Eric playing Barbie dolls.. -.-"

Me posing at the ladies

The Girl wit the peanut brain



Eric as a princess

Grilled Dory Fish.. yumm yumm-ly UNdelicious

Cafe Cartel very expensive tissues

Eric messing with the menu

Eric seriously looking at the menu


Knife on the left or right?

Pork chop Fanatic

My Dates (Sry to include u Rich, haha. urs is not exactly a date -.-")

Thursday
Had a date with Eric, it was planned way way before and long long ago since April.. -.-"
Met him 6.45 at SUntec City (sry to be SO detailed, promise RIch to )
Walk to Marina Square, haven been him for a while (shall intro bout him slightly later)
Walked into a long stretch of restaurant (billy Bombers, CArl's Junior, Apetite, Cafe Cartel) finally decide at Cafe Cartel.
We sat down and order our food (oh.. pic.. upload later.. this entry is urgent)
Chat hell a lot of stuff, he was busily going on and on about how we first met (cos i use to like his friend and all) he could even remember the route we took, the bus number i board, why i left the bus all of a sudden, and the bus stop i board the bus (which i have no idea till date)
~~~How sweet.. Eric, i appreciate it all.. thanks...
Total bill add up tp $40.. i was busy recordin a video of the paying part, i had initially placed the money on the table, but had no idea he din use it.
Angry as i was, i was clearly determine not to use other's money for no reason. So i took the money, tell him we're going shopping. Stop at Hooked Clothing (chat with Alex for a while ) and bought a shirt from Alex to Eric.. haha..
He did vice versa, walk into a chocolate shop, grab a packet of chocolate and pay for it.
It was clear that at the rate we are spending just so that we dun owe each other anything, we'll both soon go really broke. So we had to stop.
Walk in the water fountain by suntec, chat fora while while i did my usual rounds of photo takin of the water, then i had to head home.
Eric then accompany on the bus 857 home. While on the bus we joke SO MUCH and took SO MUCH picturees (which will be uploaded shortly)
THen he finally head home to PayaLebar.
Slept!~
*B was enormously angry -.-"

Friday
Met Rich at City Hall station. We travel straight to Far East, 1st destination is Hooked Clothing (clearly Steve, i am helping u promote Hooked more than u did the promotion) He tried on about 2 piece of tee and we continue with other shop before returning.
Walk into Enos Wear, was greeted by an unfamiliar face. Woo, (new staff). then Clarence came and serve us, Rich tried on like 2 pieces of pant, and he like themm both (rich men call RIch.. no wonder)
While he was busy being served, the new staff came and talk to me.. haha.. cute guy with good manners (i THOUGHT) Mexican chinese, well groomed. and all..
Rich paid for the pant ($122 ++) and we left.
Proceed to other shops, i was boasting on and on about how cute the guy is and after a few more rounds in Far East, Rich din set his eye on anything further. He was dying for a long sleeve shirt and the only i reckon sold this stuff were Enos Wear, so no choice la.. had to head back (i was cheekily smiling)
Mex-chin (as in Mexican chinese) greeted us again, this time more opened, while he was busy boasting about his charm in club, sch and all, i was more concern about finding a correct shirt for Rich.. guys guys guys, why do their real colour always reflect the SO OPPOSITE of their 1st impression. -.-"
True enough, he ask for my number and prompt some other stuff to indicate me to ask for his in return (is it that hard to msg a girl first.. -.-")
Left the shop and went to Pasta Mania for a treat by Rich (thanks bro!~) we chat ALOT. he was telling me why me and 182 din get togther, I was telling him how 182 and i chat a while ago and agreed we couldn't afford to lose the friendship again, further more Rich agreed that both 182 and i are living under the shadow of the failed past relationship.

there you have!~ Rich bought a few new sets of clothes. And ya, i tink he looks pretty cute in them (see!~ i told u i will tell the truth cos we will NEVER fall for each others) he send me home too and left for his. (and ya, i din get eaten up by dogs. ok ?)
slept!~
*B was paranoid and lost, quarrelled

Saturday
Arranged to meet Police man tonight. He finally got his driving license and i agreed to be his 1st few rider.
i guess it was pretty much my fault too for i din bother to msg him to follow up on this day we planned. So when i msg him last min, the car was borrowed by his brother so we din get to meet in the end.

So what's with the fuck that i keep calling myself a Bitch(thou i am NOT one)? Here's why=
Like i already told B, i was going to meet up with my friends this few days. and he got pretty pissed. When Policeman couldn't meet me that night. i was clearly tired and needed a rest. Then Gigg called (not his real name too.. haha.. forgive me) and ask me out later after work. I wanted to hang out that night, but dunnow with who. So i told him i will confirm with him later. But when he told me he needed an answer by 8pm cos he finish work then, i got pretty pissed (ok,. i know u had to knock off bt.. hai.. blame my atitude) told Gigg to just go home cos i dun tink i can make it.,.

