Sharon and me working together...... her first day in Ooo.baby

More pic...... we cant get enuff of it!!!!!
Me in the bathroom!!!!!!! before bathing, after a tired day at Ooo...baby!!!
I look so nice!!!~ Totally drooling over this pic!!!!~ i have grow up
in the van with mum..... Decided to go check up her office at the sane time study for my finals
My Bro, showing off his Kung Fu!! Catch Kung Fu- old master Gary!!!!
Yum Cha....... Diam sim!!! he gobble even the plates and bowls

i am who i am, i change myself to the way i wanna to be....... i am a gothic and funky me....... and no one gonna change it till i grew tired of me myself...... hehe......... very happy today......... in another way is a rather selfish kind of happy...... Del and Terence got out of CJC... i kind of feel happy cos i choose to leave school earlier..... but at the same time hated myself for not trying..... Sam gotten straight to J2. Congrats!! i really feel happy for you.. just that i didn;t tell you how happy i was...... Amanda and i for get who was goin to retain in J1 and half of the class gonna take sup paper to determin if they get to promote.. all the best t 13....... i didnlt get the chance to make but i sincerely hope you do......
Had been mugging this few days for examination.... night was fillled with thoughts about how he use to acc me....... this put me to bed...... in the morning i got stuck to watching TV and eating..... afternoon is studying....... hopefully after exam i will get more work schedule....... so i can earn more money........... my aims:

1. treat Darlin Samantha to a wonderful meal, she was there when i hadn;t got any money to spend, and i appreciate her for her support
   
2. buy Darlin Cuz Vivien something, cos Cousin(CUz) was always here for me 24-7....... Lubba lubba my cousin........................... i really wanna spend all money on you
   
3. hold yet another Big D.K.S outing........... Denise Sharon and me, not just working together,,,,,,, hanging out together............ just you gals and me
   
4. this is the lamest aim, which i dun think sitting around can get me anywhere, i just need him........ don;t think he will even realise my presence........ any fairy godmother around???!?~?!~
   
5. hmm............... i think i am contented ..... as long as pple around me is happy with the money i earn, it;s all worth it
   
6. oh ya............. my "SPECIAL" friend's movie and dinner and night out!!!~ hehe........ i hadn't forget wo
   

ya..... money is not a important factor in life....... now during this studying break i have not a single cent left in my pocket..... i am a big spender,......... that why when exam is over,......... i will work crazily!!!!!!

continue again........ i;m tired

so many days has past, so many working days i've done........ so many days of missing a person so hard, so many days of falling sick
Was sick for the past few days, cough, sore throat, running nose, ulcer on the mouth, what more can a person ask for?!~ Luckily friends show their concern,,...... Eric has been so heartwarming nice....... so glad to have him as a friend, some one i know i can tell my secret to and no one will know besides him..Eric is a nice guy, he will find a nice gal where he can truly care for..... i know he can;t see my blog... but i really want him to know that knowing him is part of a blessing to me. but all this 5 yrs of knowing him i know what kind of a innocent guy he is. Eric, dun tell me you like me, we are always friends and will always be..i am not any pretty gal, i dun have a good personality, you deserve some one better..
Jek Sheng msg me a few days ago, till now i';m still glad at the fact that i see through his true colours, and luckily all this 8 yrs of friendhsip had been only friendship, luckily his crush on me did not move me..... anyway i was real mean to him, Eric say i should stay generous and just thank him when he msg again... feel so free again........
Anyway i've been thinking so much about him, didn;t take the courage to call him anymore, perhaps this is life, i took it for granted when he was around and now he is not, i regret... i keep giving myself encouragement that perhaps the next upcoming occasion he will call me again....... maybe that will be on my birthday, maybe he does not even remember my birthday anymore........ haha, maybe this feeling now is only a rebound feeling, maybe i will find a new better guy.
Pull sharon into OOO...baby, perhaps i am too close to her so we can't really work well...... so i guess the next time she works will be the day i dun work.........
Exam is coming........ gotta stop blogging for sometimes......... maybe not too....... depends......... study for my exam...... score a good marks, and start enjoying my holidays..... thats the kind of life........
miss my cousin...... miss tennis........

the past few days has been consider tired and full-blast.!!! its either working or studying, or else it;s exam and testr...... now that exams drawing, haizx.......... really need to fully-stress myself it's high time to study!!Yet at e same time there are pple that are simply taking life too easy! if only the whole world gets busy at the same time, maybe God can create humans to be stress-free, but in that case than ppl wil be lazzy... so in conclusion , God is fair, humans are selfless!!!~ i earn money i spend them,...... not even realising it.!! things happen fast this few days, somehow i cant help but realise i am the only one whose life looks and sound so normal and dull....... if anyone were to come up and ask me how's life, my answer will most prob be: "pretty plain" i;m telling the truth fool!!! haiz......... life;s lidat, i need to do lotsa stuff, buti;m planning to leave them till after the finals.

The same question is being probed over and over again....... i;m feeling the urge too, its not that i'm not trying too?!~ but there;s no response,........ i;m just a gal, i dun have the courage and energy to do all this by myself, if only you understand,......... anyway i think you never will........ cos i;m just shy lidat, now and till the time you understand you might never know i ever feel this way...... stop bombarding me with all this, worst of all you not a single inch realise what in the world is happening......... you are living in ur own world........ dun forget me........... i wouldn't know how to handle that...........