Sharon and me working together...... her first day in Ooo.baby

More pic...... we cant get enuff of it!!!!!
Me in the bathroom!!!!!!! before bathing, after a tired day at Ooo...baby!!!
I look so nice!!!~ Totally drooling over this pic!!!!~ i have grow up
in the van with mum..... Decided to go check up her office at the sane time study for my finals
My Bro, showing off his Kung Fu!! Catch Kung Fu- old master Gary!!!!
Yum Cha....... Diam sim!!! he gobble even the plates and bowls

i am who i am, i change myself to the way i wanna to be....... i am a gothic and funky me....... and no one gonna change it till i grew tired of me myself...... hehe......... very happy today......... in another way is a rather selfish kind of happy...... Del and Terence got out of CJC... i kind of feel happy cos i choose to leave school earlier..... but at the same time hated myself for not trying..... Sam gotten straight to J2. Congrats!! i really feel happy for you.. just that i didn;t tell you how happy i was...... Amanda and i for get who was goin to retain in J1 and half of the class gonna take sup paper to determin if they get to promote.. all the best t 13....... i didnlt get the chance to make but i sincerely hope you do......
Had been mugging this few days for examination.... night was fillled with thoughts about how he use to acc me....... this put me to bed...... in the morning i got stuck to watching TV and eating..... afternoon is studying....... hopefully after exam i will get more work schedule....... so i can earn more money........... my aims:

1. treat Darlin Samantha to a wonderful meal, she was there when i hadn;t got any money to spend, and i appreciate her for her support
   
2. buy Darlin Cuz Vivien something, cos Cousin(CUz) was always here for me 24-7....... Lubba lubba my cousin........................... i really wanna spend all money on you
   
3. hold yet another Big D.K.S outing........... Denise Sharon and me, not just working together,,,,,,, hanging out together............ just you gals and me
   
4. this is the lamest aim, which i dun think sitting around can get me anywhere, i just need him........ don;t think he will even realise my presence........ any fairy godmother around???!?~?!~
   
5. hmm............... i think i am contented ..... as long as pple around me is happy with the money i earn, it;s all worth it
   
6. oh ya............. my "SPECIAL" friend's movie and dinner and night out!!!~ hehe........ i hadn't forget wo
   

ya..... money is not a important factor in life....... now during this studying break i have not a single cent left in my pocket..... i am a big spender,......... that why when exam is over,......... i will work crazily!!!!!!

continue again........ i;m tired

so many days has past, so many working days i've done........ so many days of missing a person so hard, so many days of falling sick
Was sick for the past few days, cough, sore throat, running nose, ulcer on the mouth, what more can a person ask for?!~ Luckily friends show their concern,,...... Eric has been so heartwarming nice....... so glad to have him as a friend, some one i know i can tell my secret to and no one will know besides him..Eric is a nice guy, he will find a nice gal where he can truly care for..... i know he can;t see my blog... but i really want him to know that knowing him is part of a blessing to me. but all this 5 yrs of knowing him i know what kind of a innocent guy he is. Eric, dun tell me you like me, we are always friends and will always be..i am not any pretty gal, i dun have a good personality, you deserve some one better..
Jek Sheng msg me a few days ago, till now i';m still glad at the fact that i see through his true colours, and luckily all this 8 yrs of friendhsip had been only friendship, luckily his crush on me did not move me..... anyway i was real mean to him, Eric say i should stay generous and just thank him when he msg again... feel so free again........
Anyway i've been thinking so much about him, didn;t take the courage to call him anymore, perhaps this is life, i took it for granted when he was around and now he is not, i regret... i keep giving myself encouragement that perhaps the next upcoming occasion he will call me again....... maybe that will be on my birthday, maybe he does not even remember my birthday anymore........ haha, maybe this feeling now is only a rebound feeling, maybe i will find a new better guy.
Pull sharon into OOO...baby, perhaps i am too close to her so we can't really work well...... so i guess the next time she works will be the day i dun work.........
Exam is coming........ gotta stop blogging for sometimes......... maybe not too....... depends......... study for my exam...... score a good marks, and start enjoying my holidays..... thats the kind of life........
miss my cousin...... miss tennis........

