Finally met up the parents to dinner

Had a fun time with the man

He treat me to dinner at swensen.. that was the sweetest

Kristal looking happy..

Sister and me on the return journey from dinner

we totally look alike

happier Kristal

Sulky Kristal

Bro and Sister having a fun time on the van

Sister and me.. where is our differences?

Bro having fun

Sister and me again



On 30th January
went to school as per normal, had my project
then met the man for dinner, glad he was around, it was a very fun dinner, cos he is the SWEETEST! haha. we even concluded that that was the very 2nd dinner we really sit down and enjoy, most of them were "da-bao" and "wanton mee"
We talk bout lots of stuff, then we shop around, he also paid for the present i chose, of course something practical, such as lingerie (haha. dun misunderstand, he caught nuttin out of it)
send me home

when he left, again i was telling Dad about the sum of money he owe me
what anger me most was the fact that no one seems to be bothered by the fact that it was my birthday tomorro
I left into my room, tryign to remain my cool
then he shouted from the outside, say it was useless to give birth to a daughter
dun understand the pain of raising one up and all that crap.
i was unhappy, so called Marc to hang out with me, cos the man has just booked in.
Dad shouted at me and we had a fight, just then Jonathan call to wish me, i was in a anger and happen to press on the answer key, he heard the entire quarrel and when i ran out of the house
i called Marc to hurry down and ran to the nearest and most remote spot. needed somebody but din wan anyone to see me in this state.

Marc came soon and he accompanied me to the nearest reservoir, sat there and i totally cried my heart out, mumbling and all.
anyway lets cut it really short, the man rush out of his camp to look for me but i shut off the phone, Jonathan drove under my block and called me too. Mum and Dad called me too it was chaotic.

in the end, all of them came by the reservoir, Jon and the man finally met, it was like a rival kind of thing, but they talk things out, Marc stood at one corner, almost helpless.

As for me, i was crying la..
the night soon ended, went home in the middle of the night, Dad came into the room to check out, but i hide myelf under the pillow, cried till next morning.

so.. as for the details, better to remain unknown, dun wanna type it out, pretty hurting.

it hurts to be poor, but hurt more to be sympathise, do not show me a single bit of sympathy.
Remember those beggar who had full body? People curse them and said its not as if they cant earn the money.
me? i am very much the same, i can make money and i am earning them, this month has been bad cos i skip too much work for my graduation.

but fear not, cos by 13feb i wil start earning again.
so never never, pity me

anyway the next day of birthdya was equally, but i manage to pluck up the courage to go home.
We went to Clark Quay to have dinner, it was a celebration for me and my bro, we are exactly 366 days away, so his birthday is on the 30th jan and i am on the 31st jan.

couldn't complain much, it was a really thoughtful dinner, we end it off with a tiny cake



my pressie!! the piggy if from lakshmi..
and the ???piggy if from Celina Hai Er

my bro just need that attention/ Happy Birthday

i had the worst birthday ever.. one that makes me
cry for 4 hours till bed

one that makes me run away from home
that makes Dad cry.. for his very first time since i was born
that spoils my brother birthday
that makes the man ran out of his army
that makes Jonathan find me for 3 hours
that makes marc forget his quiz

i am in the deepest shit, and hope the birthday never comes,.
WHY!?? when i anticipate something it never came, i get so upset
but when i anticipate nuttin, and things got worst. it just sux

i hate my 20 years, why was i born? if creating family chaos, relationship problem was the only goal of surviving, then kill me.

its true, i was so poor i cannot afford lunch,
i tot he wont care, when i beg the family for money,
they choose to ignore
when i finally breakdown, so does he,
for the truth is he haven got money to eat lunch either,
so tat was what was happening at home

so my school fees was a loan from my boss
and the exam was a loan from my aunt
my dinner money was a loan from the man

God, if u still dun pity me, i am fine
but pity my family.
if u make me alive but make me suffer twice the pain of normal human
u are selfish
physically i was abuse,
now emotionally,
i tot by being 20 all was fine.
u just signal a start of misery

if u really tink having me was a joke
then kill me
i cant tk ur torturement
my eyes are running dead,
vision finally worsen to my crying
is that what u wan?

when i woke up this morning
the only thing that cheer me on was the sms from the friend
there wasn't anyone at home,
cousin bought me a slice of cake
no body at home choose to face me
for its becoming awkward
i dun even know if i should go home in a while
and create another burden for the house

i takkaire of the internet bills, so did ur hp bills
i even cover the some other bills, somehow its wearing me out
i am only 20
i feel like i have to stop school to support u
u say girl need not study so far

God i really beg of u,
end my suffering
whatever it takes
i cant hold on

i realise i wont have much chance to upload pictures like this in future

damn!1 i AM TURNING FREAKING 20!