Bitch .. bitch.slut slut,. thats what i am. its all my fault.. stomp into Hooked Clothing and told Steve all about it. Here's his philosophy
Steve:: A man ask his friend the difference btw bitch and slut. His friend told him "she is a bitch because she slept with every guy she met" "she is a slut cos she slept with every guy she met but NOT you.. "
hahahahahhaha.. man.. that was the greatest joke ever!~ then Steve ask me if i slept with every guy i met? NO!~ No for all the guys i am dating now. no for all other guys!~ Then he say clearly the answer is obvious, i am NOT a bitch.

Good!` i felt 3000 times better.
Check on my cellphone and there was this msg sent my B, by then he was so pissed that he accept the fact that we are not meeting so he is asking his best friend out, I had no idea why the msg end up on my cellphone instead., hehe..

it was time to do some good. So i called his best friend and arrange a plot. i will surprise myself by joining them for a movie.
Board a bus to PS to meet his best friend while we wait for him,, haha..
while i left the shop i bid goodbye to Clarence, cos the Mexi-chin did work too, so i bid him goodbye too..
while i was on the bus, Mexi-chi msg me and yup, was asking what i'll be doing later and all..
hmm.. what does he wants? -.-"

Watch Pirates of the Carribean.. (yucks) and the show is damn long la.. After the show B offer to send me home, so him and his best friend send me to under my block.It was already 4 am in the mornin. So i tot the least i could do is offer them to come up to my house and rest till the first bus arrve then they could board it home.

Sunday
Morning, i woke up and went to find B, while his best friend is aslp we had a talk and things din turn out right. Things got rather ugly when i told him i wasn't ever going to trust him 100%.
Anyway i shall skip what happen, left the house go eat breakfast, bid them goodbye and went home to rest for a while before reporting for work.

About 1.5 hours later i left my house for work, feeling rather down and tired, i was shock to my shattering bones when B sudden appear infront of me. Turns out he din head home and was waiting patiently for me while i rest at home.

hmm.. touched i shall say. Tired, upset and all of a sudden someone appear in front of u. The terrible day din end when my colleagues call and say i wasn't schedule to work that day, and both my best friends was with their BF, cuz had father-outing every sunday.

Where should i head to? home (when i am tired, upset!~ no), town (with who?)..
Just than B grab my hand (oh gosh!) board the train to Toa PAyoh, then board a bus to his house.
Ask me!!!!! Ask me why i din resist!!!!!
i am sucha asshole. bitch and all..

its really hard to explain. Here's one period of your life u feel really shit. When eveything around u came crumpling down in seconds and all u need is a listening ear. So when this pair of helpful hands offer, u naturally took it. Even though u knew things will never work out.

Went to his house. Chatted with his Er-jie, she told me lotsa of philosophy in life, about my education, my life, my family. It was really good for she list things out so well i had to say my route seems really smooth afterall.

Then he and his Er-jie cooked me a hot bowl of Miso soup, drank it watch some TV while he bath, and soon we head to town to shop.

B had vouchers for Stadium (sport hall) and knewing i wanted a tennis racquet bag for a long time he offer to gave it to me. We went to Taka and bought my very very huge tennis bag (yippie!~) He carried it for me and we walk, hand in hand back to the station cos i had to go home. The journey, i saw Germaine and this guy, Annie and these gal.. and a whole lot of people.

So people u see... i explain my 4 days date to you all in FULL details. Amazing huh. So i suppose i am a bitch, but a bitch that doesn't slept with any guys. The virtual kind of bitch.

and hate me, for i cannot forgive my action and know it is completely wrong.
Tell me, for i dun see my mistakes till i commit them
scold me, for i am unsure of myself and need to be woken up

my dear friends... do all of you hate me now?

Blogging blogging,

how ironic it is that we use to hate telling our secrets to others, and now we cant wait to write it out globally.

I clearly remember when i was 12 year old, i had already owned like 2 very thick diaries, filled with emotions. I locked them up in my drawer. Then a stupid cousin came along and read my diary, i screamed so loud i lost my voice the next day. That was how badly i wanted to keep my secrets but refuse to let my brain do the saving.

Then when i was 16 years old, i fell for a cute guy that din work out, i was confuse and had many question marks as to why he will all of a sudden, just turn back on every single thing he said. Despite his million explanation on how he actually DID have a crush on me. i was NOT convinced. It was then i learn about this blog thingy. When i log on to his blog, i realise since the first day we knew each other, since my very first entry about him on my physical diary, all hard and still. He had already wrote his emotion on how he spend every single day with me, peek at me through my brother's rooom. His emotion sounds real, the date proves it all. That was also the reason why we are still REALLY great friend till date. Cos seriously, there was nothin to blame. And i am finally convinced both of us did try very hard to work things out.

The amazing thing about blog

The funniest thing about blog is, i use to keep this blog address so secretive.. for about 1 year or so, only my best friend and Jerk knows about this blog. And to date, i have change like 2 address, one is to avoid Lester, a guy that almost become the one...