the past few days has been consider tired and full-blast.!!! its either working or studying, or else it;s exam and testr...... now that exams drawing, haizx.......... really need to fully-stress myself it's high time to study!!Yet at e same time there are pple that are simply taking life too easy! if only the whole world gets busy at the same time, maybe God can create humans to be stress-free, but in that case than ppl wil be lazzy... so in conclusion , God is fair, humans are selfless!!!~ i earn money i spend them,...... not even realising it.!! things happen fast this few days, somehow i cant help but realise i am the only one whose life looks and sound so normal and dull....... if anyone were to come up and ask me how's life, my answer will most prob be: "pretty plain" i;m telling the truth fool!!! haiz......... life;s lidat, i need to do lotsa stuff, buti;m planning to leave them till after the finals.

The same question is being probed over and over again....... i;m feeling the urge too, its not that i'm not trying too?!~ but there;s no response,........ i;m just a gal, i dun have the courage and energy to do all this by myself, if only you understand,......... anyway i think you never will........ cos i;m just shy lidat, now and till the time you understand you might never know i ever feel this way...... stop bombarding me with all this, worst of all you not a single inch realise what in the world is happening......... you are living in ur own world........ dun forget me........... i wouldn't know how to handle that...........

then his mum answer and told me he wasn't home. i ask for his hp no. and got scolded instead, his mum hadn;t understand eng and had thought i was bothering her in the night.

haiz. sad ya.. anyway i think my courage to even talk to him was left with null..... let it just turn into a big mistake ba/...........

sam lost 10 kg in 5 months..... i think she is working very hard to burn those extra weight away. i admire her spirit. despite saying i will try my best./ i realise i was just lying to myself..... hai.. perhaps i am such a faker..... damn.....................

Hate my class... the class mates are so mean and unfriendly. i;m only familiar with a few people.... haiz. this class sucks..


to be continue

i saw JerK today... without second thought i immediately walk away, find a place to hide myself....... guess it's prob becos i would very much prefer to meet him prepared rather than being caught on the street... he was in his school uniform, and me? the ugly yellow top that belongs to mum's. haha, what a total embarassment.
Anyway , things got better Jerk has a new target. Why do we teens fall in and out of this matter so easily?!` i guess it's becos we are still young and hasn;t been able to commit ourselves totally to the stage where things is very hard to go wrong. So i guess all of us can handle our emotion and feelings well so much so that we changes our target as fast as we changes our mood. haha....... Jerk even wrote a so-call poem for the girl on his blog..... a brnad new beginning, it kept me wondering thou, dun wanna doubt him but is what he said that time about his change true?or is it just a reason to make me stop harrasing him..... Whatever it is, i;m just glad we are all good friends....... He hasn;t change much, that ever grey-looking hair and spec.... the same old Jerk

Two days ago is the lantern festival, and i recall two years ago on the very day \, i invite Ismail to join me for Lantern festival . It was the first and only time i ever invite him out and he agree instanly. then we spend a while together......... so two days ago, i pick up the courage to call him and chat

......................... to be continue

in class right now. there's nothing much to do except wait for time to pass fast... luckily today school finishes earlier than usual... 3pm. after which must go to work.........

-today Kumaran suck......... she scolded Apel and Adrian for nothing,.......... this is rather the first time i kind of hear them tok loudly.. why didn;t she scold other who tok even louder/........?
Anyway when a person is angry there is nothing to balme them for maligning someone innocent.

-my post saving account bal is 132.50 so far...had plan. tennis 32.50. cousin 10..... 45 for train concession...........set aside 30 for meal money because i'm working./...... left a minute. how tosave up for my converse high cut leather shoe???

