i didn;t post this before.. written before our wedding

你们没看到的。。。

是他在我最最最堕落的时候并没有放弃我，还坚持握着我的手忍泪带笑的说很快就会更好
是其实强颜欢笑背后的我，自尊心特别强，也顽固的狠。没得到最好的结果我会自责很久

是他带着一群女家蒋到陌生的环境旅行；看到她们的玩的很开心感到安慰，就连自己忘了替自己计划娱乐也无所谓

是我忙了一天终于可以洗澡休息，从浴室出来只看到桌上有一碗热乎乎的快熟面；和一个更累的他

是每周末一起过的我们。无论我多用心早睡，也比不了已经早醒的他，把肮脏的衣服放进洗衣机还泡了一壶很香的咖啡，再跑回房间装睡直到我醒来可以第一时间看到他

是守着手机，痴痴等着我一张“我安全到家了”的短讯的他。还有满口脏话，非常生气骂我到家没传短讯害他担心的蚂蚁（热锅上的那种）


~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~

Stay with me wont you?

i dislike the feeling of breaking into cold sweat & my heartbeat skipping many beats whenever i took a break off work to think about the advance steps i've taken so far.

In a matter of weeks, i've put down most of my savings, took a serious loan from the Hub & gotten myself a mini car. So excited!!~ and so flooded with worries, safety on the road, braking power, how to afford this new toy & the main purpose of them all - how to use this car to serve my new role at work better.

i know  i haven blog for a while, when life gets dull then i stop penning them down. You see, i read back on my entries every now  & then to amuse myself. So i want every entries to be re-readable worthy.

So here's marking the halfway milestone of my resolution in 2015.

i recall in 2013, i make the resolution to fix my crooked teeth for the wedding & got myself a driving a license. Fortunately - unfortunately- the plan took me longer than i would have planned. By 24mar2014, i successfully gotten my driving license & survived many heart attacks from driving.

i didnt get to drive much thou, after a few stints of nearly risking the lives of my love ones.. i think i cried a bucket after each close shave & encounters. The one man to sit through it all is the Hub, who is in the passenger seat in EVERY of my bad encounters. 

Around Jan 2015, i buck up & borrow the car from my parents, told Hub i need to do it myself. Drove to airport fetch Clar & D & took them home - and that was it!~ 

i think we all need that one push on the back to buck up, and i am glad my friends gave me that support. Not that i am a very safe driver now, but i will work super super hard to be one. 

i think Rodman is such a selfless man when it comes to my welfare. As far as i can remember he has been improving the standard of our living & my life by the day. Sometimes i forget to look back on the bad days in life & demanded more. Rodman keeps me in check & i know he dont say this much, but i have probably exhaust all his patience ever since we got married! 

I am a demanding & selfish person as it is, and i know where all my flaws are. Yet when it comes to benefit myself, i spare no change & cannot settle for less. I guess i married the right man because he has been trying & trying to talk me through everything that i wanted to do. As much as he hopes he can continue to send me to work, i went ahead & wanted to get a car anyway. There is no comparison on the things he can do for me, and i appreciate them all so much. 

We've been married for 3 months now, seeing each other everyday proves to be easier than i thought it would be. For years, i make extra effort to cut down on our dates & meetups for fear the day where we see each other everyday things will go wrong. So far, apart from the nits & bits of unfamiliarity i've experience away from "home", my new "home" is as long as he is there. 

Moving on to new job scope has been the 2nd greatest challenge since 2015, apart from starting a family as the first. i think i like the feeling of being busy becuase i haven stop my motion for a while now. Wedding-- taiwan -- business trips with Hub -- buy a car -- planning more business trips -- newjob scope - Bam, bam,bam.. its this then that then this then that and i am running on vpower engine.. 

Somedays i'll look back & recall how i went overboard with challenges when i turn 28, removing myself from the norms & throwing myself out there to the male-dominated industries, if i keep my spirits high & positive, stay with me wont you?

~Sweet.Silly.Stinky.Sleepyhead~