Dearest Jaryl,

if you ever read this, you shall already be in Aussie.

There are certain stuff i experience for myself in a long distance relationship that i had tearfully hope someone would tell me about. So here i am sharing it with you(some confusion may occur when i mistakingly use the word "you" in the entry cos i am narrating it all with bbbbbbbb in mind....... apologies!), in hope you wont have to go through the same things i painstakingly went through:-

1. I do cry......When bbbbbbbbb left, i was not affected by it, i cry not because i was losing him, but because i have temporary lost a best friend, a soulmate, and someone who- was there, always there, always will be
   
   
2. No special romantic nights, i should have know better than to make our last few days before bbbbbbbbb departure a romantic night between the two of us, cos after than i was left alone, for the longest time, missing every single thing that seems to have happen just yesterday, why din it just went on like any other day?


3. Guy - Setup a skype account and pay for it- skype conversation are dirt cheap and calls are consider unlimited considering you are given up to 1000mins of talk time. Just be sure to stay in the dorm or as near to the Laptop as possible
   
   
4. Girl - Setup a push-mail or internet-date-plan-on-the-go, have your phone preset with push mail function and msg your bf while he sits by the laptop everyday, it works just like SMS........ he is just one msg away


5. Never console yourself by saying "he/she has friends that will be there for her/him" THIS IS NOT TRUE because no one likes to rely HEAVILY on their best friend, no matter how close. Your partner will never feel the same confiding to their besties as much as they can confide in you, they will never drop by their besties' hse 7 days a week and talk on the phone 24 hrs a day. People have their lives and no one feels good imposing toooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much on the other party, unless, of course their spouse.
   
   
6. No, we girls never stop crying, stop thinking if you demand us not to, we will eventually shut down our tear gland. WE CRY! in our heart, on our mind.... but we will never let TEARS get into you, you may never realise we are crying some times.


7. WE DO COMPARE!- We do, honestly. No matter how we shut off images we see on the streat, couples that that do things together makes us upset, crowded street without anyone to protect us makes us sad. A bowl of soup without the extra spoon upsets us, so did the expression of your face when we come out of the changing room


8. We know you need time on your own- although we are not exactly sure when


9. We miss physical contact- weird to be coming out of a girl, but i guess i am not the only one missing it in a LDR (long-distance-relationship)


10. Tell us its gonna be over, sooner than we tot- do this ALL the time, but DO NOT count the number of days till we meet.... use words, use action, dun use numbers


11. Snail mail surprises us more than anything else Word you cant say instantaneouslt are perhaps the words you really meant.. so,.. put it inside envelope


12. You are constantly hungry - or so we thought, and we are never convinced on this.


13. We are not worried about you, we are worried about the bitches- Its not you we dont trust, it those girls who prey on good catch like you.... watch the movie "obsess" by Beyonce


14. Will there be tomorrow-this is a taboo topic no couple like to talk about, but it helps if you constantly assure us (we trust you, but we need this comforting assurance to booost our morale) this is just temporary. We are girls you fell in love before you see the bigger world, and we accepted you before u see the bigger world, something that started this smalll deserve every chance to be nurture into something bigger.


15. You are lucky someone watches out on you every single second-and we are lucky you do the same, count all blessings

There you have....... 15 pointers i can think of right now....... i m worried about Cuz, but since i m never too good around consoling her (yeah.... she is the only one i cant seems to cheer up) i shall stay low as of now and see when is a better chance to start hanging out with her again.

Good luck Jaryl, looking forward to seeing you on your next returns.

Second Night at Bro's Place, thanks to SiAhPau the worst part of the day din turn out toooo bad... Appreciate it, girlfriend!

I had decided to load pic of myself now and then mainly cos i wanna show bbbbbbbbbbbb the nicer side of me. You should all understand how hard it is maintaining the make up till night time just to skype him, so every so often when we skype on the internet, i am already in my bare-all face as per above.

Here's some most updated pictures (meaning this morning) of me for my special boyfriend

Taken in the ladies, cant find another mirror that works better than this -.<




Wahaha.. if you look extremely carefully you can probably tell this was taken while i was peeing...........

Did something stupid today, something i wouldn't advise all Girlfriends to do, i dug up bbbbbbbbbbbb's blog and read it dated back in 2006. And thou many things inside are no longer valid, i was both touched and affected by his affection for his Ex-girlfriend.

While this shows he is a man who honoured his words, it does pinch me a little knowing once before he and i got together, he was THAT affected by the presence of another girl. I wish her well now, and decided not to add in words of jealousy that revolves around how he is the most perfect man and she missed it. I shall count my blessings and thank her for giving me this opportunity, and for allowing me to witness how faithful bbbbbbb can be.....

i am a sadist, its 12.38pm at night and here i am blogging about his past..... silly silly sily

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Just settled in on bro....... bed is big, room is empty..... gotta be determine and get the exam revision started big time now.



Even bbbbbbbbbb is too busy for me now, he has the exam coming up too..... i know the initial part of settling down is hard, but Kristal, you gotta make it a quick one.



Room is empty but bro's hse is pretty!~ Will blog abt it when i reward myself with small break.

Checked out a video on ace-ing your exam last night, point number 8 says a normal human concentration span is less than an hr, ideally only 45 min.