-wanted to buy alot of stuff. bro offer a 40%voucher for levis jeans,.... really wanted to get it but scared the waist line so obvious so in the end gave it to Si Jia... but........ today Desiny_escape msg me say she wanted a pair of levis urgently....... haha..... good things dun come by easily... sine Si Jia already mention it earlier........ too bad lo. nvm,,,,,,,,,

- have decided to go back to the cheerful me...... but things aren;t really going my way thus it's rather hard to bring on my smile again.... but i will try harder

-jea had to undergo a operation few days ago. so Sharon and i are taking turns to come in for her. this week is suppose to be a light week for me....... nvm... work more..... money more......!!
jean had a extra something on her stomach... she had to cut off.... poor things........

-am going to do a project on hooked clothings./ hopefully things turn out well......

-what more do i have to update? erm. oh ya. dream of Ismail that day.... haha.. sweet dream./

-=x.X DrEamS AreN'T reAliTy X.x=-

This is my cousin..Avanda! it was her first birthday few days ago... we went for her chalet in costa sand.... before that our class had a BBQ and all of us participated.. it was fun but its hard to get eveyone to work and play a part in organising it....... guess the fact that it work out was already a blessing...... Ws did not really help out... that was a setback of the the entire BBQ but thank god this event allow me to commuinicate with many other i never i can open my mouth to....... then after a while i rush to costa le......... but costa was fun particurlaly cos Avanda was there an cousin tooo.... cuz and i worn the same top and bottom........ and we were of BBQ-ing yah it sound kinda of stupid and childish........... but glad it all went out well only that despite we plan to stay overnight,,,,,,,, many of us were too tired to stay awake thru out the night...... cuz and i bought a top for AVanda, expensive cos it cost $22.90. imagine that for a tiny piece of clothes...... hehe.. Avanda is so adorable, she kept stretching out her hands for me to carry her, bet she loves me....... hehe.then she cannot walk and eat,... but always shout for us to let her try out what we are eating........
i wanna write more!!~ but it is time to go back to NYP le........ so thats all...... will update
p/s: i;m not forcing you to update.......you dun have to do it if you dun wan to...

i did something pretty stupid today... i read thru Jerk's blog over again from day 1. of course it's not wonder one will get all emotion over him,... he's just to transparent.... someone you can just trust and rely on.. i guess i learn a new thing each time i read your blog.. that is:

- no matter how bad, how ugly and how a failure a person is.... she/he will get appreciate one day. Thanks for making me feel i was like a princess before... hehez

-no matter how angry a person may be and how much he/she wanted to hide and escape from the truth, never vent her/his frustuation just because he/she wanted it to hide the truth, also , never blame others for the thing you realise you do and thing you realise you wanna do.

-if happiness for others can be created by covering your own sorrow, then its worth it....
sorry you had to hide the truth and make me feel you are doing all these because its me who you had change the feeling for.

-if you realise the truth is what you wanna strive for, dun keep yourself in your lies anymore
really appreciate the fact that you went ahead and do what you think is what you want... it's a hard a journey for you, a hard jourey for me too,.... but all will turn well in the end!!!~

yah thats about the few lesson i've learn today!!! hey brother, you have better update your blog le........

i'm very busy this days, reaching the point i think i will break down soon... it's working and studying evry day. monday till today, everyday after school i'll be running to the MRT station then rush to work. some time i'll fall aslp during the journey but i cant cos i;ll miss my stop, now that Fred wanna pay me for standard hours, i have to complete at least 20 hours of work in a week.... haiz, one more days of such rushing i shall break down. Then Plaza sing is also a very boring place cos customer is less than ants sometimes. i can only sit in the shop and rot, even if i wanna fold the clothes, i;ve finish folding almost all cos lily has almost done them so wonderfully, i miss far east hopefully Fred does not put in far east long term, i'll just quit... haha..

