I just realise i hadnt really sat down and really thought about 2010. My mind had been pretty filled waiting for july to come near so bbbbbb can be back in Singapore- like finally.



But there are certainly things i dun wan to regret not penning down since the start of the year.





1. Its sad to know that since young i had promise Cuz one fine day i'll be the one to pick her up after school and bring her on a ride through Singapore while we chill at places we all knew MRT wont bring us sooner. Yet till this very day, even when i finally finally gotten some teeny weeny interest in learning driving, i am nowhere near there - at least not financially (Here's calling out to my dearest mate that if you really want to get me a present but cant think of anything justifiable, consider a ang pow containing enough $$ to tk one basic theory and 2 practical lessons...... totally appreciate that)



2. bf, with regards to point 1, please place on ur agenda the first thing you can get me once you get a job after your grad will be a secure sum of money to see me through one car license, thank you.



3. I haven really get use to wearing heels, at this age and still wobbly on heel simple means i will either end up short for the rest of my life or that the tailor near my hse will earn my $$$$ for as long as i enjoy shopping for clothes.



4. I haven had a credit (tsk..... NOT sup-card, i have 2 sup already) to call my own, and i know its still related to money and income, so its gotta wait.... in 2010



5. I shall try to concentrate on renewing my clothes this year. Have soooooooo many tips that i put into action this month.... not ready to blog them yet, but trust me girls --- you'll be impressED!! (* looks down at my Levi and smile with greed.....*)



6. I shall apply nail polish and take care of my polish. I shall bling them someday and look like a woman - not a tomboy girl with short short short short short nails.. omg



7. I shall speak english like i am suppose to and stop simplifying them with "la" "ya lor" or "leh



8. in relation to point 7. i shall force bf to stop making me speak my funny hokkien, try canto maybe



9. I shall arrange a trip to visit grandma cos i miss her dearly.. bbbbbb... drive me there please!~



10. I shall hang out with Kristi more and be like a real sister



11. i will get Gary to shut up reminding me i am 23 yrs old



12. i will show my affection for bbbbbbbbb, pauline, Sharon, Denise, Vivien and all my buddies publicly (note to those affected - do not be alarm if i plant a kiss on you suddenly *wink*)



13. I will wear skirt and sit with leg close (That means no more QIAO JIAO)



14. I will think 4 times instead of 3 when i want to get something



15. I still wont eat pork, beef, mutton, chicken with bone and drink their soup base



16. force bbbbbbbb to keep to his plan of fufilling batam, taiwan and UK trip this year



17. lose weight again (am planning to do a very PUBLIC DIET PLAN, one that reveals my progree, my dirty little cellulite secret so you can all embarress me and get me to buck up)









the list is getting really ridiculous, i am laughin to myself.









note to Zi Ting: congrats on your driving license, impressed cos its ur first attempt and the rain today is SO heavy!!~





~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Hi Reality,



Very soon you shall be put to test, and despite not wanting the day to come soon, i know it shall.


Instead of them breaking my weak heart and frail body, may them face you with pride and get at least something that wont shatter the older "Crystal"....

Dont hate me........... hate Reality. wahhaha

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

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~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Am blogging with Uber happiness, cos Pau and i are hanging out later.. its been weeks since i saw her.... so i am looking forward to another joyous day out near the mall for a super short while.

We are catching "The Blind Side", initial plan to watch "The Spy Next Door" has been push till a later date cos Pau says Sandra Bullock always deserve priority... so Jackie Chan.... to bad!!~

Been reading blogs after blogs, trying to find a good advertorial page for BlackHairpins, we are running low on budget and i am living in deficit, but its too good a chance to let go of.... CNY is in less than a month, so its the best time to expose ourselves... Really got to get hold of $$$ somehow.

Http://BlackHairpins.Livejournal.com

Please please please shop there... i tink the clothes are pretty pieces because i chose them by meself.

Haha... At work right now, counting down to meeting Pau later, there wont be any pic cos i am bespectacled today and my right eye hasnt really recover from all the trauma i went through.