So i am using this strategy right now, concentrating for 45 min at one go and rewarding myself with a 15 min break=)



Dinner is a hassle so i have decide to miss it as much as possible. i am aiming to weigh less than 50kg at 7pm by the time i return home( cos i weigh 50kg in the morning now, but is 2 kg heavier in the night -.-")




sigh........ independant, independant, independant

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Just receive it... and bbbbbbbbb is unaware of this impulsive purchase, but i am so gonna pamper my skin now..... i am 14 weeks away from meeting bbbbbbbbb!!~! Jia you to a hardworking Kristal (by this i meant a woman is never ugly, only lazy)

In addition, i also bought some tiny tubes (at a very very attractive price) to be given away. Hope those who receive them felt pampered as much as i did!!!~

And right now, i am still lacking in my Ralph Lauren Tote (shipment delay), my Geo-lens (order just sents, 3 weeks for EMS), and the Hermes Bag i so fancy (she haven got back to me... sigh)

bbbbbbbbbbbbb eye is gonna be shockingly big if he reads this..... cos i am never much of a shopaholics.... i guess i have the pre-CNY spirit to blame.... it just appear so "appropriate" to click on any fanciful item i saw online.

Here's a Happy Thurs to all of you who read this space, as far as i can concern ~ Jann, Pau. Anyone else?!!!!!!!!!!!

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Took a breather from updating my birthday entry, jolly well-aware i am almost half a month backdated.

This couple of months had been great, a slight improvement to the meetups arrange between DKS. I am sure Sharon besties felt the same, we have been apart for quite a while, and the constant arrangement to meetup are to thank for.

SiAhPau and i haven met up all CNY, a little weird. Gotta look forward to the stock take meetup next week. A little tight on budget but we are expecting a boomz thanks to the new upcoming Model we are gonna have.

BlackHairpins is doing steadily well, a little argument at times but we always end up with a better solution. Our customers are mostly friends with us now, some of them we end up exchanging up to 20 e-mails in order to get their desire selection, and some others are not based in Singapore, so special arrangement have to be made. We are storing the profit made from the collection to bring in even more clothes for the next collection, and a little regret cos we could have earn another round of money if not for the miscalculation. Nevertheless, we are clearing the leftover stocks now so as to bring in new selection of clothing.

I am finally starting on my revision, also arrange to have my stuff sent over to bro's this sunday.

Gonna score well, slightly better than bbbbbbbbbbbbb waahahhaha... He is my partner in crime, the only person i can compare against, not that i am that good whatsoever, but because i haven got anyone i knew in school to made such pact.

I often wonder what happens if bbbbbb had stayed in Singapore and enrol in SIM instead, would things be different? But then again, we would both slack and pull each other down, glad my bbbbbbb is miles away and has high discipline, so much so that i cannot lose to him, i wanna win bbbbbbbbbbbbb and then "chop" him to buy me a expensive bag for my hardwork!!~

Times flies (though i had wanted it to fly faster) and bbbbbbb is about 14 weeks to returning. Without fail everyday we have been dilligently communication via webcam, hp and e-mail. I know no one out there can see how exactly we are coping but i can announce proudly that if you ever spend one whole day with me, you'll be jealous!!~ haha... cos its as though bbbbbbbbbbbbb is just beside me.............. (awww.......... miss you already!!~)

Jaryl is leaving for Aussie soon and Viv is coping pretty well, but each of us has our weakness hidden within so i am prepare to be there for her when she needs it...... cos i have been through that journey, and trust me- it doesnt come cheap, was never easy............

but how else can love last without such hardship....... right?

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Gonna Start with the last thing we did on the pre-invite birthday meetup with the ladies on 29 Jan 2010, this was our last destination before we call it a day.



Denise darl' drove us all the Holland V, my virgin trip there, Sharon besties Virgin trip there, Denise and Jean are regulars.



i picked this place call Mykril cos there is soooooooooo much rave about it on HGW (hungrygowhere.com) i HAVE to try.

i get the feeling as long as its white, Chiffon or Satin, Sharon darling came into mind =)





Lady Blossom in her not-so short sundress, all of us love it on her...... except for the ballon bottom, which we alll hate

Here's Sharon besties on the left, Denise darl in the middle and JeanJean helping me out with my load, i had collected the loots ( super heavy stuff) from Lina so i can post them tgr to bbbbbbbb n Fendi-

i did this paparazzi shot thingy with Denise, this is an official proof of Denise Darl being the "gentlemen" of the night, driving us to different locations to make sure the the fun wouldn't end so young!

Another shot of here walking, already irritated and warning me not to take anymore pictures

Dun look like i am heeding her advice, here's Denise Darl and Integra, red car, lady driver, reminds me a old time movie i cant the name

Denise Darl getting onto the car, we werent allow to go in until she cleared her mess, haha....

Dont ever assume a lady driver is neccessary a tidy driver, it was hell messy inside, flowers, her teddy-monkey, random magazine..........etc

Denise Darl clearing the mess again..... while we waited outside.

Random note: tell me who DOESNT notice her bicep... some guys ought to be ashame.. haha

Arriving at our destination with my first pic of the night.. Wearing a Blue Chiffon pull over a black bodycon....

Denise Darl and Sharon besties, my best friends since 03/03/2003

Denise is definitely one friend i know who doesnt stop working, i have to emphasize it was nearly 11pm and she was still on the line with her boss....

Which also explain why she deserve her 4-digit ang pow for CNY this year.....

Sharon besties and her Mocha Ice Cream, which i absolutely love!!~ I must have been exclaiming it alot lately cos whenever someone mention ice-cream, i immediately associate them with Mocha. Thanks to Besties who order this to satisfied my mocha-red bean Craving

Denise Darl, i dun like this pic tooo.... but ur arm...... speechless, this is for alll to see

I know i need to at least say something about the food at mykril, but since our dear Denise darl is crown our food-critic blogger, you can read more here (When she FINALLY blog about it, that is)

I am still backdated by the massage with SiAhPau, also a virgin experience, haven had a chance showoff those pretty present from them all, dun expect to read much about bbbbbbbbbbb over birthday cos his present is the BB phone as promised.