isn't it amazing how mum and dad decided to produce a spring, then out pop stupid kristal.
even amazing is the fact that she manage to survive till date

every year on this day i look forward to so much, so this time i look forward to nothing.
At least if someone gets me anything, it became a surprise!

haha. the only thing i totally dislike about is probably cake!
why do they look so cute?

do u ponder upon sometimes do human eat cute stuff?
no! they dun.. if they do then babies can eat barbie dolls
we can da-bao dress for lunch and hair accessories for dessert/

make sense right?!~ haha..
so for my birthday.. i'v decided to go with my anti-cake petition.
but for traditional sake, the man is gonna bring me out for dinner later, i've requested for ice-cream cake, still cake wat! but minus the sponge, minus the cream, minus the calories, minus the cholesterol!

my new resolution at the age of 20 is probably
= to slim down (to a healthy 45 kg i hope)
= find opportunities to learn new stuff (such as the upcoming MOS event, i wanna help out Rena with dressing up the models!)
= get a clearer perspective in life, clear out my thoughts
= contribute more the less fortunate
= enjoy life to the fullest
= visit my grandma more.. she's lonely in her tomb la

haha.. so much to do, so MANY time! i reckon graduation seems like a relieve idea for me. Except for the lost in goal in life,

i wanna further my clarinet like i want
i wanna play more tennis
i wanna gym

i wanna fall in love.. hehe

what a 20 years=)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4uG85Oaca_o

This is DAMN hilarious, but pretty racist too.. and the tone of that fellow sounds like one of my friend- Uncle dennis gigg

Anyway nuttin has been happening to me to worth any blog.
Only thing is i am beginning to get pretty sick of the man msg me and calling me like non-stop per day. sometimes i wish i could shut the phone off..

i am not being rude here or what. But sometimes when u really need to seriously concentrate on something, such as studying for a major exams that might determine the rest of ur life, sometimes u just wish to be left alone, if not at least sent something of relevance.
I can understand the man know nuts about the subject i am studying, he provide me with the utmost support. With msg every 15 min containing stuff like "i have confidence in you, u can do it" , "dun study till too late k? still need plenty of rest", "dun forget ur meal", "dun study so much, tk it step by step"

Guys it gets pretty nasty sometimes , supposedly the msg already contain ur well-wishes, dun keep sending cos in no time it gets really really boring.. and somehow it slowly turns into something rather irritating.

B, i appreciate him for being the sweetest, we gave up sunday times together to accompanied me to study. He cameup to my house, bought lunch for me, my bro and him. we ate for awhile and i carried on with my study, and he simply sat by a corner, sometimes disturbing me by twirling my hair, sometimes whispering something stupid by my ear.

When i tot about it, he is so so so sweet. haha, and he bought me potato chips and snack to eat thru my studying time, a pity i ate little of it, cant affod to put on weight for new year.

thought this silly lad can be so so so irritating sometimes, he agree to it too. He is one of the sweetest thingy on earth. I've came to agree that he watches out the tiniest details of me. There was saturday where he and his bestie Darren treat me to eat at Xing Wang cafe, then we almost went for a movie but there wasnt any interesting one. So he had to sent me home (as usual). then he will slp with my bro while i slep in my own room.
Then without fail, the man will sit besides me, staring and starin hard, sometimes covering me with blanket, sometimes adjusting my pillow and very very often stroke my hair. and he had to do them so gently cos i am a very very light sleeper. Only till i fall into my deepest dream land can he proceed to my bro room to enjoy his sleep. Then he will wake up every very often again to drop me visits.
Hahaha... not that i dunno, i mention i am a very light sleeper,, haha. but i pretended not to know cos too sleepy to care. Then next morning when i woke up, he and my bro will be sleeping like log. haha. its really cute watching 2 of my dearest close one sleeping like pigs.

and while i am writing this... the man called
the man:"hellow..... "
me: "*giggling at him for being yet so irritating again* what do u wan AGAIN this time?"
the man:"lalala.. no la.. miss you.. no choice wanna hear your voice.. sorry.. hahaha"
me:"crazy u silly boy"
the man:"haha// yeah heard ur voice// okok.. bye bye*hanged up* ....."

okokok... this sillyboi really gets on my nerve.. wanna keep him till no tomorrow.. hahah..

Wanna talk about someone really special tis study period.
Tan Xue Shan

she's been the SWEETEST this study period.. and here's her msg all of a sudden today
"Kris, if you got ani problem on java, feel free ask to ask me. dun everytime so paiseh. Gambatek=)"
i was SOOOO touched... it is SOOOOOOOO sweet
thank you!!! Lah!~
i can imagine her as someone sneaking out of somewhere, dressed in tigh fitting tops and pant, with bikini on the outside, and just running to any rescue when she sees danger

xue Shan, Xue shan.. when i was younger i often ask myself if people are smart will they be friendly too? Those so-call smart people i know of dun and never took notice of anybody.,.
but Xue Shan is different la, she is a combi of intelligience and emotion.. totally IQ and EQ high k? She knows how to feel for others too. She deserve a muackz, on her
- cheek
- forehead and
- on her ass

hahaha
i love you k?