that day Jerk came to town, but i was working on plaza sing, if not we could have meet.. cos we haven see each other for long long time le, you dun wanna lose a friend nether do i!!! haha....

that day got my pay so went to shop with my BEST friends, Denise and sharon went with me to town to get present for cousin ... it's a D.K.S outing again, i;ve regain the spirit i lost all these while.
We went to Roxy and i bought a roxy tanning mat for cousin, then we went to grab a bite at Subway sandwiche. after that i went to work then they went shopping,. they then move on to junction 8 and i met them there again after work..... then i bought them each a fox brand top, so i bought 4 pieces lah, then went to Arena, and i bought a bikini top.. thats ends the day. whoo, then the day before i bought a crystal for my aunt birthday..... all in all i spent up to 120++ in 2 days, whow... thats the effect of not shopping for so long...
that day sharon also bought a bikini set for herself, think it cost 26bucks, Denis bought pant that cost 10 bucks.....

that day while i was working M1 has a event so the model keep coming into the shop to change clothes, what a busy day.......... guess today i wrote alot of nonsence....... who cares....... haha

i kinda hate myself this few days,........... dunno why.........
i hate myself...... no one likes me......... was i jealous or what? dunno lah........

there are lotsa of couples these days.................... Apel and Adrian
Chris and Celina
Simon and Shan
Wei Zhe and Wei Fang
Niko and Alex......
how should i feel..... suck
no one evem realise i exist............ why am i so ugly and stuff......... why am i born the way i am?
Why are my friends are better looking than i am................... why ppl put up message in my Friendster but not looking for me......... but the one besides me............ why am i so unlucky? No looks, No brains........ i am nothing............... nobody makes me feel better............ day by day i only feel worst................... worst....

Am i sick or what? am i just a stupid useless girl? Do i even look like one girl? i think i suck.......... right to the core,......

Why am i feeling lidat,,,,,,? Please god dun make me feel this way cos i know that will happen.........
i dun wanna go back to those crying and weeping days............. please god change me for the better.........

upcoming birthdays............. Aunt 11 Sept
Sammie 11 Sept
Cousin 14 Sept....................................

this few days of full blogging makes me proud.
My boss has been nice this few days, my colleague knew i had little-to -no money for pocket money cos mummy refuse to support me with pocket money anymore, so they request to Fred to pay me standard amout so i can work standard days instead of being on-call....... and he agreed. that was good cos from now on i have a standard 100bucks per week... but of course i have to work to pay it off....... guess my schedule will be considering very tight from now on...... its ok since i have more money to spend........

Steve banana-Jakarta actually wanted to hire me...... during the holidays........ that will be my greatest honor cos it's always my wish to work in that kind of environment....... haiz....... but he advise me to accept Fred proposal...... cos it'a always better to have a standard income and stuff....... told him actualy my greatest fear is to face talking to Fred...... then he explain this should not be a fear cos we all have to face our boss in our business world in near future.......... actually my intention to speak to him is also to apologise to him for not being able oto work........ haha........ nvm lah,......... since he always so blur one mah.....thats why i call him banana-Jakarta.....

i;m gonna cut my hair again today...... cant help it...... too long le..... reach tip of ear le...... then if lidat wanna style very difficult....... cos hair too heavy......... Cuz is coming with me....... glad cos i like having her to give comment and supervise........... haha. i siao le....... holiday one week has been so fun...... too fast cos today is friday le.......

my style change...... it was a nice thing but i start to have difficulties what to wear...... being girl is no easy thing......... so guy had better not irritate me by saying how great they are......... is Mother Thearesa Female?

Wanna work more....... must study hard......... if Kristal cannot balance both well...... one must go........

now that i have money for lunch le......... dun spend so much....... if Kristal spend too much... all money will go.

P/s: read ur blog....... haiz.....you long long no update le hoh...... free must drop me a comment...... thanks

it been a while and i guess both of us are learning to cope well ba, this is part of growing up, making ,mistake and learning from it.
-=however, i dun believe in now and forever, it might take a while before i finally try to believe it again=-

watch "A Cinderella Story" it kept me imagining things... I should share the story with you, i NEVER say NO to Girly movie, Mean GIrl is another wonderful movie.