Ironic... how ironic..

Now my blog serve as a "wholemeal" bread for many of u. A healthy breakfast to begin ur day.. hahaha.. today's entry is filled with delicious smoke turkey baked in teriyaki sauce and serve in whipped cream...

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sounds disgusting enough,.. alrite.. that shall save u from ur lunch.. hehe.. wee!~

The girls, all out by the staircase in bugis street =)

Crazy WF using her chopstick kungfu to get that mushroom

Crazy WF and Jamie!

Delicious Ramen, what u call it? duhz.. i forgot -.-"


MY very spicy Spicy Seafood Ramen

The Ma-po Ramen?

With thanks to Ajisen!~

This is what u get for deciding too long where to eat

Si Jia look so adorable.. Caught her taking picture of Jamie

Jamie, the only one that willingly took the pic.. thanks =)

The Birthday girl, check out her dressing, she looks like our mama-san

Happy Birthday Guo Jing,
Not gonna mention ur age here, we'll promise to keep it to ourselves
Afterall u've kept it for 23 years of ur life =X oops!~
Haha.. we surprised her with a birthday cake after her meal. And i bought a stalk of blue rose

(abit off)-
Blue rose is a damn rare species, i like blue rose cos they symbolises---- nuttin.. haha
i first saw blue rose at the cemeteries while visiting my grandpa tombstone,
alone, standing among the bed of cow grass grew on top of the tomb
it looks splendidfully amazing, against all odds, with the silent peaceful surrounding
swear there wasn't anything more amazing than this

(back to GJ birthday)
We shop a little at bugis street. And then Xinyi, which is my full time "darlin" came to meet us.
The night ended pretty early and Xinyi and i board bus 857 home together.

A Little thank you
Thank you Jamie, for the waist belt, pictures to be uploaded at www.dkriss.blogspot.com
really like them alot, dun even wanna sell le...
haha.. love love

My night was boring.

Yummy!~ Lunch for today, Ham-salad top with a deliciously juicy Apple

See how i can finish everything, the most embaressed thing is i actually brought my own thousand Island.. hehe

Fufilled look, slanted.. haha..

Healthy lifestyle begin with your self

Tuesday
Work... work...
i miss D.K.S, so i called Sharon, sha^darl is waiting for her mummy to meet her at Junction 8 for dinner
then i called Denise, Nise^darl is working. That makes all of us free, i conference our conversation and i swear we were like politician in a fight. There were SO MUCH to tell and we miss each other equally. Darls, we shall meet up REALLY soon and spend the night together and behave like true best friends.. miss miss (Thru'out the conversation, mummy was giving me the stare for making outgoing calls, who cares?!~ haha)

Went home and change into something comfy and went out again to meet Phyl, OMG. NOt only did we look alike, we dressed alike too. She was in her LTC tee shirt, FBT shorts, Flip-flops and bun her hair up. I was in my sleeveless black racer-back, FBT shorts, Flip-flops and i bun myhair up too. When we saw how messy both of us look. haha, we couldn't care less.

Phyl and i can get pretty loud whenever we get together, we talk so much till we din notice this couple in front of us, as Phyl was about to knock them over, she shout out a VERY loud "oh my goodness!" u can imagine the embarressment we were facing, but we find it SO funny we were laughing louder.

Hahaha, typical girls. oh.. did i forget to mention halfway thru when her Benny call, she was so preoccupied in the talk its seems like the world was revolving around them. That was what i always "hate" about her.,. hahaha.. i told her i "hate" people with that kind of "i-am-totally-in-loved" face. And she has one. WE finally reach our house and begin doing our MaryannaJane.
Phyl lose her focus pretty fast and i ended up me painting "Celin" while she was playing her "so-call" beautiful notes on the organ.. haha.. had fun? i did, u should have see her expression when she finish her first challenge of "the meowing song". Girl u have 2 more challenge to go

The night soon eneded with a sms from her BEnny saying :"A msg from the Hubby Provider. This is a gentle reminder that you are currently exactly an hour away from reaching your home. If u have already left for home, kindly ignore this msg, thank you"

--------------------so sweet, hahahha.. "hate" people who are in love.. haha..

i send Phyl to the bus interchange then she finally left. Just then B called, haha,.. seems like everything have to fall in place nicely.

We chatted for a while, with all the scolding from him for skipping my dinner, for eating apple (huh?!~) then i went to bath (stinky!)
Called him again and we quarrel somemore. About my spending of money for this week. About the plan to confiscate my ATM card, about how i can split the "locked" money. Here is my plan:

Pay $500...
-$100 to mummy to shut her mouth from complaining my no-contribution to the family -.-"
-$50 to Denise for the orders from www.LaSenza.com
-$200 to daddy to "locked" the money up for Australia study plan (thats will total up to $1k! finally T_T)
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-$50 to glittery streak for my order of the Tennis bag
-Leftover under my own a/c for emergency use.