Some really random pic

flower on my head

me

my stupid leg..

study

studying

wrote on my msn
"call me sexy.. haha.. ok la.. say i tink too much"

and i receive an handsome amount of comment, of which all makes sense
many ask me "sexy.. nah.. u tink too much"
others simply post me the question "sexy.. where???"

haha.. it took me some effort to look through my current pathethic collection of photos on the computer to realise!!! its true, i haven been sexy this life!

our definition of sexy? watever is that? characteristic?
i tink sexy is:
- tone is sexily low with a bit of sore throat effect = mine sounds like tweety Bird
- boot are equivalent to body= mine is way not
- cleveage are close place together in a comfortable zone = forget bout mine
- eyes are sleek with thin edge and dark eye liner = i fake my eye
- pose with face tilt 45degree to one direction, let ur cheek bone protude = where is Kristal's bone
- fingers are long and sleeky = Kristal's chopped off by half
- ass is firm and "qiao" = mine's falling off
- lips are like Angelina Jolie = -.-"


so u can say, i might as well delete the 1st part of my nick and remain it as "u tink too much"
let see what other fun i can gain out of these =)

marcie pokie peck me home!!!!

tot about it for some time, decided to reveal a secret of a girl
a girl i dun really like, but dun dislike either
her room is horrible..
but oh well, i manage to tk a good shot and intro them to u
haha.. that girl i've caught is Kristal

infortunately, that girl's me
and here we go



at one corner of my room, totally hidden by the staircase of the Bed, are my "Barang"
as u can see, some of my usual stuff are here
-Hello Kitty pillow are bought by mum, din use it cos its too hard, there are 2 of them thou, if u notice on the left of the pillow is another lighter pink tissue sofa, it a miniature Hello Kitty tissue sofa where i put my tissues
- Tennis stuff include that VERY BIG bag B bought for me, i kept all my tennis stuff inside
- please kindly ignore the 7-11 plastic, they are B's stuff


on my bed,
- i use 2 pillow to sleep,Kristal dun use bolster
- i hug my Hello Kitty to slp, B bought it for me
- thats my favourite bedsheet, very girly
- my sister insist we paste a pic she drew, we'll change the pic every once a year
- we only paste those Glow-in-the-dark stars around my bed, it makes me sleep sweetly
(reason why Kristal dun use bolster = when she was small, she din understand why pillow and bolster are made in different shapes, then it took her a while, during puberty, to assume bolster was to train hugging your husband when u get married, she hates the idea, so since then stop using bolster)

- i have a sliding door cupboard, my sis and i have lots of clothes, so we hide them behind close doors
- we hide our cosmetic product behind close doors too
- the tiny closet on the right is use to keep my books, will burn them all after graduation
- one bear is hanging there, bought it in a flea market, turn the bear around, and i stuff all my hair accessories inside them, thats why bear's tummy looks huge


-pictures hanging on wall
- DKS poster made my Denise darlin
- love the poster
- Hello Kitty photo frame on the right are photos of my entire family and my family
- baby head is a poster with a motivation "if i can do it, u can do it too"


-taken while standing at room door
- an overall of my room
- bed is double-deck
- love the organ, another portable organ stack on top of it, but covered in sunflower cloth


- photos hanging shelf build high up
- contain photos of my dearest
- one glass shelf on top to put my Hello Kitty collectibles



- This is the most unique - Glass shelf
- daddy hang it up all by himself
- daddy put mental sticks and glass pane to make them
- hang my photos and Hello Kitty collectibles
- also display some of my bikes collectibles


- staircase by my double deck bed
- the 2 words "tennis stuff and kitty pillow " are explain in the first pic
- one bear is mummy vintage bear, she has it since she was 18
- i use 2 blankets
* Why did Kristal use 2 blanket? = one blanket was made by my late grandma, the one i love the most, the other one was a gift from Uncle's funeral,
The one that Grandma made is silk, use them on hot weather
Uncle funeral one is filled with wool, use them on cold weather
btw, it makes no difference cos i slp in air-con room

oh well, just shuddup

i guess i am done introducing my room? haha.. sounds a bit boring i know, bear with it k? its always good to know some one better. and in this case, Kristal is a TRANSPARENT person.. so she has nuttin to hide.

show my secret cos i have nuttin to hide
if u tink i am someone with more than what i appear
u are wrong
i am just like that, sometimes i look mysterios
actually i am only tinking
but i dun do too much tinking, and many people know what i am tinking
if i ever look secretive to you,
truth is, you are guilty, cos u assume i know your secret.