~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

oH........HOW I MISS!!`

oH HOW I MISS

1. Waking up to realise i missed breakfast and lunch is ready
2. walking down the stairs only to realise Ahmad (Dad's name for bbbbb) is waiting for me in Whitey, his cool avatar, and his all time -jersey
3. Peck on his cheek whenever i met him- which happens so everyday (7 months ago)
4. asking him very stupid question such as why he would prefer beef to pork, fish to chip, white bread to wheat bread, chocolate milk to fresh milk, me to every other girls.. hahah
5. Slacking at Pau hse, stopping her from sleeping after our swimming
6. Also, slacking at Viv's hse, tidying her room and catching lizards, folding her clothes and enjoying the silence there
7. doing some knitting, making another ridiculously-Long scarf for bbbbbbbb
8. tanning with Apel den gossip over people i dun really know
9. attending lesson with French, napping during class and forcing her to explain to me again what the lecturer had just said.
10. Supper session with bbbbb's Laos, cos they are soooo funny
11. healthy dining with Sharon besties, i like talking to her cos her opinion and vision about things are often beneathe what we see on the surface, i like her philosophy about life
12. best-friend-meetup session, Denise darling, Sharon besties and Jean-jean the jean-jean. the very rare time i feel like a tai-tai with a twist of childishness. haha
13. KTV with clar and pau, i can vividly remember the last time we did it, it was a whole deal of fun.
14. Where's Ray?
15. Slacking at Denise's place, doing online shopping with her and Sharon Besties
16. Canele slacking after work, Fireman, Saliken and Iza, we are like enemy in disgust, we fool each other into drinking, and fireman ALWAYS get drunk FIRST.
17. bbbbb patiently teaching me poker
18. removing blackheads over bbbbb's "blacken" nose
19. washing bbbbb's Whitey with him
20. changing clothes in shopping mall and listening to bbbbb's serious comment.

oh.......... how i wish

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Bored Dkriss has something to dooooo............ here's how to do fashion the Chinese New year style- with hardly $100 left in ur pocket.







Step 1 - Buy anything that is already cheap from Cottons on. i got myself a pretty piece- a sheer and ultra thin Romper (halter style.. full black.... gotta bling it pretty soon) and then proceed to grab a good durable pair of flip flops @ $5.

Walk around neighbourhood shops and drop by some ridiculous accessories shop that not only sells scrunchies but needles and watch and bra and everything else that doesnt relate. You may just find some attractive buttons that comes in bundle.... colours, sizes and shapes..... CUTE!!~








do some artsy-fartsy stuff using your imagination, screw some colours together, tied them up using fishingline.














TADAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
















And here's a very very unglam shot of a very very expanded pair of foots. Excuse me..

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

have been bugging myself to constantly update (or rather, to rant) here, but i had been so busy these days doing revision, discussing with Pau over ICBS and Phyl over BHP.
So forgive me, for i have already forgive myself.


3 days ago (this was how long i intend to blog) was my 17 months with the one and only Sweet-Silly-Stinky-Sleepyhead. Life has been hard but we live by. Each and everyday, the distance is pulled closer, so my stand about Long-Distance relationship remains - it does bring two hearts fonder..


bbbbbb and i had a tiny arguement thou, but it wasnt any of our fault, it was more of a outer pressure i had been suppress recently. i have no intention to rant it here (strictly private... ) but this issue is here to stay, till the day we walk down the aisle... i am glad bbbb and i talk it out and now that things have simmer a little, i hope its time we leave it aside and concentrate on other more substantial issue.


I AM MOVING OUT (UNOFFICIALLY!!`)

gee.. this line sounds too familiar cos there are so many ppl out there recently that is following this crazy trend. While my issue seems irrelevant, i had to move out cos i need to go into hiding- the time of the Year has come and in about 4 months i will b muggin away trying very hard to still aim for my 2nd Upper class. The first year grades has been bad, i had been REALLY lucky to barely passed so Dear God, i will do my job, please do yours.. teehee.. Bless those who try harder.


I miss those loads of fun bbbbb and i had while he is still here in Singapore. His friends were a bunch of funny ppl and they make me laugh louder than anything!~ i wont May wont take long to come and sooner bbbb and i (not forgetting his family and his buddies) will be shopping and touring UK. bbbbb and i have plans for me to stay there for up to 1 months plus if allow, so i am doing my research on VISA issues, hope all is well and i am outta here for a good period of time.


Am meeting Besties later.. we are gonna cranked up a little. Kristal is a happy girl


and dearPau, HUAT AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!~


~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Do you know how, in those black&white drama film, boring taiwan family woes, korea teary sitcom, daughters are force to married through matchmake, through parents' decision amongst 50 potential guys?


Do the daughter always cries in tears, sad to leave the family, sad over the betrayal, sad over not having the rights to make decision? Well, for once, in my opinion, if i ever had a choice at this stage, i would probably want to be in their shoes, to have my parents sieving through hundreds of profile for someone so potential he ought to take care of you, ought to make you tai tai.


I have a close friend last time who was force by her mum to date her's boss's son cos he was interested in her. It all started out like a soap drama but all too well, 2 years later, she was happily married to him, free to do her own stuff, secure with something she had been worried about since she was born.