-=A Cinderella Story=-
Samantha was born with a perfect Dad, live in a perfect hilltop and owns a Perfect Diner with staff that treat each other like family, include their loyal customers....
One day Sam's dad bump into a fat ugly lady but fall deeply in love with her, they soon got married and Sam knew immediately her Stp-mum hate her.

One night aftr reading fairy-tale Cinderella to Sam, there was an earthquake, in order to save his new wife, Sam'dad risk his life, that was night Sam last saw his dad.
Not long after his death, Step-mum sent Sam to the attic, that was her room, she had to stay there forever....... Sam cried her way to sleep....

7 years later, Sam stil wakes up cooking breakfast for her sstep-mum and step sister... Guerilla and Buerilla....... She was dying to go to Princeton University which her dad told her where all the Prince study...

Sam has a best friend, a child-channel star, freak some call... both sam and "zorro" were constanly bullied in school..... that day Sam saw Nomad, the so-call coolest guy in school, rugby champion, but she was not interested in her, she guess nomad and the bitch was born to be together since both of them share the fame...

Sam has a very special someone who study in her school and wishes to Princeton together... he was her MSN pal and SMS mate, they grew in love through Them... Nomad suggest Sam meets him at the school Ball that very day at the middle of the Dancefloor.. Sam was scared but prepared... However, her Step-mum refuse to let her go saying that her Diner needs someone to clean up the place that night. Sam was disappointd but believes that " True Loves can wait"

Knowing she cannot make it to the Ball, Zorro went over to the Diner and persuade her to think on her own and go for it, finally, through persuation by her "family" in Diner, Sam dicided to sneak to the Ball but return before 12 cos that's when her step mum returns. but she had no gown to wear, luckily, her "family"-Rhonda has a wedding gown for her.

That night Sam was beautiful, she worn a mask to cover her identity....... afriad pple might recognise her for the Diner-girl(Yucks name!~).. she wait in the middle of the dance floor, finally Nomad arrived, he was the special guy in her life, Sam was shock and refuse to hang with him cos she knows that Nomad was meant for the Bitch.. However, Nomad persuade her to spend the night Dancing, Sam was in love, they dance in the garden........ each ask each other 10 questions: 1. are you disappointed in me, do you believe in love at first sight..... 2.do you loves me........

at 12pm the handphone alarm strike! it was time to rush home. Nomad chase after Sam but was pulled back by the audience cos he was the "most gorgeous"in the ball that night, Nomad only manage to pick a handphone that Sam drop in her rush to go home.

Tat night ended and Sam decide to hide the Cinderella identity from Nomad, however, it was discovered by her stp-sister,... they, together with the bitches star a play telling the whole school how stupid handsome Nomad was to fall for a Diner's girl, the whole school lagh..... Sam was sad, she cried for a long time that night, Nomad dod not stand out for her, instead he keep his sorrow in silence..... ]

that day got Sam very sad... she start thinking about her Dad....... and then she remember, - Never let fear strike you and prevent you from playing the Pool- that was the line her dad always wanted her to remember......... sam went up to her step-mum and scold her for the way she was treated, she then request to quit her job at the Diner and go out and go out and survived on her own....... that night the whole diner quit their jobs....... Step-mum was left with nothing........ Sam stayed with Rhonda.......

Next day in schol SAm went up to nomad and tell her hwo she feels: she was glad that she found out Nomad was such a coward and she told Nomad she will get over guy like him........ after saying she ran out crying but happy........ she also wen to catch rugby match with Zorro..

All along Nomad was sad............. it was not that he don't wan to speak out for her....... he was just speechless........