then he scold scold scold la.. -.-" his plan
-$100 to mummy to shut her mouth from complaining my no-contribution to the family -.-"
-$50 to Denise for the orders from www.LaSenza.com
-$200 to daddy to "locked" the money up for Australia study plan (thats will total up to $1k! finally T_T)
-forget about the $50 bag, he just receive $30 world-of-sport voucher that i can use to buy the bag instead. so i only need to pay $30
-Leftover to be "locked" up by him

dunno la.. my money i have no control over.. how sickening!
Then we talk about what happen if we REALLY end up together.. he was telling me what his sister told him, about what a failure he has been this time round. About how we will spend our time together.
ABout what happen when my family finally sees him, about what he should buy for my family next time round.

haha.. all crap, it was only a imagination. But we din talk about if i will possibly accept him after all.. Seems like he knew it himself, i dun give any comment about such things.

what do i really wan? haha.. i wan my friends.. just wans my friends.
i wan NYP besties : Xinyi, Si jia, Celina, Jamie, 182, Phyl, Shar, Jed..
i wan D.k.s: Denise Sharon
i wan my cuz: Vivien Ding Chu Er, Raymond Kwa, Remsten Ding
i wan my family: the Chng, the Ow
i wan my job and colleagues: Ooo.Babies..
i wan my special friends: Jerk, Destiny-escape.

Then i wont ask for more, really wont ask for more. that's why it seems like i dun tink relationship seriously, cos currently the things that matters the MOST is here with me, always here.

So people u understand now. Dun worry bout me cos i'm fine. Its childish to talk about "i like you you like me", why dun we all talk about "u wanna get the Maryannajane from me"? hahaha// see la.. promoting my barang so fast..

ANyway here's the official webbie : http://www.dkriss.blogspot.com (MaryAnnaJane of dKrisS)

Thanks and love...

Tired..
my back is aching,
my arms are way out of control,
my mind is flooded,
but i am So so sSO satisfied.

Finally finish -=yi=- This is my very first order, so i did it with pride. Paint them on bit by bit. But now i know the next pair of shoe that i do tonight, i better do it on a table. if not my back will die off me in no time.
Simply love -=yi=- i cannot belive the order will turns out to so beautiful. it gaves me so much confidence. Phyllis is coming to my house later to do a pair of MaryAnnaJane, she wanna do it all by herself. Not sure if i will be a good mentor, but at least i tried.

Broke now, left with this pathetic sum of money, need to meet GJ and all to celebrate her birthday tomorro,
- Thursday agree to meet Eric for dinner, (we agree to go for almost half a month already)..
- Friday accompanied my "1/2 husband WeiZhe(182 makes the other 1/2)" to shop for new clothes, WZ need to amuse this pretty girl at church, and i offer to be his image consultant people must wait to see the new him k? hehehe..
- Saturday: work then meet police man!!

This is my plan. Oh did i mention i just bought something online from www.lasenza.com with my d.k.s? we spend like $90 together. Online shopping is addictive, oh please.

And i just got new orders for dKriss shoes. hmm.. i guess i am on the right track.

Dun wanna tink about anything. Just wanna be selfish to myself. Wont be seeing B till this sun, he sounds pretty upset. Oh well, i have to keep my distance if i dun wanna give him the wrong idea.

And i miss
Denise, her yong tau foo
Sharon, her ever-ongoing diet plan
Cuz, her non-stop troubles
Samantha, her everything

i am nuts. i am .. haha..
nutty nuts, chocolaty nuts. call me m&m..

m&m melts in your mouth, not in ur hand.. haha..l
Tronky, outside tender eskimo, inside crispy eskimo
Hang on, he's bueno-ing
Jing Sha!!!! Fererro- rocher

yum yum

Thursday
Work work work work, finally came up with new designs for MJ.

B booked out at 2.30 on special request. He went home to change and came under my block to fetch me for dinner after my work. So weird cos his camp at Mandai, he stay in eunos, he comes back to yishun to meet me for dinner -.-"

We proceed to 900+ and order all my favourite food, do you all know i dun eat alot of stuff. Haha, tell u another day. Anway we ordered BBQ stingray, sambal kangkong and hotplate tofu (Yummy!~). total bill add up to $32. He foot the bill, dun ask me why. i offer to pay le.. ( i had $10 left in my wallet cos i din tk pocket money from boss)

Send me back to under my block, then he left for home

Friday

Work work work , suppose to meet him for shopping after work. B and his family are meeting their cute hunk cousin from Germany (look REALLY cute). Then in the end, his cousin ask me to join them for dinner. So i met him and his sister at Eunos station, my farecard was buang (i had $2.70 left in my wallet cos again, i din tk pocket money from boss) He top up my card and we went to Suntec city to meet his other twin sister and the rest of the cousin.