Why do everyone thinks by giving them freedom to seek their own happiness, they are bound to find happiness? Havent we all seen enuff of sad girls being dump by their guy who had promise happiness, who had once hold their hand tightly and promises not to let go? Havent we had our fair share of sadnes over being dump. Havent we all regret falling in love with the wrong guy. Some of us regret falling in love with the wrong guy - only tooo late. By then, you are probably in your early 30s, have been through so much wedding dinner you lose count. Your best friend might probably be a happy mother of 4. Yet you are stuck, trying to doll urself up, wearing super mini skirt, pretending to look demure, hoping some single lads out there still hasnt got a ring on his forth finger. You would be exceptionally sweet besides them, emphasizing on how you use to be pretty but all that has past, what you really need now is a roof over your head, cos although ur parent welcome you to live with them, they also need you to carry on the family lines.

there you have, a burden- a child that needs to be produce before you get too old, your frail parent who has now retired and is seeking a comfortable life at home, while waiting for your contribution every month. You also need to make sure they live their final stage of life in happiness, travelling side by side each other and you being stuck at home.


did i forget you also had to buy 15 range of product to make sure those wrinkle remain invisible. Also when you go out on your fortnight dates with your classmates, you have to remind them times and times again that you are single because you choose to.


the day might come another man out there is still single. He had a choice whether to date a younger girl (cos old man are always more attractive) or to date you cos he needs his offspring as soon as possible. You can regard urself as a sow, producing chikd after child, you can grow fat, you can learn to love this man who often had tots about the "what-if", what if he had gotten himself a younger sow? What if his kids had been borne earlier?


You might regret, regret u hadnt plan your future earlier. You might regret all too late you hadnt find a better guy earlier, but its all too late, you hadnt plan, and you have to live with it, to face it and boost to everyone its part of your plan - not to plan at all.

You might also hate all your past boyfriends, seeking every chance to learn about their whereabout, some might have kids and a wife, despite earning meagre salaries (they are happy, still)
Some of your ex-boyfriend might still be single, but they are dating younger girls, having fun. They can afford to, "man in their thirties marks the beginning of their charm" "woman in their thirties, however, marks the end of theirs"



Dear girls, open your eyes bigger, and DO PLAN. I am rest assure cos all my best friends and concern cousin have plans about their future. The singles have plan to keep looking and hopefully settle down by a certain age, they are also working hard to fend for themselves in the event that all fails. The attached, such as Sharon & bf are saving more than they require for their house, they plan to own a condo, get married. Even my bf's sister have plan to aply for flat by next year and giving themselve 3 years to prepare for their future.
i dun wan to see anyone regretting not planning earlier cos there is nuttin you can do.. REmember, you can never turn back time so protect yourself- at all cost.


~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Day 3- Chalet with bbbb

Day 3- Chalet with bbbb

It was a day i had to work, i've only got 4 annual leave through the 6 months contract work, so i had to be wise in splitting up the days correctly. I had applied for half afternoon off so as to execute the "no-longer-surprise" i had plan for bbb...

He was the sweetest thing waking up in the morning and getting my stuff ready while i prepare for work. He drove Whitey out and the first place we headed was to get me breakfast, bbbbb insist a Mac breakfast will be a good start for the next few hr, i reached work pretty early while nbbbb set off to meet his mum for some grocery shopping and later to fetch Wang to join them. It din take very long and at 12.45pm bbbbb, his mummy and Wang were outside the company waiting for me. We hurried to the Carmart while Wang collected his frail car.

bbbbb bought me my lunch and while i was eating, he had packed our stuff ready for the chalet. We proceeded to get some last minutes stuff for the BBQ tonight and off we went to Sentosa. The checking in part was easy and the staff were super friendly, he had secretly allowed us to park the car at the staff carpark so it was easily accessible to our room.

Wang & gf, Zhang & gf arrived shortly after and preparation for BBQ started. In short, that night was great, gift exchange was fun, food was sufficient (though the leftover we threw away really breaks my heart. We also drove out to East Coast for some "toy-catching" session and at 12 MN sharp, bbbbb and i kiss each other as it marks Christmas!~

Night fell and all of us were super tired, Wang & gf fetches Qin, Zhang & gf home while bbbbb& i fetch Sha, Kong & Ong back. bbbbb&i were so tired we decided to abandon the chalet for the night and slept at his place.
It wasnt a waste to the Chalet cos afterall the $$ had been paid and we can no longer see them physically. Furthermore, what can be more comfortable den bbbb's soft pillow and Bertie in between us.