Still, you are being loved...... by me *wink*

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

one day past our monthsary, and i am bloggin only right now.



I haven had the decency to even get the picture uploaded, totally loathe myself for that.

Its CNY in one day time and i am slacking big time at work, counting down the minutes till i am free to go...



I will be spending the my evening at bbbbbbbbb's hse, except without him. Its the reunion dinner time of the year and like the previous year, i would visit his parent and spend time with them before the whole load of them leave for Malacca, which is bbbbbbbb standard practice since most of his relative comes from them, so did his father, brother and sister.



bbbbbbbbb is a Singaporean and was born here, i couldnt figure how it all works, but we were suppose to visit Malacca and his relative tgr, now that bbbbbbbbb is not in Singapore, this plan shall be put away till 2011.



This CNY is gonna be different cos none of us are in the mood, bbbbbbbbbb and i are still dating through the skype, and he cannot be my stylist for this new year selection. I remember last year we had load of fun matching clothes for him and myself, cos bbbbbbbb love shopping as much as i do.



No Valentine' s day celebration either........ hate it that we are so far away, and though i console myself everyday it wont be long till we meet again.... i still miss him big time!



i hope this CNY is filled with friends and cousin meetups, now that i am a grown up and receving ang pow is no longer a "suppose to be" but a "you mean you still need one" issue, i kinda dread the whole smiling and queuing for ang pow custom.



Got myself 2 pairs of heels yesterday, i am 70% done replacing my entire collection of shoes to heels, in no time i would have no excuse to wear flats anymore, cos i simply wont owe any. bbbbbbbbbb was very happy that i bought something while out yesterday, the difference abt him and any other guys is that he is always pushing me to buy things for myself. Probably cos he could feel the resistance i had mentally when i set my eye on something. I wanna stick to my resolution - 2010 is a year i start acting my age, when bbbbbb return, he will be dating a 23 yr old lady-like, Kristal!



i wonder if you all felt i am quite a obsessed girl. I can live in my own world and constantly fall in love again and again with bbbbbbbbbb.. liking every single details about him, his hair, his smell.... I know that, to some guys, such acts is also known as "possessive" so i am really really glad bbbbb is one who appreciate and see the true meaning behind this. Of course, i sure hope my "hardwork" is not in vain and someday i will look back and realise this experience was something i never had regrets about, whether or not bbbbbbbbbb and i are still together by then .




~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

BBBBB'S VALENTINE PARCEL!!~

Thanks to modern technology, a very good SLR-camera, a techno-savy boyfriend who bothers to blog, i was able to feel the joy of bbbbbbbbb receiving the parcel sent by yours truly.




Here you see the first part of the surprise sent thousand of miles over to bbbbbbbbbb, the second part of the parcel is by no mean a surprise since they were stuff demanded by my 'demanding" boyfriend. It is a Singpost size 3 box and they contain some stuff that Lina wanted to give to Effendi tooo.

Here's bbbbbbbbbb gleeming with satifaction to find the box filled to the rim.... haha.. he is in for a good treat=)

I would like to emphasize times and again how painstakingly (and burning hot) this thing here took me to make.

can you believe you can only make the sweet when its HOT!? heat-protective glove were recommended but just how many of us can find those frill-less glove that doesnt leaves disgusting wool-frill on sticky sweet when used? I decided against it and force all those involved in the making process to use strictly bare hand, fully coated with margarine. there are some ugly picture i saved but it can never reflect the effort we put into justice.

To end off the sweets, i had to grind some granula sugar (because i forget to buy the fine-grind kind) and coat each cut-sweet with sugar so it wont stick. It was a hurtful process and i almost swear that was the last time i will do it ever again. (that includes my cousin and sister who eventually give up trying to help out -- bruise and burnts later)

This card had another story to tell... i was shopping alone ( i have recently gotten use to doing things alone and enjoying the peace and serenity of thinking with my own brain) and came across a card rack, many options, many dilemma later, i settled this card (unaware it was going to burnt a hole in my pocket) cos there were some pre-written stuff inside the card that makes me giggle to myself.

Its OUR secret card now.

Here's another piece of gift i prepare for bbbbbbbbb, a checkered shirt specially manufatured by Fabrick, AKA the brand of clothing line i am working at. I really like the design and was sure it looks good on him, hence the choice. His size wise, i shud know better, i hug my bbbbbbbbbbbbbbb!!!~

The last part of the parcel was a AX card holder chosen by Kristi and me, i had image of bbbbb placing his car-key in the middle compartment and his ez-link by the side. Its like a "mobile" wallet cos everything inside provides him with option to move from one place to another.

I dare say the gifts wasnt very special but i got them planned in details and was very sure of my decision before purchasing them. This year's Valentine;s day was nothing special cos we aint physically by each other, but i sure do hope he felt my love.

The first Valentine day we had in 2009, i receive one stalk of rose, the second Valentine in 2010, i received none... hahah..... i guess flowers and Kristal doesnt always adds up to Valentine.....

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Just one cann of each, n that was thanks to the courtesy of the sweet ladies at work!!~

This new year is a little better after all =)

And i order 2 huge-ass size pineapple tart for bbbbbbbb's family and my family. Hope i can receive them today..... hmm.. all that is short of now is some more luxurious food for each family and i am pretty much settled.