Some Happenings

for some strage reason, cupid played a trick on me that day
and if it hadn't be for my clear miind, i would hav almost tot i had became attractive overnight
you shall evaluate

that day
was in the worst state of mind, preparing to go to work, needed that extra push by getting intellectual. So what did i do?

with my bag on the right, a bottle of water on the left, some fingers holding to a wallet, and another hand in to hold on to the newspaper, i juggle my barang barang and rush up the train station to catch the train.
finally caught a gush of wind for breather, i board the train and started reading the paper. i guess i must hav been so engross i din even notice people were staring at this stupid gal.

Anyway got off the train, scan the card (after struggling to get it out of the bag), rush thru the tunnel, stop by to donate some coins, rush somemore to far east;. FInally reach work

walk up to level 4 to get my lunch, saw this really strange guy, familiar. walk on, stop to buy drink for Jean, the strange man stop me

"Where do you work exactly"
"huh"
"no la, i notice u since u board the train"
" i work downstair"

cut short, he left first, i was still shock. Anyway rush back to level back to the shop, he happen to be at level too.

"Let me walk u back to your shop"

we walk on and i show him to my shop, he happen to be a hair stylist at the other end of Far east, asked for my number..
gave him my e-mail instead

chatted for a while, exchange number, we are sms-ing now.

what are the strange thing?
- he was born in the year of snake, thats makes him look like 29
NO!!! HE WAS 2 ROUNDS MY ZoDIAC, he is 42 yr old
strange thing is he really look younger la.. but watever..

told him i had my own eye-candy, told him bout B, my man.. haha
thats all

we are still msg now.. but at least i have made my stand. Told B about it, naturally he was damn angry.

The other incident
ok the day that man talk to me, that night Jonathan actually pass by my shop, i notice but hide myself. Anyway at the end of the day, he boldly walk in to shop, drop a lunchbox for me and a cup of drink and left.

damn strange happening. his msg says :"notice u've been busy the whole day, can tell u din eat, so bought u dinner"

-.-" my gosh, he's been eyeing me since God knows waht time.

told B about it, he was FUMING mad

what happen the end
msg Jonathan and remind him bout our promise not to contact each other again, B was grateful i did that, Jonathan replied that he understood.

i hope this will not affect B and me

anyway my man is away in TEKKONG!!!!!
not missing him, dunno why, been too engross with my school projects,, graduation is in less than 45 days..

keep counting

seriously dun understand what's the big deal about this show call "Prison Break"

iknow i can say much cos i haven actually watch one episode at all..

but when people starts saying this show was all special and all, i begin to really disagree. In fact the nicest show i've collected is this film call "The L word"

And in case u are interested to know, the "L" word here simply refer to "lesbianism"

the whole show is about lesbian, but lesser of the sexual way, it talks about the depth of lesbian, the true meaning of falling in love.

We may disagree to the idea of girl falling in with girl, despite the fact that we are all living in modern, 21 century world. Yet at this point, on the other sideof the world, there are real people who seriously love each other, despite the gender, they can even figure out ways to make the other spouse pregnant so the "family " will not discontinue.

the story in particular talks about a young girl fresh out of grad, ready to visit her boyfriend and stay with him, find a job and live life together, She came to realise a while later that her "neighbour " next door of her bf are lesbian, and one hot butch with loads of gf. The story then venture into her finding her true self, slowly losing her interest for sex with guy.

Eventually she was approach by yet another elegant lady who reads her mind and intellectually, took her breathe away, it didn;t tk too long for her to realise she's really, a true lesbian. Out of sadness and guilt for leaving her bf, she left the country. Thats goes Season 1..

haha.. the show is truly amazing..

heyy guess what u stupid dumb dumb..

i wanna confess..
- yes its TRUE that i seek help from others, infact alot of help from others in DOING THIS PROJECT.. but guess what? i finish up the project all by myself.

tell me which idiot can come up with a whole book of codes store in their back of mind. Mind u that before i even begin doing my project i dun even noe wat the meaning of debugging was.

this holiday
- i freaking went to school EVERY DAY except public holiday to do my project
- i thicken my skin to ask people around for help
- i dig up my books to review them over and over again
- i disturb the leader over and over again to make sure my logic was on the right track

the fact is, Chng Xien Shen, u freaking finish up ur project very fast because u happily took the SAME part u are doing in the previous project. Which means, every thing else is the same except for the connection, i DUN SEE WAT IS SO SPECIAL about UR part for u to be saying others.
In fact, i did my part, i took the INSERT, DELETE, UPDATE coding from others but i USE THEM OVER AND OVER again in this project, and guess what, i use them more than once, ALL BY MYSELF, tell me u dun tk others code?