I was duper happy that day, though i did feel a little uneasy cos bbbb&i had a fight that afternoon, it wasnt really a fight, just me bursting into tears cos bbbb&i couldnt come to an agreement, but he gave in eventually so all was well, Thank you bbbbbbbb i really enjoyed myself that day and having you beside me in bed matters more than sleeping in the chalet just cos i paid for it. Merry belated Christmas and sorry i din appreciate the muackx before. I appreciate it now and hope it is not too late..

Note to self:- PLEASE UPLOAD THE PIC (yes Pauline, i know, i am THIS lazy... hahaha)

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

dAY 2 with bbbbbbbbbbbbbb

Day 2 with bbbbb
That morning, bbbbb was suffering for jet lag, as a result he had spent the night turning in bed, i slept well but wakes up occasionally to find him still uncomfortable. He would stroke my hair and touch my face, den apologises before putting me back to bed. He later told me he spent the night looking at my face while i am asleep, so i am glad i hadnt snore (bbbbb's definition of me snoring is when i breathe with a "SSSSis" sound... )


We woke up to the find the house empty, everyone had gone to work and his Mummy was out for a while. I was famish and bbbb offer to cook his specialty- black pepper bee hoon. I had plans to prepare the food for the BBQ tomorrow night (which was a still a surprise to bbbb) and we made our way to NTUC. He was curious as to why i had bought things in bulk but the smartypant later figure out wat was going to happen and so we spend the next hr planning togther wat was suitable to feed 10 pax.


bbbb cook me a very sumptous Black pepper bee hoon filled with egg and mushroom.. His cooking had definitely improve so the food taste really good. I wasnt allow to help out much so i dare said this was his project- solely his...


we spent the rest of the day hanging around the house, unpacking his loots, watching Alvin and the chipmunks 1 on TV.. bbbb doing his assignment, me staring at him.. talking to his mum when she returns, washing his dirty laundry, hanging them out to dry and eating with his entire family at their favourite dining place - Seletar. It had been a simple night... but i enjoyed myself to the fullest...




~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Just how many of us still read blog nowadays?


ido!!~ i update myself with some famous blogs, in addition i also read Denise's, pau's, Jamie's and Apel's- all on a daily basis.


If only more friend have regular update blog to share.. i would really love to learn about their updates via those blog.


i wanna start by blogging about the first night since bbbb return and recall all memories we share on this blog, i want all out there to know how much time we are spending together yet not feeling a single bit of resentment towards each other.


22nd Dec 2009

As arranged earlier Wang was to pick me up from my place to the airport, but due to some "unforesee circumstances" i was left to hurry my way to Changi with given 45 mins, and with one luggage (no wheels) one laptop in placement.


I had ponder about hailing a cab but it was nearing night and it was also a friday, no naturally speaking, the traffic was going to be a killer and MRT seems the only other option. Dad was worried sick cos i was carrying all those loads and he volunteer to gimme a ride but i was relunctant and i really din wan Daddy around when i embrace bbbb upon seeing him.


I felt like a superwoman carrying all that load but all was well cos bbbb finally reach Singapore again!!~

i saw his back through those window (which i have grew to hate since it also marks Goodbye), he was so skinny, had lost so much weight and loooks so fair. His cheek also flush alittle, probably due to the humid weather in Singapore. UK had been snowing so his body probably has a hard time adapting to the change in weather.


As soon as bbbb made his way out to the gate, i let him have a short "hello" session with Wang, den we hug each other for the longest time, i cried a little cos the feeling of his embrace brings back so much fond memories, which had faded a little into imagination through the short period he was away. That moment felt so real, and he was still him - in love with me!!~


bbbbb surprise me with a super huge teddy which i will post his pic up soon... Bertie (the name he was assign) had a UK passport of his own, and bbbbb later told me he had ponder about getting his passport stamped at the custom too.. hahaha. Bertie was also born on the day bbbb and i got together, surprisely, the passport expiry date was never-ending!!~


bbbbbb open up his bag a little and i took a peek into all the present, his bro later came with his gf and we all took a ride home, drop his luggage and bbbbbb drove 'Whitey" out, with me and Wang in it. We had his first local meal of Maggie Goreng and Roti prata at Jalan Kayu. bbbb and wang chat a little more before bbbb drove him home. bbbbb and i finally end the day in his more comfy bed.... he kiss my forehead as usual as we fell into a deep sleep.



... haha... i will also like to highligh about the little ensemble made in the night, do you know that bbbbbb's snore + his bro snore + his sister's bf snore combines force and create a music louder than you can scream "Hard Rock" i cant put it to words how it sounds, but you can image how loud it is when even the window grille shake a little whenever they "combined forces!!~"



bbbbbbbbb........... i miss you ALOT
~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

This is written solely for the reading pleasure of you, Mr Rodman Goh.

thank you for making me see light at every dark tunnel. Thank you for accompaning me through a short 21, follow by a 22 and finally into this 23.