On the other hand, clothes searching for CNY 2010 din went as smooth as before. I had handpick 3 sets of outfit that adds up to a couple of hundred and after alteration-- i din like any single one of them.

It was a very worrying issue as i do not like to wear stuff i dont tink i can carry off. They were pretty clothes, fully brand new, all fully alter to my size, and i could even bring myself to try them on, instead, the cheap $10 sundress i bought while walking past bugis street makes me so happy i am planning to wear them on Chu Yi......

i guess i can make good decision on expensive clothes, yet can easily settled on cheapo clothes..... which sucks.... there goes the moolah- Gone with the wind and against my delight.

Outing over the weekend with SiAhPau was great, thought bbbbbbbbbbb was a little upset over the drinking part. Overall i enjoyed myself and look forward to more short session with SiAhPau, along with camera, pretty clothes and more ideeas for ICBS



We are engaging a very very pretty young lady for future collection, its gonna be a blast so i will update soon on the upcoming events=)

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

i have so much ideas on my mind now, new range for BlackHairpins post-new-year sales. Phyl and i are taking turns to oversee the business now, sales has been booming and we are really hoping for it to rise further on our next collection.



BHP asides, i am going to start on my revision in full force now that i am feeling that tiny bit of urgency, knowing its gonna rise as times goes by, i shal strategies by studying those topics i have no confident of. This year papers' strategies is going to be different, after analysing the marking system more carefully i have taken a mental note to concentrate on subjects i would have confideent of and to spend more time on them, in any case, by the end of the course, only 4 strong topics will be chosen to grade us. I got to study smart this time.



We manufactured Curry Chicken Powder today, the sort you will all eat in your instant. I am guessing the client this time is some instant noodle sort, i was given the opportunity to walk into the production factory earlier, this was rare cos we will usually have to be in full gear with googles. Despite watching them through the glass, i was overwhelmed with the smell of the curry powder. haha... Yesterday was the worst, i hate the smell of tuna... awful awful awful



I am missing Mario's Korea Food badly today, gotta gather my besties to eat there soon enuff, nuttin else this week is worth the memories, i shall concentrate on looking forward to the shopping trip with Jann this friday.



Will update later with pic........ i hope@!!!~


~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

i have sooooooooooo much to blog regarding this best birthday ever.




Thinking about it makes me happy- till today, at this time, nearly 23hrs ever since it happened.


but i dun wanna blog a quick and fuss-free one. i wanna do an entry filled with my joy so you will all share it with me. Thus, till another time when i am more settled.




On a TOTALLY different note! Turtle is with Devil!




i believe besties (Denise & Sharon), Pau & Cuzzies probably dun find the name Turtle (or mo-LESTER) weird since his name re-appear on my blog pretty often back in 2005. i was re-enjoying the moment by reading through those very very sweet wishes by all my friends on facebook when the image of his face(yes, diguesting i remember) pop out of nowhere. What irk most was the lady besides him, someone very very very familiar, so against my will i had to click and take a quick look, to clarify i wasnt see the girl besides him i tot i was.




Shocking news!!~ mo-LESTER is indeed with the devil, i cant forget her face, even though she no longer had that moustache on her face. i know, it is very very rude of me to be talking about her behind her back, and i do admit i m petty. BUT this is the SAME girl that had made my primary school days a torture!!~ If not for the later part bunch of friends, who successfully made ourselves famous in school, i would have lost my esteem and never want to go anywhere near her again.




I guess i wasnt a coward or whatsoever last time, but Devil did have a deep-set eyes that stare at ppl and that aura comes from within. I was barely a 1.5m den and do NOT consider myself petite, however whenever she felt like it and set her eye on me or come anywhere near close, i swear there are times i felt like screaming. She was a head taller than me, and had developed-body, so to speak her waist was wide, though no fat, her tanned skin was nothing i have seen befoe and she would tie her pony tail way too high, it was to see her from afar, and she ALWAYS seems to have something to do with me.







and so all "memories" i had of her was "fond", her coming near me, staring at me, constantly. Nope, no harm done, she merely say ill-stuff of me and cry wolves each time she sees something she is jealous about.



my primary school lifes consist of a very deep crush on a Malay-Chinese guy name Jasrie as well as a guy who call himself xiao-long-nu. I remember Xiao-long-nu and i had a pact to call ourselver "steady" and Devil was crazy over us. She was also upset cos Jasrie is a bright student who write me poem and has a email account at 10yrs (email in the past is the coolest thing when we were all 10 so stop tinking i made it up) On top of that Marco-polo and i were close so Devil was jealous, jealous, very jealous..... haha.. dun want to rake up the past... i am giggling while typing.



So the point is --- Devil is pretty now!!!~ Pretty in the eyes of lotsa of guys... she is still broad shoulder and "big"in nature, but not fat at all, and despite knowing very well she din learn ballet when she was younger, her Facebook contains loads of picture of her in her ballet shoes--- NOT dancing.



So yeah, we ought to envy her, her figure was courageously enough to be posted on facebook, i can say both me and her probably had the same big tummy but with her broad shoulders, it wasnt very obsence on her.



So i was browsing her profile and found even more picture, apparently Devil had done a few photoshoots and most of them show her in lingerie - lacy kind. There were also couple of shots she had done with another girl, both in lingerie, both had leg cross over to each other... she is indeed sexy- and daring.



Den i view her latest status, that of her and mo-LESTER. pics of them french-kissing and hugging. It was comical, especially since mo-LESTER himself had constantly still tried his luck at me, and last got a scolding from me in nov 2009.



