the following photos are uploaded for my best friend...

Credits to : (attire are fully paid thou!)
on Kristal:

• Sequins toga dress from Bonitochico
• Peach Floral Hairclips from H&M
• Necklace and earring set from Swaroski, given by best friends!
• Clutch from Peacock
• Heels from Daniel Conrads

on Rodman:

• Blazer from H&M
• Pants from H&M
• Shirt from H&M
• Tie from Primark
• Belt from Ted baker or H&M (he has two)
• Shoes are his own
• specially tailor to his own cutting by his girlfriend herself!

some pictures taken inside his dorm, which u can tell by now are fully plastered with huge ass pictures of us.. haha..

bbbbbbb printed each and every"poster" himself.. it was real touching to see them the moment i step in..

Mum has been going on and on over how my boobs appear so droppy in each and every pic.. i had on a corset inside the dress, perhaps it explains

bbbbbbb in his suit... haha.. i sew his pants and iron his suit.. looks real good i think!

Yup! my boyf has graduated!

bbbbbbb's mum and sis

This was taken by the Northumbria Millenuin bridge just besides bbbbb's dorm and opposite the place bbbb's mum and sis were putting up @

hahah.. notice their family looks alike?

i share his joy in graduation.. mine's a year from now.

bbbbbbb's gradmates... u are seeing a arrear of international students... haha.. cant name their countries one by one thou.

bbbb's mum and sis got him a grad bear.... my idea initially.. guess we all share the same tots.

This spot was ideal for all grads to take their picture.. we had a hard time finding a good spots since everyone else were taking their pictures too.. windy day.. and the weather was freezin cold.. beneath those smile we were dying to find some warmth indoor

hahaha.. babe.. hope u can take all this in! haha

misses...

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Receive a pretty sad news today.... something that devote me of the excitement, the luck i tot i had carry with me... hate that news super bad.... bbbbbbb was around to cheer me up....


i can foresee this half a year to be a super busy time now.. with the new school terms and new role at work... i aim:

- not to throw my frustration at bf no matter what.. He's feeling pretty low about this friendship lately

- to pass my last sem and get a perm job with satisfying pay no matter what. I am hoping this current position adds a star to my resume

- start driving lessons.. if i can find time on top of my tight study+work schedule

- leave sunday job into Gary's care.. and concentrate my weekend with my loves one

- buck up on cherishing Cousins+Pau altogether

- clear housing debts faster than Dad has planned

Darby is really really good to me now... if he hadnt been around during this period i dunno how life can be any good. We've surived our long distance relationship, and am going stronger.... His Brother's gf just left for Aussie days ago, its the beginning of another LDR.

Somehow i saw our shadow cast on them when i heard the news.. but i know they are strong enough to withstand this years... I wont say its too long for 2 person who truly want to make "it" happen. Look at us now... one year on, after not seeing each other for 12 months... i dare say we are so good together still, it makes u jealous.

And it feels really good knowing no matter how uneven the current is right now.. you can always fall back and expect someone to stretch our their arms and hold you tight. i love how their family bond, and i am not the only one to agree on this...

I actually have colleagues coming up telling me how they are impress by their family bond, this- i am proud- to carry on with darby in future... i want it tohappen.

Situation at home aint doing too good,. last night Dad and cousin went to her house and ransack the place for any valuable stuff, we manage to sold off her TV for some quick bucks, and there are lot more other stuff worth the $$ (and some other truly disturbing stuff that irritates the shit out of me)

The rest are planning to get rid of her convertible, sure it can bring them some $$.. there aint no time for sympathy at the moment, towards her i am filled with nuttin by hatred. The life she left behind those burden for us, she no longer earn much respect in the house.. All i can say it..

Those you grew up together with may not be always appear to be who they are, and for that - i no longer wish to look upon you like a learning example, NI BU PEI!

Rants aside, i wanna learn driving soon, Dad has no objection to throw the car to me upon my license,.... really hope to get it going...

and i wanna tk a break soon from all this mess, at home, at work, at school... and just spend time IDLING with darby... when was the last time anyone sit down and stare and wonder what they should do next? We are constantly filled with "to-do" list to tick... and i detest that.