The shameful thing is just last ITIPJ presentation when u were presenting ur this part, the teacher was not even interested in looking. I WAS THE IDIOT THAT PUT IN GOOD WORDS for u so that the teacher award u more marks for your so-call SEARCH ENGINE,

NO, i am not affected, i am typing so much cos i PROMISE i will curse u here. So i hope u will grow fatter till 85 kg.
i know myself, Honey was right, sometimes i dun need to prove anyone anything. I know how much i put in, i know the hard-pain-staking cold nights that i stay up to finish up other project, then FULLY concentrate on this EAIPJ project thereafter.

i have nuttin to explain, its true that others help me out alot in this project, so i thank them. And for those like u who tinks i am merely copying from others.. suit urself.

i do not believe that last semester i manage a grade B because i "copy" others. If thats the case, i believe the the teachers are too stupid. Somehow or rather, they hav eye to judge right from wrong, dont u agree Mr Chong Wei Zhe fatty bom bom?


there, i've curse u enough.. shall last u for a while till u turn 85kg.. then i will add on the curse.. what do u say to guy that mess with women like Kristal?


" Good Luck man"

-=Having.Fun.With.My.Man=-

New Train
i manage to grab this chance to take a lil' ride around Singapore Town in this TOTALLY awesome new train from SMRT.
Here's why the train TOTALLY comfortable, i manage to tk a few shots that will make u go "WOW"
The main comfort belongs to those who had to stand while on the train, remember those time u have to keep ur grip firm on those handrail and pray hard u wont be swap, "molested" or grind by some mathafucka?


Fear not cos the new train handrail are on 2 ends, that means both u and that mathafucka can now hold on to their individual handrail, his buttock will NEVER touch, UNLESS of course another idiot choose to act stupid by standing in the middle of you 2. Then he must REALLY be an idiot.
Anyway the number of seats are also minimise, and the length of the seat is shorten, so now those standing up have more room and move about.
The middle 3 sits are in lighter shades and the 2 other sits on their left and right are in darker shades, like the one i took. so now u can jolly well tell ur friend "i am in the last cabin, on the darker chair on the left" makes life easier right ?

GUYS BEWARE

haha.. this is especially to guys like Chris..
There is a man, currently at large, commiting a VERY VERY serious crime - raping. And very often his target are the unusual --- man!!!!

He is a black man, aged between 18-21, and his target are of all sizes. This case happen in Texas and HE STAND TO GAIN. Why? Because all stupid man that fall into his trap refuse to come front to admit they are one of the victim, just to avoid being recognise as the failure.

Why guys? For ur face? !!!!! He's pointing at u with a knife.. why else can u do u idiot?

Seriously if i am one of those guys i will come to front and catch this mathafucka.


My past
As many of u are already aware by now, so its no big issues. I am a victim to once-a-very-serious molesting case. The rape-abuse-molest serial fucka has already been caught, and i hav been a very very lucky gal to recover from this nightmare.

But i will not afford to let any one else get away with it. This cannot be. i vow if one day something evil as this happen to me, for my safety reason, i will not hesitate to attack him.

i admit and have recognised myself as a experienced victim to sexual harassment. And despite some situation and truly unavoidable. there are many other situation where we can avoid being targeted.

Recently a working colleague came to me and ask
Wendy:"heard u are staying in 757 yishun?"
me:"yes i am"
Wendy:"i use to hang around that area till one incident"

it was then another case of sexual harassment came into light. Which make me very very scared.
Wendy had a bf that was staying around my vinicity then. And very often, she and her sister will meet up her bf under his block.

Once Wendy had a tiff with her sister, out of anger, her sister ignore her and walk 2 blocks away from her.
It was no big deal to Wendy as she is familiar with the route, then all of a sudden, she past by a block (which i am not going to mention which one, but its one road away from mine, so its like a 15 steps away thingy) and Wendy saw a dark figure facing the red pole use to contain water that is situated near the corner of a stairway.

The innocent Wendy couldn't figure out what that shadow was so she took a few steps backward. The dark figure was a Indian man mastubating himself. Wendy shouted in fear and it alert the Indian man. The dark man, ran down, use both his hand and all his might tried to pull Wendy up the stairs.

here's the thing gals, i did an experiment with my classmate Honey that day, she was pushing me backward when i tried really hard to struggle myself free, the TRUTH is, IT IS POSSIBLE TO BE PUSHED FORWARD BY THE PERSON IN FRONT OF YOU FOR A LONG DISTANCE, FROM ONE CORNER OF THE LAB TO ANOTHER!

Wendy was dragged half a staircase up till she subconciously, and out of fear, grab watever she could catch hold of and bite into it really hard. The lucky thing is that, she manage to bite the dark man into letting go.

Eventually, Wendy was running down the stairs while the man continue to give chase. He finally gave up when Wendy started shouting for help. Wendy did not report the matter to Police for fear her parent learn about her having a BF.