So i was telling bbbbbbbb all those things i found out and he listened to them patiently, as usual la, expressionless, commentless and doesnt even find a teeny-weeny bits of humour in it, but he did agree that such birds should end up together. I sincerely wish them alll the best, cos' afterall, who matches them more?



Its like how bbbbb can be quite irritating in the sense that he is quite "da nan ren" on the other hand i am quite unlikable amongst people who likes to turn up late for dates. So we fit like a puzzle cos the "da nan ren" will always offer to come and fetch his gf, and his gf will never have to wait for him if he is late. Ta-dah!!~



Or how like Sharon is super-duper conscious about food and thus very unhealthy, however, we cannot stop her. Caifu, on the other hand, is a food fanatic and enjoys exploring new form of delicacy, thus, Sharon darling never had an excuse not to try those food and thats probably where her only bits of nutrition comes from.



See, we are matching in some ways, sooner, Sharon darling & i will find Denise her puzzle. And i will personally interview Pau's partner if she had any.





here's a pre-photo of my birthday celebration

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

This is by far the boriest day i had since being cooped up with works, part time work and online work altogether.





I am sitting in the office, pondering how the next few days will turnout to be. I am turning 23, i know, dread that day coming, and bbbbbbbbb have assume my birthday was in july, which i had to psycho myself into believing too... We are gonna spend my "birthday" in London, alongside his parent, his buddies and all english!!~





The next few days are pretty much marked on my organiser, its gonna be a fun-filled weekend and i am guessin my depleted bank account to go into deficit sooner than i could receive my pay. I did a calculation and realise on an average, i spent about S$108 per week, inclusive of one evening of fun with one group of mates.



So far it has been good, Pau and i will sometimes hang out for dinner, otherwise it was chilling session with Denise, Sharon or Jean, and when all of them are too busy to hangout, Kristi will agree to join me for some errand running, so far she has been giving pretty good opinion in things i wannt buy, such as the latest valentine pressie for bbbbbbbbbbbb.... I can proudly says we both got a fair share of the gene from -perhaps- mummy?

I am so elated cos i am getting my Ralph Lauren Tote in 2 weeks time. Been comtemplating it for sometime and couldnt decide on the colour, i chose this in the end cos Colleague PaperStop suggesting it was good to match with clothing. She was so tempted to get it and got herself another too. With compliments from the "chipmuncks & f4" at work, thanks babe - you made my wishlist achievable.

And next up, i'll be eyeing that tattersall tote from COACH only to realise it has OOS. bbbbb has been curbing my craving, promising me to buy me something once i fly over to find him, but i cant keep my eyes off those images. ohoh, if any of u have that exact design, i am willing to buy it over from you, so please leave a comment here. Absolutely not Tattersall Grafitti version, i wan the hampton series, thanks.

So... going back to the weekend now, i shal really get started on packing stuff to move over to bros. A little worried cos now that BHP biz are picking up, i really hope to continue doing instant mailing, but the stocks will all be at home!!~ Hoping the girls are understanding and will continue supporting us. Oh, Collection 6 is launched! i am not in the photoshoot thou, too rush and Phyl had to do it alone, but the stock are all pretty!!~ Gonna keep a few for myself this time.

Gonna meet bbbb's friend gf a while later to collect her pressie for his friend, den combine them ll altogether for registered parcel and hope it reaches bbbbbb in the shortest time possible. We are already behind time and the pressie i did for him might spoil anytime.. i am really worried!!!!

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Kris: "Boss, Lao Niang turns 23 yr old this sun. Can spare me from work? Have notify Daniel to red alert me to work this wed & thurs so u wont nag!!!!!!!"


Boss: "Whao Lao eh.... A lot of stuff going on for you lei.. Jialat... What can i say? Getting expire only.... y so happy? hahaha"


Kris: "What lor... U dunno the beauty of a mature woman.. waahhaha. I already compensate with a weekdays le hor. Dun abuse your employees from her benefits ah, otherwise you will see your shop name blacklisted under CASE"


Boss: "Hahaha.. That's wat expired woman always said... haha CASE? U only work once a week n you wanna head to CASE? hmmmm.. try harder girl


...............................


"I am so scared,.. Pls, no, no." This part is to entertain u only"


STUPID boss, wahahha.. but since you always allow me to skive at work, pay for my dinner, and my hot-milo, since you are almost 190cm and automatically becomes my ladder, i shall forgive u ...



I have since realise my Boss do know i am taking advantage of him... haha.. yet each time he nags at me.. i will voluntarily offer to be sack, den he will knock my head and ask me not to threaten him.. haha... i am cheap labour and such a good employee, why would he want to sack me? wahahaha... Last month till this month alone i have skip work for 5 weeks, hahaha.. its no wonder he nags at me thru SMS this time. there is hardly chance for him to nag..



But then again, i am the only female employees he has (not considering Nicole, whom Daryl often describe to me as a lian-lian bamboo walking around the shop. We are very very spoilt by the guys in the shop la... wahhaha



yay!!!~ i can celebrate my birthday this sun with bbbbbbbbbbbbbbb.. thru skype!



~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

I have spend the weekend fruitfully, shall not update till bbbbb has receive his special surprise. I feel good, thou my fingers are burnt and peeling red.


Sun was spent at work - What else is new? haha, sales was good and we were busy busy busy... i cut my bangs in the morning and spent the rest of the day regretting it. Shouldnt have allow those itchyy fingers to hold the scissors. Juno took a quick look at my bangs and consoled there was hope. Now it up to me to maintain looking well in those silly bangs till i visit Salon.