Nevertheless, i wish to end off this post happily.... darby is turning older soon.. and so it Pau & viv and i cant wait for all the partying to bring this trouble off my mind.. at least for a while.

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

some ridiculously heartwarming pictures from Cheryl's birthday

Am loving dinner like this... and my family took a positive changes with influences from bbbbbbbbbbb's. We officially complete our first family outing (after what seems forever) and went on to do some simple shopping at Tampinese Mall..

what's even more surprising was Bro's idea to go kite flying in East Coast, after he saw me pestering bbbbbbb to get me a kite...

and bbbbb was the sweetest... he drove me around looking for an ideal kite and i finally settled down on a Princesses one... cant wait to get it flying soon!!!

And there is the weekend that had just past where BBB and i spend everyday together, there were movie with his sis and her bf..... our new-found jogging routine around woodbridge and Ah mei's cafe...

i hope every weekend will be as fufilling as this =)

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

the ex-boyfriend

Met a friend last night....... you cant say we are friends exactly.....







He said something- everyone changes! Indeed he change quite a bit since the last time i saw him- to be exact he told me it was 30kg!









You remember how you use to fell for ths guy in school and tried so hard to link him to the girl of his dream.. then in the end you ended up with him for a longer period than anyone can imagine, withstand all forms of hardship and stood up for him when he was accuse of stealing..









those were my past.. it last me from secondary till my poly years.. needless to say he was a man of impression, at least for me it was a deeper impression than anyone else.









So i saw him yesterday and after discussing with bbbbbbbb i decide to make the first move by going over to say hi for he was really busy with his work.













a little nervous at first cos afterall our ending wasnt all that pleasant.... but we had a pretty ok chat... he was more confident of himself now due to the physique loss and am very outspoken... he told me he saw me once but din came over to say hi for he was rushing off somewhere else...















isnt is strange how we can no longer talk like old friends? I felt like we were complete stranger and those overnight conversation last time seems non-existence... i do want to know how he is doing now cos afterall the him i know earlier had a hard time coping with life. I do want to know if he can cope with his life, his siblings and his family now....















I know bbbbb will support me in this feeling cos sometimes the first crush is always unforgotten... i am concern about a friend more than anything else!

















but i guess.... the akwardness is there and his empowering confident makes me inferior and less "able" to strike a conversation...














in either case, i ought to thank bbbbbb for giving me the support and suggesting i should strike a conversation first. At the very least i know- he trust me enough to handover his "gentleman-ness gene" to me.. haha











~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Dear Diary,

i;ve contemplate about penning down every other thoughts contain inside me for the sole reason of not wanting to sound like i am boasting...




i am leading a wonderfully great life.. and my bf and i are doing well together. I guess when two hearts found each other, nuttin comes harder for me anymore..






Remember all --" You dont miss the water till the well runs dry"





no one should wait till it is too late to regret and start missing someone else.. Cherish all you have with you one.. one very fine day you might wake up in shock cos you havent got anything left...







i wish you luck ..





till my next post.. takkaire



~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Just some pictures to share my joy before i leave for another road trip...... this time its longer...


i am super looking forward to my first DisneyLand Tour and Eiffel Tower visit...... bbbbb's mum and sis are halfway across the globe to meeting us now....



The flight is long and tiring..... and the transit suck to the max... but its all worth it and bbbbbbb plan soooooo much activities to be done Auntie and Cheryl wont regret it a single bit...


And i've done sooooooooooooooooo much shopping at Primark one daily basis that out of the 10 cashier available for payment.... i've covered cashier 8 three times... cashier 2, cashier 3, cashier 9 and cashier 10....