Your short return in a pre-affirmitive to my pre-set determination to make us work. Glad to say through our the 2 weeks, we only had 2 arguement, and both occurs cos we care too much for each other.

Sorry to walk out on you that very day we were in AMK, try as i might it scares me to hearing you ranting on about all the unhappy thing that had happen that day, even though i wasnt the person you were ranting about. I didnt like hearing angry stuff. Thanks for not giving up on me, i believe it was Fate later that had brought us back together, cos i wasnt expecting to see you anymore, i had probably walk a long way after leaving you. Thanks for not blaming me, and thanks for squeezing my hand after you grab them again.

Sorry i had expect so much more from you on 0000am on Christmas and New Year. It must be those silly fairy tales that pollute my mind, it really doesnt matter that we din kiss right on the dot, really doesnt matter there wasnt a spark of excitment surrounding us. You were driving, you took my hand, squeeze them tight den plant a light kiss on it. Yet i blame you for screwing it all up, you didn't do anything wrong bbbb, i was wrong to expect more...

Thanks for driving past the temple and stopping by them, at the back of my mind i had reminded myself to initiate a visit to the temple tomorrow, but before thy mind could speak, you had already done it. The prayer was done, and both of us felt a light sense of relief.

Thanks for waking up earlier than me to finish up your assigment, den sleeping later than me to keep me company. I know how tired you are, but i was selfish and needed your attention more than anything else on earth. Thanks for whipping up a delicious lunch, your cooking is splendid, i can see you cooking for me occasionally few years down the road.

Thanks for chatting with Mummy while i went off to work, those hint you drop, words of encouragement were really important to me. You will never imagine how acceptance by others, your family in particular were the greatest achivement i can ever hope for. Thanks for repeating over and over again how you think i am a strong girl, you give me the willpower to want to be a strong girl.

Thanks for bringing me out with your classmates, i know this is not a usual practice and not something other guys are fond of doing, thanks for inviting me, making sure i was feeling comfortable and helping me out in awkward situation.

Thanks for often drifiting off with me into our wonderland, and coming up with exciting things we will do when i go visit you this July. Thanks for telling me your dreams and inviting me on a honeymoon that had come too soon... Please forgive me for childishly asking you if you fixed on marrying me.... you are the perfect guy and the perfect partner, if makes me melt hearin you tell me things about our future, and i want to build this future with you.

Thanks for excusing me from sending you off in the Airport, i refuse to re-enact the scene and feel the hurt of you leaving me again, i hate to see you through those glass window, hate to wave goodbye. More than anything else, i hate to realise i wasnt holdin on to your hand and waving to the others outside that window.

Thanks for allowing me to speak in silence when i had something to say, i wasnt prone to speaking up my mind, but you always make sure my thoughts were voice out. i felt like i was part of you, your voice, or even part of your brain, we are in unite.

Thanks for making decision for me, though sometimes i accept them in displeasure, i knew you had me in mind and that everything was for my own good. Sorry for being stubborn sometimes.

let me continue... when i feel less emotional

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

This is mad chio, super norm, a trend that had started some time back, and lotsa others are doing the same, but who cares.

BB AND I ARE GONNA GET A NEW GADGET,

not much explanation needed, i knew nuts shit about Canon 450D anyway, but bbbbbbb promise to be patient and guide me step by step till i am a average photographer.

He has been on a few training over the years, had a portfolio date 1996, loads and loads of his huge ass grandfather-old lens and chrome, i saw this funny looking case with loads of photographers nonsence stuck at a corner of his room, den it brought back fond memories of those times he was so enthusiastic about photography, and before you can tell him more, WE ARE GETTING A CANON450D

It was a good deal and we are collecting it tmr, i promise to be fragile with it, take aimless photos, (swap with Pauline for her polaroid pic) and let bbbbb tk it back with him for 6 months, den join him in UK for more pic!!~

so pray God tht ICBS and BHP survive so we can cut down a load of $$$ on studios rental (not an issue with BHP since Benny has a great camera)

i cant wait!!~ bbbb and i are going shopping in town and here are our busy schedule till the day he flies.

oh did i mention i enjoy bumpping around his house, lazing on his sofa, chit-chatting with his mum and sisters and just disturbing him all day long?

bbbbb's gouty is long and he looks like a streetwalker, shall uploads pic and show u guys soon enuff~~

n~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Walking in a Winter Wonderland

I am on cloud 9!!!~


If it were not for the half day work today i probably wouldnt be blogging, bbbbb and i are spending REAL quality time together, and thanks to the tiny surprise we r now ore comfortable to spend a tad more moolahs to make december a really good month.


my colleagues were right about calling me "sticky", i could very well acknowledge myself as "super glue" now. Happy happy happy, i am so delighted, so fond of him all over again.


i begin to see LDR in a different light, i reckon if bbbbb and i had to experience LDR a few more times, it would be like dating a new guy all over again.