TOTALLY OUTRAGEOUS!!!! I cannot allow this to happen any longer. EVen the tot of biting into an arm that had just been used to masturbate makes me SICK!

wat is the world coming into. Oh Lord why did this sicko exist/// i need an explanation. people pls tagged.. thanks

emo--ing

with the man

Dear gals, photos are available at www.flickr.com/photos/90078127

had real fun.. Holiday was finally recognised. However this also indicate the need to lose some weight before Chinese new yr arrive. I was doing a well job, dropping from a mean 58 kg to 54 kg.. and now thanks to Merry Christmas, i fall back to a terrible eating-too-much crisis..

Won't the rain ever stops?

i wanna swim in the ocean blue chlorine.. wanna tan under the glaring sun

however, whilst remembering those time i pant away while making my way to school, those days where the sweet and nicely done make-up smudge due to the perspire, somehow or rather the idea of having those hot summer seems to drift away.

been SO many nights spent with the man. He's been the sweetest, and if it hadn't been for the book-in, we would have spent more than 3 days and nights together. The attention received, ever so ready to attend to me.. makes me so special..

*thanks. its been so so special a Christmas, and i wanna spend the rest of my christmas with you =)

Spring Cleaning at the Wee's house
i was in this really strange mood to want to clean up the man's house that day. And with the help of the lazy boy and his ever so friendly dad. We manage to throw half the room of content away. That will total up to 3 boxes of old newspaper, 2 boxes of old magazine and loads and loads of old bags.

wat makes the whole event interesting was when his Dad had to rattle on and on again about the issues of cleanliness in the house. He told me that was no point cleaning up the house as he gave up doing so more than a century ago.

imagine a pail of clear water turning into dark, sticky black water, and if u ever place ur hand in, u can retrieve it out with chunks and chunks of dust all over ur hand.. totally gross.

I also clean up the rest of the room and change many of the plastic bag they use to put away their CDs. That was probably the worst part as the plastic bag had faded colours and a heavy layer of dust on them.

Also, while throwing away his collection of antique bags, i chance upon a very interesting Mao-Zhe-Tong series bag, only to find worms (actually silverfish) all over it. It makes me jump and the man has to giggle his way to the toilet, then fill a pail of water before stuffing the whole bag into it just so that i can use it again.

i love the new room, now there is room for everything else. The man plans to get a bed pretty soon (he is currently sharing a bed wit his dad) we will also hang up pictures of ourselves and doll up the whole room. The only thing i really hate bout the room is the wall colour, which is a VERY dull shade of pink. We bought a big cushion so he could lie on it to play his game.
*totally love the achievement, especially the teamwork=)

My christmas prezzies
- a water dispenser (those mini ones)-- from eRaine
- a minnie mouse towel -- from Jean
- chocolate and Swensen treats -- from the Boss
- skinny jeans ( yet to get) -- from the man
- hairband, really nice black and white -- from Jamie
- PINK mouse.. love it -- from Xinyi
- expensive chocolate -- from Si jia
- hello kitty hp pouch, notebk and more -- from Xue
- photo frames -- from Jann
- Ichiban treats, TCC treats -- from Darren
gosh.. cant remember the rest.

bOught a couple Havainas for me and the man. what really interesting was the trip to New Urband Male..
Clar and Pau angels needed to get gifts. we shop at 3 different NUM to get 3 pairs of Haivanna, only to finally realise we should get more for our love one. So we visit the 4th shop, where there are plenty of guys to serve us (er-hem!) and knowing that we are planning to buy FIVE pairs of Haivannas, treated us like princess
here are our demand

- change Pau initial bought sneaker
- change my initial bought sneaker
- get 3 more pairs of sneaker
thats makes change 2 get 3 more sneaker order. We even had guy modelling for us which pair will look nice on our man.

haha.. clar angel manage to get us a 20% discount off the total bill, thanks to her poly-card. We also get a NUM membership card each. So lucky right? Anway after that i heard if u know anyone who works in NUM, u can get 50% discount// damn -.-"

thats ok.. i am a NUM member now.. hehehehe.. bleahz

more cousin pic at

www.flickr.com/photos/90078127

love my cousins.. it no wonder we were envy since young. Its a unexplanable bonding. And we dun do that to show off.. i love my cousins alot.. and they love each other too.. most impt is, we ALWAYS stood by each other side when either one needed help.. - even stupid help.

one such example was yesterday, where we were foool by cuz to meet up, tinking it was something realy impt. turns out it was to shop for a ring with her for her BF.. gosh!! anyway Ray and i did our best.. and i am telling u the ring is B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L

it like really huge and stunning. we tried it on Ray and it looks good on him. a Pity he dun wear rings.

Anyway i cant tell if it was the clothes i worn yesterday or my hair? but i felt absolutely stunning, like the amount of attention i received were-- more than mere. Hehe.. thanks (pics for u to judges la)

but guess wat? i only like my B

anyway holidays a dread, it feels so draggy, and every morning i wake up with the same mentality in my head, "get the project over and done with.. pls!"