Imagine i'm only in Newscastle for like 8 days? wahahha.. not to mention the Primark over at Manchester which i've joyfully covered as welll....... My gals are gonna be proud =)

This was outside our dorm.... the bridge leads to bbbb's school (another part.. the school is huge) the good news is that the sunlight here last till 12 midnight... so even thou you see me taking picture in daylight all the time... its perhaps already 9pm in the night...
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Worst part was trying to sleep when the sun still shines.... thank God for the cool weather that serve as a consolation =)

We took lots of picture at the Coast.. which was a huge beach and sadly... no nude swim there... wahhahah


The temperature here are cold all the time.... even wearing the black maxi dress above makes me shiver....... but the visit there was definitely worth it... i love that place... !!

nonsence aside... i met the most beautiful mix blood babies of my entire life... just recalling how i told Denise and Sharon since young that i wanted to married a AM just to produce them already made me super jealous.... They are Rodman's nieces and their mum left me to care for them for like two days?


Ellie is 9 months old and Anna is 3... we were there to celebrate Anna's birthday and she's the prettist young lady alive!!! and best of all.. her english is far too perfect i had a hard time catching up...



Best joke of the year was we were told to speak to Anna in Chinese so she can learn them,..
"Anna..... Jing Tian Shi Anna der Shen Ri...... ni yao Chuan Der Mei Mei der... hao mah?"

Immediately after that.. Anna was mad at me.... i was confuse till she blurt out...
"No.. Kristal AhYi... today's Anna's birthday... not Mei Mei's birthday.. its Jie Jie's!!!'




i laugh so badly my tummy hurts...

Bbbbbb toook me on a tour to Manchester united Stadium.... we learnt alot about the history of the club as well as sit on the changing lounge the player sat (i... of course had my fair share of bumming my ass on gigg's seat.... mad mad happy!!)


There were Rooney's seat too which was a hot spot.... and the chair for the audience for the important people are made of leather sponsor by a sport car.... not sure what.. i have super bad memories... gonna check with bbb on this one..


The Ferris Wheel was situated outside a shopping mall in Manchester... a smaller version of ours in Singapore but definitely better scenery...... \




tata for now.. see you all in 14 days... cheers =)

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Day one in NCL

i am finally waken up on day two.. its 7.24am now and real late in Singapore.. the jet lag din work much on me. thank God...



Thinking about work alot especially fish soup with PaperStop.... perhaps i am still not use to idling and being on a holiday... the people here are nice... \



The long-haul flight was a nightmare... my arse are sore from the sitting all day.. i challenge the authority during my second flight..... My first flight was good and the plane was luxurious but perhaps also because it was too grand a flight that everyone seems to follow the rule.. so much so that even babies dun cry....

The transit was a rush, my only memories of it was big foot steps and all kinds of signboard reading.. i was scared out of my wits and all the time while walkign i was trying to get some signals on my cell to contact bbbbbbbbbbbbb.. but it wasnt scary..... no one tried anything strange... maybe they were targeting more on the westerns... (i am somehow thankful i am asian)




we took a metro back to HayMarket where bbbbbb's apartment was..

















Last night bbbbbbbb brought me around his school compound.. he is living in the more fun area.. a lot like Orchard Road in Singapore,... the to-die-for thing is H&M- exactly 2 building here are H&M,.. i am tempted already... bbb had total control of our finance... i pass him all the money to be deposit into his account.. whenever i wanted something he will pay for it.. by doing so i am convince we shall have enough to last us...




i fell asleep immediately after dinner last night.. it was almost 8pm and the sun was stillbright.... Summer is all about long hours of sunshine..... bbbb mention during winter they had nightlight throughout the day... so this is four Seasons!


loggin off now... will try to blog when i can......miss all of you back in Singapore.

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

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Another awful day. I am losing hope
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On another note... i am heading to town later with Jann and Xue,.. and silly Jann msg us both saying "would we experience Flood?"

haha.. it certainly made my laugh a little..... sometimes simple words like this can make some one's day - couple with some comfort food- courtesy of PaperStop.

Do you have anything to comfort yourself?

i love chocolate, ice-cream on a sad day.... more importantly i wish i had someone who would listen quietly while i vomit my worries... i;ve learnt that ppl who take the time to listen are people who really understand the position you are in... When you are finish with your sentence they provide their side of opinion and somehow, you'll end up listening silently as well..

i know of a couple who fight while holding one glass of water... each time the cup of water is in the hand of - for example the girl- the guy gets to talk and the girl will listen while siping a few mouthful of water. When the guy is done he takes over the water - while the girl talk. By doing so, they wont feel tired easily (haha) and they each have a fair opportunity of sharing their tots.