Damn they were going to eat Crystal Jade, yes la, SAME name as me doesn't mean i no need to pay. Then i was so embarress, his sister tell me:"nvm, once in a while, let my brother pay, is ok" hahaha.. what was i to do? Reject them and go home myself? I follow them into Crystal Jade and they order some food package that adds up to $287.60 in bills. He split with his cousin for my share. SO DAMN EMBARRESSING K?

Worst thing is i had to leave immediately after the meal. Like one cheapo can, eat free, travel free then go home. Never even accompany the guest around. Stupid Kristal -.-"

Saturday

Work at F.E.. yippie, finally back to F.E.. no more P.S.. but my colleagues all complain about Aunty, see la see la, when i was in PS kena bullyby her u all dunno, now is ur chance to share my burden. hehehehe.. jia you gurls..

During work damn suay, stupidly i ate a combi of Malay curry food with banana milk. Stupid girl, which idiot will be as stupid as me? Chilli, sambal, curry curry curry . then banana milk? haha.. feel so giddy, din even finish half a packet then suddenly wanna faint faint, ask jean to come up and tend the shop, rush all the way to the ladies and rest there and black out for a short short while,. wake up after that and vomit EVERYTHING out. haha..

After work again had to meet B, he finish his NDP preview and bought tix for movie. So no choice had to tk bus to New Cathy and meet up with the rest of his friends, Darren, Rapster and a few others. They played pool for a short while then we went to catch Superman.

On my way into Cinema 1(damn cool and good sounds system), i visit the ladies, i notice this man keeps staring at me, but i heck care, cos obviously he and his friends are dead drank. Went out of the ladies they were still there looking so i look up and see who they are la. I wont say out his name but he is a finalist contestant of a competition in channel U.

.... Sicko, or shall i blame myself? i was wearing this pretty revealing top, so maybe its my fault.

Then went in to watch Superman, damn boring show. Finish the show at about 3 plus. Lights up, EEEEK!~ the few seats besides me were filled with PUKE. damn suay, then i saw who was sitting there, the SAME "..... finalist who was dead drank"! B's friends told me, they smuggle red wine into the cinema, which stupid fool drink red wine while watching Superman? They drank so much and were busy puking halfway throughout the show.

Some people dunno how to keep their reputation, anyway my image of this guy is ruined since. Sorry hor, big star so what? Cannot smuggle red wine in and puke on people nice nice sofa la?

Then Daddy called and scold me upside down, so cab home immediately while B and his friends went to watch world cup

Sunday

Work Work work, my eyes are swollen, but damn damn hyper, haha.. cos i am working at Ooo.. baby!~ yippie, joke and fooled around, had my usual heart-to-heart talk with uncle heng. haha.

Then nuttin much, but lost my appetite big time! Drank tofu soup for lunch, had some other fruits and ate a bread for dinner. After work, again meet B (hahaha.. marathon.. i dunno la.. )

He was late and he waited for me at the station. Then he passed me a big bag of bread. Haha, assuming i wont eat other stuff (damn true la. i like bread). Send me to my house, then he left for world cup finals. I went home and Daddy was painting the shoes for me.. touched.. i told him about my day and the bread B bought. He immediately ask :"he will know my favourite meh?" (my daddy is highly in love with bread containing chicken floss, and ONLY spicy chicken floss. )

i dunno, open the plastic bag and found ALL the bread containing spicy Chicken floss, tell me who he is trying to please?!~ OMG la.. i din even tell him lo. .. Nvm.. u win u win..

then spend the night discussing with Daddy about this www.dkriss.blogspot.com he was suggesting me to draw other type of shoe, the budget i should keep and other suggestion. My daddy and i are mad about my passion. hahaha.. Mummy, as usual, caught up with her ever-ongoing korea drama. The night soon ended with B calling me to chat for a while and ended up with a bad quarrel.

That's it! my weekend, and a 4 days marathon of meeting B everyday, dunno why he suggested this marathon. He was trying his best, i know. haha.. Dun question me about my feelings now. Dun wanna mention anything.. haha.. i am such a STUCK UP ass

JErk, see la see la, msg me for dinner only when u reach home.. nice ah.. -.-"

Xin yi- eh.. where did all the jogging plans go? haha..

182- makan marathon! cool!~ our dearest King Kong..

Sijia^ annoymous.- u there? hahahaha

Jamie- touched.. T_T

Uncle heng says i should not tink about how guys look at me, he says i am attractive, just that i always have very very low confidence of myself

Uncle heng agree the birthmark on my body create a VERY bad impression of me cos they look 80% like love bites.. -.-"

Uncle Heng says as long as people sees us the person we really ah.. thats fine already,.

Uncle heng.. hahah. u so young, so handsome (-.-") okok.. let me promote u, \

Steve Heng, 32 yrs old (look like 20 ++ )

Boss of Hooked Clothing

buy his items, i am a HUGE fan of Hooked Clothings. a loyal fan. Normal tee priced $19.9

yayyayayayya!!! hehehe.. my webbie is up.. but results is fair only
-one interested buyer for "celin"
- one interested buyer for customisation

okok.. back to my private life..
i've decided to be true to myself. To be true here cos this is MY blog.

