will never understand how hokkien was THE thing in 2002) They did not chase me out of the court, i was allow half of the court while they played at the other half. Impression was so-so.

I din really imagine i would have caught their attention in my entire life, there were some rather cute guys inside and all the 6 boys were pro (or so they appear to be) at bball.... 2 of the guys came up and try to start a conversation, the ah beng style, but it sure works, i wanted mentor in my bball, and in addition i wasnt much of a bombshell so that bit of attention meant the world to me.

I made 6 friends that day - Wei Jie, Terry, Andrew, Guo Qiang, Benjamin and Choong Ting

Sharon was later introduce to them, and even though the relationship with WL din last, the friendship btw us grew stronger, Serangoon bball court was no longer the dating place for Sharon and i. it was the place we find our comfort zone, especially after a long day at school.

The 6 brothers were close knitted, there was abit of mess going on between the friendship though. You see, Andrew and Guo Qiang took a liking to Sharon, WJ to me, and WJ's sister took a liking to Ben. Only Ben and WJ's sister got tgr. Sharon and i continue a few more years of friendship with the brother till all of us lost contact.......

that was in 2004, the year of my graduation...............

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~