I also wish there was someone who would hold my hand when i get upset... if you watch "your Hands in mine" every time the charater touches their hand to show consolation- there is immediately a "chang" sound..- actually that feeling is surreal... a it is a gesture that will definitely make someone cheer up a little ....

One way of comforting is to drag a friend and go shopping.. but you got to take note that you MUST HAVE SOMETHING YOU WANNA BUY and you MUST GET IT. there will be a sense of accomplishment and that will comfort you as well..

Can you suggest some other ways to comfort yourself?

Dear Rodman,





in a matter of 3 days i'll seeing you and like we both see it- it will be together now- forever














Some matters of the heart are unexplainable and very often, bits of miscommunication turns in huge fight, sometimes bad ones.. But i really want you to know how much i want things to work out.

















i may not be all that perfect, and in our eyes we've probably reach a stage where the sparkle is no longer that, we may not dated for too long but already i am deeply attracted to you. The sort of person i see myself is someone who can be pretty unbearable sometimes, but as much as i can, i do wish we will walk this journey together, hand in hand, us.











Lately, we lose that patience towards each others, this was especially hard after being reminded not to fight, argue or take part in anything that will harm the relationship. Perhaps i was trying too hard not to fall into the trap that seems to be targeting us, the anxiety to prevent seems to take a unfortunate turn and that result in our continuous "i'll call you back" conversation in order for both parties to calm down.














i've read somewhere the best solution to a healthy relationship is to recount those happy times, and somehow convince ourselves this till work out - just the way we wish it would. So here's my version of the happier times.

















"it was our first trip overseas, and right after unpacking the luggage you suggest i tk a quick bath to freshen up a little before we head out for dinner. While suggesting this you pretend to be watching some sitcom on the tv.





I walk out of the bathroom to find the bed nicely decorated with a laptop and a gift box. laying on the laptop was a video made by you, it was some snap shots of all the places we've been together, there was also a message you wrote in side of how confident you are that we will be together for quite a while.





I open the gift box to find the same dress i hesitate on buying a while back, you hadnt seen me choosing it nor trying it. I verbally told you about the dress and show you a pic of me wearing it... you remember it all in your mind and went to get it for me... that was the best gift i;ve gotten from anyone, and i tear so badly in the room before changing into that dress. i went out to the living room where you were still pretending to watch the tv, i hug you tightly and couldnt contain my tears....... you let me cried for a while before bring me to our dinner tgr...."

















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"it was my 22nd birthday and you had planned a array of activities for us... i had bought a new dress to be worn on that day, you came to my place and whisk me off to serangoon gardens, you bought banana chocolate cake from Awfully chocolate, and we went back to your place to cut the cake with your Mum and sis.










We proceed to shop at Vivo where i wasnt keen on getting anything, when it was dinner time you blindfold me and lead me to my seat. You drove for what seems like the longest time, i can feel you spinning but i couldnt figure where we were heading....







You surprise me with a dinner booking done at JewelBox, it was the first time i;ve seen someone done valet parking.... dinner was equally beautiful, we had a snapshot of our dinner tgr, we chat alot and share some food... i was clearly surprise and you were satisfied with your planning..... the night fell and we walk around mount faber before heading home... "






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" it was our 6th month anniversary.... it was also my turn to do some planning, again i was in my best dress... and i book a table at HobNob.\, it was my favourite restaurant and i was keen on sharing my joy... the dinner was simple,. but i was feeling really blessed.. you allow me to act like the princess i wanted to be... we were simple.. and indeed happy"






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"We didnt get to spend our first year anniversary together, you were over in UK and i was stuck in Singapore. You were disappointed that i wouldnt be going over for christmas, but we tried to make the best out of the situation...... We arrange to skype at a certain time.. and before that we loaded a movie at our end.... i remmeber the movie was called "Up".... we pressed the "play" button together...... we tried to make do with it.. it felt like i was watching the movie with you by my side... i teared at the part where the grandpa's wife passed away... and you console me...... i treasure that moment... we were in love.. and loving it... "