Sam saw Nomad playing for the Frog Rugby, he was the best player, the nicest Captain..... and every one was shouting for him...... AaronAmes Aaronames (Nomad real name). Sam couldn;t take it anymore...... she wanted to go home........ she was walking through the crowd... not realising at that time Nomad ran up to her......... he told Sam he was sorry and was sure now he was doin the right things,........... they kissed.............................

Sam realise her Dad had left a huge inheritance for her. Sam was rich, her Step mum and her Step sister became the Diner staff..........

Sam and Nomad went on to study Princeton University together and live happily ever after, or at least through Unversity, they were afterall , just freshmen!!! - The End-!`

Gues i hadn;t make the story sound as exciting as it was......... but it was a nice show........

Sam believes, Sam let goes, Truth will come in the end, that is True Love.....

what we shared together are not consider love, dun worry and feel guilty k? We can each find our very true partner if we wait pateintly....

I'm not worried about anything anymore..
Guess this heavy stone on my shoulder is forever gone........
I apologise for the temper i gave........
i shouldn't have forced things to happen this way...

We are still friend i guess........

when you read this i'll be the most glad to wish you all the best in your future undertaking.......
Remember, never forget a friend like me....... haha

finally found my way to uploading photos.... this system totally suck......
But gee..... thanks god it works!~

Not fair, not fair... so not fair!~ i think its time i change my blog entry into blog drive, cos this blog is far too plain...... think i will fetch every single entry into the new blog too........ just can;t bring myself to just leave it alone.. or maybe i can make another blog to put stuff that can be reveal and still keep this blog confidential?!
Shock! so shock, he read my blog, thought this blog will remain a secret for good....... i think i expose it in my webpage le...... gotta take it out, it's been a hard process trying to keep the blog to myself, and till date besides than him,no second human knows about it. thought he dissapear for good too..... sometimes, things just turn out the way we least expected it. No high hope, no vision, i'll keep my head low..
haha, i think by writing my blog like that , jeRk wont understand....... gee..... dun bother asking me, things you can understand means you can understand, you can;t......... hehe,. too bad.
Monday is XinYi's birthday, thought we hardly know each other, she was the first to hear my sorrowiest moment in NYP, so i plan a day for her with me and Sijia. Knowing she is a craze for kimono, we bought her one from my workplace... $24 discounted to $18.. thats the great thing about working as a retail, you always first hand stuff @ a cheaper rate.. Monday need to wear formal....... die!~ but in between got a few hours break, so Sijia and i will bring Xinyi to eat lunch, then we'll grab a tiny cake for her, cos i dun enjoy eating cake, taste funny...... after which we will pass her the present and head back to school.... short and sweet, sounds bored but with my nonsensical, funny and crazy self, i guess xinyi will enjoy it pretty well....... siJia despite being a yr older than me, we manage to click very well...... she listen and have certain thinking like me, guess my thinking is actually quite mature too..! hehe, praising myself........
dunno why i;m so happy now, i FLUNK my exam this morning and i'm still behaiving likdat.
Cried this morning..... the stupid IT exam, it was;t my fault..... I was doing all my sum on the com pretty well and have assure a full marks on the first session... Then suddenly the com delete it all, no way!~ then i have to hand in blank disk to sir. Never felt worst, the feeling of not gettin result is always terrible, esp when you have already assure yourself half the paper to be full marks!!!! hate myself!!!
when he ask me questions, it always takes me a while to answer, i dunno why, but i make sure i answer it the way i think i should, dunno why either. He's just very fragile loh, and i guess i just wan the best out of every reply i give.
Funny things is when he sudenly call me, i practically blurt out all my words, bet i sound stupid..... remember kristal...... stop assuming the impossible...
should i post this entry? yes...... no........yes........no? why not?....... but what if...... i just dun wan to lost even a friend.........
stupid 184, i practically ignore him! what have i done to deserve untrue fact. He is such a faker.....Forgive and forget, whatever it is, i have convince myself he is definitely not a good friend, not a good guy and definitely not a good boyfriend, pity his gal.........
haha, very bad ah kristal....... outside pretend to be "it-s-ok" kind of girl , reach home the "Stupid-Shit-Damn-him-her-they" pattern........
nvm lah,.... whu cares....... whu cares........ WHU CARES?
not bad a achievement today ah...... write very long........
by the way misssas SAmmie very much today, infact missas CJC very much. Kristal never regret what she did, but some times we just cant help it.