Today was a great achievement. all thanks to Apel Yap and Tan JunLin.. There are realy some people born with the IT brains, and i am one of the exception. But yup,thanks cos without their help i wouldn;t have get this thing goin (after being stuck for 3 days la) My shopping cart finally moving!

And then i met JeRk after project, he has this GF which i seriously doubt and worried for. She is born on the same day as me, 31 January so u can say we have absolutely same taste on stuff. JeRk needed to get her a present and we went round shopping for it.. in the end he paid a handsome $155 for a pendant really nice.

it was a pendant that Xue has too. a heart shape diamanete pendant witha very very nice necklace. i took one photo of it.. will upload it soon

then B and his campmates happen to have nights off at causeway point. and so we met up for a while. Then we shop around the area for a short while , did some chatting.

(btw i told him communication is important for 2 person, it not about guessing and hoping u Bingo on wat the other wants. )

He sent me up my house for steamboat. That poor fellow had to eat a whole lot more food cos i cant finish them. Mummy keep asking him to eat despite his BK earlier.. haha. so much for trying to get into my family's good book

Anyway he left while i was bathing, says he receive an urgent call to book in immediately.

tired.. going to bed. nights

the only thing my ah-ma computer is capable of doing now is

- see youtube (after 15min download of a acrobat flash player)
- watch video (after 20 min of realplayer download)
-use ah-gong version of msn (damn !@#!#@$@# old msn version)

and i cannot
-hear any sound
- use any nudge on msn
-open any microsoft office ST program
-DO ANYTHNG

hate IT.. (total random poem)
doing project seems so useless
those little whats left of my expired brain juices
just declared their surrender to the meanie curses

report and project, with codings and paragraphs
are what i am breathing, no smell and no senses
i see something that i know i CAN get enough
those aimless ABC, i feel they're so worthless

when people go clubbing, or shopping at far east
we nua at some computer lab, typing till we're piss
when sunshine guy go tanning at the Sentosa beaches
we give it a miss by staring at our comp languages

When guys deserve some good gurls,
u know u cant find them
they're busy flirting with nerdies,
to save them from failing

when we need help from tutors
u noe u cant find them
they're busy planning gong xi fa cai
and escape the ang pows

when u need the computer labs
u noe they're not open
for school bill u by electricity
holidays' out of the question

when u finally declare dead
u noe u're never finished
cos even those brain cell,
wont spare u the justice

so after the semester,
no one wanna see each other again
at least not wearing the same Poly tee
and scanning our attendance

for Lord i cry out, come tk my soul!
no u shall not go, till ya done with ur coding
for i will not spare u, even in heaven
u shall be incharge for Database for angels

p/s TOTALLY random, TOTALLY freaky poem.. i dedicate it to all... let all pray in the name of the Lord.. Amen..

This will be useful in times to come =)

dear all, if u needmy help regarding writing a certain article for some project .. pls let me noe =)


Business Ettiquette
Many of us dun understand the importance of maintaining ourselves and grooming ourselves to the fullest. i shall state a few example;

one example
there was this day i was dining at a with my boss at a well-known hotel with good food, great ambience and needless to say - more than 1 set of fork and spoon to perform the "operation" on.

On my right was a decent couple tempting on the steak, slicing the medium rare part bit by bit and carefully placing the sliced meat on the fork before popping it into their mouth (not popping literally!)

on my left was a another couple sipping coffee, and stirring it with a lollipop-looking stirur with brown sugar on it.

Our order arrived ( a green sandwich) and my boss and i had to be carefull with the food as we are sharing one huge plate together. The strange part is there were 2 fork - one bigger and the other smaller. There were also a butter-spread knife and a steak-knife. Obviously the normal human will use the steal knife to slice the bread before each using our hands to carry the bread and bite into them--- U ARE WRONG!

As my boss begin to slice a bit of the bread using the steak-knife, he uses the butter-spread knife to slice a bit of the margarine before placing them on the bread. he then carefully spread them well before passing it to me. This mean i was to do the same and i did so with panic.





Why are we not prepared to handle situation like this? Does the every-day hawker centre develope the habit of just eating straight from what we see in front of us?

i was not happy, i din wan to be a laughing stock ever again should such incident happen.

and the fact is i cannot actually
-hold a chopstick the correct way
-brew tea like a traditional woman
-enjoy fragrance of a cup of tea
-correct if crossing the spoon and fork means "i am done with my eating" or "please leave me alone as i am not done"

we all know one day this willl came upon, just dunno where. I felt there is a serious need to develope that bit of etiqutte in every one of us. Just enough to handle
-wedding dinner
-dining at exquisite hotel
-coffee by a cottage style cafe

with a knowledge in doing all this. we will then sieve ourselves a level higher from others. It just did,, dun ask me how.

i hope i am convincing enough for the world to take action.. hehe..