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"You came back to singapore for a while.. it was meant to be a surprise but due to a small arguement.. and because i was sneaking into your e-mail account alot.. i found out about it... i plan a surprise in turn for you... so during your return.. i make you packing enuff clothes to last us 3 days. den i seek your buddy help to prepare the food for the party tonight... i even bring your family into the planning and everyone was ready to drop you a surprise...










Your friend were shockk to see you... and you were shock to see them.... we spent a night at the arcade while your buddies catches toy.... it was couple of hours to X'mas... we had a tiny arguement cos i din get to wish you in time for you were too preoccupied talking to your mates... nevertheless... it was christmas with you and i was blessed"









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bbbbbbbbbb...... i wish we wont fight so often.... i wanna accumulate the happy memories and mark them in my heart forever....





if there were a calendar on our relationship on daily basis.... i wanna see 30 boxes of =) per month and 1 box of =]...... ... having a =( on our calendar aint worth it.. cos you are my bestest friend and partner.... and i want nuttin else but happiness for you....









let's hook fingers shall we?






~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Lately, i found reading others' blogs more and more unbearable. I find the comment they receive from warm wishing friends too much to handle. I found the lives they have created for themselves more interesting than my entire life.

Yet i cant complain, and i contnue to envy them in silence over their luck, being their diehard reader and hopefully feel the joy they had while typing their entries. Maybe its really me, i cant make my life as colourful as theirs. For some reason everything that is happening now are just part of my life - and not part of the life i hope to have.

















i do wish i find joy in everything that is happening around me or is going to happen, but there are bound to be walls filtering my joy and mixing it with bits of mixed emotions.













I am somehow grateful to surprises, i see joy in being slap with things that never knew was going to happen, but it seems people around me tend to be upmost honest when it comes to the itinery. As such, i've to actually request for most of them not to tell me wat is going to happen.











Why does it seems when life is too straight forward you want some complication









Leaving singapore in a couple of days, not in much mood to pack, not in much mood to listen to instruction..... not in much mood to follow orders. i do wish i feel that bit of anticipation i had earlier... bt as it's nearing, i cant help but dread it..









Spoke to PaperStop this morning, i am frustrated and stress- stress over knowing what is to come ahead. i am scared, scared of everything that i knew was going to happen. Somethings are not dependable on fate. this time i had to built it with my bare hands... but i am losing the momentum, i am not motivated to want to built something out of this situation.











if only i had that sort of emotions on those blog that i read, i do wish i could count my blessing at this time - but this sort of blessing that are financially dependable are not to be taken seriously,









human are selfish and jealous creature - they see the need to make others jealous, but they fail to realise one fine day,.. their partner will be jealous of others tooo






















p/p/p/p/p/s: do not raise this post to me.. thanks..


~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Sorry i hadnt head back here for a while.

i havebeen working non-stop for 24 days now... it truly tiring but bbbb remind me each time that i am one more step closer to him, and that cheer me up alot.

As usual i am still crazy over F21, headed there while waitig for Jann and Xue to arrive last thurs and bought myself a electric blue frill tube top and headed there again on Friday with PaperStop to get her VB structure dress in nichii, and we both got ourselves Tiffany ring...

haha

Its a piece of plastic with the Tiffany Green (Blue if you should correct me) and i am damn in love... Paperstop also bought a pair of pastel Purple shorts which she haven figure how to match with, I bann her from getting the thin tee with muackx prints cos its really overpriced.

Who pays $22 for a pice of rag nowadays? i told her i would rather she pass me the $ and i muackx a plain white tee from toa payoh (selling at $1.80)

Thurs dinner with Jann & Xue were done in a Jap restaurant which i had refuse to remmeber the name, and friday's dinner with paper Stop was done in White Dog Cafe..

