Damnit,... i was chio before!

Blessed Pauline! she is almost at her porn-legal age!


Dear Rodman Goh, you are my next best thing to strawberry cornflake, sweet+refresh+energise+ and simply loved.



i am tired.




Pau says"
a is thank you so much for spending and taking the effort to organise an outing in name for my birthday (: thanks for the dress, i really like my first maxi even though i realise i gotta alter like 5 inches but i still love it, and more so, i love you to death as my closest friend, super grateful to have you for me to whine, slap, punch, hang out, do nonsense, beunglam.
hope it isnt too mushy for you but you know what i mean la huh,thanks for being my friend, my closest one(:
and you better stick w me for 10,000 yrs thanksssss hahaha"





oh and i will like to officially announce -- "we are not lesbian, bi, crooked, butch nor T(whatever is T, raymond)

i wish i was never that strong, always wish u could look at this beneath the surface.

hate reality, hate things that tells me fairy tale are not true.

Why cant i live in my world? Why cant i still hope for that prince? who says there
isnt a man out there that perfectly fits the missing puzzle.

why does money buys me clothes?

why do food makes me full?

why must human alter themselves so others can be satisfy?

why is a musician born with a special talent for music?

why does chef have a sharper taste bud?

why does strawberry taste so good with chocolate?

why isnt a person born to perfectly fits the other person.

i am exhausted...

its so hard to believe how one words i refuse to use all these years can be freely spoken, be told to anyone i met, to all who cares and some who dont.

"yeah... oh my bf... i love him"

"what what? not at all.. cos i love my bf more.."

and the more extreme scenarios

"soup is tasty, but i love UK more... "

"check out those legs... bet they cant find the love i did.." blah blah..

my bottomline is, this guy is amazing, cos i find myself talking about how it still feels so fresh, one year into the relationship, and with him so far away..
More amazingly, i dreamt of him so often..

i cant say i am totally at ease we will end up marrying each other (even though that tots has been on my mind since day one) but we are talking about our future togther and it sounded really nice.

sick or poor, fat or slim... till one says we part..

nuttin much to rattle on my life about.. besides Pau's new job, which i totally totally envy.. shall do a details bloggin when she settles down..

mid four, high five, low five later....................................

scream, tears, quarrel, cold war later.......................................

present, money, wallets, bags, jacket later..............................................

its just down to one word that we are together, strong, as strong as ever..........................

as long as we are together, nuttin else matters, i love my man. My man loves me, we fight but moments later we are still us.................

bb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lao wang bring his gf to thailand..........

hai............... i am alone in singapore.....................

jealous--- yes super very jealous. i miss those days i am pampered