Let me now bring u back to the moment he step out of the arrival hall, as well as the bloopers that comes along.


so finally comes 22nd Dec 2009, the midpoint between desperation and happiness, bbbbb was finally returning for the period and i just couldnt pick myself up well enuff to uphold that dignity i had inside to put on a smile, give me a tight hug and proceed.


That night, Dad was surprisely excited, he had reminded me times and times agian to set off early so i wont miss the flight. I had checked on for the flight information and was aware of the flight delay due to the transition. Then came the call from his Buddy about his stalled car along the highway, all wasnt going well and i was in tears.


Dad offfered to send me to the airport and send bbbb back home but i decline, cos we all know how difficult it is for me and him to express our fondness in front of our parents.


Grab my luggage ( i was staying over at his place throughout his extend in Singapore) and a heavy laptop and tugging with all might to brisk walk to the nearest Station, finally board the train and fell into a deep sleep cos i was so exhausted from all the anxiety today. Regret to say bbbb flight arrive before i could make it, but that kind lad shop around the terminal and waited for me to arrive to do our formal meetup.


i finally reached the arrival hall and caught a glimpse of his back, waiting for his luggage and belonging, we chat a little on the phone and he turn his back, den i saw his frail body, lost so much weight, and his white teethy smile, sorry if any of you are disgusting by this post, but i stare at his smile for a while and my mind wander back to the times we just got together, he is definitely cuter now.


When we finally meet, i let go of my belonging and hugged him super tight, we spend the next 5 min of so talking while i was in his arms, he was finally back and no amount of embarressing can stop me from kissin him in public and saying stuff i was so restricted to say, bbbbbbbbb i miss you soooo much.... welcome back.


bbbbbb took out a very big teddy and passed it to me, Bertie (the name that was given to our teddy) had a passport SIMILAR to that in UK, he had a proper DOB, place of origin as well as some minor details, the bear was born the date bbbbb and i got together=)


bbbbbb also bought some gift for my friends who took care of me, the bottomline is i had ALOT of present, bbbb 's mummy bought me lots of stuff on her recent trip to Hong Kong too,.. i was a super happy girl. Towards the night bbbb finally pass me my BBB8520, fully protected with a "girly-pink" phone cover, it was also loaded with lotsa of my favourite music, some of the video i had commented was good to keep, some mp3 and a customise desktop background. bbbb had done up all things nice about the phone so all i really had to do was to use them!!!~






i felt this mad rush to stop work today and see bbbbbb at the entrance again, he had fetch me to work this morning, ran in the rain to get me Mac breakfast, we shall be heading for our rendevouz (haha.. more like a chalet abd BBQ) with the rest of his mates later, after bbbb collect his "earnings", we will also be heading down to town and bbbb shall finally visit ION orchard, 313 building, Orchard Central, Kallang Leisure Park, Marina Barrage and all things nice that he had miss this 6 months.

Till then, more updates with pic, love you all, and love my bbbbbb the most =)


~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

You make bunny cry!!~

Yeah you did, you totally did..

-one night of unrest

-7 hrs of anxiety

-182 days of misses

-16 months of love



ranting ranting, i got this feeling if i become older i might as well sit on a rocking chair and blog, the IT savvy Granny in da hse..



scream, shout, ran around town naked! i feel all this is better than waiting...........



~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

I am in a serious dilemma, that of joy, yet filled with fear.
The clock is tickling too slow, yet i cannot complain, cos in a couple of hrs, i will be wishing it would tick slower.


My heart is beating twice as fast, yes i admit- i am scared.
I might sound so confident, but afterall, this is the first i can touch this imaginary image stuck on my mind for the past 6 month.


Running those finger through his stubby face, planting a sweet and soft kiss.
My mind is running wild, no sexual tots, so all of you please behave!~


We are gonna spend so much time together, making a closure to year 2009 a fruitful one, we will leave footprints on places in Singapore that we, as singaporean probably wont touch. He has requested i treat him like a tourist, so we will be camping out in the wild, alongside doing things i dreamt of doing since so long ago.