Hadnt camwhore for a while so Xue and Jann help out with the phototaking and we manage to gather almost a hundred good shots to update facebook - which reminds me i have to upload them tonight.

On another note, i am leaving for UK this sunday- super excited and scared since i am flying alone. Hadnt gotten a wish list from anyone( other than Steve who wanted car polish?!~?!~?)

i also did some mental note and calculate the gift i ought to buy for- 10 friends to be exact. Since i am trvelling on a super tight budget i ought to be a little more selfish.

Of the 10 friends i have include my cousin as well, and in addition there is the family and that shall be all... bbbbbb and i agreed this is our anni trip so we shouldnt put others above us. I hope all those friends whom i missed out could understand - i only have less than 2000pounds to survive for 30 days...

bbbbbbb and i will be heading to effiel tower.... i know i hadnt reveal much of wats coming up for this trip.... i hadnt got much idea myself..... i told bbbbbbb i wanted the OMGOMGOMG feeling so i reckon he keeps everything up his sleeves...

the Weekend has been spent with bbbbbbbbb's family, his mum brought me along to the fortune teller that i last visit, he hinted good sign and i am super grateful for it. The last trip wasnt as fruitful but he predict better luck after CNY 2010, and true enuff all had been well and his latest prediction was even more consoling.....

The only weird advice from him was to prevent myself from getting hurt on my left side,..... it can cause temp paralysing so i am taking the advice seriuosly..... in addition he told me it was a good year to get hitch (hahaha,. seriously bbbbbbb mum almost freak out on hearing that)

there was a heartwarming moment over the weekend lunch with bbbbbb's mum and sister.

we were eating at a nearby coffeeshop after my visit to the fortune teller and i stained my white chiffon top, but since it only accumulated to one of the many stain i've, i didnt think too much about it.

yet on arriving the bus stop leading to bbbbbbbbbbb hse, his mum and sis went to the super market and buy a bottle of pre-wash fabrick stain remover, i was given a bottle and that night itself i wash my top... feeling really grateful to their tiny touch of kindness.

bbbbb mum also pass me a what seems like a PUMA passport carrier that can be hung on my neck while travelling alone....i;ve highlighted earlier how i fear flying alone and losing my documents.....

The supposedly packed week is here and i cant wait for it to be over soon! more importantly i pray that the flea this sat will be a huge success and i'll be able to recoup some losses and hopefuly get some really good buy to wear to uk.

I hope your week is as exciting as mine........

happily ever after is here.... sooon!!!!

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Counting down to my departure.... finally finally leaving Singapore for a long while...



More often i force myself to believe it was 2 weeks rather than 11days till i see bbbbbbbbb....... it seems shorter!



bbbbbb had a hard time tinking of what to get me on our anniversary (and super super post- belated birthday celebration). He had initially request we get each other Man-U jersey and that shall does it... but i wasnt satisfied... =)



i wanted surprise! And right now i am stuck cos i cant tink of a better gift to get him in return.




Blogging this days has been rather dull, i am losing the momentum again - as much as i would like to pen all tots in here so tracing back on my life will be so much fufiling....




on the other hand, i am picking up on catchin up wit the girls, meeting Jann to celebrate her 24th this thurs with xue. And just last wed we did a DKS over at vivo to celebrate Besties Sharon super-post birthday.






next week's gonna be equally packed, for those of you out that who care for some shopping next sat, may i request you head down to Supperclub (no clubbing involve cos the activities happens in the day) for a day of Flea, goods sold include bohemian style, Bonitochico and other BN stuff, PaperStop happen to book a slot and i've conveniently squeeze my tight ass into one corner... so find me there and say hi=)






Also on wednesday, Pau and Cuz can finally find time for SATC2, awaiting clar's confirmation and i'll be able to meet the ladies for a short session before i fly off.





there is also the plan to meet Mr chong before i fly off, he's a lonely soul seeking single ladies (nah kidding.. he's a real nice guy la) so if any one of you care for some matchmaking do PM me too...