Nothing much happen at work except for those irritating kids that tried their luck on me, Daryl (my new, self-obsessed colleague) had to tell them in secret that i was old enough to be their jie jie before they retreat. bbbbbbbb and i tot it was funny, he even ask me how it feels to be approach by young lad, my response was that i felt a little un-respected, i could have scream "Mei Da Mei Siao" at them, but that will only reveal my true age even more.



Stupid birthday, cant we stop those candle increasing every year?



bbbbbb and i had a chat some days back, we kinda reveal our unhappiness about each other and some misunderstanding. He jokingly said something that had meant i was nothing special and whatever we went through together he could do so to any other girls. Sad thing is that i wasnt able to take it as a joke and it hurt me really badly. hmmmm.... dun wan to continue, it hurts again.



In either case, we are fine now=) and i am glad, super relieve of it. I want things to work out between us and for him to see me as the same girlfriend he had fell for years back.



i am craving Korean food at Marios now.... someone please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

I just realise i hadnt really sat down and really thought about 2010. My mind had been pretty filled waiting for july to come near so bbbbbb can be back in Singapore- like finally.



But there are certainly things i dun wan to regret not penning down since the start of the year.





1. Its sad to know that since young i had promise Cuz one fine day i'll be the one to pick her up after school and bring her on a ride through Singapore while we chill at places we all knew MRT wont bring us sooner. Yet till this very day, even when i finally finally gotten some teeny weeny interest in learning driving, i am nowhere near there - at least not financially (Here's calling out to my dearest mate that if you really want to get me a present but cant think of anything justifiable, consider a ang pow containing enough $$ to tk one basic theory and 2 practical lessons...... totally appreciate that)



2. bf, with regards to point 1, please place on ur agenda the first thing you can get me once you get a job after your grad will be a secure sum of money to see me through one car license, thank you.



3. I haven really get use to wearing heels, at this age and still wobbly on heel simple means i will either end up short for the rest of my life or that the tailor near my hse will earn my $$$$ for as long as i enjoy shopping for clothes.



4. I haven had a credit (tsk..... NOT sup-card, i have 2 sup already) to call my own, and i know its still related to money and income, so its gotta wait.... in 2010



5. I shall try to concentrate on renewing my clothes this year. Have soooooooo many tips that i put into action this month.... not ready to blog them yet, but trust me girls --- you'll be impressED!! (* looks down at my Levi and smile with greed.....*)



6. I shall apply nail polish and take care of my polish. I shall bling them someday and look like a woman - not a tomboy girl with short short short short short nails.. omg



7. I shall speak english like i am suppose to and stop simplifying them with "la" "ya lor" or "leh



8. in relation to point 7. i shall force bf to stop making me speak my funny hokkien, try canto maybe



9. I shall arrange a trip to visit grandma cos i miss her dearly.. bbbbbb... drive me there please!~



10. I shall hang out with Kristi more and be like a real sister



11. i will get Gary to shut up reminding me i am 23 yrs old



12. i will show my affection for bbbbbbbbb, pauline, Sharon, Denise, Vivien and all my buddies publicly (note to those affected - do not be alarm if i plant a kiss on you suddenly *wink*)



13. I will wear skirt and sit with leg close (That means no more QIAO JIAO)



14. I will think 4 times instead of 3 when i want to get something



15. I still wont eat pork, beef, mutton, chicken with bone and drink their soup base



16. force bbbbbbbb to keep to his plan of fufilling batam, taiwan and UK trip this year



17. lose weight again (am planning to do a very PUBLIC DIET PLAN, one that reveals my progree, my dirty little cellulite secret so you can all embarress me and get me to buck up)









the list is getting really ridiculous, i am laughin to myself.









note to Zi Ting: congrats on your driving license, impressed cos its ur first attempt and the rain today is SO heavy!!~





~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Hi Reality,



Very soon you shall be put to test, and despite not wanting the day to come soon, i know it shall.


Instead of them breaking my weak heart and frail body, may them face you with pride and get at least something that wont shatter the older "Crystal"....

Dont hate me........... hate Reality. wahhaha

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

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~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Am blogging with Uber happiness, cos Pau and i are hanging out later.. its been weeks since i saw her.... so i am looking forward to another joyous day out near the mall for a super short while.

We are catching "The Blind Side", initial plan to watch "The Spy Next Door" has been push till a later date cos Pau says Sandra Bullock always deserve priority... so Jackie Chan.... to bad!!~

Been reading blogs after blogs, trying to find a good advertorial page for BlackHairpins, we are running low on budget and i am living in deficit, but its too good a chance to let go of.... CNY is in less than a month, so its the best time to expose ourselves... Really got to get hold of $$$ somehow.

Http://BlackHairpins.Livejournal.com

Please please please shop there... i tink the clothes are pretty pieces because i chose them by meself.

Haha... At work right now, counting down to meeting Pau later, there wont be any pic cos i am bespectacled today and my right eye hasnt really recover from all the trauma i went through.