i like him? so far, no.
Why are we hanging out really closely? He is my ex-boyfriend
Will like him in future? Not for now, a year later? If he proves me wrong?
Will i be bothered if people mistook us as a couple? definitely YES! (please dun)

why am i a slut? why did a revenge plan turns sour? Why din i have a evil heart?

He tells me alot of things, i told him i wont trust any
He tells me he wants me back and is serious, i told him i wont trust him
He proves me wrong, i really see the difference, but i told him i wont trust him
.......... he is still trying

Jerk, u read my blog for alomost 3 years now, u heard all the bad things i mention about B, he is really really that bad in the past.
now,
- he brings me to his parents and dotes me in front of them
- he brings me out with his friends.
- he send me home promptly before a certain time and then travel the way home to the other part of singapore
- when he booked out, he will tk a bus to my house, bring me for dinner before he travel home himself

but Jerk, i cannot trust B.
I told B about Lester, i told him it will take me a VERY long time to get into another relationship again. Guys make good friends, but its hard for me to believe they make good boyfriend.
I dun wan to end up crying and behaving so weirdly for another three months, that shall not happen again.

Jerk, i wanna get on with my life, without guy. With myself, with my friends who care about me, with special friends that take extra great care of me. I wanna stand out, but why m i feeling so complicated? Jerk, u know me the best, u'll always there for me for so long. Please tell me what to do?

I've made enough mistake so far for 19 years of my life, i regret deeply if i forget to tink of my grandma at least once a day. Jerk, do u understand that feeling, i dun wan to be tied down by so many regrets in life.
Every single mistake made is a commitment, you must always commit to prevent doing it again
i dun wan, i dun wan to commit to mistakes, or commit mistakes.

But i always made mistakes, how nice will it be if my life is plan by others, at least they judge better than i do..

But i am happy, cos everyone cares for me now.

JErk, Sharon darl, yi, Annoymous, 182..

haven i had enough.. ? heheh

Dear all, the webbie for my MaryJane collection is launching by this week, i seek your support to promote this items. Please appreciate.... d.Kris.S

MaryJane look on an overall
Item: Celin, Price: $15, bargainable
design by the side of the MaryJane

Hey Celina Hai^er, this is my design for you, its name "Celin"
Frankly speaking, i felt that the design is not up to my satisfaction at all, this is too common, here are a few suggestion,
-base colour: keep at white, cream yellow or cream green
-more butterflies or more flowers?
-prints: butterflies drawn using black base and pearly colour
-lace: yellow colour
-button on top of lace on the front of the shoe: pearl


Please feel VERY free to drop me comment, i wanna venture into something more than flowers are butterfly, maybe u can all drop me some suggestions?


Dear Xinyi, thank you for your order, the shoe is in process, date of completion estimated to be kept within 15th july 06. Love love (PS, choose ur shoe size, 36 or 37?)

Hi XInyi,
let me explain the details
-The band across the shoe will be removed and replaced with a huge ribbon as a bow, u may advise not to put it
-The base colour of the shoe will be creamy-yellow, this is because i notice ur formal wear is more prone to colours like brown, white, black and yellow
-There will be a huge thick black lace across the front of the shoe, it is more like my style, u may advise not to put it
-There will be a nice gold button on top of the lace, the contrast is like the pair i always worn
-The garden party flower will be hand-drawn by me, the desing may vary to the one i drew here, its customized and personalized (remember cutlery_den?)

i hope u like it darlin.. hehe

frankly speaking i purchase the shoe at a pretty standard price, the cost of the lace and beads is not very much, i dun wanna earn much from it, just hope some one appreciate my artpiece, i notice people sell their earring at $20 but i will not do it, Xinyi, the shoe i design is name Yi price is set at $15, size: to be chosen among 36, 37, 38.

No extra charge, delivery right to ur highness doorstep

To all out there, please help me promote this business, but do not leak out my blog address, i will be hosting a webbie based on a few of my past collections, some new waist belts and u all can enjoy online shopping there. Till then, please support me for i charge very very reasonable.. and we all know that =)

Outside Darlin Denise house.. hehe.. the balcony
The pretty babe: true definition of beauty, front back also equally pretty.. Denise Darlin
The journey back home from attachment...
The mummy lookin fierce... or hor
The \mummy big arms
My new friend at work, best friend: plasticky
Plasticky best friend..

Plasticky smiling at me

A funny entry
haha.. how shall i go about joking about my life.. okok.. here go..

do you know: (funny facts)

- the longest word u can form using the the letters a,b,c,d,e,f is "feedback"

-The average person spends 2 weeks of its life kissing.

-Women who read romance novels have sex twice as often as those who don't.

-Sex is biochemically no different from eating large quantities of chocolate.