What The Flea @ Supperclub
date: 19 June 2010
location: SupperClub, in between National library and Bras besah complex
Attire: casual



SATC2 the movie
Date: 16 June 2010
Location : hopefully the Cathay
Attire: definitely SATC style


Meet Mr chong
Date: 18 June 2010
Location: Anywhere...
Attire: anyhow


Kristal flies off
Date: 20 June 2010 midnight
Location: changi airport, dunno which terminal
Attire: super casual for a 2 days flight across the globe




MacDonald with PaperStop
Date: today.. after work later...
Location: not gonna reveal. walking from home
Attire: i wanted to dress like a stupid stay home girl, but she threaten me with picture takin. -.-"









i 'm off!`







~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Steamboat for supper. And to tink I mention diet
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Dumb jokes

Two glamourous blondes were found frozen to death in the snow outside the cinema.

They had queue for two weeks to watch "Closed for Winter"

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The outcome of my hair! Din knew I could be THIS tall !!!
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Upset Friday

i do wanna blog... but i am upset right now.. here's some information on how to console yourself (it will be useful in some events)

from a blog i read

I have managed to [at least in my imagination] create two sides of me: one girl that's always brooding, sad and bitter; the other always optimistic and out to cheer someone up.

Whenever I'm depressed, these two figures talk things out in my head and I am reduced to nothing more than a mere listener to both sides. This puts things in perspective for me, but doesn't necessarily stop me from being weepy and all. It just helps me rationalize things.

some help from googling online

• Listening to peaceful music, thinking, or sleeping.
• Chat with friend who I don't know very well. Because we don't know each other deeply, they can uplift the conversation and offer more of an outsider perspective.
• I hear the still, small voice inside, which says:"Eat, eat, eat."
• I call my boyfriend to hear his voice. I know this sucks, but I guess that's the only kind of dependency I have with him... I tend not to have any...
• I don't "console" myself..one consoles others
• Pray and cry ...then only i can feel better

i read the line that we dont console ourselves, we are meant to console others............. i wish he was here to console me right now...................






i also read on the crying part, i wish i could right now except i was on a 9-5 job and weeping at work could account to scaring my colleagues and non-existence chance of getting a better contract.





The part on calling the boyfriend wont help either......








tink i'll just swallow again..... =(



~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

So recently, (due to strong influence from PaperStop), i begin to look into a shop strongly agreed by my pals to contain lotsa of surprises.

Forever 21 have clothing from all countries! i once bought a couple of tops that was made in parkistan, UK, China ... etc..

And even without my persuasion you'll probably know what great style they have inside, bohemia, Structured workdress, toga, bustier, bodycon, colorblock. Name it, they'll probably have it!

but this is actually a post oF displeasure

've been thinking, especially since i;ve been bringing more and more yellow bags home.

I WASN'T TEMPTED TO REUSE THE BAG

This was an issue especially since i am someone who dont mind lugging a paper bag of nonsenical stuff everywhere i go!

I also have the habit of packing presents inside paper bag (bet you come across alot of other ppl with the same interest)

I even head down to ArtFriend to purchase their paperbags and to SpotLight to buy empty apple-paperbag (the brown thick sheets of paperbag where the ang-moh put their groceries in)

Do you know there is a store in neighbourhood call "SKP"? They sell good paperbags of all sizes in bundle and at cheap rate

i like to decorate my paper bags in drawings and stick gems on it when i gave them together with the presents inside.

Comparing other brands such as TopShop, ZARA, GAP, Armani, i felt Forever21 hasnt been making the effort to contribute to the environment.

And before you question my post on being environmental friendly, perhaps i can add in i dislike the plastic bags issue by uncountable stalls in along bugis street, Far East Plaza and Cottons On too?

i dont get it.... Plastic bag.... realy dislike carrying them. Take the F21 plastics bags for example, if the outlook was deem acceptable, wouldnt you agree the same design on a paper bag would look soooooooooooo much nicer?

In addition, people who purchase F21 usually purchases from Warehouse, TopShop, RiverIsland altogether, when the lug all the bags together, somehow you can feel the differences, F21 plastic bags just........ dont match.

to be honest i agree plastic bags are waterproof, can carry a bulkier item and can be easily stuff into your bag, but seriously? If it is a yellow Paperbag i swear it look so much nicer.