~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

oH........HOW I MISS!!`

oH HOW I MISS

1. Waking up to realise i missed breakfast and lunch is ready
2. walking down the stairs only to realise Ahmad (Dad's name for bbbbb) is waiting for me in Whitey, his cool avatar, and his all time -jersey
3. Peck on his cheek whenever i met him- which happens so everyday (7 months ago)
4. asking him very stupid question such as why he would prefer beef to pork, fish to chip, white bread to wheat bread, chocolate milk to fresh milk, me to every other girls.. hahah
5. Slacking at Pau hse, stopping her from sleeping after our swimming
6. Also, slacking at Viv's hse, tidying her room and catching lizards, folding her clothes and enjoying the silence there
7. doing some knitting, making another ridiculously-Long scarf for bbbbbbbb
8. tanning with Apel den gossip over people i dun really know
9. attending lesson with French, napping during class and forcing her to explain to me again what the lecturer had just said.
10. Supper session with bbbbb's Laos, cos they are soooo funny
11. healthy dining with Sharon besties, i like talking to her cos her opinion and vision about things are often beneathe what we see on the surface, i like her philosophy about life
12. best-friend-meetup session, Denise darling, Sharon besties and Jean-jean the jean-jean. the very rare time i feel like a tai-tai with a twist of childishness. haha
13. KTV with clar and pau, i can vividly remember the last time we did it, it was a whole deal of fun.
14. Where's Ray?
15. Slacking at Denise's place, doing online shopping with her and Sharon Besties
16. Canele slacking after work, Fireman, Saliken and Iza, we are like enemy in disgust, we fool each other into drinking, and fireman ALWAYS get drunk FIRST.
17. bbbbb patiently teaching me poker
18. removing blackheads over bbbbb's "blacken" nose
19. washing bbbbb's Whitey with him
20. changing clothes in shopping mall and listening to bbbbb's serious comment.

oh.......... how i wish

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Bored Dkriss has something to dooooo............ here's how to do fashion the Chinese New year style- with hardly $100 left in ur pocket.







Step 1 - Buy anything that is already cheap from Cottons on. i got myself a pretty piece- a sheer and ultra thin Romper (halter style.. full black.... gotta bling it pretty soon) and then proceed to grab a good durable pair of flip flops @ $5.

Walk around neighbourhood shops and drop by some ridiculous accessories shop that not only sells scrunchies but needles and watch and bra and everything else that doesnt relate. You may just find some attractive buttons that comes in bundle.... colours, sizes and shapes..... CUTE!!~








do some artsy-fartsy stuff using your imagination, screw some colours together, tied them up using fishingline.














TADAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
















And here's a very very unglam shot of a very very expanded pair of foots. Excuse me..

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

have been bugging myself to constantly update (or rather, to rant) here, but i had been so busy these days doing revision, discussing with Pau over ICBS and Phyl over BHP.
So forgive me, for i have already forgive myself.


3 days ago (this was how long i intend to blog) was my 17 months with the one and only Sweet-Silly-Stinky-Sleepyhead. Life has been hard but we live by. Each and everyday, the distance is pulled closer, so my stand about Long-Distance relationship remains - it does bring two hearts fonder..


bbbbbb and i had a tiny arguement thou, but it wasnt any of our fault, it was more of a outer pressure i had been suppress recently. i have no intention to rant it here (strictly private... ) but this issue is here to stay, till the day we walk down the aisle... i am glad bbbb and i talk it out and now that things have simmer a little, i hope its time we leave it aside and concentrate on other more substantial issue.


I AM MOVING OUT (UNOFFICIALLY!!`)

gee.. this line sounds too familiar cos there are so many ppl out there recently that is following this crazy trend. While my issue seems irrelevant, i had to move out cos i need to go into hiding- the time of the Year has come and in about 4 months i will b muggin away trying very hard to still aim for my 2nd Upper class. The first year grades has been bad, i had been REALLY lucky to barely passed so Dear God, i will do my job, please do yours.. teehee.. Bless those who try harder.


I miss those loads of fun bbbbb and i had while he is still here in Singapore. His friends were a bunch of funny ppl and they make me laugh louder than anything!~ i wont May wont take long to come and sooner bbbb and i (not forgetting his family and his buddies) will be shopping and touring UK. bbbbb and i have plans for me to stay there for up to 1 months plus if allow, so i am doing my research on VISA issues, hope all is well and i am outta here for a good period of time.


Am meeting Besties later.. we are gonna cranked up a little. Kristal is a happy girl


and dearPau, HUAT AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!~


~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Do you know how, in those black&white drama film, boring taiwan family woes, korea teary sitcom, daughters are force to married through matchmake, through parents' decision amongst 50 potential guys?


Do the daughter always cries in tears, sad to leave the family, sad over the betrayal, sad over not having the rights to make decision? Well, for once, in my opinion, if i ever had a choice at this stage, i would probably want to be in their shoes, to have my parents sieving through hundreds of profile for someone so potential he ought to take care of you, ought to make you tai tai.


I have a close friend last time who was force by her mum to date her's boss's son cos he was interested in her. It all started out like a soap drama but all too well, 2 years later, she was happily married to him, free to do her own stuff, secure with something she had been worried about since she was born.


Why do everyone thinks by giving them freedom to seek their own happiness, they are bound to find happiness? Havent we all seen enuff of sad girls being dump by their guy who had promise happiness, who had once hold their hand tightly and promises not to let go? Havent we had our fair share of sadnes over being dump. Havent we all regret falling in love with the wrong guy. Some of us regret falling in love with the wrong guy - only tooo late. By then, you are probably in your early 30s, have been through so much wedding dinner you lose count. Your best friend might probably be a happy mother of 4. Yet you are stuck, trying to doll urself up, wearing super mini skirt, pretending to look demure, hoping some single lads out there still hasnt got a ring on his forth finger. You would be exceptionally sweet besides them, emphasizing on how you use to be pretty but all that has past, what you really need now is a roof over your head, cos although ur parent welcome you to live with them, they also need you to carry on the family lines.

there you have, a burden- a child that needs to be produce before you get too old, your frail parent who has now retired and is seeking a comfortable life at home, while waiting for your contribution every month. You also need to make sure they live their final stage of life in happiness, travelling side by side each other and you being stuck at home.


did i forget you also had to buy 15 range of product to make sure those wrinkle remain invisible. Also when you go out on your fortnight dates with your classmates, you have to remind them times and times again that you are single because you choose to.


the day might come another man out there is still single. He had a choice whether to date a younger girl (cos old man are always more attractive) or to date you cos he needs his offspring as soon as possible. You can regard urself as a sow, producing chikd after child, you can grow fat, you can learn to love this man who often had tots about the "what-if", what if he had gotten himself a younger sow? What if his kids had been borne earlier?