-111,111,111 x 111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987,654,321.

-Rubber bands last longer when refrigerated (wonder if it applys to condom?)

-Pearls melt in vinegar

-"I am." is the shortest complete sentence in the English language

-Long ago, clans would burn down your house to get rid of you without killin you. The phrase "your fired!" came from this

-On average, 100 people choke to death on ball-point pens every year, so don't stick it in your mouth

-The average person laughs 13 times a day

-There are 336 dimples on a regulation golf ball

-365 different languages are spoken in Indonesia

-The name for having a fear of long words: Hippopotomonstroses­quippedaliophobia. Ironic, isn't it?

-The longest word that can be typed using only the right hand is lollipop(try on keyboard)

-"Skepticisms" is the longest word that alternates hands when typing(try on keyboard)

-The word "four" has four letters. In the English language there is no other number whose number of letters is equal to its value (how about.. nine?)

-On average people fear spiders more than they do death.

-No word in the English language rhymes with "month", "orange", "silver" or "purple".

-If you take a pencil, you can draw a 50 kilometer (31 mile) long line

-The average life expectancy of a toilet is 50 years



did i just shock you? cos i entertain myself pretty well. some stupid facts we never thought we could think of.. hehe.. enjoyed =P

I realise it is getting harder to blog, cos i no longer wanna show my true self here, i wanna lie, but i can't, i cannot tell lies without being discover..

182 wrote a special column on tears means more than water, and it caught me tinking, if a guy really tears for a girl, does that means she really matters to him?
Dun ask me how i feel about him, cos i am confuse myself. When i blog, i sounded happy, like i like him and all, but when i ask myself, i told myself i dun. It confusing, i use to only take this whole issues as a revenge-plan, i know many of u are confuse about this whole thing. But i dun wanna explain, cos if i do, i wont know where to start, so 182 when ur tag say u dun understand, many others dun too,,. haha.. but i dun wanna explain, ltr u sure got lecture for me..

my horoscope says : Aquarius, between the 1 to the 19 of this month u will be surrounded and flirt by many cute guys, but beware not to lost ur focus or u will lose ur friendship.

Just now darlin Sharon was online, i told her to read my blog about my current situation, din know i hurt Darlin Sharon so much.. i can understand that we haven met up for so so so long, and most of the time if i really make the effort to meet, only Denise will meet me cos HQ stays so near me, then we will suntann by HQ hse. I dunno how to explain also. Sharon, its my fault also, sometimes when i ask u to come out, then if u cant make it, i never bother to carry on trying le. sorry k? i understand the emptiness u might felt, but because both me and Denise knows that ur weekend with Cai Fu is too much a quality time that we dun wan u to give up any for us, therefore caused so much misunderstanding, sorry. Denise can meet me on weekend with HQ cos she sees him more often even during weekdays, thats why HQ can tahan me squeezing in, and even mumble nuttins whenever Denise ask me to join her on a weekend. He is use to me hooking on to Denise while he holds her hand. And that day she came with me to Bobo birthday party because she keeps saying she scared i kena rape, then i told u not to come cos i dun tink it is necessarily to come, in the end also make Denise very awkward, so u hope u understand.

I constantly send u testimonial on Friendster cos thats the only mode i can reach u, hehe, i miss our friendship too,.. when we sms, or msn, we both understand it is hard to get the bond, but i will e-mail u to tell u how i feel too.. Sharon, u mean alot to me and Denise too. We try to hear about ur news from Jean, u can ask her.. =)
i dun ask for much, and it will be selfish to ask u to spare ur weekend for us, it will be too selfish, weekdays is hard cos all of us, although we tried our very best, has work and school.

Darlin Sharon, am gonna talk to u about this later, miss you =P

A game that shouldn't have been played,
pardon me for being so playful
for regretting my action only when i have burned my fingers
if it all shouldn't have began
then it wouldn't have to end


The night before met him after work, he made me promise to stay by his side till he turn 21. My plan is working well, I decide that since I was done with my stupid plan, it is now time to leave. So I will accompanied him thru his birthday party.
We accompanied his dad and his sister to watch soccer under his block.. my first world cup, the atmosphere is nice cos everyone cheered when Argentina scored a goal. Tot I will fall asleep but I din. After which I left for cuz to stayover

The day came and I reached his house pretty early in the morning, his dad greet me and told him to wake up. Then I force him out of his bed and tidy up his room. We accompanied his dad to breakfast downstair, then we went to buy to shop and save and buy drinks for his cocktail.
Went back to the house and cleaned up the place a little.
The first guest arrive soon after, we set up the mahjong table for his dad and the relatives, then the second batch of relatives arrives, with his birthday cake, 2 kg and huge. The adults started playing mahjong and he accompanied me by teaching me how to play “NFSU”, then I got so engrossed in the game I din even offer to join his third trip down to the supermarket with his sis.