Besides, it's environmental and totally bring the store into another level of poshness.

maybe F21 needs to consider changing their "plastic bags" (eeek, the tot of typing out P-L-A-S-T-I-C already put me off big time.)

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Awkwardly random but i am inspired to make this for my boy=)

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Loss of Memory
i woke up this morning to a call from bbbbbbbbbbbbb.... he asked if i am still affected by yesterday, and then my mind went like this-> ???????????????????????????????????????????



A sudden strange feeling overcome me, it appears to be a plain denial of the truth. To be frank, i tink i've experience a sudden loss of memory. All i clearly remember was i upset bbbbbb badly and i cried den den i cried so bad i had mucus and tears all mixed together and then....................... and den i cant remember anything else.




it's almost as if God has given us a second chance and like those who knew alien exist in MIB, i saw a bolt of lightning happening right before my very eye and den i lost all memories.






bbbbbbbb says its good and we should leave bad memories behind, i asked him what happens if the same problem occurs again, he said when the moment comes, he will remind me what exactly was forgotten.






i am thankful to my bf for being the mature one taking care of me at this period. I still cant decipher what went wrong and why i woke up with heavy, swollen and puffy eyes, but i am thankful God helps to take this pain away and bbbbbbbb to be around to assure me everything's alright now.




In no time bbbbbbb and i will embark on a new journey where we begin the new chapter of our lives together, we will be celebrating the closure of our 2nd year tgr and the beginning of our third. bbbbbb and i were the kind of couple i love to be in, the past 24 months have me witnessed scandals , bad break up and patches and really bad romance.




Not a moment in our lives had we been apart mentally for more than 24hrs. Perhaps its the determination we have, we will not resort to short term breakup even if this was suggested. i sugeest a short term time apart many times and i am very grateful he had never really once agreed to it. And one time he suggest the same thing, i refused.




If i were to reason why i tink my relationship is the real deal, it would have to be because of two things i did that i am particularly proud of :-



1. i survive a one year distance apart and now we about to call an end to this period and be reunited, and we kept in contact for 370days straight, there was never a single days that we were apart for too long virtually.



2. i made him sweet. It was the toughest deal of my life, i burnt both hands not out of failure, but because one will need a tough-burnt gloves when making taffy sweet, you can google this to find out. i held the burning sugar in my buttered hands and juggle them while pulling it before it toughen into sweet. Each juggling is like pouring a freshly cook cup noodle into your hands, my sister gave up and my cousin withstand the heat but couldnt get the sweet "pull" due to the heat, i made sweets for my sweets. Cos he was the sweetest and only sweets make sense






we will be holding our celebration in UK during our "us-time". It wont be a big event or something really major because we've discussed and decided to keep the special event for bigger moments of our lives. Nevertheless, he offer to plan something good and i will dress up specially for that day.






bbbbbb and i agreed to head to Italy next after our trip from UK, it will be another thing i can now look forward to, it will be another period of "us-time".






and after talking to bbbbbbbbbb's family, i was more certain if bbbbbbbb were to continue staying in UK after his graduation because he was offer a job there, i would await my own graduation in 2011 May and den fly over to join him. My parents din really talk much abt it, but Mum hinted i would end up joining him in UK anyway.






Dear friends, i guess i will call an end to my search for the real deal, i hope you found your own happiness too. Till more updates, here's me wishing Rodman and i another 2 years of sweet-fillled memories.







~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Avoidance is not forever.



Sometimes when u realise you really have to get down to matter




maybe you've already lost the battle to someone else


Lesson learnt: No One should be More Important to You than Yourself. So dont Try too hard to please everyone. Dont place anyone on top anymore, dun tink you are permanent to anyone, you ARE dispensible to anyone, but you can never give up on yourself.



~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

i wrote a super long post on how i failed at a relationship... and den i delete them all word by workd. simply because... i still dont tink it is as bad as my real failure as a girlfriend.

sigh,.... maybe i shud really change to become another person.