You might regret, regret u hadnt plan your future earlier. You might regret all too late you hadnt find a better guy earlier, but its all too late, you hadnt plan, and you have to live with it, to face it and boost to everyone its part of your plan - not to plan at all.

You might also hate all your past boyfriends, seeking every chance to learn about their whereabout, some might have kids and a wife, despite earning meagre salaries (they are happy, still)
Some of your ex-boyfriend might still be single, but they are dating younger girls, having fun. They can afford to, "man in their thirties marks the beginning of their charm" "woman in their thirties, however, marks the end of theirs"



Dear girls, open your eyes bigger, and DO PLAN. I am rest assure cos all my best friends and concern cousin have plans about their future. The singles have plan to keep looking and hopefully settle down by a certain age, they are also working hard to fend for themselves in the event that all fails. The attached, such as Sharon & bf are saving more than they require for their house, they plan to own a condo, get married. Even my bf's sister have plan to aply for flat by next year and giving themselve 3 years to prepare for their future.
i dun wan to see anyone regretting not planning earlier cos there is nuttin you can do.. REmember, you can never turn back time so protect yourself- at all cost.


~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Day 3- Chalet with bbbb

Day 3- Chalet with bbbb

It was a day i had to work, i've only got 4 annual leave through the 6 months contract work, so i had to be wise in splitting up the days correctly. I had applied for half afternoon off so as to execute the "no-longer-surprise" i had plan for bbb...

He was the sweetest thing waking up in the morning and getting my stuff ready while i prepare for work. He drove Whitey out and the first place we headed was to get me breakfast, bbbbb insist a Mac breakfast will be a good start for the next few hr, i reached work pretty early while nbbbb set off to meet his mum for some grocery shopping and later to fetch Wang to join them. It din take very long and at 12.45pm bbbbb, his mummy and Wang were outside the company waiting for me. We hurried to the Carmart while Wang collected his frail car.

bbbbb bought me my lunch and while i was eating, he had packed our stuff ready for the chalet. We proceeded to get some last minutes stuff for the BBQ tonight and off we went to Sentosa. The checking in part was easy and the staff were super friendly, he had secretly allowed us to park the car at the staff carpark so it was easily accessible to our room.

Wang & gf, Zhang & gf arrived shortly after and preparation for BBQ started. In short, that night was great, gift exchange was fun, food was sufficient (though the leftover we threw away really breaks my heart. We also drove out to East Coast for some "toy-catching" session and at 12 MN sharp, bbbbb and i kiss each other as it marks Christmas!~

Night fell and all of us were super tired, Wang & gf fetches Qin, Zhang & gf home while bbbbb& i fetch Sha, Kong & Ong back. bbbbb&i were so tired we decided to abandon the chalet for the night and slept at his place.
It wasnt a waste to the Chalet cos afterall the $$ had been paid and we can no longer see them physically. Furthermore, what can be more comfortable den bbbb's soft pillow and Bertie in between us.

I was duper happy that day, though i did feel a little uneasy cos bbbb&i had a fight that afternoon, it wasnt really a fight, just me bursting into tears cos bbbb&i couldnt come to an agreement, but he gave in eventually so all was well, Thank you bbbbbbbb i really enjoyed myself that day and having you beside me in bed matters more than sleeping in the chalet just cos i paid for it. Merry belated Christmas and sorry i din appreciate the muackx before. I appreciate it now and hope it is not too late..

Note to self:- PLEASE UPLOAD THE PIC (yes Pauline, i know, i am THIS lazy... hahaha)

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

dAY 2 with bbbbbbbbbbbbbb

Day 2 with bbbbb
That morning, bbbbb was suffering for jet lag, as a result he had spent the night turning in bed, i slept well but wakes up occasionally to find him still uncomfortable. He would stroke my hair and touch my face, den apologises before putting me back to bed. He later told me he spent the night looking at my face while i am asleep, so i am glad i hadnt snore (bbbbb's definition of me snoring is when i breathe with a "SSSSis" sound... )


We woke up to the find the house empty, everyone had gone to work and his Mummy was out for a while. I was famish and bbbb offer to cook his specialty- black pepper bee hoon. I had plans to prepare the food for the BBQ tomorrow night (which was a still a surprise to bbbb) and we made our way to NTUC. He was curious as to why i had bought things in bulk but the smartypant later figure out wat was going to happen and so we spend the next hr planning togther wat was suitable to feed 10 pax.


bbbb cook me a very sumptous Black pepper bee hoon filled with egg and mushroom.. His cooking had definitely improve so the food taste really good. I wasnt allow to help out much so i dare said this was his project- solely his...


we spent the rest of the day hanging around the house, unpacking his loots, watching Alvin and the chipmunks 1 on TV.. bbbb doing his assignment, me staring at him.. talking to his mum when she returns, washing his dirty laundry, hanging them out to dry and eating with his entire family at their favourite dining place - Seletar. It had been a simple night... but i enjoyed myself to the fullest...




~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~