By the time he came back from his third trips, I was tired with the game ( I am a fast learner thou, was a champion for about 5 rounds) His sister bought curry puff and I was made to eat with them, then I chat wit his sister about the shoes I handmade and she was giving me all sorts of opinion. Then the buffet arrive, I din offer my help too, I took my stuff and headed to the nearest MRT station to fetch MY guest, Denise and her bf HQ.
The party then so-called started and guest started arriving, me and Denise and HQ felt pretty strange cos we knew hardly anyone. We ate what we are suppose to , sit by one corner and was rather awkward, then we wanted to leave but it was a bit too early to. So we joke among ourselves, He din came to talk to us only after about 2 hours, when we demanded to leave. He make me promise him to leave only after he blew his birthday cake. So we had to, sing sing sing then leave, the strangest thing is when he actually left the entire party just to accompanied me to the bus stop. (rather guilty)
While waiting for the bus he is half sober, he drank like 2 big shots of pure vodka and can hardly walk straight. My bus arrive pretty soon and I hug Denise goodbye, hug him birthday and left.
While on the bus he msg me saying that he really hope I could stay till his party ended, that he was really grateful for all my help and he hope he deserve a chance to have me back. I din know what to reply, din want to hurt him on his birthday so I replied “I am only a call away whenever u need me.. happy birthday silly boy” ----sound stupid., I know ok?

The +ve of the party:
- his sister like me, they told me things like “let me know if xiao di ( him) bully u in future ok?
- I called him before I fall aslp meant to say happy birthday, his sister answer the phone knowikng it was me and told me she will get him to call me in the morning
- His sister was nagging about him infront of me.. like the “realness” of the family
- I tink I like his family than him.. hahahahha

The –ve of the party
- I felt so guilty to be sitting with Denise and HQ without helping much
- It felt stupid to help out cos I hardly know anyone there
- Like duh, what is going on most of the time

Guilty as I am now, I dunno how to carry on writing this blog.. felt pretty fucked up today, about almost anything..

Mystiq, size: 36, price: $10

Mystiq: on foot, suitable to match with dress, flair skirt, shirt top, yellow, white, beige, cream, brown, black
To buy, please contact Kristal @ the tag box, i am trying to see if anyone will appreciate my design, willing to customise =)

As u can see, i spend some time making this shoe above, reason being its bored at home, i wanted to make a nice shoe, and Si jia came into my mind, so this pair of shoe is make with Si jia as reflection, so if no one wanna buy the shoe, who should zi-dong come up and offer to buy? hehe.. buy from me la, no point always make so many pair of shoe then no one wanna buy from me, price so so so so so reasonable, dun buy is it? ok lo, next time dun blog for all of you to read le.. hahh,. threaten ah.. appreciate me art la, motivate me to carry on making more pair of shoes k? the shoe lace is 100%cotton, so wont tear while washing, furthermore i make sure i sew everything nicely and firmly, and take note that i create the flower myself using yellow and white lace with a pearl in the middle! support my entreprenueship k?

okok.. shall do a little blogging today, miss me readerSs? haha.. u should, i was sick, actually not really sick, but pretend pretend until really fall sick. complicated? haha..

what kind of sick? all of you are curious? its the feeling of drinking 10cartons of milk with lotsa red bean until u wanna vomit, then still being force down another few spoons of cough syrups.. haha.. disgusting right? haha.. thats the feeling we gurls felt once every month, around the same date, haha. i use this excuse to see a doctor, the last time i condult a doctor i wasn't even sick! i was there to do a full body check up for poly entry, so the last last time i was sick and visit a doc was about 3-4 years ago? haha..
i tot doc were monster with huge claws and sharp teeth, but she appear so gentle and told me everything was alright.. haha.. she told me the next time i experience more pain than this, try this special very very very special pink pills call PANADOL( woo!~) hahahhaahha.. obviously she knows i was there for MC only.. haha. so she gave me my MC and smile at me whiile i left for the door, whole procedure took me less than 7 min, that was it! my visit to the doctor! haha.. thanks ALice ( her name)

Some locals trying to act like tourist
Some locals dun even understand basic singlish instruction -.-"

Some local tink they can act like tourist from singapore posing under special sites of singapore

Some local dunno what is call flash


Some local dunno where to look when taking pictures

Some local refuse to corporate to the photographer, look at Annoymous in a daze.. -.-"


Some locals prefer to travel using sampan

Some local looks so haggard like they came from eiwurhwlfnasajc ( a city in sdgfjkasgdf)

THese are the locals from sdgfjkasgdf

The locals of sdgfjkasgdf

The country they claim they never came from =-= sdgfjkasgdf

The post-attachment- symtons

See.. the locals twist the fingers! Amazing

The Air stewdardess of plane sdgfjkasgdf

The Air stewardess with one Singapore from plane sdgfjkasgdf

The old lady who lives in the mountain hasn't open her eye since her
mediation on the mountain top, kungfu master!

The day we met, the sky split into thousand of pieces, wow! Whose Kung FU?