Building Love

For that unproclaim sacrification u've made

For the unspoken love u've given

thanks for the ever-cherished first-time's

Love my today, it will be on my mind for a LOoooooong time

Morning
the man brought us to Guan Yin Temple, he is FiRST man to bring me to Guan Yin Temple each time i feel insecure, Dad advise us to too!~ =)

We then walk to Sunshin Plaza when his Dad intro us to try the Dim sum there, too bad the dad cannot join us (he got MahJong Khaki la).
*dim sum was fantastic, apology for i cannot finish the food - as usual.
he was the first man to bring me to Dim Sum

We bought Chee Cheong Fun for Denise, delivered it to Simlim

We stupidly bought an umbrella and choose choose choose until rain's over, but we bought it anyway =) (first man to choose an umbrella wit)

we head to the SO-HOT Arab street to buy parts for accessories (first man to shield me with the umbrella, call up 3 friends just to make sure we are walking the correct way)

we tour Arab street and he bought me a Vino bike model figure (IN TOTAL LOVE OF IT)
first man to buy me a >????? TOY!~?

we walk back to bugis street to shop for clothes

we bought sun shades..

we walk to Ps to play arcade

we took train back home

we quarrel

we apologise

we are happy =)






Gosh... i've began to resign to fate that this man is the one.
haha.. the feelings just so right. He has everything in the world i wanted, and i so want him mine.

Simply cant wait for May 2007 to come, which is the agreed date to start a serious relationship, and stop calling him a "future potential Bf-to-be"

so damnass funny when his friends and us were talking about this date, they even came up with a stupid idea to each find their partner by then, just so to hold a buffet dinner and invite friends and family!! Damn.. u all jackass! Its not a WEDDING DINNER!!! just a really really memorable day to symbolise

-1 year of action to proves his sincerity
-start of a no-ending relationship
-1 year of apology for any hurts he has caused onto me.

The man told me today that if God ever take this whole relationship away, he will just die..



........... Dear God
forgive me for i've been let astray too many times
forgive my sin for those impossible fantasies i have of others
Sorry for making a really false moves, and thank Lord i've mended my ways

(i hope, after the present, thou without explanation, u'll go ur way and i'll go mine. I've found the right one =) i hope u too.. Good Luck )

I pray the future to come, will always be
those unselfish prayer i whisper to you this morning.

i'm sorry..

Dear all, pictures for Singapore Discovery Centre available at
http://www.flickr.com/photos/90078127

Here's where u find BF.
one who earns enough to bring u to thailand end of fall
one who brings u to at least Food court
one who pays for ur phone bill cos he msg u too much
one who gives u free passes to Singapore Discovery Centre

i wanna find an ang-moh here, who cannot speak chinese, so when i curse him when i'm angry, he noes nuts

then he will tink by splurging on me i will like him, ACTUALLY i prefer the free passes to Singapore Discover Centre more

hahahahha!!!! duhz! National Education, wa.... how exciting, we walk into SDC, saw a VERY big globe, at first it was in

red- i told XY it looks more like an ovary to me, waiting to be fertile, there are find streams of lines on it, i explain to XY those are sperm trying to win this olympic, to come up with a new species with more hair, 1 less eye, 2 more sets of eyebrows.

Then the globe turn green
then yellow

ya ya ya.. even ovary cannot change colour la... -.-"

Then Mr Marc came to initiate a talk.

Mr Marc :" you are not with ur friend?"

Me of course:" ya, i am !!! they are here! ( i turn to my right-- empty!.. fucking embarressed)

Me of course: " they WERE here... (finally saw XY flirting with 182, see she's still around -.-"

Mr Marc:" i see.. dun u find this trip boring?"

Me of course: "no, u dunno how to appreciate eh?" (fucking stupid again, tell me which monkey on earth appreciate staring at a Merlion singing song?)

Mr Marc:" ..........."

Me of course: (fucking shameful) got to go.. i am catching up with them.. (ran off like a idiotic hippotamus trying to catch the ostrich)



Lao tian ye!!!!!

At trip to the salon, changes is minute. but feeling inside changes alot, alot. Cos from then i learn some thing i did for some one is so strange, like i really wanna change for that some1. gosh. A feeling undescribe. kill me

Never ever buy from Hula&Co
This is a very bad experience and shall mark my last purchase at Hula&co.

Try imaging this, u have a sum of freshly earn pay, decided to get a pretty pretty Victoria secret style spag from Hula&co, pay a handsome $30 for it

it is damn long, those kind u can wear a belt with, then a very shorty shorts, and u worn it out, all frsh and nice, everyone tot it looks pretty cute.

Then u wash it after that, next day u bring it out!

what the Fuck did i see?


the STUPID top was shrink to half the length, FREAKING HALF THE LENGTH

colour colour FUCKING RUN OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1st WASH ok!

!@#!$#@%@#%3

i curse hula&co.