It is at this point that my senses woke up, alerting me times and times again the usual scent is returning, the homely scent he had on his collar bone. The same pair of hand that once took mine and since, never let go..


i m going on like a horror novel from King Stephen, but no,
this is a mix anxiety i had inside, the danger of him returning back too soon freak me out big time. As of now, i dun wish to carry too high hopes, cos afterall he will only be around for 2 weeks and i shouldnt be selfish and share this piece of delicious cake to those who wants it



~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

So there was this day where Besties and i were hopping around town and off we went to ION Orchard, i can now profoundly annouce New Look is the best place to try on clothes, snap picture of each other and still feel good about it. These pictures were taken EONs ago but i was too lazy to blog about them. Sigh!!~ Looking at this pic makes me miss my side parting sooooooooo much, gimme back!!~


Here's Sharon all grown up, our 9th year of friendship and she is growing taller, skinnier and fairer... Most irritating of all, she cant seem to stop loving heels, so i feel like a dwarf each time i am out with her




Here's my hot favourite piece from New Look. Am loving Gems and glittery details on dress, especially spreading around the cheat area. The typical "V" shape form on the dress gives the body a slimmer contour, so despite the dress being balloon-bottom whatsoever, the empahsis remains on how glamourous once look.



If you may notce, i have brilliantly match this glittery top with my current beau- a Diamante gold pump from Pretty Fit. And i got it at a huge discount *CONTENTED*



i want those fringeless days to come back sooner..!!~







--------------------- ANOTHER DAY AT ION ORCHARD---------------------
A day out with Jann to pass her the clothes she bought from BlackHairpins as well we get some inspiration together for wat to wear this joyous Season.







First stop is Ion Orchard New Look, the new favourite of mine since the staff are superbly friendly and the changing room are so spacious.











Both of us chose things we usually wear, and do a swop. It more like exchanging clothes and style tips. i learnt that day denim shirt makes very good casual outfit. And to think of it carefully, denim shirt are probably the only stuff one could wear without attracting the HR's attention in terms of dress code.

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

i am not updating my entries, backdated several events that i wanna mark it down, yet it seems blogging just isnt the top on my priority.




I wanna earn enough money to spare some for CNY clothing. i wanna pay school fees and get it over and done with, i need to work harder on BlackHairpins and claim my share of profit now that we have some to spare Phyllis.


As for itchyybackside, the cake is now share among a few of us, good things is that Pau can get all the extra help she so needs, and she can do it at her free time, any time.


I wanna disappear from everyone who knows me during this period, enjoy a very short holiday with bbbbbbb............. no disturbance, nothing in mind. Den when he fly off, i wanna spend the last 6 months of being independant doing something fruitful.


I wanna move out of the house and settle down in a quiet place to prepare for the exam soon, i wanna score and not regret paying so much $$ for nuttin.


I wan to be known, in the money market, to assist people with what little knowledge about fashion i have, and seek their support to help me through this tough time in life.


There are soo many things i wan in life, and i am breaking them down slowly, disgesting them, applying them, making them happen....


bbbbbbbb says i change during this time he went away, its like the same Kristal with some added essence, i agree with him... i am the new Kristal = the same old Kristal with added essence..


i am not taking in details that prove useless in life, such comment that means sarcasm, are not taken seriously, although many times it irks me so much i wanna slap the person who said them cos they dunno how much it irritates me.


i can feel a transition i am undergoing again, the last time this feelings comes i went from a emo girl into a chirpy one.. lets pray hard this time its way better.

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Bro's Solemnisation

One wedding dinner down, it was a super great night and yup, we have an official member now, Mrs Chng... Welcome..



I enjoyed the night, feel the importance, felt bro's joy, and needless to say this responsiblilty is mine now to take over.


Bro and sister-in-law talk to me about bbbbb tooo... most of my conversatio with everyone, i try to include him into the discussion, and invited bro to join me on my expedition to find bbbb during his graduation in 2010.


But my relationship is a complicated one and bbb never tot of marriage yet.
The bouquet was thrown, i deliberately refuse to accept the handover, cos this is a responsible too big to handle and i m not in the correct position to tk it yet.


I wish Bro and my new sister-in-law a happy marriage, and we look forward to having you with the family.


Bro says he is saving a place for his official wedding dinner for bbbbb, i hope he felt the joy too and realise how much he matters to me.. but not adding too much pressure to what he says i have already added on to him...


feeling down, could be the alcohol i drown myself into.... better log off...



~Sweet.silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Who is Pauline Kang?

Who is Pauline Kang?

i adopted SiAhPau 2 years back, even though she was already her mum's most precious, it was solely a temporary responsibility that later escalate into a friendship so close.