Meet up dear today... throw all my troubles to her, she listens and feel with me, if only she understands how much i value our friendship and sistership. She is different, if only she knows... told her today that i really dun think she should flood herself with studying....... but cannot bring myself to tell her that..... so put it in a way as if Denise and i told her together.........
crazy....... why bother so much about her, she is all but a best friend, now that she has her Krive....... she should need less of me....... stop acting like a nanny Kristal!
guess i should end here........... too long le

hehe... it's been consider a while since i last part from CJ, but our bonding is still there. Me and Sam toks alot, she still confine in me, that makes me really glad.!!! Had a slight quarrel with Cuz again. WOnder why we cannot agree in certain matters. But it was solve soon enuff. My Cuz is sweet, it's always me with the temper n always her whu cools me off by saying 'sorry'. Haiz, when will i ever grow up? cus is going for her piano examination today. May god provide her the strength to pass thru her examination. I know she can do it. Cuz is really funny sometime... First Amanda was her best friend then it comes Sherry n Peilian, The it was Gough, then it was Sherry n Susanne, now it was Xiu xian. That gal might put off well as a gal who is mature in thinking, but when it comes to such personal matter, nah.....z.. :P, she's my cousin, glad she make the correct choice in choosing me as her alter ego. Well, i foresee our sistahood stay, be it pressure from our parents or btw us, in the end, it is still us who makes the diff in or lives. i had better not praise her too much. She'll get big headed easily. I had been working this few days, raise up to 100 bucks, Ismail call me on sat apologising for missing the dinner we had promised. But i was really mess up cos i had tot it was next week. Well, but he did not update me on our next date. i dunnno why, he kept me thinking hard, very hard. It's hard not to, cos we share so much past together, n he was the one i totally relied heavily on for what to do , what to think n how to do. I cant help it but gets really affected by his presence all of a sudden. I feel very , n extremely guilty the presence of Bobo the first three mths of this year. dunno why things happen the way they do. But it;s always our responsibility to solve.

No one knows about my blog, i cant help but feel worst and worst everyday, it's like a secret within me. Today passes as usual, had my lecture as usual. But the most awaiting even will be the meeting with Govindasammie, haiz, it;s been a very long time since we met and i have a milion to tell her. I bet she has alot to tell me too. I also need to pass her the school uniform (althou she insist i keep it for myself, what for?! to mop floor ah....) and the school PE shirt and some files and not to forget the book i bought for her. Today is ruin by the MEdora commuinication tutorial, Haiz in the end Sam and me did not meet loh. i got so pissed off that i make the thing that is bothering me be the subject of my speech presentation.. Medora said my speech is good. Haiz, i told Xin yi and Si jia that i kind of think Apel and all will hate us cos we went on to the tutorial even thou we had agree to skip it. Why am i always thinking and assuming what others think? I sumtime think i am such a freak it;s hard to get along with me. Why does the friendship in CJC and Deyi all this damn years and all other events i attend be so smooth. ppl of BI0403 is so hard to understand. I also dunno how to carry myself, back those days i reveal my very true colours, one gal who goes really crazy and belong to the sporty and easy-going kind, whereas in NYP i'm a quiet gal, haiz, when can i finally let my hair down and hey-hoh?! Today Xin Yi, Si Jia, Jun ling played badminton, it was fun, we sweat, at least i sweat today. the last time i sweat was the jogging morning with Xin Yi last sun, we met early morning 7.30 to go jogging from yishun to khatib to seletar and back. She was a good runner........sec top few. Thanks to presence of Xinyi and Si jia and APel and Celina, the many few ppl whu makes me feel comfortable in the class........
Anyway thats about today, suppose to wake up to jog, wonder what happen,? this few days slept alot and can hardly feel energeic. Had cornflakes chocolate with milk for breakfast, tiap-tiap harshbrown and tea cos XinYi and Sijia got it for me. Went straight home after the tutorial. had tiap tiap again for lunch, grab some grapes, keropok and biscuit, all ultimate small serving.
then went on to dinner, had a handful of rice with all but sweet curry, those non-chicken kind. Kaka traditional food, taste somehoow resembles Lontong gravy......
Cynthia and i met up last night, bought my Giordano Racer back finally, worn it today..... Cynthia said i look slimmer......... better keep it up;/.////

missas JeRk out of a sudden. wonder hows he's been getting on this few days? Went thru his blog agao despite promising myself not to......... Heard that he is on his way to a good ITE,
Lost a good listening ear like him, now one less person to share my joy and laughter, sorrow and tears with. Anyway, its been a long time since he rewrite his blogger, hehe. shall peek it again another day. NYP is the same routine everyday, i trulu missas my pals in CJC, too much things happen over there, i miss them so much..... somehow hope i;m there for them evrytime they need me......... haha, guess i;m just daydreaming, who can have such chances like me to go into a Jc, quit Jc go poly and wanna go JC back...... be contented Kristal!

I THINK ZIHAO IS RIGHT,......... I;M JUST A SEE ONE LIKE ONE GAL, SOMEONE LAST ON A GUY LIST, IRRITABLE AND DIABOLICAL.I'M AWFUL AND TERRIBLE AND A FAILURE IN EVERYTHING I DO

guys sux and are indecisive in their decision. All of them make promise without thinking thru their brain! /have they got a brain anyway? Do thy even deserve the title 'MAN'... slowly bit by bit i shalll reveal all man true colours... i'll beat them down till they drop their very last piece of boxer! They are nuttin and useless in aiding woman in to their correct mind. Guys fake their conversation and avoid making commitment. Guys say one do the other..... What nice thing can i possibly name about them........

haha./... i'm a hppy girl. I think i have clear all my obsacles liao... i;m tranferring to a poly. To think i make it so far to Cathoic Junior College... i am giving up to Poly. It's ok as long as i;m happy....... give up on that realtionship liao.. bobo is not my cup of tea. I want a guy who likes me more than i like him, i am going to stay happy. sharon is always here for me, so is my cousin, samantha and Eason... hehe, i;m so happy

WE BROKE UP YET AGAIN... I MAKE THE FIRST MOVE AND THINGS GETS BETTER LE... THEN THE DISTANCE INCREASE AGAIN... WE BROKE UP... ONCE AGAIN

Broke up with him le, guess this time i really am hopeless. Did try to revive the relationship but he wanted just wasn't me. Am i the cause of all the ending? Haiz, guess the problem lies in me. JC life has been different, i thought we were all united till yesterday clss outing. Only 9 turn up, Sammie's boyfriend broke his leg while trying to save pple from the recent construction collide. so she did not turn up, Gwen wants to stay at home to rush thru her Econs home work, Pei fang and Wendy same patterm, Melissa cannot come, Edward, Xueliang one type guai cannot go out kind. Rachael, Delvina, Darren, Alvin, ME,. Terrence, Brandon, James, Freddy turn up. Its fun and we chatted till late night then we all board a train home. I guess no matter how close a class is, there is bound to be division somewhere.
was sms-in Chi Yang that day. He is a famous Hair stylist noe, just won championship in Japan and is heading for France soon. Haha, not bad that i have a friend who make it big. He promise me to do my hair cut once i get back. haha.... Long time no see so many friends, it's only till after graduate then we all get back together... Haiz... sometimes things just happen the way you least expected it.....
Suddenly the temptation to continue writin has stop...