Pau has seen me through some failed relationship and with her we talk like no others, there were lots of times we stay up through the night, talking and gigglingg at funny tales we have heard. There were also tears, i put up at Pau's hse the first night bb went to uk, i cried through the night and Pau was there to keep me company.

The first time Pau experience a bad breakup, it wasnt me who was there for her, but thereafter, i make sure she had someone taking turn to keep her company. We went for a jog around her neighbourhood, den smuggle alcohol up her hse, hid it in one corner, den giggle and drink and repeat the process.

Though Pau can be really really hard-headed at times, she bothers to absorb wat was said, so i make sure i nag and nag till she realise wat to do...

I wont say i m that noble cos there are loads of times i require Pau's help too.

this entry is getting boring, just wanna conclude that she is part of the Kwa/Chng/Ding/Kang team now and we welcome her..

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Long Distance Love

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Blog for 6 years now

6 years have past since i started blogging, with the help of "JeRk" whom first tot me how to login.




JeRk and i are now good friends that update each other on our lives every yearly.
I cant believe how self-infactuated i am back when i was 16, reading the entries, i could have luff my ass off ay my own silliness and also feel really embarress.
embarress i could actually assume i was that attractive and note down each and every time a guy was staring into me. I had entries that beg God to make me lose weight, and entries of how i wasnt able to wear that pair of size XL beach shorts. I was a very plump butch than, the kind that acts like a man but actually wanted to be pretty like her best friends.


it has since been a history, and i did eventually lose weight, even though not alot.


There was also entries on my desparation to escape May, which was the month i hated Read the entry here



i realise that guilt and anger hasnt actually subside.. but Grandma would have been less worried about me now, cos i have bb... and i
actually brought him to visit Grandma's tomb few months into our relationship..



i know reading those entries only reminds me wat a bad person i use to be, but one shoud always look forward, its from all this mistake that i learnt.


and i still miss you Grandma

Unjustified unjustified...



i am feeling so make use of.
This feeling sucks, sometimes i wonder, why go through all this trouble where all i got in the end was a mere sum of money that, after paying school fees, does not allow room for lunch and dinner.



At that point, when i was being point finger at, the blame was on me, why hadnt i speak up? How could i? I was just a temporary, one who gets utilised to the fullest for the tiniest sum of salary.



I knew the blame was on me and i accepted that, steadily, but what really hurts was how this had all attribute to a blame solely on my part. While i had to do my job scope, the 3 most important person i was assign to, was not there.



One was on holiday, one was too sick to attend and the last one, left me alone to bleed. She did nuttin to offer her help, i did ask for help, i really did. But there wasnt enough going that had make it all smooth.



I admit i was really strong last week, stronger that i had tot, i was down with a fever, sore throat, i was coughing so much it hurts, i was "suppose" to be on medical leave, yet i was here, to make end meets.



I wanted to devote the time to doing my own stuff, really, if i could, it would has to be me above all else, but there wasnt a chance, i came, and along came all the otheer responsiblity that was threw on me, and i was to figure a way out for myself, lost and deillusionised.



the usual hours that permits me to finish my stuff was 9, yet i stayed on after that just to complete my stuff. Days after days i stayed longer and longer, even pending tots of skipping lecture, which i later put off cos each lesson cos me enough to work here for 2 days.



i finish it all in the end, but someone has to come up with new decision to alter watever was already fixed, and in the end, i had to re-do them all.. just cos i wasnt doing it for myself, i was doing it for them all.



Now that things are back to normal and it was time to submit the report. Fingers started pointing and they seems like arrow, pintpoint straight at me, i had done this i forget to do that. Everything voice down to an error on my part.



i wonder if they had stop to tink for once, that while they choose to rest at home, eat good food, i was struggle to make ends meet, to produce something with as little information as i was given. Do they also realise, if i had been given all the other task to do on top of wat was rightfully my duty, i would be able to resume work as per normal, get the meagre pay i was offer, and just allow me to rest at home and nest my fever. Den maybe nuttin would have happen, i would recover within days and not carry this bad cough with me for 4 weeks and counting.



if only, i had taken the advice and consult a doctor to get my medical certificate, i wouldnt have to take this responsibility, and get blame for something which i had done wrongly, but could have been avoided if i wasnt left alone to do other stuff instead of my stuff.



unjustified, yet i couldnt raise my opinion, i could only nod in silence while they tell me my mistake, but i know them all, i really do, just that the situation din allow me to do them correct. This is not a mistake, it was a misfortune.



Funnily, the job i had been looking forward to has now loses its appeal, cos i somehow the name "scapegoat" seems to come along with it.



hate it.... really down now.... unjustified


~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~